My name is Zhang Shanqiu.
The bow is long, the peaks of the mountains, the autumn of autumn.
When I was young, my parents once told me that this name means "many mountains and autumn colors", and it seems that the place where my parents first met was on a mountain full of autumn colors. Although I didn't quite understand it when I was a child, I also felt that it should be a very beautiful scene.
I am the third eldest in our family, with a brother and a sister on top, and a younger sister on bottom. But maybe because I was weak and sick, my parents always took pity on me. Since I was a child, I seldom do dirty work, and my brothers and sisters love me very much. I tightened my belt and insisted that I go to high school.
At that time, not many people were willing to send their children to high school. Most of the children choose to study technology in higher vocational colleges, and they can even be assigned jobs directly after graduation. After finishing high school, if you fail to enter university, the job you can find may not be as good as that of a student who graduated from a higher vocational education. Including my older siblings, and even my younger sister were not so lucky to be able to go to high school.
However, I did not let my parents down, carrying the entrustment of my parents. After graduation, I really worked hard to get into a normal university, and later successfully became a middle school teacher.
I still remember at that time, when my parents saw me, their eyes were full of joy that couldn't be hidden. Everyone said that their daughter, Zhang Shanqiu, was admitted to university and became a teacher, how much she looked good for them, and when she spoke, her face was filled with pride and joy.
Yes, my name is Zhang Shanqiu. When I was young, I was so proud and proud. The time when I just graduated was the peak period of my life. Everyone looked at me enviously, and even the mother of the child would say, "Look at your aunt Shanqiu, you will also be like an aunt in the future. Same, did you hear that?"
However, my life is not as smooth as I imagined after all. God seems to have suddenly withdrew his favor and sent me into the karmic fire of hell.
When did that start...let me think.
Ah, yes. It started when I met that man.
It started with meeting that man named Wen Jiubai.
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"May I have your name?"
The man had bright eyes like obsidian, a high nose bridge, smiling lips, and long hair in a shawl. This is the first time I have seen a man with long hair, but he is not feminine at all, and he is still heroic.
At that moment, I could barely say my name.
"Uh... Shanqiu, that, Zhang Shanqiu."
"Shanqiu." He chewed my name carefully as if savoring something, "Shanqiu full of autumn colors?"
I looked at him in astonishment, but he just smiled and left in my eyes.
That man is handsome, mysterious, and surprisingly knowledgeable. I once quietly hid at the door of their classroom and eavesdropped. Wonderful poems and words continued to whisper from that mouth, like the sound of nature.
I'm just an ordinary female teacher. He stood at a height that I couldn't reach. I didn't even dare to imagine that he would take a look at me.
However, fate is such a trick. It happened that there was a point of intersection between me and him.
I still remember that night, the skunk was running around in my bathroom, I was screaming like hell, and he was laughing, pulling me in his arms and covering my mouth.
His touch seemed to have magic power, and even my heartbeat was throbbing with his body temperature.
"Okay, it's all right." His voice was low and soft, and his slender, bony fingers pointed at the little thing moving around, "Look, it's nothing ghostly, it's just a skunk."
I looked terrified, "The skunk is scary! It's going to drop that super smelly gas bomb!"
"It's okay, it's okay, as long as we don't get close to it, it won't—"
Before long, the skunk suddenly turned its back on us, and a puff of gas rushed towards us.
"Wow! Help, it stinks, stinks, stinks!"
"Open the window, open the window!"
…After that, our lives intersected.
Many times, I lay in his arms, I looked at him, but felt that I was never in his eyes.
"Do you love me?" I whispered to him.
He didn't answer, just squinted his eyes and looked into the distance.
"Have you ever loved me?" Every time, every time I get a chance, I ask persistently like this.
"You know my answer." After asking too many questions, he just smiled lightly. The morning light shone in his eyes, giving people the illusion that there was actually love in them.
But the fact is that all the good things are just my short-lived fantasy.
At the beginning of the second year, Wen Jiubai left Beining. Before he left, he didn't even send me a text message. I chased and asked several colleagues, and finally caught up with him before he got on the plane, and asked him out of breath.
"Jiubai, why are you leaving? Why didn't you tell me when you left!"
But that man just stood there and looked at me silently, his pupils were like the abyss of hell.
"Why! Have you ever loved me?" I shouted heart-piercingly, which attracted the attention of many passengers in the airport.
But he didn't give me any answer, just kept silent, and just left like that.
After Wen Jiubai left, I couldn't eat or sleep well for several months. My spirit was so sluggish during the day that I could barely support any work, and I made frequent mistakes in lectures. In the end, I was politely dismissed by the principal on a rainy day.
The family's attitude towards me has changed a hundred and eighty degrees. Needless to say, my brother and sister, even my younger sister, who has always been respectful to me, has started to criticize me from head to toe like an adult.
"Sister, do you think you can do it like this? If you lose your job, you will lose it. Where can you find such a good job now? You are already twenty-six, and you haven't talked about a serious boyfriend yet. Don't you see that my brother has married such a beautiful wife? Hasn't my sister's marriage been settled? You have nothing to do, and my parents have complained to me many times. "
As long as I am at home, I can definitely hear different people complaining in my ears.
"Shanqiu, my classmate's relatives introduced me to a boy who is a soldier. He is very nice. Would you like to meet him?"
"Shanqiu, how can you do it like this? Did you ask for a job? Did you find it?"