A person who can't bear to hurt even a small animal, how painful it is to see so many people die because of him. He was trapped in a depressed mood, and his guilt would only get deeper and deeper, until he was swallowed by darkness.
Lin Feilu held his hand, as if trying to give him warmth and strength, but quietly asked him: "Brother Dahuang, do you think that so many people would not die without you? "
Lin Ting was still in tears, looking at her with wet eyelashes.
Lin Feilu said: "Without you, there will be others. There will always be someone who will stand in your current position and become the most important piece in this power struggle. On the contrary, it is because you are now in this position. It’s you, that prevents many things from happening and many innocent people from being implicated."
Lin Ting stared at her blankly.
Lin Feilu said earnestly: "If you change to another person, even me, you can't be as kind as you. I won't hurt myself for others, to protect myself, to live a better life, many of us are unwilling Whatever you do, you will try to do it in the end. But you have not, Brother Ting, until now, you have kept your inner principles and kindness. Because of your existence, many people have Avoid it."
No one died because of you, but because of your existence, many people were saved.
Lin Feilu's remarks actually have a secret exchange of concepts, but they are also true.
Replaced by any other person, he might have been on the united front with the Ruan family a long time ago, fighting for the crown prince. The harder the fight and the wider the spread, the more people will die.
All this was controlled to the smallest extent because of Lin Ting's silent resistance and prevention.
Lin Feilu stretched out his hand and gently wiped the tears from the corner of his eye.
Her fingers are still the same as when she was a child, soft and warm, just like her voice at the moment: "You can feel sorry for those who have died, but you don't have to feel guilty about it. Because guilt cannot change anything, nor can it change everything. Better. Even if you want to redeem your sins, you have to live to redeem them, right?"
Lin Ting looked at her beautiful and gentle eyes, as if she was back in her childhood.
Every time when he was forced by his mother and concubine to do not know what to do, when he was so anxious that he only knew to wipe his tears, Xiaolu would always help him find a solution wisely.
She has been so omnipotent since she was a child, he not only spoiled her, but trusted her more.
As she said now, he didn't seem to feel so uncomfortable anymore. It seemed that a ray of light came in through the darkness, allowing him to breathe.
There was a rush of footsteps outside the courtyard, and when I was inside, I heard a fierce voice outside: "My Ting'er is awake? Ting'er!"
Immediately after the door was pushed open, Concubine Ruan walked in hastily. As soon as he entered the room and saw Lin Ting sitting on the bed, he suddenly cried and rushed towards him, and took the person into his arms.
Lin Ting hadn't been hugged by his mother for a long time, and was stunned for a while.
Concubine Ruan Gui cried and said: "Ting'er, I'm sorry for the concubine, the concubine should not force you, and the concubine will never force you anymore, and the concubine will not stop you anymore. Son, my child..."
Lin Ting was a little at a loss, and looked at Lin Feilu on the side as if asking for help.
Lin Feilu had to say: "Manny, the emperor has just woke up, and his body is still empty."
Concubine Ruan quickly released him as soon as she heard it, but she still held his hand and wept, until Lin Di entered the house, and she could not stop it.
When Lin Ting saw his father coming in, he remembered to salute, but was stopped by Emperor Lin. He looked at his eldest son with complicated eyes and cared for a few words about his body. At last he sighed and said with pain, "What do you do to practice yourself? Ordinary people know that it is better to live than to die. You are dignified Prince Dalin, yes. What must be solved by death?"
Lin Ting lowered his eyes and said nothing.
The imperial doctor came in and reported the condition, and learned that Lin Ting was innocent, and Emperor Lin and Concubine Ruan gave a few more words before finally returning to the palace.
Lin Ting learned how long he had been slept, and how long the deer stayed here. For a while, he was moved and guilty, and said to her, "You also go back to the palace."
Lin Feilu crouched and said loudly, "I don't! I'm going to look at you here! What if you drink that kind of grass again, oh yes, where did you get that thing? I want to go. Kill the person who gave you the medicine to death with cramps and skinny!"
Lin Ting couldn't help laughing.
When he smiled, she also smiled.
The two looked at each other and smiled for a while, and Lin Feilu suddenly asked him: "Brother Dahuang, now the imperial concubine is not forcing you, you can live your own life, what do you want to do?"
Lin Ting was stunned, as if thinking about it seriously, and finally just shook his head: "I don't know, there seems to be nothing I want to do."
Even if Lin Feilu secretly changed the concept, he is not as guilty as before, but the depression cannot be resolved in a few words.
After so many years of persecution and torture, the darkness has entangled his heart like spider silk, making him feel depressed and bored all the time. Unless those spider silks are completely removed from the roots, he will never change back to the Lin Ting he once was.
Lin Feilu had friends who suffered from depression.
The night before, they were happily dancing together in the bar. The girl laughed louder than anyone else, and danced more happily than anyone else. The next morning, Lin Feilu received news of her suicide by jumping from a building.
Those emotions are pervasive, even if you smile at the first moment, you can cry at the next moment.
Then in the dead of night, I will kill you.
Lin Feilu's fingers under his sleeves formed into fists, and he could feel his pulse beating when his fingers were pressed against his palm.
She pursed her lower lip and curled her eyes: "Brother Dahuang, you heard me tell the story of Guo Jing and Huang Rong today, do you think it sounds good?"
Lin Ting nodded: "It sounds good."
Lin Feilu asked: "Then do you want to experience the life of the rivers and lakes of the sword, light, sword and shadow of joy and enmity?"
Lin Ting was stunned: "Huh?"
Lin Feilu squinted his eyes and made a long-thinking expression, his tone suddenly became deep: "Hey, you don't know, in fact, my biggest dream is to be a chivalrous chivalry. I have followed Guifei Xi since I was a child. Niangniang is practicing martial arts, and she will never give up practicing martial arts in thunder and rain, isn't she just to fight the sword one day!"
Lin Ting followed her words and asked, "So?"
Lin Feilu held his hand very happily: "So, Brother Dahuang, would you like to walk the rivers and lakes with me?"
Lin Ting didn't speak for a long time.
Lin Feilu has already begun to imagine: "We can take a stage name called Brainless and Unhappy! When we see injustice, we draw our swords to help, rob the rich and help the poor, punish the evil and promote the good! From Kyoto to Jiangnan, and then from Jiangnan to Saibei Look all over the great rivers and mountains, step on the yellow sand and green water. When you are thirsty, drink, hungry, eat meat, when you are sleepy, you will sit on the ground and take the sky as your bed! Companion with the world!
It's not good, almost sang it out.
Lin Feilu shut up in time.
But his eyes were still shining, brighter than the stars in the sky, looking at Lin Ting with expectation and enthusiasm, waiting for his answer.
After a long time, Lin Ting finally burst into laughter, and said with a smile, "I agree with the others, but what are the lack of mind and unhappiness?"
Lin Feilu: "Hmm, if you don't like it, I have something else." She blinked her eyes and asked very seriously, "How about Ultraman and the little monster?"
She always likes to say some very interesting things that others don't understand.
His fifth sister is the most beautiful, kind and interesting girl in the world.
Lin Feilu also laughed, and then stretched out her little finger and shook it: "Then let's talk about it? Pull the hook!"
Lin Ting lowered his eyes, for a while, slowly stretched out his fingers, hooked her seriously, and said softly, "Well, that's it."
…
Without further ado, after Lin Ting woke up, Lin Feilu stayed in Prince Qi's Mansion for two more days. He watched him take medicine and eat well, and his complexion improved a little before he finally returned to the palace with peace of mind. After returning to the palace, he went straight to the Hall of Yangxin.
Just after taking a nap, Lin Di languidly sat on the soft top to watch the memorial. He smiled and sat upright when he saw her running in, and patted the position beside him: "Sit here."
He also ordered Peng Man to get her favorite snacks and her favorite crisp tea.
It’s always said that Xiao Wu is the little lucky star of the palace. This is really true. I saved the prince before, but now he has saved King Qi. The Emperor Lin really likes it more and more. He said to her: "After the beginning of spring, I intend to give you a gift. A title."
According to Dalin's rules, only princesses with great merit can give titles, otherwise it is based on rankings, such as the first princess, the third princess, and the fifth princess.
In Lin Feilu's generation, or even the previous generation, no princess has been given a title. This is a great honor. Although Lin Feilu did not make any achievements, as far as she saved the lives of the two princes at the time of life and death, it should be said that she has done a lot, and it is not a violation of the ancestral system.
But Lin Feilu didn't understand this very well. He thought it was a very common thing to give titles, so he nodded: "Okay, what title do you want to give me?"
Lin Di pondered: "You have always loved flowers. I see that you have loved to grow camellia in the past two years. The green camellia in your flower field grows the best, so how about giving you the title "green tea"?"
Lin Feilu: "???"
Lin Di pondered alone: "Princess Green Tea, this name is also very smiling, and it seems to have the fragrance of tea."
Lin Feilu: "..."
I suspect you are connoting me.