Feng Zheng sent private messages to Jian Mingxia on Weibo several times, but Jian Mingxia ignored them. This time she was really chilled.
Maybe she has no position to question Feng Zheng's choice, but people have their own tempers, things they don't like, and if they watch too much to make them upset, it's better not to watch them.
In the past, she knew it in her heart, but she still couldn't see it through. This time, she thought she should really let go. It's because of her friends who have been friends for more than ten years.
But having said that, after Feng Zheng called, Jian Mingxia still chose to connect.
Feng Zheng asked: "Why didn't you reply to my message before?"
Jian Mingxia said: "I've been too busy recently, I may not have noticed."
This is a lie that both of them know to be a lie. Feng Zheng was silent for a while, and said: "When are you free, come here and get something from me. I won't go to Lixiang's wedding. You can bring me something for her." .”
Jian Mingxia thought for a while and said, "Okay, I can do it after get off work, but will you be at home?"
"I'm here, are you coming today?"
"Ok."
After finishing speaking, the two had no more topics to talk about. Jian Mingxia said, "Then I'll go to work first."
"See you."
"goodbye."
There is a sense of distance that can be felt personally, especially when a person is no longer hiding.
Don't doubt it, she did it on purpose.
Jian Mingxia deliberately showed indifference and alienation, not because of anything else, she just wanted Feng Zheng to notice clearly.
Women are always very narrow-minded, the same for love and friendship.
After work, Xue Liyan came to pick Jian Mingxia home. Jian Mingxia told him about it and asked his opinion: "Would you like to go back first, or go with me?"
He asked amusedly: "What do you say?"
Jian Mingxia pursed her lips and smiled: "How do I know, I'm not the roundworm in your stomach."
He turned the car around and told her with his actions what his choice was.
Jian Mingxia wasn't surprised, he didn't follow, so there was a problem.
Arriving downstairs in the community where Feng Zheng lives, Jian Mingxia said: "You wait for me here, I will be down soon."
Xue Liyan said: "Okay, call me if you need anything."
Jian Mingxia thought to herself, what could be the matter, it was just going upstairs to get something, but he didn't pour cold water on him, he was just worried about her, although he was a little too worried.
Jian Mingxia is no stranger to Feng Zheng's residence, and she has lived here for a few months, but these few months have worn away her sisterhood with Feng Zheng.
It was a coincidence that Jian Mingxia came here, Feng Zheng was alone at home, and the house was still the same as it was before, and it seemed that there hadn't been much change in the past few years.
Jian Mingxia was sitting on the sofa in the living room as a guest. She bought this sofa, but it was too big, so she didn't take it with her when she finally moved.
At first she took care of it as a foothold. She thought it would be her home in a foreign land, but it turned out to be someone else's love nest.
Feng Zheng looked good today, with heavy makeup on her face, she looked very glamorous, she sat on the other end of the sofa and asked Jian Mingxia: "Do you feel that nothing has changed since I left with you?"
Jian Mingxia shook her head and said, "The house is old."
Four years later, the new house has become an old house.
Feng Zheng looked at the aging wall, but didn't say anything more, she asked: "Are you in a hurry?"
Jian Mingxia shook her head.
Feng Zheng said: "Then let's talk."
Jian Mingxia nodded indifferently, and she sent a text message to Xue Liyan, telling him that she would stay for a while before leaving. Xue Liyan replied to the message to say that he knew, let her chat slowly, don't be in a hurry.
Feng Zheng got up and poured a glass of orange juice for Jian Mingxia, and when he came back, he said, "I read your Weibo post, are you with Xue Liyan?"
Jian Mingxia was not surprised that Feng Zheng would remember Xue Liyan's name. Feng Zheng used to go to her house to play, and occasionally met Xue Liyan.
Jian Mingxia nodded without hesitation: "We're together, if you want to preach, forget it, I know what I'm doing, I'm sober, at least now, I don't need anyone to remind me, whether the choice I made Correct, I know it."
Feng Zheng looked at her helplessly: "You are still like this, no one is allowed to question your choice, willful and domineering. But I don't want to tell you this today, what I want to say is, in fact, about four years ago, Xue Liyan sent you a text message to confess his love, but you forgot to bring your mobile phone when you went out that day, so I refused for you."
Jian Mingxia frowned: "You shouldn't hide it from me, and you shouldn't make decisions for me."
Feng Zheng said flatly: "I know, but I'm worried that you will really accept him and that you will get hurt, so I dare not tell you."
"Whether you will get hurt, whether you want to accept it or not, that's all up to me. You hid it from me, and even deleted my text message records. Don't you think that's a bit too much?"
Feng Zheng asked: "We want to see each other like this?"
Jian Mingxia's tone brought out a bit of annoyance: "It's not a matter of seeing the outside world, but you have always been like this. You don't ask my opinion on anything you do. Obviously I am the person involved, but I don't even make decisions. No rights."
"Are you mad at me for not telling you about it?"
Jian Mingxia said: "I am indeed angry, but not because of this incident."
"Really? I know you well, and I know what choice you will make. You are blaming me, aren't you? If you had known earlier, you could have been together earlier, but Jian Mingxia, you clearly know that this is A road with no results, why do you choose to go on?"
Jian Mingxia said displeasedly: "Don't use your self-righteousness to judge me. I accept him now, and whether I accepted him before is a different matter. The time is different, and the result will be different."
The clay figurine was also very angry, and Feng Zheng was also irritated by her. She sneered and said, "This is just a lie to yourself. As long as you are not blind, you can tell how much you like him, and you will reject him? Jian Mingxia , At this time, you still have to deceive yourself?"
Jian Mingxia's face also turned cold: "I lied to myself, I found that you are really self-righteous."
"I'm self-righteous? I don't know who it was. I texted a boy who was five years younger than me all day and all night. You told me you didn't like him? Do you think I would believe it? Don't be funny, everyone You are no longer a teenage girl, you know in your heart what it feels like to like someone."
Jian Mingxia pursed her lips and looked at Feng Zheng without speaking.
Feng Zheng also looked at her indifferently, and said indifferently: "I thought that after so many years, you should calm down, but in the end, as soon as he approached, you fell into it again? Do you think you did the right thing?" decision?"
"Jian Mingxia, do you know how old you are this year? You are twenty-seven, how many times can you fall? How long is the shelf life of his love? Take your last chance in this life to gamble on a possibility, you should say you are stupid , or are you naive?"
Jian Mingxia took a deep breath and said, "Don't act as if you know everything. My question, what you said clearly and logically, and your own question, can you see clearly?"
Feng Zheng twitched the corners of her mouth, and said mockingly: "Why can't I see through, I know I'm being stupid, so you don't need to emphasize it again and again."
"I know I'm being stupid, and I'm going to keep on being stupid, what should I say to you?"
"Are you calling me a bitch?"
Jian Mingxia stopped talking.
Feng Zheng continued: "I know what you think of me, I don't care anymore, really, I don't care at all anymore. Anyway, whether I live well or not, that's all my business, you just need to stand on a high ground , just use your lips, and the only person who really cares about me is myself."
Jian Mingxia asked: "You mean, my back doesn't hurt when I stand and talk?"
"Isn't it? You seem to care about me, but what do you really care about me? Have you stopped me when you saw me being mean? You didn't, you just chose to walk away, so we have no position to blame each other .”
"Feng Zheng! Are you not guilty of saying this? How did I tell you? I told you since you fell in love. He is your roommate's high school classmate. A boy often calls his high school female classmate. Isn't that true?" Maybe there was no ambiguity, but in the end you cut off his high school classmate. I told you at that time that he was not a boy with a firm personality, nor was he a good romantic partner. Later, when you fell in love, he didn’t consider you at all. , Didn’t I persuade you? How many times have we quarreled about this matter? You had an abortion, you quarreled and got drunk, when was I not by your side? You’re saying this to me now, are you willing to say it? "
"Yes, yes, you care about me very much, so why did you leave? You said you were my best sister, so why did you leave me alone to fend for myself." Feng Zheng said, with tears in his eyes. tears.
Jian Mingxia's eyes were also a little red, and she said: "Don't you know why I left? You said you live together, you live together, have you asked my opinion? This was my home, not someone's hotel!"
"If you have an opinion, you can raise it. What does it mean to just leave!"
"Didn't I say it? I've said it many times. I said it's not suitable for you to live with an outsider. How did you tell me? You said it's okay, you don't mind, yes, you don't I don’t mind, but I don’t mind. I mind being your light bulb, I mind being called a little wife by your boyfriend every time I go out to play, how cheap I am, my house is taken over, and I’m called a little wife.”
"You are always so serious, that is a joke."
"Yes, I'm so serious, I just have a bad temper. You haven't known me for a day or two, why, haven't you understood me yet?"
Speaking of those things, Jian Mingxia was still full of resentment.
"I understand, Jian Mingxia, you are actually the most cold-hearted person, do you know that? My father is bankrupt."
Jian Mingxia was stunned, and asked belatedly, "When did it happen?"
Feng Zheng said numbly: "Before you moved out, I told you not to move, at least not now, but in the end, you still moved out."
"You didn't tell me!"
"But you still left when I needed you the most, so I told myself that in this world, only I can rely on myself. I know that Jiang Jie is not a good husband candidate, but what can I do, I There is nothing left, and all my youth is spent on him, if I don't hang on to him, what else can I do?"
Jian Mingxia murmured: "Even so, you can't make such hasty decisions about your life."
"At least he loves me with all his heart now. I don't have to worry that he will dislike me. If I leave him, what kind of person can I find? My mother has been pampered all her life, but now she is helping others to pay off their debts. How dare I let her come again?" Worrying about my business? This is the way I will be in my life. "
"Jian Mingxia, for my wedding on January 12 next year, if you still consider me a friend, then come over and have a drink."
Jian Mingxia finally couldn't hold back the tears.