Little Tail: Are you asleep
11:51.
Jian Mingxia looked at the time, covered the phone, and decided to pretend that she was asleep.
Little Tail: If you haven't slept, can you open the door for me? Something was left in Hsinchu Park before, and I forgot to give it to you.
11:53.
After reading the text message, Jian Mingxia continued to put the phone aside.
Little Tail: There are still six minutes until the end of Christmas Eve. Can you open the door? I know you're up, even if you're mad, but at least let me get it to you before the day is over.
Jian Mingxia sat up from the bed, scratched his messy hair, told himself "he is too noisy, you just opened the door to shut him up", hypnotized himself for a while, and then put on his slippers to open the door.
After opening the door, Jian Mingxia did not let the other party in, but blocked the door, and said to the man outside the door with an unhappy tone like being woken up: "Where is the thing? Give it to me quickly, you are still quarreling with me at such a late hour." , I'm so sleepy."
He handed her what he was holding.
It was a big pink apple that was half the height of a person. The doll looked delicate and cute, holding a small apple in its two green leaf paws.
Jian Jie Xia doesn't like anthropomorphic dolls at birth, she thinks dolls that are too human-like are a bit scary, and when she meets its eyes, she will feel creepy, but she likes dolls of other shapes very much, especially the furry ones. It may have something to do with her personality. Jian Mingxia never received a doll from her parents when she was a child. They may think that she has a wild personality, like a boy, so they don't like dolls.
But Jian Mingxia is still an ordinary girl after all. Whenever she celebrates her birthday, she always looks forward to receiving a soft and cute doll, even though she never asks for it. So when Xue Liyan handed over this cute doll to her, she couldn't bear to refuse, looking at the doll's cute and stupid eyes, Jian Mingxia felt her heart softened.
She deliberately complained to him: "Everyone sends edible apples, but you give a fake apple."
He asked, "Don't you like it?"
Jian Mingxia snorted and didn't speak.
Xue Liyan looked at the thin pajamas she was wearing, and said, "Go back to sleep, don't catch a cold."
Jian Mingxia stood still holding the doll.
He pushed her in and reached out to close the door: "Go."
Jian Mingxia stood back and blocked the door, saying, "I'm hungry."
In fact, she didn't eat much at night, she started to eat a little barbecue, ate a leg of lamb with little meat, and digested it after walking, and then she didn't eat anything, just ate some fruit, which he seemed to be eating. something.
So it's not a lie for her to say that.
Xue Liyan thought for a while and said, "Then you go back to your room to sleep, and I'll buy you supper."
"I want noodles, but I want poached eggs." She seemed to feel the cold, and her hands holding the doll tightened.
Xue Liyan picked up the wayward guy from the ground, changed her shoes, and stuffed her back into the bed.
Jian Ming Xia Shuo blinked at him under the quilt.
Xue Liyan pushed back the hair that blocked her eyes, and said to her, "I'll cook noodles for you, remember to put on your coat first when you come out."
Jian Mingxia said: "No soup, I want noodles."
"knew."
Xue Liyan went out to cook noodles. Jian Mingxia rescued the big apple in her arms from the dustproof bag, and studied it for a while. The hair of the big apple is made of no one knows what it is. It is very soft and feels good to the touch. Jian Mingxia poked the little apple that was exactly the same as it, and found that it was hard inside, as if something had been put inside.
Jian Mingxia searched, but couldn't find an opening that could be opened, so if she wanted to know what was inside, she had to cut open the little apple. Jian Mingxia naturally wouldn't cut it, she touched the outline of the things inside with her hand, it looked like a small square box.
What will it be? Is there a crystal apple in the box
If this is the case, then it is really a small apple hidden in a big apple.
Jian Mingxia decided that when the doll got old, she would cut open the little apple and see what was inside.
Xue Liyan doesn't know how to cook, and he doesn't intend to spend time in the kitchen. In his mind, neither he nor Jian Mingxia can know how to cook, as long as he can find a cook who suits Jian Mingxia's taste, that's all. Then they spend their time in the kitchen doing something else.
But he has learned how to cook noodles, and the two of them can only go hungry without housekeeping.
According to Jian Mingxia's request, he made two bowls of noodles, each with a poached egg that was slightly golden in color, which made people feel very appetizing.
When Xue Liyan took the noodles out of the kitchen, Jian Mingxia had already put on her pajama jacket, and was sitting on the sofa under a blanket, waiting to be fed.
Seeing Xue Liyan coming out with noodles, Jian Mingxia said, "Just eat here, I don't want to get up."
Xue Liyan gave her a bowl of noodles, and the two of them sat on the sofa with the bowl and ate the noodles. The bowl containing the noodles has a thick bottom, so it won't be hot when you hold it in your hand. He seems to have expected her laziness.
She seldom hides anything from him, or forces herself to do things that are not in line with her liking, what she is in private is what she is in front of him.
Younger women will choose to hide their bad deeds, while older women will choose to expose their shortcomings. The former expects love to be perfect, and the latter refuses to be hypocritical.
It is impossible to tell which is better, which is just a different standard for women to measure feelings at different times.
Jian Mingxia will not find a boyfriend who dislikes her personality and hobbies, even if that person is Xiaowei, she is not willing to suppress her nature for him and become a stranger to herself.
When eating noodles, Jian Mingxia likes to eat the noodles first, and the poached egg last, because if the noodles are not tasty, then at least the poached egg can cushion the stomach.
She is also like this today. She ate a few mouthfuls of noodles and found that the taste is not bad. She doesn't have too many condiments at home, not even monosodium glutamate, but she only uses salt and soy sauce. Xue Liyan also made a good taste.
Xue Liyan had been watching her eat, and was relieved to see that she had a good appetite.
The amount of noodles is not much, and the two of them finished eating quickly.
Xue Liyan took the bowl back to the kitchen to wash, Jian Mingxia got up and brushed his teeth again, then sat on the sofa and fell asleep.
Xue Liyan came out of the kitchen and saw her sleepy look, so he said, "I'll sleep again later."
"Yeah." Jian Mingxia responded, but she was still very sleepy. She leaned on the armrest, as if she was going to fall asleep just like that.
Xue Liyan originally planned to leave after making the noodles, but seeing her like this, it is estimated that she would fall asleep on the sofa as soon as he left.
So he walked up to her again, hesitated, hugged her on his lap with a blanket, and said: "I'll sleep later, talk to me."
She yawned and said lazily, "Say what."
"Tell me why you're angry tonight," he said.
She said bluntly: "I'm not angry!"
He said in a soothing tone: "Well, you are not angry."
Jian Mingxia closed her eyes and didn't choke with him anymore, she wanted to hear what he would say.
Xue Liyan circled the woman in his arms, and said in an extremely soft voice: "You asked me tonight if I was tired when I was with you. I can't tell you that I am not tired. But it is not with you Tired together, but because of my own mentality, after being with you, I always think about many things, I will think about you being with me, whether it is impulsive, whether you will feel bored, will you You think I'm immature, doesn't it feel like you want to be with me?"
"I would think a lot and make myself very tired, but I would think so much, and there was only one reason. I was worried that this relationship would not go too far."
"Jian Mingxia, I want to go on with you for a long time. So I have a lot of worries, and I am worried that these worries will make me make mistakes in front of you. When I am with you, I am always careful, afraid of saying something inappropriate. , an immature behavior will annoy you."
"Don't be angry with me, okay? You can scold me, you can hit me, but don't be silent in front of me, because I can't help but think more. I will try to change this mentality, as long as you are I'm around, and one day I'm going to take it for granted."
"I will tell myself, you are my woman, it's a matter of course, you have me in your heart, it's a matter of course."
"But at least for now, I can't think like this. Give me a little more time, okay?"
His voice was so gentle that it became the best lullaby for her. Jian Mingxia really wanted to just fall asleep like this. She closed her eyes, thinking about what he said silently, and then came to the conclusion: "Little tail, I can't give you anything." Safe, right?"
"I was just too insecure," he said.
Jian Mingxia said: "I think I should be the one who is not confident, and I should be the one to consider these concerns. So in the final analysis, I am the one who makes you feel insecure."
"People who are not confident, no matter how much security they give, they will not be confident. Don't take all the responsibility on yourself. Now you are quietly leaning in my arms, and you have given me the greatest sense of security."
Only then did Jian Mingxia realize that his eloquence was actually quite good, and he made everything she said self-inflated.
After thinking about it, she said: "To be honest, I also think about these concerns you have in my heart, but there are some nuances. But these are all unfounded worries, which will only increase the disturbance, so we don't want to go to Xiaowei. Think about this, okay? Just keep it simple, you will be the simplest version of yourself, and I will also be the simplest version of myself."
He said, "Okay, I'll try my best."
"How can I try my best, I must do it! I don't want to have a boyfriend who always wears a mask. You are not tired, but I am still tired when I look at it!"
"Well, I will definitely do it."
Jian Mingxia opened his eyes and stared at him: "You have no sincerity in what you say!"
He looked down at her and smiled.
Jian Mingxia closed her eyes again, and there was no movement after that, as if she had fallen asleep.
Xue Liyan just wrapped his arms around her and didn't let go.
After a long time, I heard the person in my arms say in a vague and low voice like raving: "In fact, I have only had two heartbeats in my life. One of them is called Xue Liyan and the other is called Xiaowei. You can doubt me about anything, but you can't. Doubt whether I like you, although, I never said it before. If I don’t like you, I won’t be with you. Since I can be single for so long without being in love, then I won’t because of a you who I don’t like, To change my view of love. I am very stubborn, not my own mind, it is difficult for others to change my decision."
Even if that person is her family member or her best friend, when she is stubborn, she is rational and indifferent.
"Well, I see, go to sleep."
"And you?"
"I'll leave when you fall asleep."
Jian Mingxia was silent.
She was very obedient when she fell asleep, and she didn't move around. Although she was in an uncomfortable position, she slept soundly.
Xue Liyan suddenly felt a little reluctant to put her down, so he hugged her like this and sat quietly, worried that she would be cold, and he would touch her hands and feet from time to time to see if her body temperature had dropped.
He just hoped that she would just fall asleep like this and never wake up, so that tomorrow would not come, and their time could stay in this moment forever.
But in the end he put her back on the bed.
He lay outside the quilt and watched her quietly, and she fell asleep defenselessly right in front of him. The woman he loves is sleeping next to him, no man can resist this temptation, but whether he does it or not, and whether he wants to, are two different things.
Xue Liyan really wanted to leave like this, but his body and his mind seemed to emit different instructions.
He thought, anyway, she fell asleep, so let's watch it for a while before leaving. In fact, he is no stranger to her sleeping face. Before she went to college, every weekend, she would call a few friends and go out to climb the mountain before the sun rose. Then when the sun started to dazzle her eyes, she would He came back to catch up on sleep again, and at this time he had just turned on the computer and was sitting in front of the computer in a daze. She didn't care about him, she slept on her own, and just asked him to be quiet.
When he has nothing to do, he just looks at her sleeping face, or takes a book from her shelf to read. She likes to write various annotations and phrases on novels, like after-reading.
He still remembered that she once wrote this sentence on the title page of the book: When you and the same person read too many of the same books and talk more about the same topics, you will find that your thoughts gradually become similar, regardless of each other. So, in the end, did their thoughts change me, or did my thoughts change them? When we are far away from each other in the future, will our personalities and even our outlook on life become completely different
There are a lot of words like this, most of which are her feelings when she was aroused. Xue Liyan doesn't like reading novels, but he likes to read those words written by her. Although he couldn't understand all of them at that time, it is undoubtedly like what she wrote , Many of her ideas have affected his subsequent growth and subtly changed his character.
When she is moving forward, she will not know that someone is staggering along the path she walked.
So she might not understand how he felt about her.
Xue Liyan looked at her sleeping face, recalling her unconstrained words, and gradually became fascinated.
Later, he didn't even know when he fell asleep.