July day is like a child's face, it changes as it says. Just now, the sun was still in the sky, but in an instant, the sky sank.
Yu Fan still kept his head down, staring at the name that he hadn't seen for a long time.
The old houses seem to be shrouded in dark clouds, gloomy. There was a muffled thunder outside the window, Yu Fan blinked lightly, and finally made a move.
He picked up Yu Kaiming's cell phone, picked up Yu Kaiming's hand hanging under the sofa, and pressed his finger on it, and the phone unlocked with a click.
It's not so easy for a hangover to wake up, Yu Kaiming frowned, and went back to sleep after two babbles.
Yu Fan opened the Alipay transfer interface and swiped up, all of them were transfers, Fanfan’s living expenses for July, Fanfan’s living expenses for June, Fanfan’s living expenses for May...
The transfer person's profile picture is a sunflower oil painting.
Yu Fan stared at the head portrait for a while, licked his dry lips, and then took out his mobile phone.
[-: Not going to the library today]
[s: why?]
The summer in Nancheng does not cool down because of the rain, and Yu Fan recovers from the humid and hot air in the air.
[-:It's raining.]
Throwing the phone back into his pocket, Yu Fan sat on a low wooden stool beside the coffee table, holding Yu Kaiming's phone with such strength that his fingertips turned white. He stared somewhere, silently swallowing and breathing deeply.
After an unknown amount of time, he got up and went into the room to dig out the cigarette case he hadn't touched for a long time, lit one and took a puff.
I haven't smoked for a long time, and I feel a little choked. He took another breath before continuing to look through the records inside.
It took Yu Fan a long, long time to get to the end. The earliest news was in September 2014, Yun Shan transferred 300 yuan to Yu Kaiming.
[Yu Kaiming: Three hundred yuan? Who are you sending? How many meals is three hundred enough for your son?]
[Yun Shan: I can only give you so much now.]
[Yu Kaiming: Fuck you, transfer five hundred next month, or I will let him starve.]
The transfer of 500 yuan lasted for four months, and Yu Kaiming suddenly sent a photo.
Yu Fan clicked and took a look, it was him in the photo.
It was him who was beaten by Yu Kaiming one day in the second year of junior high school, and his ear was bleeding.
[Yu Kaiming: I told you before, if you dare to visit him secretly again, I will beat him once]
[Yu Kaiming: Stinky bastard, you have the nerve to come back to see your son after you run away with other men?]
[Yun Shan: I know, I won't, don't hit him]
[Yun Shan: Please]
[Yun Shan: I'll transfer you two hundred yuan, can you take him to the hospital?]
[Yu Kaiming: Come here.]
[Yu Kaiming: I warn you not to call the police. Don't forget that last time you called the police, I went in and squatted for more than ten days. If you dare to let me in again, if I come out, I will beat him to death first, and then burn your house, and I will burn your husband's house too. I am not afraid of you wearing shoes with bare feet, do you know that?]
…
In the middle of 2015, Yu Kaiming said: [I heard that your natal home was demolished? Call me 2000 every month in the future.]
At the end of 2016, Yu Kaiming said: [They said you had an art exhibition? Congratulations, call me 3000 every month from now on.]
[Yun Shan: How is Fanfan doing?]
[Yu Kaiming: [Photo] is ready]
It may be that she is satisfied with Yun Shan sending money on time, or it may be that she finds that she can no longer control Yu Fan. In the past two years, Yu Kaiming's attitude towards Yun Shan has gradually softened a bit, at least in the chat records, there is no more bad words towards each other.
At the beginning of this year, Yu Kaiming said: [Has your family immigrated abroad? ? ? Is it drafted? Has it become a success? Call me 5,000 every month from now on, your son can eat giants when he goes to high school.]
…
After flipping through all the news, the cigarette case was already half empty.
Yu Fan took a sip of the cigarette between his fingers, feeling cold all over his body. It was as if countless invisible arrows had been pierced into his brain, and the pain made it difficult for him to breathe.
Horrible dark thoughts gnawed at his brain like germs, thoughts that had been around for a long time, only to be pushed back too soon. Yu Fan looked at the person on the sofa, as if he was looking at a corpse about to be buried in the ground.
The summer rains are majestic, fast and furious. Yu Fan sat expressionlessly, rehearsing something over and over again in his mind.
With the sound of raindrops hitting the window, Yu Fan's phone vibrated quietly again.
[s: video?]
Yu Fan wakes up like a dream. He tensed his jaw and tapped his phone with stiff fingers.
[-:late]
Yu Fan screwed out the cigarette, lowered his head and rubbed his face vigorously several times, then picked up Yu Kaiming's cell phone again, and sent a sentence to the sunflower head: [Don't send him any more money.]
He turned on the transfer function, entered all of Yu Kaiming's balance, and then picked up Yu Kaiming's finger to press the fingerprint.
Yu Kaiming woke up from his dream.
The room was half-lit and half-dark, making it hard to tell what time it was. When he turned his head, he was startled again.
Yu Fan stood beside him without saying a word, maybe because of the lack of light, the picture looked like a horror movie.
"Why are you standing here? You want to scare people to death..." Yu Kaiming rubbed his neck and sat up, his eyes fell on Yu Fan's hand, and he was taken aback for a second.
He subconsciously reached out to grab it, but Yu Fan easily dodged it. Yu Kaiming looked at him in shock, "What are you doing with my phone?"
After confirming that all the money had been transferred, Yu Fan looked up from the phone and stated, "Yu Kaiming, you have been asking her for money."
His voice was neither soft nor heavy, and it hit Yu Kaiming's ear like a thunderbolt.
If he was still drunk now, or a few years ago, Yu Kaiming might not be afraid of him. But it's different now, he can't beat him, and his old injuries haven't healed yet, and the most important thing is - Yu Fan doesn't look right at him.
Yu Kaiming has never run so fast in his life. He jumped up from the sofa almost immediately, then ran into his room and turned the lock.
The pounding heartbeat caused by fear is especially clear in the dark. The next moment, the door of his room was kicked hard, and the bottom of the door was bent inward, and then returned to its original state.
"You told me that you didn't contact her, Yu Kaiming." The door was kicked again, and the person outside said indifferently and calmly, "I hate your mother."
After a door passed, Yu Kaiming relaxed a little. With his back against the door, he turned his head and shouted: "This is what I agreed with her at the beginning! Divorce is fine, and I must pay you the living expenses every month!"
"Tell me again, whose living expenses are they?"
"...Didn't that watch leave money for you when it left? And your grandfather left it, are you short of money? Who the hell do you think is paying the utility bills at home?!"
The door took another fragile kick.
Yu Fan said coldly, "You try calling her that again?"
"What? Did I scold you wrong?" Yu Kaiming became angry when he mentioned it, "She was the one who fucked up with the supermarket owner first! That cousin cheated! She made a mistake first! Otherwise, you can be sentenced to me? What kind of person is she, not a cousin? No one in the street knows that your mother is a watery-"
boom! The back door slammed loudly.
Yu Fan said: "Being beaten by you every day, an idiot is willing to spend the rest of his life with a rotten dog like you."
Yu Kaiming's heart skipped a beat, and he even felt that Yu Fanzhen could kick down this door.
"Since you are so close to her and you protect her so much, why didn't she take you away?" Yu Kaiming asked, "When she ran away from home and forced me to divorce! Why the hell didn't she take you away?"
"I'm telling you, because her concubine doesn't want you! Because that man won't let her marry her son!"
There was a sudden silence outside the door.
Outside the window, there were thunderstorms and heavy rain, and the sky seemed to be falling.
Yu Kaiming breathed a sigh of relief, and after a while, he said, "You understand now? I'm on your side..."
"You think I don't know?"
No one knows better than him.
Yu Fan stood in front of the room with his head bowed, his fists clenched tightly, and his thoughts seemed to be forcefully drawn back to four years ago.
Yun Shan was raped by Yu Kaiming for seven years. In the seven years, did she run away from home just once
She has packed her luggage countless times, and sneaked out of the house countless times in the middle of the night. It's just that she was stumped by her son, who always cried and called her name, always held her clothes, and always stood at the window to watch her.
Then the woman would come back with her face covered, carried him back to the room, coaxed him to sleep with tears, and then called to explain to a strange man.
until the last time. It was also raining like now. He watched Yun Shan get up from the bed, pack her luggage, and open the door. During the process of leaving, the woman had gone back to her room to see him many times.
He kept pretending to be asleep.
Yu Fan watched her walk out of the community, and every time Yun Shan raised his head, he would quickly squat down and hide, biting his fist and crying until his nose was running.
He knew he couldn't make a sound.
Otherwise, Yu Kaiming would wake up. Otherwise the fuck will come back.
Hearing his answer, Yu Kaiming was taken aback: "How do you know?"
Yu Fan was too lazy to talk nonsense with him. He gave that door a final kick and then calmly informed him.
"Yu Kaiming, let me know that you went to find her again, and I will take your legs off."
After speaking, Yu Fan turned around and left.
He can't be in the same space as Yu Kaiming now, he can't guarantee whether he will do other things.
"...Okay, got it. But I still have something to tell you." There was a long silence in the room, and then a voice suddenly said, "Actually, I asked someone this year to find out about that bitch... your mother's situation."
Yu Fan took a deep breath, picked up the wooden stick next to him and tried to smash the door.
"She has a child. The one born last year is also a son."
"Oh, in that case, it's no wonder she wants to emigrate to a foreign country. The educational environment abroad is better, much better than your current high school."
"Yu Fan, accept your fate, your mother has long since abandoned you."
"No matter how much you hate me, I'm still your father, and you have to stay with me for the rest of your life."
With the heavy rain outside and Yu Fan's frenzied kicking on the door just now, the neighbors have locked the door tightly again.
A rainshield was installed on the first floor of this dilapidated residential building, and raindrops as big as soybeans hit it, crackling and shaking.
Yu Fan walked out of the house, closed the door, and stopped still.
Mingming held back, obviously didn't fight Yu Kaiming, but he felt that this time he was more tired than before.
Yu Fan stood for a long time before turning around and going downstairs. His mind was muddled, with many things and words echoing and playing in it. So much so that he walked down the last step, only to realize that there was a person standing in front of him.
Chen Jingshen stood there, leaning on an umbrella beside him.
Yu Fan was stunned for a long time, wanting to ask him why he was here and when he came, but moved his lips only to realize that his throat was too dry and his pronunciation was a bit difficult.
"When I was in freshman year of high school, I saw you brave the typhoon and climb out of the school. I thought you should not be afraid of the rain, so you came here." Chen Jingshen seemed to understand it from his eyes, "It's been a long time."
Yu Fan hummed.
Chen Jingshen came up and reached out to hug him. Yu Fan subconsciously blocked it, but it was useless, and he was still brought into his arms.
"When you come, you will let go." Chen Jingshen said.
So Yu Fan stopped moving and lay on Chen Jingshen's shoulder exhausted.
It's a pure hug. Chen Jingshen's broad and warm shoulders have a reassuring effect.
So Yu Fan closed his eyes, lowered his head and buried his face in his shoulder.
It was pitch black, and only Yu and Chen Jingshen remained in his world.
"Yu Fan."
Yu Fan remained motionless, and replied dully: "Yes."
"Let's elope."
"..."
"In the last year of high school, you study hard." Chen Jingshen said, "We take the same exam."
"..."
"And then get married."
"… roll."
It took a long time for the person lying on top of him to hold back a word.
Feeling the wetness on his shoulders, Chen Jingshen silently raised his hand and gently stroked his hair.