The speed of winter and summer in Nancheng is fast. It was not yet the middle of December, when Chen Jingshen got up to pour a glass of water, when he came back, the window was already covered with fine drizzle of snow.
He picked up his phone and sent a message: [What are you doing?]
As soon as the news was sent out, there was a knock on the door. A boy poked his head in and stared blankly after seeing the situation in the office.
Chen Jingshen stared at the screen and waited for a few seconds, but did not see the prompt being input, so he raised his head to meet his gaze: "What?"
He came back to his senses: "No! Brother Shen, everyone just wanted to ask you what to eat tonight? We are going to order takeaway."
"Need not."
"ah?"
"I won't stay with the company tonight." Chen Jingshen said, "Don't give me some."
The boy reacted for a few more seconds before saying "Oh" and closing the office door softly.
"What's your expression?" The employee who was contacting the restaurant owner asked, "How do you say? What does Brother Shen eat?"
"He won't eat."
"ah?"
"Brother Shen actually said that he won't work overtime tonight!" He said in shock, "And when I first entered, I saw Brother Shen playing with his mobile phone to catch fish—this is the first time I saw Brother Shen go to work to catch fish!!!"
"..."
Everyone around was stunned for a moment. After all, the boss of their company has not worked overtime for many working days since he joined the company, and often even sleeps directly in the company. Although the new company has a lot of things to do, each of them couldn't help but wonder if the boss saved the boss' life when they first joined the company.
But they soon discovered that there was nothing else. Their hobby is to type codes and write algorithms, and they don't care about other things or people. It is said that when the boss recruited him into the company, he was given the position of technical director, but he was declined by the boss in the end because he was too lazy to manage people.
The man was silent for a while, then got up after a long time, "I'll check again..."
"Hey! No need to go. If you have time, chat with the restaurant owner and ask him to secretly add a chicken leg to you." Luo Liyang, who passed behind him, patted him on the shoulder. There is no need to order him a meal."
"Huh? Why?"
"Why?" Luo Liyang smiled, "There is someone waiting at home."
There was another commotion: "What? Brother Shen has a date??"
The man was patted on the back, and the girl next to him said blankly, "Are you stupid? Didn't Brother Shen say that he had a boyfriend when I first joined the company?"
"I thought that was just Brother Shen's excuse to reject you—oh, I was wrong! Don't hit me! Don't hit me!!"
"Keep your voice down, both of you! Be careful not to be heard by Brother Shen! But boss, so Brother Shen, really, yes, male..."
With the new company and a group of young programmers in the technical department, the atmosphere in which everyone gets along in private is relaxed and casual, without much attention. Usually everyone calls Luo Liyang, the technical director, and directly calls him "boss".
Luo Liyang made a "shh" gesture: "Come on, don't gossip. But let me say it first, our company is at the forefront of fashion, so no discrimination is allowed, no discrimination in any way."
"clear!"
"We definitely won't, no matter what age."
Luo Liyang nodded in satisfaction: "Okay, it's almost time. Except for those on the night shift, don't work overtime at the company today. It's snowing, pack your things and go back."
"Sure! Brother Shen doesn't work overtime anymore, why do we have any reason to work overtime! Take it home and do it!"
Chen Jingshen didn't know what he said, and made the employees of the department leave work on time collectively for the first time.
He only knew that his boyfriend hadn't responded to the message after a long time, and he still turned off the phone after calling.
The clock pointed to six o'clock, and Chen Jingshen walked out of the office with his bag on his back. As soon as he opened the door, other people in the workstations also stood up quickly.
Chen Jingshen: "?"
Someone touched his shoulders, and Luo Liyang said, "Go, to celebrate your first time leaving get off work on time, everyone will also leave work on time with you."
Chen Jingshen: "..."
Yu Fan stood by the gate of the office building with his hands in his pockets, looking back at the clock on the wall in the lobby for the seventh time out of boredom, and at the same time met the eyes of the security guard who had been secretly watching him for the seventh time.
Yu Fan blew out a very round and beautiful bubble without changing his expression.
security guard:"… "
Bubbles deflated due to air leakage, just in time to hear a vague "ding", and the elevator door on the first floor slowly opened, revealing a crowd of people inside.
The clothes on them are like copy and paste—black jackets, heavy dark cashmere sweaters, plaid shirts with collars turned up, backpacks and jeans, and most of them wear glasses on their faces.
Even the only girl inside was dressed in simple gray.
A group of people were chatting and laughing without knowing what they were talking about, the scene was harmonious, only Chen Jingshen was knocking on his phone with his head down. He stood in the crowd wrapped in a black windbreaker, tall and eye-catching.
Luo Liyang was sending a text message to invite his blind date to have dinner, when someone poked his arm: "Is the car coming? Give me a ride."
Luo Liyang was puzzled: "It's a ten-minute walk... When we first met, I politely said that I would see you off, but you wouldn't even agree?"
"Send it off?" Chen Jingshen frowned.
"Send it, brother will deliver it to your door."
Other people around me are chirping. The girl stretched her waist: "Oh, it's rare to leave work early, I don't even know what to do when I get home."
"You share the work I have in hand?"
"Dream, you, do your own thing... The man at the door is so handsome."
"Come on, there can be someone who is more handsome than me and the boss—oh! A handsome guy with long hair!"
As soon as they finished speaking, it was as if a gust of wind passed over their shoulders.
Before the group could react, the boss was already standing beside the handsome guy at the door, and even reached out to wipe the snowflakes off other people's heads.
"Why isn't the phone turned on?" Chen Jingshen asked.
"The battery is out." Yu Fan exhaled white mist as he spoke.
"Where did you go?"
"Go back and look at the previous house," Yu Fan remembered something before he finished speaking, and took a step back, "Chen Jingshen, I'm covered in ashes, stay away from me."
I wanted to ask why he didn't wait for me to come with me, but thinking that he had been away for so long, I might even want to go back alone. Chen Jingshen didn't say much, and asked again: "Why did you come here suddenly?"
Yu Fan pursed his lips and said expressionlessly, "...I will pick you up from get off work."
A group of gossip colleagues behind deliberately slowing down rushed to the scene, just in time to see the once-in-a-century smile of the boss in the group.
Even though it's weak, it's still a miracle.
Everyone wanted to see but didn't dare to look more, their gazes turned many times on Yu Fan's face, and they were all driven away by Luo Liyang in the end.
"Hello," Luo Liyang stretched out his hand towards Yu Fan, "We met in the video, remember?"
"Remember." Yu Fan reached out and shook his hand strangely, "You look younger than in the video."
"Really? Hahaha, let me just say, what you said that day really scared me."
"Yeah." Yu Fan said, "It doesn't look more than 27 years old."
"..."
Chen Jingshen endured a lot of hardship along the way.
"What's so funny???" Yu Fan poked his arm.
"No. I just want to ask," Chen Jingshen turned his attention away, "Didn't you come to pick me up from get off work?"
"Yes." Yu Fan asked, "Is there a problem?"
"No."
The two were walking in the wind and snow, Chen Jingshen covered his hair with his palms, and discussed with him: "But when you pick me up next time, can you bring an umbrella."
"..."
Chen Jingshen wasn't at home very often during this period, and today he returned in a hurry and didn't have time to prepare the ingredients. The two had dinner at the restaurant Chen Jingshen often went to.
When we left the hotel, it was already sleet outside, and our clothes and hair were basically wet when we got home.
When Yu Fan entered the room, he didn't even have time to take off his coat, and there was an extra towel on his head.
"Go take a shower." Chen Jingshen said.
"And you."
"Respond to the message." The phone buzzed along the way, but he didn't look at it.
Yu Fan took the clothes and went into the bathroom, while Chen Jingshen stood in front of the window and flipped through his phone. It's nothing serious, a few about Luo Liyang messing around, and a few about work problems.
He simply replied a few words before throwing away the phone, intending to unpack the box that had been in the living room for an unknown amount of time, when the bathroom door swung open.
"Chen Jingshen," Yu Fan said lazily, "hand over the clothes and put them on the table."
Chen Jingshen picked up his clothes and stretched them out.
Yu Fan didn't answer. He leaned against the edge of the door, with wet hair sticking to his white and round shoulders, he raised his eyelids and looked straight at him through the half-open door: "Did you finish the message?"
"Um."
Yu Fan raised an eyebrow, then fell silent.
They always do. Usually, when they meet their eyes between speaking, they will inexplicably come together and touch their lips, not to mention looking at each other quietly in the hot white mist.
After a few seconds, Chen Jingshen threw the clothes back on the table, opened the bathroom door wide, and leaned down to kiss him.
When Chen Jingshen stepped into the shower pool, Yu Fan's entire face looked puzzled.
Chen Jingshen adjusted the water temperature: "The water is not hot enough, I have a cold after washing."
"I'm 24, not 74, and my immunity is not that bad," Yu Fan said.
Chen Jingshen seemed to laugh vaguely, but the sound of the water was too loud to hear. He turned around and raised his eyebrows: "What kind of expression is this?"
"Chen Jingshen." Yu Fan frowned, "Why are you different from the people in your company? Do you secretly exercise while others are working? Isn't it too insidious..."
Chen Jingshen couldn't take it anymore, bowed his head and kissed him.
The water temperature was getting higher and higher, and Yu Fan felt hot while feeling the cold wall on his back that made people shiver.
Suddenly being released, Yu Fan squinted his eyes and frowned: "Why?"
"In a few days." Chen Jingshen said.
Yu Fan understood in an instant. He stepped on Chen Jingshen's foot without much effort: "Chen Jingshen, I have to say it several times, you are really ordinary, and I really don't feel pain anymore."
"..."
Chen Jingshen pushed back his hair, revealing his entire face: "There is nothing at home."
"I have it in my trouser pocket." Yu Fan raised his chin towards the washstand.
"..."
Seeing the emotion in Chen Jingshen's eyes, Yu Fan raised his eyebrows coolly: "Chen Jingshen, you really think that I can pick you up from get off work and nothing will happen..."
Before he could finish speaking, he grabbed his chin and kissed him again.
Yu Fan leaned his back against the wall, his vision blurred.
The hot water slid over every inch, and Yu Fan's Adam's apple slipped, reaching out to hold Chen Jingshen's face.
The water gurgled into Chen Jingshen's hair, then slipped from the crevice of his hair, passed his nose and lips, and some of it fell into his eyes. Chen Jingshen's eyes were dark and dark, and the hot water stimulated a faint redness in the fundus of his eyes, and finally slid down the eye sockets.
Looks like weeping.
For a moment, Yu Fan felt that his back was not against the wall, but the old wooden door of his house.
Did Chen Jingshen look like this when he was crying? There are so many tears too? I usually hide all bad emotions very well, how can I be discovered by a little sister even if I cry secretly.
Don't be ashamed.
I loved crying when I was a child, and it's still the same when I grow up.
Yu Fan's heart was weak, he gritted his teeth lightly, and reached out to wipe his face. He wiped away the water from Chen Jingshen's eyes, rubbed his eyes, and messed up the hair on his forehead. The movements are heavy and serious, but it seems that nothing can be finished.
"Chen Jingshen, don't cry in the future, you are ugly like this." He threw out an order.
Chen Jingshen was slightly startled, then quickly lowered his eyelids and kissed him, with a cold tone: "Didn't you let me cry for you before?"
before
Yu Fan thought for a while before remembering, as if he had said: "I don't think about it now. I was tired of watching it when I was young."
Chen Jingshen paused, looked at him silently, and asked after a while: "... when did you remember?"
"I remembered it earlier, the eyes are so small." Yu Fan reached out to touch his eyelids, and said with red ears expressionlessly, "Chen Jingshen, don't stop."
Chen Jingshen thought his boyfriend was a very interesting person.
He is always frank when it comes to certain things, whatever happens. But as soon as he held the button around his neck, his whole face would be extremely smelly, and his mouth would be as hard as if they were fighting.
It was still raining and snowing outside, their house was on a high floor, Chen Jingshen didn't draw the curtains, and beside him was a vast white world.
"Chen Jingshen." Yu Fan lay on the pillow and listened to him typing the code, and asked without emotion, "Do you think you will definitely be bald in a few years, so you need to put on a back pad?"
"No, I said I won't be bald." Chen Jingshen said.
Yu Fan didn't respond, his shoulders rested against his legs, his breathing was warm and gentle.
Chen Jingshen couldn't hold it back, he stopped his fingers and wanted to touch his hair, when the people around him suddenly yelled again in a hoarse voice.
"Chen Jingshen."
Chen Jingshen hummed.
"Why do you suddenly want to be a programmer?"
Chen Jingshen looked down at him, a little surprised by this question.
He also stopped the other hand, and replied coldly and seriously, "Because it's difficult."
"?" Yu Fan reached out and poked his leg.
"The more you learn, the more difficult it is, and the pace is fast. I feel like I am competing with the whole world all the time." Chen Jingshen said, "So typing codes is a good way to pass the time, without distraction, and without socializing."
It seems that it is not surprising that the strange reason came to Chen Jingshen.
"Where's your dog?" Yu Fan paused at this point, struggling to support himself on his side, propping his elbows on the pillow, and reached out to grab Chen Jingshen's chin, "No, Chen Jingshen, you fucking sixth grader Raised a dog, named him Fanfan? What does that mean??"
"...Keep it at home. The place I've lived in the past few years doesn't allow large dogs." Unexpectedly, the old problems of old age were turned over at this time. Is it? You are not here, I can only raise his courage."
"...I'll buy a bastard tomorrow, called Shenshen."
"Yes." Chen Jingshen raised his hand, "You can call it Shenshen."
"..."
A sudden and earth-shattering yellow accent.
Under the dim light at the head of the bed, Yu Fan's face was burning red, and it looked like he was about to swear in the next second.
Chen Jingshen was even ready to be choked, but his boyfriend didn't open his mouth for a long time, just looking at him under the light.
After a long time, Chen Jingshen tilted his head and wanted to kiss him, but the hand holding his chin tightened suddenly.
"Chen Jingshen." Yu Fan called again.
"Um."
"There are a lot of mosquitoes in front of my house."
"..."
Chen Jingshen was silent, and finally realized that something was wrong with Yu Fan tonight. I found it in the bathroom just now, rubbing his eyes all the time, he must have turned white now.
"It's okay, not as many as downstairs in my house." He replied jokingly.
Yu Fan couldn't laugh, and he asked, "Then the security guard chased you away? He came in for a job, he's as thin as a monkey, and his thighs aren't as thick as your arms. You can't beat him?"
"No, it's not easy for him to work." Chen Jingshen said, "I don't take it for granted."
"..."
In an instant, those dense aches and pains came back again. Yu Fan let go of him, lay down again, turned his face to the other side, and said nothing.
In the afternoon, he stood leaning against the stairwell for a long time. He looked at the door, thinking of Chen Jingshen knocking on the door silently, thinking of Chen Jingshen looking at the question with the broken voice-activated light above his head, and thinking of Chen Jingshen when the light was off. For a moment, Mo Mo quickly lowered his head and wiped his eyes.
He couldn't think about Chen Jingshen like this. His whole body hurts just thinking about it.
Chen Jingshen threw the computer and reached out to break his face. Didn't break it, just touched the wetness with one hand.
I just laughed at others in the bathroom, and now I have such a virtue, it is really embarrassing. Yu Fan covered his face with his arms, looking a little funny, and said coldly, "I didn't wash my face just now."
Chen Jingshen hummed, reached out and turned off the bedside lamp. The room was plunged into darkness, and he couldn't see anything clearly. Chen Jingshen lay beside him with his head propped up, stretched out his hand to brush his chin, and kissed him with his head down.
Without the light, Yu Fan's sense of shame recovered a lot. The language system went on strike for a while and then came back online.
"Chen Jingshen." Yu Fan said in a low voice, "Where have you been looking for me during holidays?"
"..."
Chen Jingshen remained silent in the dark for a long time, so long that Yu Fan couldn't help poking him with the head, and then said, "The school I marked for you before."
"How about it?"
Chen Jingshen bowed his head and kissed him: "It's normal. It's okay if you don't go."
"… anything else?"
"Fen River."
It is around Nancheng, but Yu Fan has never been to a place. He swallowed uncomfortably, and then asked, "What else."
Chen Jingshen hesitated for a while, and reported two more place names. In the end, he really didn't want to talk about it, so he leaned over to his relatives and said, "It's gone."
"How did you find it?"
"Go to the universities in these places and ask."
I also asked every high school, hospital, looking for a needle in a haystack, and blindly looking for someone.
Yu Fan didn't speak anymore. He lay flat beside Chen Jingshen, with his arms covering his eyes, as if he was asleep, but his breathing was a bit heavy, and he occasionally sucked his nose.
Growing up so big, Yu Fan seldom had any serious "regrets". When he resisted Yu Kaiming when he was a child, he was beaten, but he didn’t regret it; when his mother left, he didn’t say a word, and stayed alone, he didn’t regret it; , he has no regrets. but now…
"Chen Jingshen." Yu Fan's eyes were numb from the pressure of his arm. After a long time, he said sullenly, "I bought a ticket back to Nancheng."
He regretted so much that his heart ached: "But I didn't get in the car in the end, I was an idiot..."
Chen Jingshen rolled his Adam's apple, leaned over and coaxed him softly: "Don't cry."
"I didn't cry, Shui." Yu Fan said.
"Um."
Tears were wiped away again and again, Chen Jingshen moved very lightly, and Yu Fan was stuffed in his arms for a long time before he came out.
Yu Fan's eyes gleamed in the darkness, and he called out, "Chen Jingshen."
"Um."
"In the future, if you leave me behind, I will look for you too." Yu Fan swore, "I will look for me longer than you, and the scope of my search will be wider. I will look for you forever."
"..."
"Perhaps you can speak more concisely." Chen Jingshen said.
"How concise?"
"Say you like me."
"..."
Yu Fan lay on the bed stiffly, Chen Jingshen waited for a while, but nothing came.
He didn't feel regretful either, he raised his hand and touched Yu Fan's face with the back of his hand to make sure that the other party wasn't crying, and just wanted to go to check the eye drops—
"I am." A vague voice.
"..."
Chen Jingshen paused: "What?"
"I hum you." Yu Fan said.
"I didn't hear clearly."
"… I love you."
"I really didn't hear clearly."
"I love you."
Chen Jingshen moved a little closer: "What are you?"
"..."
Her ears were pulled, and her soft lips pressed against her: "I say I love you! Chen Jingshen, put your ears back—"
"Me too." Chen Jingshen replied with a smile.
"..."
The room was quiet for a long time, the ears were loosened, Yu Fan suddenly turned his back to him, his sleeping position was as stiff as a mummy lying on its side.
Chen Jingshen covered his eyes and laughed silently for a while, and then asked deliberatively, "Have I turned on the light?"
"Mummy" didn't speak, but moved his hands after the light was on, and covered his head with a quilt.
The next day, Yu Fan was bruised all over by the memory of last night, and he pretended to be asleep when he woke up.
Chen Jingshen glanced at the time and felt that it was almost time, so he stretched out his hand to touch the button around his neck.
Sure enough, the person who pretended to be asleep in the next second opened his eyes and slapped his hands away: "Chop your fingers again."
"It just feels familiar."
"Familiar fart, don't all buttons look like this? Don't you think this is your—"
"No. I read it wrong, it's not mine."
"?"
Yu Fan suddenly raised his head from the pillow: "It's not yours???"
Chen Jingshen stared at him coldly for a few seconds, then finally couldn't hold back, and turned his head.
Chen Jingshen's shoulders just shook, and Yu Fan had already figured out where to bury him.
He turned his head to look for the murder weapon, but he couldn't find anything, but the mobile phone on the table suddenly rang.
An unfamiliar number, belonging to Nancheng. Yu Fan frowned. Not many people have his mobile phone number, and they would not call directly.
He hesitated for a while before answering.
"Hello, is this Yu Kaiming's family?" A gentle female voice came from the opposite side.
Yu Fan remained motionless and did not speak.
When he regained his senses and was about to hang up, the other person said "Hi" again, and then continued: "We are the Third Hospital of Nancheng, and the patient was temporarily sent to our hospital because of a cerebral infarction. In addition, he has advanced lung cancer. At present, the vital signs have stabilized, but the situation is still not optimistic. Are you his son? Come to the hospital as soon as possible."
Yu Kaiming came out? When did this happen
Yu Fan moved his fingers to the hang-up button, and raised it again after hearing the words: "Will he survive the morning?"
The other side was stunned for a few seconds before saying: "It's hard to say, but the patient is still stable now, if there is no emergency..."
That's OK.
"Understood." Yu Fan said, "Thank you."
After hanging up the phone, Chen Jingshen said, "When are you going? I'll accompany you."
"Need not."
"Then I'll go secretly." Chen Jingshen repeated, "Nancheng Third Hospital?"
"..."
"No need." Yu Fan frowned, "Chen Jingshen, don't be so pestering."
"It's not a question of sticking around. I'm afraid I won't go this time..."
After waiting for a few seconds without any movement, Yu Fan turned his head: "What?"
Chen Jingshen: "In a few days, I will enter the bureau to scoop you up."
"..."