Qin Yang was so busy that he didn't know anything about He Jin's recent thoughts and plans. He thought that once he was out of class, he would go back to his original company for an internship or just stay at home and write a thesis.
That night, Qin Yang didn't go home until near nine o'clock, and he didn't eat at night. He opened the door hungry, but he smelled a tangy smell of vegetables, and He Jin actually cooked the meal himself!
Living together for half a year, even if He Jin is a novice in the kitchen, he often learns to draw gourds after watching Qin Yang cook, braised pork, poached eggs, moss and mushroom soup... It looks like a table does not look so good, but it is cooked by his sweetheart Qin Yang was overwhelmed by the dishes that came out!
After wolfing down the meal, he groped his stomach and collapsed on the sofa. Seeing He Jin take the initiative to clean up the dishes, he suddenly said, "Honey, I found that you have been treating me better and better recently."
He Jin froze and almost dropped a plate with his hand, "What's good..." He pretended to be stupid.
Qin Yang supported his head with one hand, leaned on the sofa and looked at He Jin's back with an idiotic face, and asked sweetly: "You are so good to me, what should you do if you spoil me?" But Yang guessed in his heart that maybe he was famous, He Jin realized his kindness, and cherished himself even more.
"It's just a meal." He Jin put the plate on the shelf, turned around and took a can of yogurt from the refrigerator, which is good for digestion, and gave it to Qin Yang. He didn't dare to look into Qin Yang's eyes. There was too much affection in it that he couldn't bear, and he was afraid that if he read it, he wouldn't be able to leave.
Qin Yang took the opportunity to lie down and pillow on He Jin's lap, coquettishly: "Feed me~"
He Jin: "..."
Going back to the bedroom at night and turning off the lights, He Jin leaned into Qin Yang's ear and asked, "Do you want to do it?" The deep and soft voice carried a trace of shyness and temptation. The beast threw his lover down. This night, He Jin was more gentle and cooperative than last time.
Early the next morning, Qin Yang didn't have a job, so he applied to the school to suspend classes for a period of time, and he didn't need to go to school.
Because last night he and He Jin had been in the middle of the night without restraint, and at this time Qin Yang was still lazily refusing to get up.
He already has a habit of sleeping in. If he has nothing to do, he can sleep until lunch time.
In a daze, Qin Yang wanted to hug He Jin, but he stretched out his hand to touch it, but there was nothing nearby, He Jin had already woken up, Qin Yang was a little lonely, closed his eyes and called "wife" twice, but no one agreed.
Qin Yang opened the bracelet with narrowed eyes, and sent a message to He Jin: "Have you gone to class yet?"
After waiting for a long time for a reply, Qin Yang rolled up the quilt and lay on the bed for a while, then sat up sleepily, got out of bed and went to the bathroom wearing slippers.
The bathroom is outside the bedroom, and you have to go through the living room. Qin Yang saw the breakfast that He Jin bought for him on the coffee table, and a folded piece of paper... Is it a note? He wasn't fully awake yet, he only woke up after going to the bathroom, and went out to read the breakfast and the note on the coffee table.
He Jin bought him an egg burrito, added Qin Yang's favorite ham and shortbread, and put a lot of sweet noodle sauce. Qin Yang took it to the microwave oven and heated it for 45 seconds. While suspiciously opening the sheet that said "Qin Yang Yang received" paper.
When he saw the first two lines, Qin Yang's eyes widened suddenly, his fingers trembled, and he woke up completely—
"Qin Yang:
I really dare not mention this sentence to you in person, so I can only say it to you in a letter.
Sorry, let's break up. "
…
Vigorous and powerful is He Jin's word.
Qin Yang didn't even dare to look down, so he directly dialed He Jin's phone number. After seven or eight rings, he was connected!
"Where are you?" Qin Yang panted heavily, the background voice on the other end of the phone was a bit noisy and the signal was poor, he asked loudly, "He Jin, where are you?"
He Jin got up, walked to the end of the carriage, and then softly called Qin Yang's name, and asked, "Have you read my letter?"
"I didn't watch it!" Qin Yang turned on the audio-visual, and there was darkness on the other side of the projection. Qin Yang couldn't see his face, but he heard the special voice in the carriage, "Are you on the train? Where are you going? Why?" Want to break up with me?" Qin Yang asked nervously.
He Jin: "I wrote the reason in that letter."
Qin Yang grabbed the piece of paper tightly and tore it up in front of He Jin. He didn't know if He Jin could see it, so he threw up the torn paper and said angrily, "I want you to tell me why! "
He Jin: "..."
Qin Yang: "Your parents put pressure on you? You said you wouldn't break up with me because of them... Are you kidding me? He Jin! Are you scaring me? Answer me!"
Seeing the other party's grief and despair, He Jin felt his whole heart was pulled.
Seeing that He Jin didn't answer, Qin Yang hurriedly said, "Is it because my signing with an entertainment company put pressure on you? Did someone bother you? If you don't like it, I'll terminate the contract with them and I won't do those things." it's over, don't go..."
"No, Qin Yang, it has nothing to do with you. You don't need to change anything for me." He Jin choked up and shook his head desperately, "It's because of me. This road is too difficult for me. It is impossible to be together for a lifetime, and it is even more impossible to walk under the sun in an upright manner... Qin Yang, let's break up while we can look back now."
"I don't want it!" Qin Yang begged for the bracelet in a panic, "He Jin, don't break up, I beg you, I will go to the train station now and buy the fastest high-speed train to Q city, you wait for me, I will Want to see you, I want to see you..."
He Jin stopped immediately: "Qin Yang, I've made up my mind, be mature, don't do impulsive things, and don't come to me... You have become so good now, don't be attached to me anymore, there will be more in the future Someone likes you, but that person won't be me... I don't deserve it."
He Jin tried his best not to let his voice tremble, and after saying this, he cut off the phone and closed the wristband.
His body seemed to still have the warmth from last night's lingering with Qin Yang. His shoulders trembled, and he couldn't stand anymore. He squatted down slowly, hugging his body, his heart seemed to be about to break.
He persuaded himself over and over again in his heart, He Jin, you have already indulged, gone crazy, drunk, stayed up late, played tennis, skipped classes, skied, and had an unforgettable love... You have experienced all the things you want to do , you have no regrets anymore, it is time to return to the "right" path and take on your own responsibilities.
Qin Yang couldn't get through to He Jin's phone number, so he kicked the coffee table, threw the cushions, hit the wall with his fist, and finally sat down on the ground, desperately reflecting on what he did wrong, why He Jin left him again, what could he do? I have done everything, and I am trying to become stronger. Obviously, everything is going smoothly. The figure of He Jin cleaning up the dishes last night seems to be still in front of my eyes, but today, there is only one person left in this small nest, and he was arrested again. abandoned...
Trying to force himself to calm down, Qin Yang picked up the shreds of paper that were floating everywhere, shaking his hands, and some of them got under the sofa or the corner of the table. uneven letter-
"Qin Yang, I'm sorry..."
"Two months ago, my father came to see me. He told me that my mother was ill and was suffering from severe depression. I went back to see her. She was in a very bad state of mind and her mind was a little unclear. I originally wanted to fight for reconciliation. You are free to be together, but she doesn't even agree to let me stay and work in City A. When I mention it, she seems to have been greatly stimulated... "
"My dad knew I was with you and slapped me. This was the first time he slapped me since I was a child. He was very disappointed in me. I don't want to complain to you, but I want to tell you that we are together ,too difficult… "
"My mother gave birth to me at the age of thirty-nine. When I was five years old, my brother died. Now I am their only son and their only spiritual sustenance... They are all over sixty now. If I Continuing to be willful will only make my mother's condition worse and my father's pressure will be heavier, so forgive me, I can't be so selfish and only pursue my own happiness."
Qin Yang clenched his fists and continued to look down with tears in his eyes...
"I might listen to them, find a stable job in my hometown, and then, maybe get married... But I don't know if I still have the ability to fall in love with a woman, because the trace you left in my heart is too deep it's..."
—I don't agree, He Jin, I don't agree, you are mine, I don't allow you to get married!
"Qin Yang, your father once asked me not to hurt you. I couldn't do it. I'm really sorry. I can't hurt my parents, so I can only choose to hurt you... Sometimes, I also envy you, you are full of Confident, full of sunshine, dare to pursue what you want, but I don't have the courage to walk side by side with you, so I left. Maybe this incident will also let you understand that the world is not around you alone Turns out, many things, we are always too easy to take for granted."
"Look, I'm so bad, low self-esteem and cowardly, so don't like me anymore... I curse myself to spend my whole life in pain to redeem the sin of hurting you, and I also wish you to meet someone who is better than me a hundred times and a thousand times People, I hope that person will not leave you again and again like me, I hope he will always be by your side, love you, protect you, and cherish you."
"—I don't deserve to be liked by you, Ah Jin."
…
"Idiot... idiot He Jin..." Qin Yang held the pile of shredded papers, tears rushed out, like a child who lost his way, could no longer hold back his fear, and cried loudly!
After crying for an unknown amount of time, Qin Yang felt that a part of his body was dead and broken.
As if escaping from reality, Qin Yang lay back on the bed, wrapped himself tightly with the quilt, and fell into a drowsy sleep for another afternoon, only to wake up in the evening, and the room was completely silent.
He Jin's pajamas were still hanging on the hanger, as well as the books on the desk, and the gaming helmet... These things gave Qin Yang the illusion that He Jin hadn't left him, as if that person just left the door casually, and soon He will come back, even if he is cold and scolds himself for being "lazy" with a face of complaint, it is like the sound of nature.
How much he wished that the "breakup" was just a nightmare, but the facts were there, Qin Yang couldn't escape, he buried his face in the pillow, hugged his head in pain and moaned: "Ah——"