This secret exploded in Mother He's heart like a bomb. It was the first time Mother He heard what He Jin yelled at Father He back then. Just like running away from home in anger after the helmet was dropped, it was extremely disturbing.
"... I also want to find a better girl, to be together in a normal way, to get married and start a business early, to make you happy, but why is it so difficult..."
This sentence floated in Mother He's mind again, and Mother He suddenly understood why He Jin would drink and why he was in such pain, because he didn't like women at all!
She was so anxious that she immediately stood up and wanted to knock on He Jin's door.
"Biqin!" He's father grabbed her and held her hand firmly, "What are you going to do? Didn't you promise me to calm down?"
Mother He said excitedly: "I'm going to ask him what he's thinking and why he did that!"
Father He was also very excited, but afraid of disturbing He Jin, he tried his best to suppress his voice: "What do you want to ask? The matter is over, and you saw what he looked like just now. Do you have to ask him at this time?"
Mother He trembled all over, yes, it has been three years, He Jin severed ties with that person, returned to them, and went on a blind date obediently, there is nothing wrong with what he has done in the past three years , what can she ask? What do you want to do again? !
Mother He covered her face in dismay, and sobbed and cried: "What sin did I do, why did this happen..." Why did their two brothers have sex with men? Is their He family cursed
If He Jin just found out that he likes men, she might go crazy and force him to change, but it's been three years since the incident happened, and He Jin doesn't want to change, he also wants to change! What he did in the past three years is the best proof, but he can't change it, and this is the root of his pain.
He's mother leaned in He's father's arms and cried so hard that she couldn't bear her breath. He Jin's approach was more shocking than direct confrontation to He's mother, and it also showed that the reality could not be reversed.
Father He hugged her tightly, sighed deeply, and his eyes turned red.
"You said, He Jin hasn't been on a blind date for the past three years, do you still remember that man?" Mother He asked suddenly.
Father He lowered his eyes and said worriedly: "I just asked him about this a few days ago. He seemed unwilling to talk about this person with me at first, and he only said a few words later."
Mother He asked nervously, "What did he say?"
He's father looked up at He's mother, and said, "He said, that man treated him very well."
Mother He choked, tears welled up again, she shook her head unwillingly and murmured: "Even if he can't change it, I can't let him be with a man and be stabbed in the back for the rest of his life..."
Father He frowned and asked, "Even if he will never be happy with women for the rest of his life, you still want to force him like this?"
Mother He: "Then what can I do? We are doing this for his own good!"
Father He: "Is this really for his own good, or is it just you who think it's good? I told you just now, how did He Jin tell me when we quarreled with me three years ago? He said that we didn't understand him at all, and never He didn’t care about what he wanted or didn’t want. This is the truth. After all these years, have you asked him what he likes? If it wasn’t because you were sick at the time and your attitude, he didn’t plan to come back at all.”
Mother He interrupted him with red eyes, and said excitedly: "Then do you agree with him looking for a man to live?"
Father He stood there with his mouth open. He obviously opposed it. This kind of relationship that violated human relations was unacceptable in the generation he was born in. It was abnormal and perverted... But Now, he didn't seem to realize that he was already on his son's side, speaking for his son.
Father He was stunned for a long time, then said softly, "Biqin, we are all one-legged into the coffin, we can't control He Jin for the rest of our lives, and we can't spend the rest of our lives with him," Father He wiped the tears from the corner of his eyes, and said , "I just want him...to choose his own happiness."
Mother He's lips moved twice, she suddenly lost all strength, and there was only silent sobbing in the living room.
He Jin didn't know what his parents were talking about outside. He lay down in a daze all morning, hungover and indulgent, with wounds on his lower body, and he had a fever again as expected.
As noon approached, He Jin vaguely heard his mother calling him to eat lunch.
Mother He concealed her emotions and opened the door to come in, and was about to scold him, when she saw her son's face, she quickly put her hand on his forehead, and said in a panic: "Why is it so hot? This is a fever. Get up quickly, and go to the hospital!" "
Thinking of those marks on his body, He Jin was afraid that the doctor would see them if he went to the hospital, so he refused in a hoarse voice: "No, I won't go, just take some medicine and you'll be fine."
Seeing such a fragile and strong son, He's mother was worried for a while, and she couldn't harden her heart. The doubts, prejudices and all negative emotions about "the son may be gay" were temporarily suppressed at this moment.
"Then mother will find some antipyretics for you, hey, you child..." Mother He found a thermometer with red eyes to measure He Jin's temperature, fed him antipyretics, saw that He Jin was sweating profusely, and went to stir it again A hot towel came to wipe He Jin, but he didn't expect that as soon as she came over, He Jin was so scared that he shrank under the quilt.
With a fever, He Jin's sanity was a little blurred, and he said in a terrified tone, "Don't, don't touch me!"
Mother He was taken aback, she couldn't imagine that He Jin resisted her because she was afraid of being seen by others. She didn't know "homosexuality", and it was just that He Jin subconsciously didn't like being touched by women.
"Mom, I'll do it myself..." He Jin reacted, snatching the towel from He Mu's hand in guilt and embarrassment.
These words further verified Mother He's conjecture, her heart was broken, yes, after all, He Jin is not a child of seven or eight years old.
"... Mom will cook some porridge for you." Mother He got up and walked out in a rare and considerate manner. As soon as she walked out of the room, her eyes were moist again.
He Jin buttoned his pajamas tightly, ate some porridge at noon, couldn't sleep in the afternoon, and repeatedly thought about what happened last night, but he was completely drunk, and only remembered a few conversations with that man. The voice is very similar to Qin Yang... However, "I hope that person is Qin Yang" is just his luck, what if it is not
Reminiscent of what happened to his brother He Lin, He Jin suddenly felt chills all over, and sat up from the bed without caring about the pain.
He has a wound on his body and he is bleeding, he should go to the hospital for an examination as soon as possible...
He Jin dug out the text message interface in the bracelet, and the text message from that strange number was still there, but there was only the message "Take a good rest", and there were no new ones after that.
He Jin hesitated and typed three words, and it took a minute before sending out: "Who are you?"
Without waiting for a reply, He Jin went online to search for the hotel where Qin Yang stayed in Q city last night, but he couldn't find it. That's right, the information about the celebrity's stay in the hotel is kept confidential, otherwise fans would have mobbed them.
He Jin was about to make a phone call to inquire about his professional relationship, when the bracelet suddenly vibrated.
Unknown number: "... what do you say?"
He Jin: "..."
Qin Yang was so angry that he was about to gnash his teeth. He did it so many times last night, and he was given sober medicine, that guy He Jin didn't even know who he was sleeping with! Did he think he was fucked by another man
Over there, He Jin was still trying to figure out the meaning of the phrase "What do you mean?" The other party would ask this sentence back, and he must think that he knew him. Could it be that it was really Qin Yang
But he didn't dare to directly ask if the other party was Qin Yang. If not, wouldn't he expose his relationship with the big star
He Jin thought for a while, and sent another one: "QY?" He sent Qin Yang's initials.
When Qin Yang received this text message, the muscles on his face finally stopped being tense, but his expression was still gloomy. He wished he could make a phone call and ask He Jin if he enjoyed being fucked last night.
"Mr. Qin! It's time to enter the studio, you get ready!" The staff's greeting came from not far away, Qin Yang took off the bracelet and put it in his pocket with a straight face, and didn't want to talk to He Jin for the time being.
Before waiting for a reply, He Jin turned on and off the bracelet projection repeatedly, feeling anxious all afternoon.
In the evening, when his fever subsided a little, he got up and went to the living room to have dinner with his parents. During the meal, his bracelet suddenly vibrated, and He Jin froze, pretending to be calm to read the text message.
Unknown number: "Just busy with work."
He Jin felt hot. Although the other party didn't admit it positively, he didn't deny it either, so he could basically confirm it. His heart that had been tense for a long time was miraculously healed by the other party's simple "schedule report".
But after guessing that it was Qin Yang, He Jin became more and more anxious—how did Qin Yang know that he was in the bar? And take him back to the hotel to do something like that? Has he not forgotten himself
He Jin's heart was beating wildly, he took two bites of rice in a hurry and got up and said, "Mom and Dad, I'm done eating, I'm going back to my room first."
Mother He: "Why do you..."
"If you don't feel well, go to bed early." He's father winked at He's mother, but He's mother hesitated to speak.
He Jin closed the door carefully, lay down on the bed with his still sore waist, and opened the bracelet.
Staring at the latest news, He Jin felt sad and happy. He wanted to say a lot to Qin Yang, but suddenly he couldn't say a word...
Now that we have broken up, why continue to entangle? Broken roots will only make both of them suffer.
Especially Qin Yang, his career is developing so well now, he shouldn't come looking for him again, they won't have any results.
He Jin sighed deeply, as if he had made up his mind, he deleted all the text messages from the strange number, and dragged that number into the blacklist.
Because he was too cruel to himself, the moment the number went gray, He Jin felt that his whole world seemed to go dark, as if drinking a bottle of concentrated sulfuric acid, when destroying the remaining "roots" in his body, he also took his own The internal organs are completely corroded.
…
He Jin endured it for a while, only feeling colic in his heart and difficulty in breathing. He unblocked the number from the blacklist with shaking hands, and sent a text message tremblingly: "Tell me if you are Qin Yang!"
After a few seconds, the bracelet vibrated, and the strange number replied: "Yes."
He Jin stared at the word and burst into tears.