He Jin, who prides himself on being strong, never imagined that a man like himself would shed tears over and over again like a woman for another man.
He bit his lip, shrunk his shoulders and twitched into a ball under the blanket, like a person who has been detoxified for three years is once again contaminated with the taste of drugs, and his long-hungry body relives the taste of honey, and the pleasure is overwhelming and makes a comeback , Washing his limbs and bones, let him be temporarily relieved from the pain.
This indulgence and self-sacrifice depravity made three years of self-abuse-like endurance come to naught.
He Jin hugged himself tightly, although he was crying, but it was no longer a cry of despair, but a tear of happiness. He imagined that Qin Yang was holding him, immersed in the fantasy of this moment, calling the other party's name over and over again ,Inextricable.
When he went to work on Monday, He Jin took advantage of his lunch break to go to the hospital to prescribe some anti-inflammatory drugs. While walking on the road, He Jin looked back strangely, always feeling that someone was following him, but when he looked behind him, he didn't see anyone behaving strangely people.
Back at work, He Jin took some medicine and took a nap on the table.
From the second year after working, he obviously felt that his physical strength was not as good as before. When he was studying, he had a regular schedule and was full of energy from morning to night. Now he collapsed in the afternoon if he didn’t sleep at noon.
After saying "yes" last night, Qin Yang didn't send any more text messages, and He Jin didn't reply either.
The two maintain this weird balance, neither of them takes a step forward, they live their own lives in peace and harmony.
He Jin didn't dare to save Qin Yang's number, but he would just look at the two remaining lines of conversation when he had nothing to do, and the string of unfamiliar numbers had already been recited back and forth in his review time and time again.
In the evening, Qin Yang received the information Xiao Zhou observed today—
"Mr. He works in XX unit. He left the house at 7:45 in the morning and arrived at the company around 8:20. He went to the Central Hospital of XX District at noon. He went to the emergency room to see a cold and was prescribed anti-inflammatory drugs. He left work on time at 5:00 pm. Now home."
cold? Qin Yang frowned, he probably didn't have a cold, maybe it was because he did too much that day, the area didn't heal, and he had a fever.
He turned to the dialogue interface with He Jin, wanting to ask a question about his health, but just as soon as he typed the word "you", Qin Yang deleted it with a black face!
Last night, after He Jin found out that he was Qin Yang, he didn't reply a word. Now Qin Yang couldn't bear to talk to He Jin himself—why did I still have to put my hot face on my cold ass after three years? Why didn't He Jin take the initiative to text me!
Qin Yang asked Xiao Zhou: "How is the investigation on his relationship status?"
Xiao Zhou: "I found the local investigative agency, and I can get the information tomorrow."
Qin Yang put away the bracelet, anyway sooner or later this person will be his own, so there is no rush.
On Wednesday, He Jin's health was much better. At dinner, He's mother hesitated for a long time, and couldn't help asking: "Hey, are you in contact with Duan Shurong?"
He's father looked at He's mother thoughtfully, He's mother stared back at him, continued to look at He Jin, and said: "The girl said that you have a good impression of her when I called last time, but you are a boy. You still have to take the initiative yourself, don't let other girls talk."
He Jin didn't think of this until he was reminded by his mother. He said calmly: "Oh, I was about to treat her to dinner. I will ask her if she is free tomorrow night. She said that she usually has five thirty in the afternoon." I'm off work, about the same time as me."
Mother He nodded straightly and said, "Okay, okay, I just need to find opportunities to meet more and get in touch! Then I won't prepare your dinner tomorrow night."
The corners of He Jin's eyes twitched: "...It doesn't necessarily mean that we will meet tomorrow."
After dinner, He Jin sent a text message to ask Duan Shurong, and the other party agreed. He Jin thought that tomorrow was not to deepen the communication, but to show the attitude of breaking up the relationship, and he felt guilty for a while.
"What do you say? Have you contacted her?" Mother He poured juice for He Jin and asked eagerly.
He Jin nodded, Alexander: "Well, then I won't come back for dinner tomorrow night."
Mother He was overjoyed and confessed: "Remember to send the girl home after dinner tomorrow night!"
He Jin: "..." It's so strange, why does it feel like he's suddenly changed? (=_=) I have never seen her care so much about a girl on a blind date before.
Mother He was walking around in the living room and kitchen, not knowing what she was looking for. After half an hour, she found two decent-looking gift boxes. The milk issued by the company before.
"Here, you take this tomorrow, and give it to Miss Duan." Mother He put the bag at He Jin's feet, with a hint of eagerness on her face.
He Jin was speechless: "Mom, we're going...on a date, not at someone's house, why do you ask me to bring this, it's so heavy!"
Mother He rubbed her hands, as if she was still looking for something to give her, and said, "Aren't you going to take her home tomorrow night? What if she invites you in for a sit down? It's not good to have empty hands, so I have to bring them to my family." something."
He Jin finds it unbelievable, how could someone who just started dating, send someone home and immediately enter the door, it's too fraught, and bringing things like this, clearly reminding the other party to take the initiative to invite, is not in line with etiquette, not to mention that he has already planned to tell Duan Shurong Clearly, it is impossible to go to her house!
But of course He Jin didn't dare to tell his mother the truth, instead he said: "Then if she invites me to watch a movie after dinner tomorrow night, is it appropriate for me to carry such two big boxes of things?"
Mother He's face was annoyed, and the old child lost his temper.
"Okay, okay, I'll take it with me." He Jin reluctantly raised his hands in surrender, and then Mother He smiled.
He Jin recalled the things in his childhood, changed his mind, and said, "Mom, do you still remember that when someone wrote me a love letter in junior high school?"
Mother He picked up the plastic flowers at hand, and said while making handmade flowers: "Love letter? What love letter, I forgot."
Making plastic flowers is a hobby that He's mother has just learned recently. Two years ago, He Jin found that many of his mother's ideas were outdated and narrow, and began to coax her to watch some open online courses on psychology and pedagogy online. After seeing a psychiatrist last year, He Jin's practice was greatly appreciated by the doctor. The doctor also suggested that He Jin take his mother to a university for the elderly to develop some hobbies.
At the beginning, his mother was not happy in every possible way. Depression patients like to lock themselves in a dark room alone. They are very conceited about their learning ability, because they are afraid of being hurt, and they are afraid of contacting others. He Jin is like an adult raising a child , Every weekend, rain or shine, he picks up his mother to go to class. In fact, the elderly are most taboo to stay at home and have nothing to do, thinking wildly, and getting bored. Since then, Mother He has things to do and has made some friends in the interest class. The whole person will become more open-minded and open-minded than before.
"You have been attracted to little girls since you were a child. If I hadn't called your homeroom teacher every now and then to find out about your situation, you would have been hooked up by some little hoof." When Mother He said this, her mood was extremely complicated. She used to think that what she did was right, but when she thought that her son liked a man now, she wished to turn back time and never interfere with her son's puppy love anymore. Now that she thinks about it, as long as He Jin can be with a girl, no matter who she is No matter what the conditions, she will burn high incense.
He Jindao: "That Duan Shurong is my junior high school classmate next door. She wrote me a love letter when she was a child, and you found out."
Mother He was taken aback: "Oh, is that so?"
He Jin glanced at Mother He with a smile, and said, "You asked for her phone number from the homeroom teacher, called her, scolded her hard, forgot?"
Mother He's hand stopped, and she said nervously: "Really? What should I do then! Does that girl remember? Does she have a bad impression of me?"
He Jin lowered his eyes and said, "Well, she told me about dinner on Saturday, so you said she wanted to keep in touch with me. I'm quite surprised, because I remember that after that incident, she hated me very much."
Mother He's complexion changed greatly: "This is something that happened when I was a child, how can I take it seriously, why don't my mother call her and apologize to her?"
"No, no need," He Jin grabbed his mother's hand, stroked the wrinkles on it, and said softly, "She said it as a joke, and I just mentioned it casually, I know you just hoped that I wouldn't break up Heart, study hard, the matter is over, we don't mind." He Jin comforted his mother a few words, sighed inaudibly, and said, "But can I be with her, I can't be with you Promise.” —Sorry, Mom.
Going to bed at night, Father He said gloomily, "You want to bring He Jin together with that girl?"
Mother He turned off the light and said, "What if this can be done?" She didn't want to let go of a chance.
However, the conversation with He Jin at night reminded him of the things he did when he was young, and for the first time, Mother He felt regretful: "My wife, tell me, did I harm He Jin..."
"What are you thinking?" Father He scolded.
Mother He was stunned for a long time before she said: "I don't let him fall in love early, and I don't care if he falls in love. Is it because of this that He Jin is abnormal... He Jin showed me a class taught by a professor at Lu University before, saying that he wanted to marry him." Correctly guide the children's outlook on love, and not forcibly suppress it, I don't think I have done a good job."
Father He patted her: "Don't think about it, no matter what happens to He Jin, this is our fate, just like you married me, Lao He, and lived a hard life with me. Accept fate."
Mother He: "..."
The next day, He Jin went to work with a gift box of health care products and milk. When he entered the office, a group of people surrounded him.
Xiao Li said in surprise: "Oh, Brother Jin, who gave you this gift!"
He Jin smiled wryly: "Don't talk nonsense, I don't dare to accept gifts from others when I work in this kind of unit. I'm going to meet at night... Cough, meet an elder."
Xiao Li winked and said, "Is she the future mother-in-law?"
He Jin: "..."
Xiao Li dragged his cheeks and said: "Hey, Brother Jin, you are so handsome, and you are not young anymore. You really don't have a girlfriend?"
He Jin nodded, put the things down and sorted out the documents to be interrogated today: "No, I don't plan to look for them either."
"No way! Don't your parents urge you? I just graduated for a year, and I haven't had enough fun yet. My family is urging me to death. It's annoying!" Xiao Li said, and handed over the list of investigating Director Xu. To He Jin, whispered, "Look at this, it really is tricky!"
He Jin frowned and swept it away, took out the approval form hoarded last week, stamped it as a disapproval, and commented: "The application requirements are not enough." Then he handed it to Xiao Li and said, "Send it to Director Xu and take it back. .”
During lunch, He Jin's wristband vibrated, and he received an unfamiliar number that was not signed. He Jin almost thought it was from Qin Yang, but when he took a closer look, he found out that it was not. The content of the text message was a bit scary: "Director He, don't give Shameless, just wait and see."