He Jin opened his eyes wide, letting tears flow, his scalp numb from Qin Yang's words... Did he say that in front of Qin Yang? Was it drunk
Qin Yang raised his hand again, and threatened viciously: "You look at me and swear to God, and swear to your parents! Say you don't want me anymore! Say you have nothing to do with me! Then I, Qin Yang I won’t provoke you anymore! Say it!”
How could He Jin be able to speak, he shook his head unconsciously, his psychological defenses were in a mess, and the mask he had worn for three years was so broken that it could no longer cover his crying face.
Qin Yang looked at He Jin crying bitterly, contrary to his usual cold and forbearing appearance, no longer caring about face and inner self, self-esteem and pride, but so real and vivid, making people love and pity.
He hugged him tightly, hugging him tightly, and his eyes were sore.
For them, the three years that seemed like a passing time in life seemed like a lifetime—a lifetime of loneliness, suffering and struggle. He Jin never imagined that the indulgence and romance of youth stimulated by hormones would be so unforgettable. .
Originally hypocritically wanted to keep their relationship in the most beautiful moment, but the abrupt withdrawal made both of them miserable.
He Jin looked into Qin Yang's eyes with tears in his eyes, and asked: "It's been three years, why do you still..." Why do you still come to me, why do you still miss me.
Before He Jin could ask, Qin Yang interrupted him: "I have waited for eight years, what is three years, if you don't look back, I will wait for you forever."
He Jin was so shocked by these words that his heart stopped beating and his blood clotted. It took several seconds for him to recover his physiological functions, as if he wanted to make up for the missed beat just now, supplement the short-term lack of oxygen in his whole body, and his heart and blood began to beat and flow rapidly. washing over his perception.
He embraced Qin Yang with trembling hands, and kissed the man actively with his tear-stained lips. Qin Yang convulsed with excitement, and kissed back vigorously—at this moment, they seemed to be connected with each other.
He Jin let go of everything, hooked Qin Yang's neck not to be outdone, the salty taste spread between their lips and tongues, the two were entangled affectionately in the twilight of late autumn, by the car in the countryside.
They didn't move their lips until the kiss was exhausted. Taking advantage of this gap, He Jin pressed against his lips and apologized with sobs: "I'm sorry, Qin Yang, I'm sorry..."
"I don't want 'sorry'! I want you!" Qin Yang opened the car door with red eyes, pushed He Jin in, and then jumped in himself.
He Jin was pushed down on the back seat, and immediately realized what Qin Yang was going to do. But he will not refuse again, even though such behavior is so crazy and violates his moral constraints, but he is infected by this strong and passionate love, he doesn't want to resist those rules and regulations, he just wants to follow Qin Yang to follow the crowd.
Qin Yang reached into his pants and kneaded them heavily. He Jin hummed in a crying voice, but the ending sound was full of longing.
After a few strokes, the two of them became extremely hard. Qin Yang pulled He Jin's trousers off forcefully and pulled out one leg. The underwear and outer trousers were hanging on one of the ankles. He only pulled off the white jeans. He couldn't get naked in the suburbs where cars were passing by at any time.
There was no condom and no lubricating fluid, so Qin Yang lifted one of He Jin's legs and poked him, and poked it on He Jin's chrysanthemum.
Until Qin Yang's front end secreted transparent mucus because of excitement, he pushed in with that little bit of lubrication.
He Jin didn't feel better, he was forcibly stretched away again, the pain was greater than the pleasure but he didn't seem to feel it, lifted his waist, and accepted Qin Yang with humiliation.
Twelve years, he didn't know what love is before, and wanted to ask, but he didn't realize until this moment that love is a kind of existence without reason, it is magic, it is destiny, it can make you live, It can also kill you. You think you can control it, but in the end you realize that you are just its slave.
He suddenly realized that his retreat three years ago was so unreasonable and wishful thinking. He thought it was for the good of himself and Qin Yang, but the ending was not good for them. It was the same as what his parents did to him. What's the difference? They could have faced it together, they could have chosen a better path...
He Jin looked at Qin Yang and felt that he was staying in his body. The guilt in his heart was mixed with full of affection, and he invited in a low voice: "Come on." He wanted to make Qin Yang happy in this kind of thing, and it was best to serve him. He went to heaven, watched him gallop on him, felt his need for him, and then the two of them reached an orgasm together... It seemed that only in this way could he make up for the damage he had caused Qin Yang in the past three years.
Qin Yang started to twitch, and He Jin couldn't hold back and started moaning. Compared with three years ago, Qin Yang's attitude in sexual matters became much rougher, as if after one meal, there would be no next one to catch him and tease him. , Bite him, like a red-eyed beast.
He Jin didn't retreat but advanced, he took the initiative to hug Qin Yang, raised his neck and licked his ear, he wanted to be more crazy.
"... tease me, you're going to kill yourself..." Qin Yang squinted his eyes and said flirtatiously, and slammed his crotch into the deepest part with force.
This bump seemed to break all the shackles on He Jin's body. He cried out in pain and joy, panting, and wanted to beg for mercy, but he said: "I want to..."... smash me, kill me Let me sink together.
Qin Yang was stunned, lost his mind and went crazy for a while, and was about to climax, he wanted to pull out, but He Jin hugged his buttocks and sent him into his body: "Don't go, don't go out..."
When Qin Yang got excited, he yelled "Ah", hugged He Jin and shot all over his ass. At that moment, He Jin also curled up his toes and shot. They were panting, so satisfied that they almost died on each other.
The temperature of the body is slowly fading, but the two are still hugging each other, inseparable
Qin Yang rubbed He Jin's face with his lips, licking his red and swollen eyelids lightly like a small animal, there was no smell of tears on it, but Qin Yang kept leaving his own tears on it as if he couldn't kiss enough. smell.
With his eyes closed, He Jin put his arms around Qin Yang's back and rubbed it lightly. The two rubbed their ears together, letting the ambiguous atmosphere fill the carriage, ferment to the extreme, turn into sugar, condense into wine, and get drunk.
The temperature of the body is slowly fading, but the two are still hugging each other, inseparable.
Qin Yang rubbed He Jin's face with his lips, licking his red and swollen eyelids lightly like a small animal, there was no smell of tears on it, but Qin Yang kept leaving his own tears on it as if he couldn't kiss enough. smell.
With his eyes closed, He Jin put his arms around Qin Yang's back and rubbed it lightly. The two rubbed their ears together, letting the ambiguous atmosphere fill the carriage, ferment to the extreme, turn into sugar, condense into wine, and get drunk.
"Fool..." In the end, He Jin couldn't help but speak first, his voice hoarse from crying revealed a hint of coquettishness after the incident. He stroked the back of Qin Yang's head and whispered softly, "Why are you so stupid..."
"Where am I stupid?" Qin Yang's voice also became lazy, no longer as fierce as before, and the voice was full of warmth and magnetism.
He Jin felt as if his whole body was electrified, and his whole body was numb. He suddenly realized that he seemed to have fallen in love with Qin Yang when he heard Qin Yang's voice four years ago.
Log in to the game again after eight years, and listen to the gentle and ambiguous "Ajin" from the earphones. Perhaps, from that moment on, I have already fallen.
Fearing that the other party will feel disgusted if he knows that he is a boy, he carefully conceals it, worrying about gains and losses; but also unable to resist the attraction of the other party, he sticks out his tentacles and slowly approaches...
He Jin hugged Qin Yang who was pressing on him. He didn't know what else to say now. Facing such a fool who was willing to wait for him for the rest of his life, the power of words was too weak. He could only use the rest of his life to promise, promise to Qin Yang's perseverance.
Seeing that He Jin didn't respond, Qin Yang raised his head and asked anxiously, "Are we reconciled?"
In front of the fans and the public, a person who is so cool, unrestrained and high-spirited, has an undisguised fragility and uneasiness in his eyes at this moment.
"Well," He Jin raised his neck and kissed him proactively. No one understands the feeling of regaining what is lost better than them. Apart from joy, there is also fear, holding on tightly as if afraid of losing it again, unwilling to part an inch, "...I love you."
That night. He Jin glanced at the bracelet, and got out of the car at 9:17.
Sitting in the car, Qin Yang looked at him, thinking of He Jin's sudden confession just now, happiness came too fast, too unreal...
He raised his head and looked at one of the tube buildings. After reading the information investigated by Xiao Zhou, he knew that one of the windows was He Jin's home, where He Jin had lived for nearly thirty years, and where his freedom was restricted.
The entrance of the dark building downstairs looked like a monster's mouth. Seeing that He Jin's thin back was about to be engulfed by the shadow, Qin Yang jumped out of the car anxiously, and shouted in panic: "He Jin!"
He Jin paused, turned around, glanced at Qin Yang, and then turned back: "What's wrong?"
Qin Yang looked at him and said awkwardly, "Do you want me to accompany you up?"
He Jin smiled, there were traces of crying on his face, but he smiled so calmly, "Extend your hand." He said to Qin Yang.
Qin Yang stretched out his hand inexplicably, but He Jin took out all his wallet, ID, and bracelet and put them in his hand, then raised his head and said, "Wait for me here."
Qin Yang: "..."
He Jin walked back steadily, with love in his heart, he was full of courage, this time it was no longer for himself, but for Qin Yang, he wanted to fight again.
Qin Yang raised his head and counted the time. At 9:30, he randomly stuffed He Jin's things into his trouser pockets, reached out to take out the cigarette case, and lit the cigarette with shaking hands.
In the days without He Jin, Qin Yang developed the habit of smoking when he was so anxious. He was afraid that He Jin would never return again, that He Jin would walk down like a defeated rooster and say, "I Parents don't agree, let's go"...
Qin Yang knew that He Jin could do such a thing, he was such a cruel person.
At 9:45, there were already two cigarette butts under Qin Yang's feet. He seemed to hear someone shouting upstairs, hysterical, and crying, but he couldn't tell which floor it was coming from.
At 9:55, the crying and shouting stopped, and Qin Yang was so anxious that he went around in circles.
At 10:15, it had been an hour since He Jin left. There were five cigarette butts on the ground. Qin Yang squeezed the cigarette case tightly, put his hand on the car wall, and gently knocked on the window glass with his forehead.
At half past ten, there was finally a sound behind him. Qin Yang turned around immediately and saw He Jin coming out from the shadows, his gaze flickered, and he locked his face eagerly.
He Jin smiled, walked over quickly, ran, and rushed over, as if wings grew from behind, carrying the wind, the hope of flying, and freedom.
Qin Yang's uneasiness gradually disappeared, and he also gained a new life.
Eight years of waiting imaginatively, three years of longing, finally, this time, he was not left alone.
"Why did you have that expression just now?" He Jin was suffocated in the hug, and gently pushed him away, and the two separated a little.
He Jin looked at Qin Yang's face, Qin Yang was also looking at him, he didn't answer He Jin's question, but gently touched He Jin's swollen cheek, and said distressedly: "Did she hit you?"
"It's okay, it doesn't hurt." He Jin brushed his cheeks nonchalantly, "It's cold outside, get in the car, I'll go back to the hotel with you."
"Are they willing to let you go?" Qin Yang asked anxiously.
"Yeah." He Jin put on his seat belt, why would he let himself go? He was also surprised. At the last moment, his father was holding his mother, and said to him with wet eyes - "Let's go, my father is here." He It surprised me that.
"How did you tell them?" Qin Yang put down the hand brake, and the car started slowly.
He Jin propped his elbows on the window of the car, holding half of his swollen face, and said slowly: "I told my mother that I am different from my brother, even if I am with you, I will not act like that." That kind of thing, let alone ignore them."
Qin Yang glanced at him: "I heard someone yelling just now, and thought you were arguing fiercely."
He Jin froze for a moment: "We didn't quarrel."
In fact, the situation was much better than what He Jin had imagined. He thought it would be difficult to take that step. He was terrified that his mother would go crazy, but his mother just slapped him and kept crying. He was the one talking all the time. After he finished his reasons and thoughts, he begged his parents for support and understanding. His mother stubbornly yelled no, and his father came forward.
Although He's father promised not to tell He's mother what happened three years ago, He Jin always feels that his parents seem to be psychologically prepared to face his coming out.
"Maybe you got it wrong." He Jin looked at Qin Yang with twinkle in his eyes.
He was finally able to bravely face his own heart - he couldn't tell how happy he was to see Qin Yang again.
The two returned to the hotel, took a shower together, rolled the sheets and kissed for a while, but they didn't have the energy to do that kind of thing again, so they could only hold each other and talk all night long.
He Jin asked Qin Yang about his situation in the past three years, which he had never dared to know, but now, he wished to know every bit about Qin Yang immediately.
"I heard that you have a girlfriend." He Jin asked, pinching Qin Yang's hand, remembering the one thing he cared about most in the past three years.
"Who did you listen to?" Qin Yang pinched back dissatisfied.
"The monkey said, he said he saw you taking a beautiful girl to school, probably before I went back to school to defend..." He Jin himself didn't realize that his tone was full of sourness.
"I haven't pursued the account of your eighteen blind dates yet! How dare you be jealous of me?!" Qin Yang said anxiously.
"You...you investigate me!" He Jin's eyes widened in shock.
"I just found out yesterday," Qin Yang snorted, "If you didn't beg me not to leave you that night, I wouldn't bother to investigate you."
"..."(=_=)
"Isn't it the same for you? There have been so many news related to me in the past three years, and I've been watching TV on the Internet. You actually asked me how I was doing. I'm doing it so bluntly for you! "The more Qin Yang talked, the more unhappy he became.
He Jin's heart warmed. Could it be that one of Qin Yang's reasons for staying in the entertainment circle was to make himself pay attention to him
He kissed Qin Yang, and subdued guiltily: "It's my fault... I don't dare to read your news, I'm afraid I'll miss you, feel bad and feel bad." He seemed to be able to confess all of a sudden, no need to hide himself in front of his lover. , pretending to be strong.
It's like a crab has cut open the hard shell, showing the softest side to the trusted person without reservation.
It's also rare for Qin Yang to see this side of He Jin, and he doesn't get angry all of a sudden. He understands the feeling He Jin said, and he himself is trying not to contact the other party, fearing that if he meets again, he won't be able to hold back, like Same as last time, I made a cheap post.
"The girl Hou Dongyan saw was an assistant the company found for me. She is called Li Xiaowen. She is still following me and knows my relationship with you. Don't be jealous anymore." Qin Yang said in a low voice.
The two rubbed their necks against each other and kissed lingeringly, the sour smell in the air was soon overwhelmed by the sweet smell.
"In the future... what do you plan to do?" He Jin finally asked the biggest problem that the two of them were about to face right now.
Now that they have reconciled, they will be together, but now one of them is mainly stationed in City A, and the other is working in City Q. It would be fatal to be separated for an hour, let alone separate the two places.
Qin Yang frowned uncomfortably: "I'm going to fly to City A to do a show tomorrow, so I can't stay in City Q all the time..." He hugged He Jin tightly, struggled for a moment, and asked, "He Jin, can you... follow me Walk?"