detachment.
Lin Luxiao was imprisoned for four days. Meng Guohong released Lin Qingyuan only after Lin Qingyuan was admitted to the hospital.
When he came out, he was still wearing the same military uniform, and his face, which used to be high-spirited, was now particularly gloomy, as if he had lost some weight, with some scum on his chin, and tired brows.
The condition is very poor.
Meng Guohong was sitting on the chair, seeing him slumped, he was angry and hated, he gritted his teeth and said, "Look at you for doing this!"
Lin Luxiao lowered his head, stood up straight, his back was cold, and he didn't speak.
Meng Guohong hated that iron cannot be made into steel, and slapped the table angrily. Seeing that he was suffering, he couldn't bear to continue, and only sighed: "You, you!"
He was still standing upright, with the most standard military posture, like a green pine standing guard on the side of the road all the year round.
Meng Guohong directly threw over a document, "From top to bottom of the organization, I will send you to Lushan for support next week."
The man finally moved, raised his eyelids, and said, "How long?"
This was the first time he spoke in four days, and his voice seemed to have been ground and sank to the bottom.
Meng Guohong put his hands on the table, was silent for a while, and then said slowly: "One year."
Lin Luxiao was expressionless and emotional, and quickly accepted the assignment: "Okay."
Lower your head, your mind is already planning. Lushan is in Anjiang, the farthest mountainous area in the south. There is no airport in Anjiang, so you have to take a train to go there. When you arrive in Anjiang, you have to take a bus to go to Lushan. Report next week, plus the time on the road, he still has There are three days to prepare.
He had to go find Nanchu.
After going there, there is no way to come back for the time being, so he has to go to find Shen Mu and Liu, and ask them to help take care of him.
I still have to go see Lin Qi and ask him to take care of the old man.
I have to see the old man again, it seems that this time he is really angry.
Meng Guohong lit a cigarette on the chair, and laughed sarcastically: "Silly boy, what are you talking about! Wasn't it pretty horizontal on the roof that day? You can give up for the life of that woman, why are you so obedient now?" gone?"
Lin Luxiao's complexion did not change, and his voice was calm: "You think too much, it's the same decision for everyone that day, in this line of work, you have to be greedy for life and fear death, it's better to retire from the army."
Meng Guohong was stunned for a moment, then nodded in a daze, isn't this kid like this
He laughed: "Okay, let's go, Lushan is a good place to train people. Some things should be yours and they are yours. The leader thinks that you lack training and sends you to that place to sharpen your temper. You should take it easy. Don't worry about it." Give me that place to break the sky."
…
After coming out of the office, Lin Luxiao drove straight to the hospital.
Lin Qingyuan was walking back from the balcony with his hands behind his back. When he turned his head, he saw a tall guy standing at the gate. His brows and eyes were tired and his beard was gray. He was stunned for a moment before he glanced away and heard him call: "Dad—"
He was alone in the ward, and the winter sun was warm and unrestrained, but it was cold.
Lin Qingyuan waved his hand, "Why do you look like a ghost? You don't know how to shave your beard?"
Actually many years.
They had never stood together and talked properly. Lin Luxiao didn't understand Lin Qingyuan's pride, and always thought it was his fault for divorcing his mother, but he didn't know that the most sensitive part of his heart was his mother all these years.
And Lin Qingyuan didn't even know Lin Luxiao's self-esteem, what he hoped most was his father's praise.
But Lin Qingyuan's simple words crushed him.
Before entering this ward, Lin Luxiao thought a lot at the door. The praise his father was stingy with gave him was indeed that he didn't deserve it, maybe he really wasn't that good.
He wrapped his little wildness with righteousness.
He is just bad, he used his playful nature to bully Da Liu and the others when he was a child.
Emotionally, he is determined to go his own way, arrogant and domineering, and never considers others.
Is he not responsible for what happened to Lin Qi? He has.
Just like what Meng Guohong said, his temper still needs to be tempered.
"I'm going to Lushan next week." This was his farewell.
Lin Qingyuan looked far away, and then slowly nodded, saying concisely: "Go, a man should be tempered, what about the girl?"
When Nan Chu was mentioned, his eyes softened, "I haven't seen you yet."
Lin Qingyuan nodded, "Go and meet her, it's not easy for her."
Lin Luxiao lowered his head and hummed.
The daylight outside the window is long, with no end in sight, everything is as good as spring, and as cold as winter.
"I dreamed about your grandpa two days ago. The old man is very good. He said that in this life, there are too many regrets. For example, he didn't see his platoon leader until he died, and he asked me to continue Look for him, maybe he's still alive."
When Lin Qingyuan said this, his tone was very relaxed, and there was a rare kind smile on his face, which was different from his usual seriousness: "Your grandfather asked me to tell you in a dream that your boy has lived smoothly for thirty years. Since childhood, no matter whether it is Da Liu or Lao Meng, they all like to hold you, and they have hardly suffered setbacks. This time, it happened to go to Lushan to hone and hone. Men have to suffer a little bit, not everyone can do it. Follow you, but as a soldier, you must always keep your responsibilities in mind, go out, don't embarrass your father!"
"yes."
"Do you remember what the old man said?"
"Remember."
"Recite it again."
He suddenly straightened his back, and said word by word: "One inch of rivers and mountains, one inch of blood, one hundred thousand young men and one hundred thousand troops."
"Let me tell you one more thing." Lin Qingyuan said: "A man should show his ambition and abide by his true nature and heart. No matter how others poke your back, you have to do what you have to do. Time will tell everything."
…
Probably after Nan Chu decided to go to the United States, Nan Yueru relaxed her control, and the two burly men still went back to the door to check the identities of the people entering and leaving.
Xigu came in that day, and was stopped and questioned by two bodyguards for a long time, until Nanchu said, "Then my assistant, are you two finished?"
The two looked at each other and let go.
Xi Gu went in with a box full of cherries, put it on the bedside for her, pulled a stool and sat down beside her bed, "Who are they looking for?"
Nan Chu: "I'm a man."
Xi Gu was taken aback, "What will happen if we find out?"
Nan Chu thought for a while, "Throw it away? Or take it to my mother?"
Xigu couldn't understand, shook his head, thinking that this world is too crazy, "Do you want me to help you report the news?"
Nan Chu shook his head, "No need, unless he shows up by himself, you won't be able to find him."
Xi Gu took a deep breath, "Spy?"
Nan Chu twitched the corner of his mouth and said relaxedly, "Maybe."
Otherwise, why hasn't it appeared yet
After a brief joke, the atmosphere sank again. Xigu knew that Nan Chu was in a bad mood, so he tried to tell some funny things to make her happy.
Nan Chu listened with little interest.
until-
When talking about someone, Xi Gu had an unusual blush on his face. She happened to catch it, and raised her eyebrows: "Together?"
oops.
Xigu was shy, brushed his hair and lowered his head.
Nan Chu smiled, understood, and said without any scruples: "It seems that you have done something indescribable?"
Xi Gu blushed even more, and lowered her head even lower. She didn't know what to say for a moment, and if she said too much, she was afraid of hurting her.
Nan Chu smiled indifferently, "It's good. I'm going to the United States in a while. Although Han Beiyao is not reliable sometimes, I can rest assured that he will take care of you."
Xi Gu raised his head suddenly, full of shock, thinking he had heard it wrong, and repeatedly confirmed: "Are you going to America? Why haven't I heard of it?"
Nan Chu rubbed her head: "Because I didn't tell anyone."
Xi Gu suddenly sniffed, "When are you leaving?"
"next week."
Like a bolt from the blue, it fell directly, and Xi Gumeng circled him. Thinking of her leaving, he felt sad again, "You're not filming anymore? Does your man know?"
Nan Chu shook his head, and said in a relaxed tone, "I don't know yet."
Hearing her tone, Xi Gu almost cried. After getting along with her for so many days, she has always understood that Nan Chu is not good at expressing emotions, and the sadder things become easier to say from her mouth.
As a result, that night, Nan Chu coaxed Xi Gu for a long time before coaxing him away.
For a long time, she could remember what Nan Chu said that night.
"I told you before that if you can't shut up other people's mouths, then cover your own ears. In fact, it's an ostrich behavior. In the past, when others scolded me, I didn't look at it, didn't think about it, and blocked it out, and then lived. In my own world, I protect myself, but I can't protect the person I want to protect. This is what my mother taught me. In the past twenty years, I have learned nothing but two words, escape. "
She seems to be very free and easy, but she is actually shrunk in her own shell, still depending on how the outside world beats her, she has her own world.
Nan Chu smiled, and suddenly there was light in his eyes, brighter than the moonlight outside the window.
"Later, I got to know Lin Luxiao. He taught me to be cheerful, optimistic, uphold a kind heart, and be full of hope for the motherland."
Xi Gu had never met Lin Luxiao before, and after listening to Nan Chu's description, she became more and more curious about this man.
Nan Chu shook his head again: "These are not enough. I found that I am kind, but others are not kind to me. Only when I am strong enough can I protect the people I want to protect."
Xigu left crying.
She really felt that Nan Chu had changed a bit. The previous Nan Chu was a little indifferent, indifferent to the world, deliberately indifferent. It's not that she doesn't care, she just pretends that she doesn't care with indifference. But now, Nanchu's whole body is very relaxed. Once a person has a direction, his whole body is full of strength.
The moonlight is getting stronger.
When Nanchu went out to smoke a cigarette on the balcony, he saw Lin Luxiao leaning against the car door and looking up at her.
I haven't seen you for a week.
The night covered him, and his figure was stretched out by the moonlight. He was wearing a black jacket with the zipper pulled up to the top, covering half of his face, revealing a pair of slightly upturned peach blossom eyes. , fixed on her for a moment, pulled down the zipper casually, got up and came towards her.
Not in the direction of the stairs, but under the outer wall of the balcony.
I just ran into Yan Dai downstairs, and kindly reminded him not to go through the main entrance, or he might be taken away to see his mother-in-law.
It's not that he's afraid of seeing Nan Yueru, but now, he doesn't want to waste time, he wants to see Nan Chu first.
At half past eleven.
Most of the lights in the inpatient department were turned off.
A black figure climbed up to the third floor along the window edge of the outer wall, the outer unit of the air conditioner, and a few water baffles on the wall.
Nan Chu watched helplessly as he came up with his bare hands, turned over with his strength, and the fender swayed. She wanted to scream, but she was afraid of attracting attention, so she tightly covered her mouth.
As a result, Lin Luxiao calmly stepped on the wall and turned over to grab the edge of the window next to him.
For the last time, he directly supported the railing of the balcony with both hands, turned over and landed.
Just standing in front of Nan Chu just like that.
"Are you crazy? What if you fall?"
Lin Luxiao pinched the little girl's face to look carefully, and smiled, "Miss me?"
Nan Chu was so angry that he said, "Don't do such dangerous things all the time, okay?"
"Are you really angry?" Lin Luxiao pulled her into his arms, lowered his head and rubbed his chin on the top of her head, "Be careful next time, I really miss you."
Nan Chu reached out and hugged him.
This action directly caused Lin Luxiao to want to push her in and throw her on the bed, but considering that the little girl is weak, no beast can do this on someone else's hospital bed, so she endured it and bowed her head and kissed her twice thing.
As a result, Nan Chu directly pushed him in, rode on him, and pulled the zipper of his jacket to the end with a "wow".
Lin Luxiao grabbed her hand and pressed her back on the bed, his eyes were full of depression: "This is still in the hospital!"
"fine."
Nan Chu was pressed down, her hair scattered all over the pillow, her eyes were full of water, she raised her head to block his lips, the force was too strong, the first hit hit the corner of his lips, and the second time she hugged him lips, the tip of tongue to pry open his, and slowly slide in.
Just like he kissed her before, slowly teasing him bit by bit.
This time the fire was lit.
Nan Chu's unexpected enthusiasm almost made Lin Luxiao want to explode. He felt blood rushing to one place all over his body, his eyes were scarlet, and he directly pushed him down and sat up.
There was no light on inside.
In this thin moonlight, Nan Chu heard the sound of him undoing his belt.
…
The narrow single bed was not well-made, it seemed to be falling apart, and Lin Luxiao was tall and tall, so if he moved a little, the bed would make a "creak" sound.
As soon as the bed rang, a voice came from the door, "Miss Nan, what are you doing?"
Nan Chu played a prank on the upper body, stared at the person on the body, and deliberately said slowly, "Do—exercise before going to bed."
…
After finishing, Nan Chu leaned against the head of the bed to get dressed, and Lin Luxiao came out of the toilet naked after taking a shower.
She glanced at the restless lump between his legs, and then turned back. Lin Luxiao put on his trousers and shirtless, showing his solid chest. While buckling his belt, he walked to the side of her bed and rubbed his hands Rubbing her hair, "I have something to tell you."
Nan Chu nodded, "Say it."
Lin Luxiao brushed the broken hair from her ears back, "I'm going to Lushan next week, it will take a year, and the chance of coming back is rare, you are here—"
"Captain, let's break up."
These words were so cold that Lin Luxiao felt that everything just now seemed to be his dream.
"Don't be joking." Lin Luxiao pinched her ear, like a warning.
In the end, Nan Chu turned his face sideways and blocked him, "I'm serious."
When the human brain receives some bad news, it secretes a source of neurons that resist the news until—
Unable to resist, it slowly entered the central nervous system of the brain before realizing it.
Oh, it's reality.
Lin Luxiao's process was a bit long.
After Nan Chu finished speaking, he was silent for a while, and sat on the edge of the bed with his back to her, before asking, "Why?"
Nan Chu blurted out: "Tired."
Is really tired, tired and happy.
Lin Luxiao glanced down with a sullen face, "I don't agree."
Nan Chu: "I'm going to America next week."
If the previous breakup just made him feel helpless, but this sentence completely angered Lin Luxiao. Without his knowing, she had already chosen to leave.
But he still chose to suppress his anger, and slowly asked word by word: "What are you doing in America?"
"To go to school, my mother found a school and completed the previously arrears."
Lin Luxiao's voice lost its warmth, and his patience grew after getting to know Nan Chu, "You go to your America and come back after finishing your studies."
Lushan can come back in only one year, no matter how bad it is, she can always finish her studies in two years, right
"Actually, you and I both know that waiting is aimless. I want to complete more than just school—"
This process is very long, one year is not short, and ten years is not long.
He suddenly bent down, arched his back, put his hands on his legs, and interrupted her angrily: "Then what do you want?!"
She was indifferent, and touched his black hair with her hands, her eyes were affectionate.
"To be honest, did you regret for a moment when the public opinion broke out? You blamed yourself for your father's admission to the hospital. Similarly, I blamed myself for this matter."
Lin Luxiao stood up, pulled off the clothes on the side, put them on over his head, and said sternly: "I don't agree to break up, the rest is up to you."
Then there was the jacket, zipped it up, Lin Luxiao stared at her, not wanting to stay any longer, and said without emotion: "Let's go, do you have anything else to say?"
"sorry."
Nan Chu lowered his head and said.
It was like lighting up a firecracker, and a single sentence blew him up completely, and the demeanor he had maintained forbearance completely collapsed.
He wasn't very personable.
He cursed in a low voice, something that he would never swear even if he was angry again.
Lin Luxiao stood by the door pinched his waist, licked the corner of his mouth, and smiled mockingly: "Are you kidding me?"
Nan Chu shook his head, "We are serious about being together, and we are serious about being apart."
They all need time to solve real problems.
Before that, Nan Chu felt that she shouldn't bind a man with promises, but she was such a good and brave captain.
Love, in fact, should be at ease with the situation.
Lin Luxiao stood at the door with a cold expression on his face. Compared with his usual serious eyebrows, his eyebrows were tightened with anger at this moment, showing a fierce look.
Never seen him so angry.
The hands in his pockets were clenched tightly, and even his voice was full of blood, for fear that he would pick up the stool next to him and throw it at Nanchu.
"Are you fucking proud in your heart? Do you think everyone deserves to wait there for you? God damn serious! I believe your evil!"
After speaking, he left directly.
The room returned to silence, as if no one had been there, and everything returned to normal.
The person on the bed remained motionless in the same posture as before.
After a long time, she raised her hand to wipe away her tears and turned her head away.
There is silence outside the window, with dead trees and branches, yellowed leaves falling to the ground, and tender new shoots sprouting from the branches, it is all hope——
But beside him is the lover who is about to travel far.
The next road is to walk alone.
It doesn't matter if you don't have a companion, there is still a lover in the distance—
…
Probably the night before going to Lushan, Lin Luxiao came out of Lin Qingyuan's ward. While smoking at the door, he glanced at Nanchu's ward. Immediately, he stomped out the cigarette, climbed up the window edge, and flipped inside again. Nanchu Ward.
When he hooked the railing, turned over and stood still, the balcony door was not closed tightly. Looking in from the window, it was an unusually dark inside, the curtains were empty, and there was no one on the bed. The room was deserted and the cold wind was blowing.
The palm of the hand is aching.
He looked down and saw that he had been punctured by the thorn edge of the window sill when he just climbed up, and blood was bubbling.
Ignored by him.
There was a nurse rounding the room outside the door, probably seeing the strangeness of the half-hidden door, she couldn't help but push it open and saw the back of a tall man sitting vaguely on the hospital bed in the dark room, He took a sharp breath, clicked on the light with a "snap", and shouted boldly: "Who are you?!"
The room lights up instantly.
Unable to adapt to the sudden light, the man squinted his eyes before slowly turning to look at her.
Lin Luxiao was still wearing the black jacket, with the hood pulled up and the zipper pulled up to the top to block his nose. The nurse just looked at the exposed eyes, and felt that this man was handsome, and felt a little relieved. Ask again, this time with a calm expression: "Sir, who are you looking for?"
"Where are the people in this ward?"
His voice is low and hoarse, with a unique sense of frigidity.
The nurse remembered, "I was discharged from the hospital. I heard that I went to the United States today."
This was said by the girl who helped with the discharge procedures, saying that she was going to the airport in a hurry.
When the nurse talked about this, she suddenly remembered the scene when she first came here to pack her things, "Her friend went through the discharge procedures for her, and she was bored, so she just folded the quilt here for a long time, unpacked, folded and unpacked, it was still the same kind The tofu cubes in the army are neatly stacked—"
He suddenly lowered his head and smiled, mocking himself.
At his home back then, he taught her how to make tofu cubes—
"If you don't stack well, you are not allowed to eat!"
She really bowed her body, smiling and unpacking the stack, unpacking it, sometimes when the stack was finished, she would raise her head to ask him for praise, and if she couldn't stack it well, she would just have fun by herself.
After that night.
Later, she was trained in the army, and her internal affairs were the best among all female soldiers.
Lin Luxiao looked at the boxy tofu cubes on the bed.
It's not hard to imagine how she felt when she was stacking tofu cubes. She was saying goodbye to him in this way.
So fucking interesting.
let's go.
If you leave, don't fucking come back!
…
The next day, Lin Luxiao boarded the train to Anjiang.
Without informing anyone, he carried a hiking bag and left, just like when he was in the military academy, without looking back.
As a result, Liu and Chen Mu just squatted at the train station and waited for him.
When the tall man in black clothes, black trousers, black bag and black hat appeared at the gate of the train station, Da Liu spat out the toothpick in his mouth, jumped three feet high, dragged Shen Mu over, and stopped him, "I His mother knew that your kid was going to sneak away!"
Lin Luxiao put his hands in his pockets and was taken aback, "What are you two doing?"
Da Liu: "You are not going to suffer, my buddy is here to see you off."
Lin Luxiao kicked him directly on the calf.
Big Liu laughed straight.
Liu didn't know about Nan Chu's going to the United States until today after hearing from Xu Zhiyi. Because Nan Chu went to the United States, the director notified Xu Zhiyi to rejoin the group.
Thus, he indirectly learned about Lin Luxiao's dumping.
It was obvious that Lin Luxiao was in a bad mood, and at this juncture, Da Liu didn't dare to find him unhappy.
Although the love is unsatisfactory, at least his brother is still there, so he patted him on the shoulder and said generously: "Is it convenient for you, when will I go to see you with Shen Mu."
Shen Mu nodded, "Okay, let's go in. I heard that there is no heating in the south. If you really can't stand it, call your buddies and tell me that I will send you warmth in the ten-mile winter. Don't let it go."
Lin Luxiao laughed and cursed: "Fart!"
But just this sound made Da Liu cry, wiping his nose and tears, "I still feel comfortable listening to you scolding me! I don't know you anymore with your gentleness before!"
Lin Luxiao didn't bother to talk about it anymore, rubbed Liu's head, turned around gracefully, "Okay, I'm leaving."
The station is full of people coming and going, noisy and noisy.
Lovers say goodbye and embrace each other; relatives welcome them with joy, and their emotions are exhilarated.
Da Liu cried even more fiercely, just like back then, their young love was long and the mountains and rivers were mighty.
…
And behind the boy, always stands the figure of the elder.
Secretary Zhang looked at the back of Lin Luxiao's pole, glanced at Lin Qingyuan beside him and said, "Leader, let me celebrate the New Year with you this year."
Lin Qingyuan coughed softly, "Come on, your wife can't come to my house?"
Secretary Zhang: "Then let Lu Xiao have a New Year's Eve over there?"
"forget it."
In the end, the man's gaze in the cold wind gradually grew longer, revealing the vicissitudes of life, and he suddenly felt the pity of fate: "Two sons, one went south, and the other quit drugs. His grandfather was right. I'm not capable. When I was here, I couldn't protect his mother, and I couldn't protect either of these two children."
…
And over there, the plane passed by in a flash, blowing a white mist, and the clouds and paintings joined each other, heading straight to the unknown distance.
White doves are flying, and the lake is singing a cappella.
Since then.
You go south, I go north.
We all start over.
In the years, I will not take away all your tenderness.
Farewell, my captain.