"Really want to quit Mohs like this?"
When this violent wind passed through, Chu Xiaoxinfu came to Jiuyuan again and came to Mo Zhengyan. He didn't abide by the agreement with him, knowing that he worked hard to protect him, but he gave up. Until now, when he learned from Song Qiyue that Chu Yan was dead, she was no longer in this world, and suddenly everything felt nothing.
In this gaze, Mo Zhengyan also knew that everything is definite. There is only one sentence, "Before you go, have a drink."
This is probably the last time I have met recently, and I was invited to the clubhouse after the matter was processed. That was the only asset under Chu Xiaoxin's name that was kept until the end and did not sell.
This night, they came here and sat in the restaurant facing the middle of the lake. At this time, there were no lotus flowers in the lake long ago, and the cold wind was blowing outside, blowing the surface of the lake.
Mo Zhengyan said, "This winter, it should be very cold."
Chu Xiao believes that he is not afraid of the cold, and he also knows that Mo Zhengyan is not afraid. They are all people who have practiced their skills since childhood, and coldness is nothing to them. Only at this moment, he looked at the icy lake, but felt that the winter was really cold.
"It's a pity, it's not summer." Chu Xiaoxin whispered. If it was summer, the lake should be full of lotus flowers.
If it’s summer, it’s best to pair it with this green plum boiled wine. Now when this cold winter is approaching, even if the wine is hot, the sour taste lingers in the nose, but it feels even more astringent.
"Zheng Yan, the board of directors wants you to deal with it. As for my father, please bear with me." Chu Xiaoxin said.
Mo Zhengyan responded, "He will always be my seventh uncle."
When the two held a cup and met, the past was reflected in this cup of wine, it was a beautiful scene.
...
"Xiaoxin, you must be admitted to the best school with your best grades, go abroad for further studies, and then return to the country for a long time. I have already arranged everything, you just need to do what I said."
Back then, Father Chu was sitting in a chair in the study and said to Chu Xiaoxin.
Chu Xiaoxin always remembered that his father's words were an arranged path, which will be like this from the beginning to the present, and perhaps even in the future. The mother said that his father was well-intentioned and was for his sake. Parents will always worry about others, wishing to pave the way for their children.
But they all forgot to ask him if he was willing or not.
Chu Xiaoxin didn't even have time to take a look at his favorite major, so he was arranged and decided.
"Xiaoxin, listen to your father, he will be happy." This is what my mother said most often.
When he said this, Chu Xiaoxin saw his mother's smile, and it bloomed so gladly, as if everything was worth it.
As a result, a compromise was arranged in this way, and there was no longer any objection.
It's just that when reality is oppressed, even if he compromises, he will still be unwilling, especially when his father tells him, "Xiaoxin, you must be better and better than Mo Zhengyan!"
This was almost a command and a warning, as he pressed tightly on him, Chu Xiaoxin raised his eyes, and for the first time he asked back, "Why?"
It was a child from Uncle Mo's family, and even a partner he had known since he was a child, a friend he had always known since his youth.
Chu Xiaoxin is the only child in the family, and Mo Zhengyan is also the only child in Mozhai. There was a time when both of them were children of only children. Naturally, they had gone the best recently. The acquaintance and knowledge between partners have a long time of running and harmony before they can grow and become strong, just like the growth of a tree.
However, Chu Xiao couldn't understand why his father always compared him with Mo Zhengyan.
If he was still ignorant and ignorant when he was young, Chu Xiaoxin would no longer want to be a teenager after he grew up. Therefore, he finally resisted and asked his father.
What his father told him was, "Because you are the son of my Chu Shilin, you are the successor of the Future Jiuyuan Group! You must surpass Mo Zhengyan and be stronger than him!"
At this moment, Chu Xiaoxin knew his father's intentions. He wanted to promote himself to the position of the general manager of Jiuyuan. The throne of that throne made him the new general manager of the Jiuyuan Group. The market changes, which one is not so.
The prerequisite for winning the throne is that he is better than Mo Zhengyan.
"Why! Why do I want to compare with Mo Zhengyan, why do you want me to be stronger than him! I and he are brothers!" Chu Xiaoxin was unwilling to do this, and felt his father's contempt for him, and he argued.
Father Chu coldly shouted, "The brothers are blood related, just like that Mossian, and he is the brother. You and him have never been!"
In an instant, it was like a basin of cold water poured down, making him cold all over.
Chu Xiaoxin almost forgot. His surname was Chu and Mo Zhengyan's surname was Mo. Although they were walking side by side, they were not real brothers.
In fact, Mo Zhengyan has his own brothers and sisters, and Chu Xiaoxin also vaguely knows that Uncle Mo has another child outside. He has seen Mosnian and knows the existence of Su Nan, but Mozhai will always only have Mo Zheng Yan is here. However, when he was young, he didn't believe it. He always felt that it was just a private joke of adults, but he really struck from the overwhelming sense of loneliness at the moment his father was certain.
In the school in Hong Kong City, Chu Xiaoxin found Mo Zhengyan. On the roof of the teaching building, he always likes to lie down alone in the sun and sleep in, which is also a place where they often come.
The pace sounded softly, Mo Zhengyan was basking in the sun, and he said, "You are late today."
Chu Xiaoxin walked to the railing to lean against. He was indeed late. Because of the argument with his father, his parents also quarreled. The breakfast table broke up unhappily, and he watched his mother cry.
After a long silence, Chu Xiaoxin asked, "Is Mo Sinian your brother?"
Suddenly there was silence, and Mo Zhengyan responded, "En."
He didn't have any hesitation, and the response was so direct, Chu Xiaoxin was stunned, but it turned out that it was true. In a moment of confusion, Chu smiled and said, "Su Nan is also your sister?"
"En." He responded again, "There are a few more, you haven't seen them."
Chu Xiaoxin was already shocked and speechless.
They are not the children of ordinary people, and they all know what that means. Mo's father had another woman outside, and he also gave birth to an illegitimate child, half brother and sister. But this is really unimaginable, and the most unidentifiable is his acquiescence.
"You have known for a long time, then you still go to the next elementary school to see Mosnian?" Even more, taking Su Nan to accompany him on the trip
Chu Xiaoxin was shocked by his reaction and behavior, how he could accept it so calmly, Chu Xiaoxin couldn't understand, "You are really generous, and you are not upset at all. It was their mother who robbed your father. "
"If someone can be snatched away, they will go to others. That can only prove that they don't belong to him." Mo Zhengyan moved his lips and said in a low voice, "Since he is not his own, why should he be annoyed, too? Trouble."
Although he has excellent grades and intelligence, in fact Mo Zhengyan is indeed a lazy person, as both Chu Xiaoxin and Luo Zheng can confirm.
However, at the moment, Chu Xiaoxin heard Mo Zhengyan say this, but he was so powerless.
They have no way to change, change everything, whether it is him, or himself, or Mosnian or Su Nan, they are just dolls arranged by the adults, like a chess piece, they want to place Place it wherever it is.
"Even so, why can you do it this way?" Chu Xiaoxin squinted his eyes and asked.
With his arms leaning on the ground of the rooftop, his head tilted up to face the sky, Mo Zhengyan said quietly, "Otherwise."
if not.
This question is also fixed in Chu Xiao's confidence, otherwise what else can be done, otherwise what else can be done. Is it repelling or resisting, or accusing it of abuse, or being cold-eyed, but it doesn't seem to be able to. So, otherwise, what else could be done, what else could be done.
He had already chosen to compromise and accept.
Just like myself.
After that day, Chu Xiaoxin suddenly realized that he and Mo Zhengyan were so similar. Over time, I found more similarities, such as for the mother.
Chu Xiaoxin was able to obey all the arrangements of his father for the sake of his mother, and Mo Zhengyan also obeyed Uncle Mo for the sake of Mrs. Mo.
After long-term observation in the past, Chu Xiaoxin, who was growing up, suddenly understood that the reason why Mo Zhengyan would take care of his half-brothers in this way was not only blood relatives, but also the most important point, that is, Because of Mrs. Mo.
After school in the evening, Chu Xiaoxin went to Mo Zhengyan's home to study new insect specimens. After returning happily, the two went upstairs together, and Chu Xiaoxin was also going to greet Uncle Mo and Aunt Mo.
That was the dance practice room. Music came from the room. The door was not completely closed, but only gently covered. Through the gap, I saw Madam Mo dancing alone. She straightened her empty gesture, as if she was gently stroking someone's shoulder, and she was dancing to the music alone.
Mrs. Mo's figure is beautiful, even more graceful, and her dance steps are also chic, but the empty gestures look at a kind of loneliness initiation.
Chu Xiaoxin didn't make a sound, but Mo Zhengyan knocked on the door, and the dance was interrupted by the sound of "Boom Boom".
Madam Mo stopped and greeted them to come in, "Laughing letter, stay and eat, I will call your mother later."
"Okay, thank you Aunt Mo." Chu Xiaoxin replied.
When he came to the study with Mo Zhengyan, Chu Xiaoxin picked up a magnifying glass to study the specimen, "This kind of insect is really pitiful. It is only valuable when it grows up to make a specimen, so it will face death when it grows up."
He was just discussing the specimen in front of him, but he couldn't get a response. Chu Xiaoxin turned his head to look and found that Mo Zhengyan was also staring at the dead insect. He said to himself, "Grow up quickly. Enough."
When Mo Zhengyan said this, Chu Xiaoxin hadn't really understood it yet.
That night, Chu's father came to pick up Chu Xiaoxin and went back. When he heard his father coming, Chu Xiaoxin immediately went downstairs. In that garden, he heard the conversation between his father and Aunt Mo from a distance.
"As soon as someone calls, he will rush back. He still remembers that today is your wedding anniversary." That was his father's voice. Chu Xiaoxin heard him in that mouth, and the person he was referring to was Uncle Mo.
Aunt Mo turned her back and heard her say, "She is sick, so he should go. You can celebrate the anniversary anytime."
"You!" The father suddenly seemed very angry, "You are wholeheartedly thinking about him, but he doesn't appreciate it!"
This was just a small episode, and it was interrupted later, because Mo Zhengyan also came to the garden, as if nothing happened, and Chu Xiaoxin seemed to have heard nothing.
Chu Xiaoxin still didn't understand Mo Zhengyan's words of "grow up quickly".
But when Chu's father was away abroad for his mother's birthday, Mo Zhengyan came to congratulate him. Chu Xiaoxin suddenly realized that he could not help but said, "If only I could grow up quickly."
Hurry up and grow up.
When you grow up, you can handle official affairs. When you grow up, you can take care of those people in place of your father. When you grow up, you can stand alone, let your father stay, and let your father stay with your mother at all times. , You can no longer leave her alone.
At this moment, Chu Xiaoxin suddenly realized that everything he and Mo Zhengyan did was just the same purpose.
Suddenly, my heart understood it and made them smile.
If in all previous consciousness, Chu Xiaoxin believed that his father made him fight for the general manager of Jiuyuan because of money and power, then when he happened to see a pair of treasured high-heel dancing shoes, a lot of past events appeared. After coming out, those questions all came to my face like butterflies.
Originally, these dancing shoes were placed in Father Chu's study, but later, they appeared on Mrs. Mo's feet. It was Mrs. Mo who was dancing in the dancing shoes.
There can be countless pairs of identical shoes in this world, but this is definitely not a coincidence.
When Chu Xiaoxin saw Mrs. Mo's dancing shoes, it reminded him of his mother.
Mother can dance, but she is not good at dancing. Dance is just a foil for her mother to entertain guests. My mother is not too picky about dancing shoes, and she doesn't like collecting them. He was surprised that the size of the shoes was not the size of the mother's, but the size of the shoe that originally belonged to Mrs. Mo.
It's just that Madam Mo only wore that pair of dancing shoes once, and then somehow appeared in Father Chu's study and returned here again. Chu Xiaoxin couldn't help but guess that Madam Mo probably didn't accept it.
Later, the things that he hadn't paid attention to were all insightful through Chu Xiaoxin's careful observation, which made him even more aware of a past about them.
Mrs. Mo and his father used to be childhood sweethearts and grew up together, and his father had carefully guarded Mrs. Mo's side. The youth memorial book was kept by his father, especially the photos of Mrs. Mo.
My father bought a song and dance hall called the Moulin Rouge in Hong Kong, but he never took his mother to see a performance there. He has always gone alone and returned by himself. Later, the business of the Moulin Rouge went from bad to worse, and finally closed. But even so, he was not willing to sell it to others.
These bit by bit discoveries seemed to burn Chu Xiaoxin's heart. His mother was still living alone in her own world, unaware of her significant other, that person's heart had never stayed with her.
Chu Xiaoxin secretly sent someone to visit the Moulin Rouge and offered to buy it, but was rejected. No matter what the high price, Chu's father was unwilling to sell it.
So I could only give up, so the fire in my heart was not extinguished, until that day, I accompanied my mother in the country, and the mother at that time had gone to rest and settle abroad. Chu Xiaoxin talked to her about the past, when his mother mentioned, "Your father, he likes going to the dance halls in Paris to watch performances..."
"...He was there before when he was young, and then he took me there. By the way, his favorite is "The Prom on the Moulin Rouge", which is a work by Auguste Renoir. I think it must be me. The reason why he went to Paris with your father.” The mother is saying happily. Those memories about her father are the good times she remembers.
Chu Xiaoxin was stunned, he only felt sad. Except for sorrow, there is nothing else.
He could not tell his mother another truth.
The man she loved so much fell in love with Renoir's works only because he liked the dance halls in Paris. And the reason why he fell in love with that dance hall was only because when he was young, he had accompanied another woman to go there. That woman loves to dance, loves drama, loves these arts, she almost became a well-known dancer, and now lives in that house.
The man she loves so much has never chosen a pair of dancing shoes for her. They are unique dancing shoes in the world, specially crafted shoes. He never bought her a song and dance hall of the same name called the Moulin Rouge, even if it was already in decline, he refused to sell it.
The man she loves deeply, obviously lives in another person in her heart, but she still thinks that the person he loves is herself.
Such sorrow made Chu Xiaoxin want to scream to reveal all this, but he couldn't.
He felt pitiful for his mother. The greatest sorrow of a woman was probably that she chose a man who was not worthy. It was really not worth it.
But what can he do, but he can't do anything.
So I can only pretend that I didn’t know all of this before, and I never found out that playing the role of their son, the role of the Chu family, as before, strives to achieve the wishes of his father, so that he can stay with his mother. , Even if it is a lie, even if someone is sober and somebody is not sober, it doesn't matter.
Self-deception seems to be the most ridiculous, but if this can get a trace of warmth and happiness, even if it is an illusion, so what.
Therefore, after that, Chu Xiaoxin lived among Chu's father and Mo Zhengyan, one side was his father and the other was a brother, and both sides wanted to double and both were embarrassed.
...
"These years, I have worked hard for you too." There was another voice in his ear. It was Mo Zhengyan's voice. Chu Xiaoxin's eyes closed back, freed from the memory, and met him again.
Chu Xiaoxin smiled. Although he didn't voluntarily do many things, he still did. However, he knows it clearly, but never breaks it, just because he knows his difficulty, "This sentence should be what I said to you, and thank you."
Pour two more cups of warm wine, Chu Xiaoxin put a sour plum in the cup, and Mo Zhengyan glanced at it, "You didn't like to eat sour before."
This understanding is still there, not to mention, Chu Xiao believes that he does not like to eat sour, let alone such things as sour plums.
Now he said, "I don't like it, but I don't know when to start, so I get used to it."
"It's because of her," Mo Zhengyan replied.
For a moment, Chu Xiaoxin didn't speak. Between the two brothers, they have never discussed the relationship in this way. Men talk about land leases and real estate or business and finance, but they don't mention women and personal affairs.
Just after a while, at this moment he moved his lips and replied, "Yes."
I still remember that she hadn't left that year. She was still in Hong Kong, and she suddenly wanted to eat sour plums at night. It was not the season of sour plums, but she clamored to eat. Pick the sour plum, but also the freshest, sour to refreshing taste. Chu Xiaoxin knew how to understand, but thought it was a quirk. But he still specially sent people to go to the city where the plum blossoms were in time, and took a plane to buy it for her.
When she was in her hands, Chu Yanle was happy, and Chu Xiaoxin asked: Wouldn't you have it
Chu Yandao: How about having it, you will raise me and be born
At that time, I was really dazed. I didn't know what to do, but Chu Xiaoxin thought of Luo Zheng, remembering that Luo Zheng almost broke his leg when he was unmarried, and then drifted away alone. Thinking of his father and mother again, Chu Yan's existence is absolutely unacceptable to the Chu family. So how does he deal with all the troubles, how to treat the children's family...
Countless questions just blew up like this. Before he could answer, Chu Yan smiled and said: I'm telling you a joke, are you serious? Look at you, it looks like a ghost. Don't worry, I'm not pregnant, and I don't like children, it's too much trouble. Besides, we didn't just form a team halfway, and we would just go back and talk.
Chu Xiaoxin had never thought about the future between him and Chu Yan. If he had to think about it, there would be no future. The very different family background, everything presupposes that they are impossible. But at that moment, he really thought about it, and even himself was surprised. But after the shock, what became even more angry was her words.
Together, she used to define the relationship between them.
When she turned around and said that, she just broke up. It was the result between them that she gave.
He has never admitted her in front of others, let alone tell her what they might have.
Feelings are too exaggerated and superficial, like fireworks that are fleeting, and who can say it will be permanent.
But after she left, he tried so hard not to remember her or to remember her, but he has never remembered that she put a sour plum when she drank. Only in the depths of my heart, leaving so little habit, leaving so little traces, did I realize that it was such a pain that I wanted to peel it off.
Sure enough, she walked unrestrainedly, without turning her head back, leaving nothing behind. Only this clubhouse still has a little bit left. They used to fish here together and climbed mountains here, so he doesn't sell them.
But after all these years, where is she.
After drinking a lot of alcohol, people are already slightly drunk, Mo Zhengyan said, "Xiaoxin, you are drunk."
In the dimness, I suddenly heard the crazy laughter: Chu Xiaoxin! Now you come to ask me where she is, do you want to find her? I tell you now! When you get off Huangquan, go find her——!
In an instant he had a pair of red eyes, such obsession, such pain.
He murmured, "I want to ask the way, how to get to Huangquan."