Secret love is: pretending not to see, but glanced ten thousand times out of the corner of the eye; it can't kill me, but it can't save me either.
—Gu Jing
As the young master of the Gu family in the capital, Gu Jing has always lived a chic and unrestrained life.
Young and frivolous, willful and reckless to the extreme.
He has a very good big brother Gu Xichao above him, he takes care of everything.
Gu Jing only needs to share the huge annual dividends of Gu's shares.
Then, eat and wait to die.
…
Secret love is the most beautiful love in this world, because I have fixed your most beautiful moment in my heart and guarded it unswervingly until death,
What I like is not you, but your most beautiful moment.
Gu Jing never thought that she would fall in love with someone.
Still in love.
At first, he hated Jiang Ruan, his nominal sister-in-law.
The first time she changed her mind was when she saved him in the alley.
Then, it fell step by step.
Realizing that she liked Jiang Ruan, Gu Jing was almost terrified.
He refuses to even admit it.
The teenager who got drunk all night in the bar, with tears in the corners of his eyes, he kept talking to himself.
"I don't like one thing for too long, so my avatar screen name keeps changing, I get tired of the real thing too quickly, and you are not my biggest exception..."
Self-deception in general.
After dyeing her hair, she thought she looked good, and went to her happily.
Unexpectedly, she laughed at her, and then went back to dye her original black hair obediently.
She always likes to rub his hair like a child's head.
Gu Jing has never been dissatisfied.
Because, he couldn't hug her, couldn't love her openly, and even had to be careful about what he said.
so.
Just be a child in her eyes, that's fine.
At her wedding that time, he seemed to have figured it out all of a sudden.
I like you.
This is my own business, one's innocence, one's self-knowledge, one's age, nothing else.
For a moment, I feel relieved, and when I turn my head, my heart feels like a knife is twisted.
The moment the boy turned his head.
There was a trace of tears at the corner of the delicate eye.
I didn't cry... Really, it was just that the wind and sand were too strong that day, and I lost my eyes.
…
Gu Jing's monologue:
I repeatedly told myself that the person I liked but didn't get was not that good. When I was really with her, after removing the freshness and enthusiasm at the beginning, there might be only boring trivialities left.
Thinking about it this way, I feel that it's okay if I can't get her.
I was too open-minded, I stopped the loss in time, and threw it away before the sweetness started to sour.
Sometimes I really wonder what would happen if I fell in love with you. Holding hands with you, hugging, kissing, sharing work and rest, discovering all your shortcomings, quarreling, and then reconciling, lying on the sofa watching TV, talking about childhood with insomnia.
I know you're not the right person, and I'm not stupid. I'm not the kind of person who likes someone and wants to be with him.
But I really want to be with you, to see with my own eyes that we fell in love first, then hated each other, and then broke up. Years later, in movies and books, we found scenes very similar to us, and then we burst into tears.
I don't want anything else, I just want you to come into my life...
When it came to the end, the young man's exquisite but slightly green brows were already full of pleading.
Tilt your head back into your last glass of wine, he told himself.
I don't love her.
real.
She was just my teenage crush...
Next words:
Between the age of seven and seventeen, there is ten years; between the age of seventeen and twenty-seven, there is a lifetime.