Finally, I have recovered my status today and I am relieved to resume updating. I hope my readers have not alienated me. I know you have never been away from me.
I updated 4 chapters in three days. I owe you 8 chapters. I will make up for it. I think I calculated it right.
In addition, there are four chapters from 252 to 255, which have been completely rewritten. The plot is very different, so I have to ask you to reread from 252. The original version is on the Internet.
What a fool! Fu Jinzhan murmured.
Leaving behind the national mourning, military and political affairs outside, as well as the pile of memorials that had been piling up since the late emperor fell seriously ill, she returned to the back hall.
She was so nervous and worried about everything recently that she didn't pay much attention. Today, Guo Shao suddenly didn't come to attend the extremely important meeting to support the court. Fu Jinzhan finally realized that she had gone to see the seriously ill Chai Rong with Guo Shao a few days ago. The angry words she said in anger might not have angered Chai Rong, but Guo Shao. How could she compare him with the lowly groom who took advantage of others' misfortune
She was a very thoughtful person. She suddenly thought of that and thought about it and quickly understood the reason.
Dongdongdong, the sound of wooden fishes could be heard from the mourning hall, and the monks were chanting scriptures. From time to time, there were bursts of crying, which were the concubines and ministers who took turns to guard the body. It sounded very sad. But the embarrassing thing was that sadness had to be regulated, and you couldn't cry out loud; you could only cry loudly when you should, and you couldn't not cry.
As she listened to the annoying voice, she became more and more anxious, and guilt slowly brewed in her heart.
How different was the late emperor's treatment of me and my ex-husband Li Chongxun? Why did I tolerate him when he treated me like that? But Fu Jinzhan whispered to herself, "Why didn't I even say a word of thanks to Shao Ge'er?"
At some point, Fu Jinzhan had the illusion that Guo Shao was like her family member. Because only the selfless dedication of family members would make people take it for granted and forget the habit of gratitude.
Maybe it wasn't an illusion. Only people like fathers and brothers could dote on and cherish each other. Maybe even fathers and brothers couldn't do that. Fu Jinzhan felt that she was Guo Shao's biological sister, daughter, and other such close relatives. This feeling was very strong and real. If Guo Shao said now that he was Fu Yanqing's lost son, she might believe it a little. Unfortunately, it was obviously not his appearance.
She raised her head and sighed. In a trance, she seemed to see a person standing in the hall, saying: "God will punish those who violate the will of heaven, Guo Shao, and it will come to me."
The figure flashed to another corner and said: I knew you were sick at that time, and I was afraid that something bad would happen to you. If you hadn't survived, my heart would have died, and this world would have become dull and meaningless.
I want to thank you. If you were not there, I would be so desperate and scared. I am also afraid of death. But now I am not afraid, because there is a stronger emotion.
Maybe I will turn into ashes, and meet you again in a corner of the universe. Maybe I will become a soul, and in the next life, when we meet by chance, will you still look back and smile
How I wish I could die with your name in my mind at the last moment, instead of just a surname, and have the emperor come to protect and love you.
Fu Jinzhan suddenly heard the noise of chaotic soldiers and the sound of swords being unsheathed. The boy lying on the ground watched his receding back for the last time, serving my lady.
Shaoger Fu Jinzhan stood up suddenly, and the chair fell back with a bang. She accidentally hit her knee against the bottom of the table next to her. She felt a piercing pain and almost cried.
The memorial on the table that contained important national affairs was knocked over by her and fell to the ground in a mess on the floor tiles.
Immediately, Mu Shanggong came in hurriedly from a distance and asked: Queen Mother
Fu Jinzhan turned pale and said: I want to see General Guo right away.
She said silently in her heart: I must explain it to him immediately and apologize to him. It was my negligence. I never meant to hurt him, and I was not cold and heartless to him.
I didn't dare to see him before, and I was very cautious about what I said. Now that I have the chance, what have I done and said
No, except him, no one in this world can protect and love me. That emperor would only show off his supreme power at every turn and threaten to exterminate the entire Fu family. If I were not the mother who raised the little prince, I could die of illness once and I could die of illness a second time. And those strong men, once they turned me into the empress dowager of the previous dynasty, would never be merciful.
Mu Shang Gong bowed and said: "Queen Mother, Eunuch Cao has already gone to look for him on horseback. Should we send another horse to look for Fu Jinzhan immediately?" After hearing this, she breathed a sigh of relief and waved her hand, saying: "You go down. General Guo has entered the palace. Tell him to come here to see me immediately."
Yes. Mu Shanggong hurriedly bowed and said, then carefully left the palace.
Fu Jinzhan looked back at the chair, picked it up with her own hands, and sat on it, feeling lost for a moment.
Finally, Cao Tai walked in and bowed, saying: "Your Majesty, General Guo has been summoned to see you."
Ask him to come in, no one is allowed to disturb me, I have something important to discuss with General Guo, Fu Jinzhan said.
After a while, Guo Shao walked in. He first looked back at the closed palace gate, then knelt on one knee at a distance, saluted with his fists, and said: "I am here to see the Queen Mother."
Fu Jinzhan was stunned and said: Come here.
"As you command." Guo Shao's voice was polite, and he strode over. Fu Jinzhan's eyes never left him. For some reason, she felt very good when she saw him. His appearance was actually a bit ordinary, but Fu Jinzhan just loved to see him like this. His face, his demeanor, the sound of his voice, every movement and every tone of his words, as long as Fu Jinzhan felt it, she felt that it was the most wonderful thing in the world.
Guo Shao walked up to Fu Jinzhan and asked in a deep voice: What happened
"It's nothing, I just suddenly want to see you very, very much," Fu Jinzhan said in a trembling voice.
Guo Shao was stunned for a moment. Fu Jinzhan liked to see his somewhat dull reaction. She looked up at Guo Shao, who was standing with his back bent, and asked: Why have you become so distant
Guo Shaodao: I have never been estranged from you. I have said before that no matter who you are, you are always the most important person in my heart. This has never changed and will never change in the future. Even if I want to change, I cannot.
But how? Fu Jinzhan asked hurriedly.
Guo Shao pondered for a long time. Fu Jinzhan had just felt that she had a thousand words to say to him, but when they really met, she was swayed by all kinds of thoughts.
Guo Shao hurriedly said: In the current situation, only if the monarch and his subjects can trust each other can they work together to overcome the difficulties; otherwise, we will all face great danger, which is a result that none of us want to see. I don’t need to say more, the Queen Mother should know that the country still has many hidden dangers and crises.
Fu Jinzhan said thoughtfully: You make sense.
The two of them fell into silence. Fu Jinzhan lowered her head and thought about something, but Guo Shao couldn't guess what she was thinking about.
Guo Shaoben had figured it out before. He felt that some relationships cannot tolerate any sand in them. If he tried to get too close, it would be more likely to cause conflicts due to some inexplicable things. If he settled for the second best, he could maintain trust and friendship for many years, which would be good for everyone.
However, no matter how many reasons and rational considerations there are, it is in vain.
The first thing Guo Shao saw when he came in was Fu Jinzhan, and he was so moved by her words that his heart was in turmoil; he threw all his previous thoughts out of his mind. Her demeanor and tone of voice made Guo Shao's heart pound.
I don’t know if it’s because of his admiration that he thinks everything about her is good, or if it’s because Fu Jinzhan is indeed particularly favored by the Creator and she is indeed so tempting.
Can he still control himself? Guo Shao kept reminding himself to be thoughtful and rational. He was trying hard to control himself.
At this moment, Fu Jinzhan finally spoke: I just want to tell you one thing, and perhaps there is no need to explain any other unnecessary words.
Her voice was soothing and quiet, very pleasant to the ear, especially when she was expressing certain emotions, her tone was gentle and lovely. Guo Shao hurriedly asked: "What is the matter, please tell me, Queen Mother?"
Fu Jinzhan blushed, pursed her red lips and said in a low voice: I am actually still a virgin.
Guo Shao was stunned again. It took him a long while to understand what Fu Jinzhan had said. His depressed mood suddenly became stronger. He blurted out in surprise: How could it be
You don't believe it, Fu Jinzhan asked hurriedly.
Guo Shao wanted to believe it, but Fu Jinzhan had been married twice, and it was fine. She had been married to Chai Rong for many years, at least five or six years. Even if she could stand the loneliness, and Chai Rong could tolerate her beauty, if Chai Rong was a eunuch, how could he have given birth to several children
He touched the back of his head and muttered: This is unscientific.
Fu Jinzhan trembled and said: How can I make you believe her? She said anxiously: There is a midwife in the palace, how about asking a midwife to come and check my body? But this is too embarrassing. What should I do
Guo Shao observed her expression calmly. No matter how intelligent a woman is, she will show her feelings on her face at certain times. He already believed her and was about to say something like "I believe everything you say" when he suddenly moved her.
But Guo Shao's mood at this time was extremely excited. He was no longer as cautious as before. He immediately changed his words and said: No need for a midwife, I can also check the body.
How can you verify the talisman? Jinzhan's face was already red, and she suddenly got a little angry and said, "You don't believe what I say, so forget it."
Guo Shao looked at her in white mourning clothes, tied with a hemp rope around her waist, which made her look even more graceful. Her beautiful face flushed with shyness and anger, making her even more lovely and beautiful. At this moment, she didn't look like a 27-year-old woman, but like she was ten years younger.
His heart darkened and he said in a deep voice: I want to believe it too, but if a woman who has been married twice and has been with her husband for five or six years comes to tell the Queen Mother that she is a virgin, would you believe it? This is totally unreasonable.
Fu Jinzhan frowned and stretched her upper body. Her swollen chest made the mourning clothes that had just fitted her tighter become tighter. She looked at him with her pressure-filled and penetrating eyes and asked: How are you going to check
Guo Shao said that he was afraid of everything, but he was very brave when he had the chance. He was very strong in resisting her sharp eyes. He felt that whatever he thought could not escape her eyes, as if his mind was exposed to the sun. His voice changed a little: I will check the way the midwife checks.