Since the Five Dynasties, the selection of concubines and even concubines in the palace was not limited to virgins, but they still had to be checked by palace midwives when entering the palace, and the names of the women selected into the palace were recorded. Fu Jinzhan had been in charge of the harem for several years and was well-informed, so of course she knew how the midwives checked.
Fu Jinzhan observed Guo Shao's expression and felt that he was deliberately teasing her.
But it was not only Guo Shao who tempted her, there were other things as well. Her face became hotter and hotter, and her whole body became hot.
Fu Ermei's vivid description came to her mind again. It was only because Fu Jinzhan had a good memory that she could not get those words out of her ears. There were also some women in the palace who said some obscene words that were unbearable to hear, but such words could not affect Fu Jinzhan; it was precisely because Fu Ermei, a woman who had just experienced sex and a sister she knew very well, told her in detail that Fu Jinzhan believed it without a doubt. When Fu Jinzhan heard Ermei say those words, it seemed as if she had experienced them herself.
Also, a while ago, she was at the point of despair and wanted to commit suicide, but suddenly she saw Shao Ge'er. The subtle experience she had when she lost her composure and had an emotional breakdown is also unforgettable for her.
Suddenly, a loud cry in the front hall startled Fu Jinzhan, and soon she heard the sound of wooden fish and the chanting of Buddhist sutras for the deceased. She frowned slightly and looked down. She was wearing mourning clothes, and even the belt around her waist was made of hemp rope. She immediately came to her senses.
I can't let you do that, it's blasphemy. Fu Jinzhan quickly shook her head.
Guo Shaodao: Just checking. It’s okay as long as I don’t have any blasphemous intentions.
Fu Jinzhan frowned and said coldly: You have seen your body, but you still don't have the heart to disrespect it. You might as well be trying to coax a three-year-old child.
Guo Shao seemed to realize his incompetence and was at a loss. He muttered: But this won't make me believe it. After all, no one will believe such a strange thing.
If you don't believe it, forget it. Fu Jinzhan said angrily.
Guo Shao said again: "The Queen Mother said before that there would be rewards and surprises. You asked me to confirm it. This surprise is too big. You have made a promise. You can't go back on your word."
You Fu Jinzhan couldn't refute it, and said coldly, I didn't expect you to be such a bad person. It's been a long time, and you're still thinking about those things. At the beginning, I was forced to do it, and I had no choice but to do it in a hurry.
Guo Shao sighed with disappointment: So that's it. Has the Queen Mother ever thought that since the late emperor and you are not actually husband and wife, what difference does he make between you and Li Chongxun of Hezhong Prefecture
Fu Jinzhan remained silent.
Guo Shao whispered again: Besides, no one will know.
Fu Jinzhan's chest was heaving. She was really reluctant to stay faithful to that man. For a moment, her heart was like a tangled mess, and she could hardly tell right from wrong. She felt dizzy and had difficulty breathing.
She bit her teeth and shook her head vigorously, saying: "I am the queen mother of the whole world. I should be a role model for the whole world and should not do such a disgraceful thing. Moreover, during the period of national mourning, it would be even more against the will of heaven for me to wear mourning clothes. I cannot do that."
Guo Shao was silent for a while, finally let out a breath and said: The Queen Mother is absolutely right, I have no intention of forcing you, if that's the case, then so be it.
Fu Jinzhan saw him clasping his fists and bowing, thinking that he was leaving, and she felt as if a piece of flesh had fallen off her heart. Desires can be restrained, and the pain and fear at the beginning can be endured, and it will pass after a while, but she couldn't bear to watch this person's heart drift away from her.
If he could completely believe the truth, his heart would return to what it was before, or even surpass all the previous moments. What kind of feeling would it be to be completely together with one person's heart? Fu Jinzhan could not stand such expectations and temptations.
She suddenly stretched out her hand and said: Wait
Guo Shao didn't move, just stood there without saying a word.
Fu Jinzhan's face turned pale. After weighing the pros and cons again, she looked at him and said in a trembling voice: You can't have any dirty thoughts, and you can't tell anyone about me. I'm very scared.
Guo Shao's voice was low and powerful: No matter how serious the matter is, I will stand in front of the Queen Mother.
Fu Jinzhan felt relieved and said with a blushing face: There is a warm room inside for a nap.
She did not take off her clothes, but only removed her mourning clothes and coat. However, the white silk undershirt was very soft, and the thin and soft fabric just wrapped around her body, not hiding the outline of her body at all. Guo Shao had to sigh that the Creator was really unfair, and he had a special preference for a very small number of people. Unfortunately, such beauty could not last forever, and it would eventually pass away. It was a pity.
The sad atmosphere of the national mourning could not affect Guo Shao's mood at all. He just felt that he had seen the wonders of the world, as if all the flowers in the world were blooming and never withered all year round. He was worshiping with a completely pious heart.
After a long time, Guo Shao lifted his clothes and wiped his face and hair. Looking back, he saw Fu Jinzhan curled up on the couch against the wall, covering her face with her hands. She trembled and said: How can I face people if you ask me to
No one knows, Guo Shao said softly.
Fu Jinzhan put her hands down, her face flushed. She covered her skirt, stretched out her hands to pull it to cover her slender white legs, and looked at him with strange eyes: It was only an inspection, what did you do
Guo Shao said innocently: I have already found out, it was you who asked me to continue so that I can confirm it more clearly. If I did it on purpose and took the opportunity to ruin the Queen Mother's innocence, you would have no place to cry.
If I do that, I will hate you, Fu Jinzhan said with a frown, "Let me think it over carefully, you can't act on your own."
Guo Shao hurriedly said: Yes.
Fu Jinzhan stretched out her jade-white hand and lifted her hair from her ear, then said angrily: Come here.
Guo Shao had no choice but to walk closer and sit down beside the couch. Fu Jinzhan took a long breath, stretched out her trembling fingers, hesitated for a moment and placed them on Guo Shao's cheek, then stroked Guo Shao's lips with her thumb and whispered: You don't mind being ugly either.
If I think it's ugly, there's nothing good to look at in this world, Guo Shao said seriously.
Fu Jinzhan asked again: How can you treat others like this
Guo Shao was stunned: How could it be
Fu Jinzhan whispered: "You are not allowed to treat others like this in the future, including my second sister. I allow you to have many wives and concubines, but you cannot treat anyone better than me."
I will listen to you. Besides, no one can compare with the Queen Mother. Guo Shao said.
Why are you still calling me Queen Mother? Fu Jinzhan said with a red face.
Jinzhan Guo Shao called out carefully.
Fu Jinzhan complained: Why didn’t my father give me a nicer name
Then, she stroked her forehead again, frowned and said: Is it really right for me to do this? What if someone finds out
Guo Shao was speechless. If this was considered right, then were there any wrong things in the world? But wrong things did not necessarily mean that we should not do them. He reminded in a low voice: We have to be careful, the situation is not very stable right now.
Fu Jinzhan nodded slightly and asked seriously: Do you believe me now
Guo Shaodao: This is indeed too absurd, but I can't help but believe it.
Fu Jinzhan said in a gentle voice: When I arrived at Hezhong Prefecture, the Li family was destroyed by Taizu's troops before I could make it. Because I didn't like Li's ex-husband very much and I was stubborn, I delayed it for a while, but I didn't expect that something bad would happen later.
Fu Jinzhan then whispered: Later I followed the emperor, but the emperor was very picky and thought I had been married before and always disliked me. After the Li family fell, my mother was very strict and wanted to force me to become a nun or die to atone for my sins. Only by marrying the emperor could I avoid such a fate; if I didn't please the emperor and didn't want to be favored by him, how could I live? What you saw before was just the appearance, and you didn't know what kind of life I lived.
After hearing this, Guo Shao sighed: How pitiful.
Fu Jinzhan looked aggrieved and almost cried, and asked again: "The emperor's body is still warm, and I have done something unworthy of a woman. Do you think I look down on you?"
Guo Shao said: I used to think that Jinzhan had served several men, but I still didn't mind. Now I know that you are a woman who is pure, noble and pure as snow. Don't mind. I think I will never be able to escape from your palm. This surprise is too big, and I haven't recovered yet.
Fu Jinzhan was silent for a long time, her heavy breathing slowed down, and she whispered: "You have to listen to me in the future. From now on, you have to gain an advantage in the imperial army and establish a higher prestige. This world cannot be balanced for a long time. It is destined that the master will be weak and the ministers will be strong. I hope the strong minister is you. I only trust you."
She reminded him seriously: Just listen to me, I won’t let you down.
After hearing this, Guo Shao felt nervous and said quickly: I am willing to work for Jinzhan.
Fu Jinzhan's face was filled with emotion: "As long as we have absolute advantage, we will no longer be afraid and can do whatever we want. No one will dare to threaten us or even criticize us."
Guo Shao hurriedly agreed and said: You are right. Emperor Taizong of Tang killed his own brother. Who would say that he had good morals? Empress Wu Zhou killed countless people to eliminate dissidents, but she was still a great emperor.
After hearing this, Fu Jinzhan gradually came back to her senses. The shy expression she had on her face like a young girl just now gradually disappeared, and she regained her domineering demeanor.
Seeing this, Guo Shao said: Today, the Central Plains is weak and falling apart. As long as the Queen Mother is in power, she can transform the Central Plains from a country into an empire with power and influence throughout the world. People of this world and future generations will all admire and worship her.
Fu Jinzhan sneered: If that were possible, would people respect you and me
Guo Shaodao: This is inconsistent with the Confucian etiquette. It is estimated that it will not be promoted but will be downplayed, because in comparison, personal morality is not worth mentioning at all; only achievements in major events will be highly praised.
Fu Jinzhan's eyes were burning, and she stroked Guo Shao's facial features very gently and carefully. She asked softly: What are you thinking about
I want to see the person I care about the most, to have whatever she wants and do whatever she wants, to be the most pampered and loved by her, only in this way can I make up for the indelible regret in my heart. Guo Shao said in a deep voice, in this life, that person is you, you are like my sister.