He lowered his head to eat and stopped eating halfway through. Then he opened the cigarette pack, took out a cigarette, put it in his mouth, and lit it with a lighter.
Luo Lian doesn't smoke regularly, and he's not that big of a smoker. Luo Lian would only smoke and drink in moderation and not without restraint.
He took a puff and blew out a smoke ring from his mouth.
The diseases he picked up when he was in college were smoking and drinking. I don’t think this is a bad habit, because other boys usually smoke and drink too. Luo Lian regards smoking and drinking as something that men do and a symbol of adulthood.
It was childish at the time, and that was indeed what I thought.
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After Luo Lian went to college, he tried to get rid of certain restrictions, so he thought about trying things he didn't dare to do before. After all, he is already an adult, smoking and drinking, playing games in Internet cafes all night... and falling in love.
Luo Lian's first love interest, his first love, was a senior who was two years older than him. At that time, he was hot-headed and chased her. There was no talk of love. He just felt that the senior sister was pleasing to his eyes and in line with his aesthetic taste. It was a very superficial liking, and he didn't even think about the future.
The state of falling in love is also confusing and I don’t know what to do. It was just eating, drinking, and spending time together, but not doing anything meaningful.
Generally speaking, the way couples get along before is to eat, drink and chat together without thinking about the future. Because at that age, the future is too far away for them. There was no time to care at all, so he only focused on the one-third of an acre that was within sight.
The breakup was brought up by senior sister, not Luo Lian.
The senior sister is two years older than him, graduated earlier than him, entered the society before him, and knows better how stressful this society is. This kind of love in a relationship is too humble compared to real life. There is no future at all. People have to grow up and gradually adapt to this society.
So their inappropriateness is magnified to the extreme.
No one would be willing to grow up with a boy. Life has long been burdensome. If you have to accommodate the other person emotionally, it will only make you more tired.
After the breakup, Luo Lian also grew up a bit. People always have to experience a little and grow up a little. Luo Lian also walked through this step by step.
The first time he met Gu Ziyi was one night during the freshman military training.
During the military training for freshmen, the evenings are usually lively, with students singing together or showing off their talents.
Gu Ziyi is not that willing to be in the limelight, but outstanding people will always shine uncontrollably. Gu Ziyi danced at the military training party. She had studied ballet before and her basic skills were pretty good.
That night, Luo Lian and his roommate were wandering to the dormitory.
The freshmen in military training were particularly lively, and they followed the sound to see the excitement.
It's not love at first sight, but... such a beautiful and dazzling person left a deep impression on Luo Lian.
After the military training, Gu Ziyi's name became known to more people. She is beautiful, has excellent grades, and there is nothing wrong with her.
Luo Lian didn't think about pursuing Gu Ziyi at that time. But you can often hear something about Gu Ziyi from friends' chats. For example, today someone who is a few years older went to confess his feelings and was rejected.
What I heard the most was simply whose confession Gu Ziyi rejected.
Because of this, the image of Gu Ziyi, the flower of the high mountains, is even more deeply rooted in the hearts of the people.
Luo Lian's roommates were also ready to make a move. When Luo Lian was sleeping in the dormitory, he heard them whispering and discussing Gu Ziyi.
He was already sleepy at that time, a little annoyed to get out of bed, and said very unhappy: "Come on, even if I chase you, Gu Ziyi may not agree, let alone you."
"Luo Lian, don't say that. You are the one we are tied to."
"Maybe if you go after Gu Ziyi, the chances will be higher. She doesn't like anyone else."
The roommates chatted among themselves.
Luo Lian was so sleepy that he fell asleep holding the quilt.
When he woke up, his roommates had already begun to encourage him to pursue Gu Ziyi.
Luo Lian didn't have any confidence in his heart. His impression of Gu Ziyi was still the dancing girl during military training.
The second time I met Gu Ziyi was in the lobby on the first floor of the school's teaching building.
Whenever class time comes, a group of people will squeeze into the building. Classrooms are divided according to odd and even numbers. All odd-numbered classrooms are on the left, and all even-numbered classrooms are on the right. There are four doors in total on the first floor.
Among the moving crowd, Luo Lian walked to the left and was hit on the arm.
A girl with long hair said, "I'm sorry." She apologized, then pulled her roommate and hurried to the right.
Luo Lian's eyes followed her for a while. The girl's profile was very beautiful. He arrived in the classroom, sat down, and then slowly came back to his senses. That girl is Gu Ziyi.
A seed seemed to sprout in his heart.
From then on, at that time, he often met Gu Ziyi on the first floor, but never talked to her.
It lasted for half a month before he really made up his mind to pursue Gu Ziyi.
He chose a time when there were not many people around because he didn't want to be watched by other people. This is about him and the girl. No need for so many bystanders.
He thought about a lot of words to express his love, but when he actually stood in front of Gu Ziyi, he didn't say a word, and all his plans were disrupted. He just laughed awkwardly and said the old-fashioned opening remarks, introducing himself: "Hello, I am a senior who is one year older than you. My name is Luo Lian."
Gu Ziyi's eyes were a little confused. She didn't know his purpose and didn't recognize him.
He prepared so many words, but in the end he could only dryly say: "I like you, can you be my girlfriend?"
Then he saw the girl's beautiful eyes widen slightly, a little surprised. But soon she calmed down again, "Well... I don't want to fall in love now, I want to study hard."
This was the first time Luo Lian spoke to Gu Ziyi, even though his confession was rejected. He raised his hand and scratched the back of his head, still feeling embarrassed: "Oh... Then you... Then you study hard. I won't disturb your study." He himself felt like a fool when he said this, and then he hurriedly wiped the soles of his feet The oil slipped away.
On the way back to the dormitory, I felt annoyed a hundred times. The scene just now was playing over and over in my mind, and I was annoyed that no matter how poor my performance was, I probably failed to leave a good impression on others, and maybe others would mistake me for being a fool.
As I was thinking about it, my thoughts went astray, and a person murmured to himself: "She is really good-looking, and she speaks very nicely..."
(End of chapter)