In the process of the two people getting along now, Gu Ziyi clearly felt that Luo Lian was unnatural. He was extremely careful and tried his best to do everything he could and not let Gu Ziyi do it by herself.
Luo Lian couldn't relax, he was in a tense state all the time.
In fact, Gu Ziyi is not natural either, but she is much lighter than Luo Lian.
Luo Lian never mentioned Dr. Chen. He pretended not to know and waited for Gu Ziyi to tell him personally at a suitable time.
In fact, Gu Ziyi has no such idea for the time being. She didn't want to expose herself too completely. Judging from the situation, she has always been in a favorable position. So she didn't want to say it.
Luo Lian didn't know what Gu Ziyi was thinking. Most of the time, he was guessing. Guessing is just a wild guess, there is no accuracy. It is indeed difficult to guess what others are thinking.
The tacit understanding between the two of them is not high, so they can't tell what the other is thinking at a glance.
Now, it should be in a new stage starting from scratch.
Slowly get used to it, and slowly understand it. The previous understanding was very shallow and superficial. They don't know each other well.
Maybe today, they can really talk about themselves.
Gu Ziyi asked Luo Lian: "Why sell Mingsheng?"
Luo Lian hesitated for a moment. He looked at Gu Ziyi. He didn't want to lie, but he was afraid that his dark side would scare Gu Ziyi. In the end, I chose to tell the truth: "Because it is very important to my dad."
Gu Ziyi stared at him, waiting for him to continue.
"My dad had an affair back then... Qian Wenshi, my stepmother, was his lover at that time. Mingsheng's initial starting capital was my mother's dowry. Then Mingsheng rose up, gained money, and lost his status. The first wife gets bored. The lover becomes more considerate, more obedient, and less picky. Things start to change."
Luo Lian recalled the past, "When I was young, I felt that their quarrels were always inexplicable. Later I realized that if you don't love someone, you will be displeased by them in every way. Things as big as sesame seeds and mung beans can happen because of this." A dispute.”
He truly opened his heart in front of Gu Ziyi and said these words.
This is the second time I have mentioned it except to Dr. Chen.
"They got divorced and it was very tense. I was awarded to my mother because it was an established fact that my father cheated. So he lost and didn't get custody of me,"
"He is not a good husband to my mother. He is not a good father to me either. In his eyes, interests are above all else. He married my mother just because of money. Once he got the money, he gave it up. My mother."
"I really hate him."
"My mother was not in good health, and we had some financial difficulties living together. And we spent most of the time in the hospital." Luo Lian smiled softly, a little pale, "Bone cancer, the kind that cannot be cured. "
"I look at her every day, gradually weakening and losing her vitality. I hate my father very much in my heart. He never came to see us, and he never showed up until my mother died."
Luo Lian raised his eyes and glanced at Gu Ziyi. In fact, he was afraid of seeing pity for him in Gu Ziyi's eyes.
Gu Ziyi just looked at him quietly with clear eyes.
"When I was in college, my financial support came from my father. I obviously hated him, and I felt sick just looking at him, but food, clothing, housing, transportation, and all the expenses in life came from him. I would be even more disgusted, but there was nothing I could do about it."
"So at that time..." Luo Lian's voice was trembling, "When we broke up, I really felt that I had no choice."
Gu Ziyi looked at him and saw his red eyes. She smiled, her eyes gentle.
"Mingsheng is what he likes most. After I went abroad, I planned this matter for many years. I studied economics and finance, and planned to sell Mingsheng. I just wanted him to see the results of all these years of hard work. I also want him to experience the feeling of being powerless when the fireworks disappear."
Luo Lian has experienced it many times and is helpless.
When Bai Langyue passed away, Luo Lian was unable to do anything about her illness. The only thing she did was to accompany her, watching Bai Langyue grow thin and inhuman, her hair fall out, and then leave the world in the pain of illness.
That sense of incompetence and crisis...
When he broke up with Gu Ziyi, he felt helpless. I blame myself very much and feel that I am a coward. How could there be someone as useless as him in the world
"Ever since I returned to China, I have always wanted to get the management rights of Mingsheng and become the boss who speaks the truth. It took me more than half a year, and part of it came from the support given by Pei Jing. This is why I got entangled with the Pei family. ." Luo Lian told everything,
Luo Lian continued: "Now Mingsheng is finally going to be sold."
Gu Ziyi could not imagine how Luo Lian spent so many days and nights abroad alone.
He had a hard time.
Gu Ziyi still remembers a phone call with Dr. Chen. Dr. Chen said: "Luo Lian is very contradictory. He has a lot of negative emotions, but he is also very active in helping himself. He has a very difficult life."
Gu Ziyi agreed, Luo Lian was indeed having a hard time.
Gu Ziyi looked at Luo Lian and said, "You made it through."
Luo Lian was stunned for a moment, then laughed: "Yes, I got through it." Those countless days and nights, the moments when I was overwhelmed by the negative emotions in my heart, I was surrounded by the loneliness in life until I was suffocated.
He got through it.
"Actually, I don't want anything else. I'm just... paranoid about you." He knew that paranoia was not a reasonable and correct emotion, but he really couldn't let go of Gu Ziyi.
If you insist on asking him to tell you why, he won't be able to tell.
This is something difficult to explain.
"After selling Mingsheng, what do you want to do?" With Luo Lian's academic qualifications and work experience, it is actually not difficult for him to find a job. He is the kind of leader who can shine anywhere. Some people are just that good.
Luo Lian leaned back on the sofa and looked at Gu Ziyi, "Actually, I was still thinking about this two days ago. But now... I have given up my previous idea."
"Um?"
"I think if I don't have you by my side, I should stop it and stay away from you. Because when I see you, I can't help myself. I can't control myself... and I'm afraid of scaring you. So I want to stay away from you, go In other cities, just like an ordinary person, buy a small house in a third-tier town and live a retirement life in advance." Luo Lian is not that ambitious in life, and he does not seek fame or huge profits. His greatest desire is to live a peaceful and ordinary life like an ordinary person.
(End of chapter)