In fact, apologies also have a time limit. It doesn't mean that you suddenly feel that you have made a mistake and just apologize. The time limit has expired and it is no longer needed now.
The hurt that is done never goes away, it is just a difference in the intensity of the pain you feel now.
There is never an absolute cure.
That is impossible.
Gu Ziyi's rationality applies to all times.
Luo Lian smiled: "Yeah, it's too late."
If it had been a little earlier, maybe he could have softened his heart. But as of today, it's too late. Why ask for forgiveness
He would gain nothing by giving them peace of mind.
Gu Ziyi squeezed his hand tightly, "What do you want to eat?"
"Just eat whatever you want."
In the end the two went to a nearby restaurant and ordered two dishes.
Lunch was settled quickly.
After finishing the meal, Luo Lian saw that Gu Ziyi was not in a hurry and couldn't help but ask: "Aren't you going back to the company?"
"I'll stay with you in the hospital." Gu Ziyi looked directly at Luo Lian.
Luo Lian also looked at her, "Are you afraid that I will be bullied?"
"Not really." Gu Ziyi smiled, "I'm afraid you'll be embarrassed to bully others."
Luo Lian laughed dumbly.
The two of them went back to the hospital together.
Gu Ziyi sent a message to Xu Ruanruan to formally inform her that she would skip work in the afternoon.
Xu Ruanruan had already guessed it.
The two of them returned to the hospital, giving Qian Wenshi time to rest and have time to have a meal.
In fact, there is no need for them to do anything. It mainly depends on when Luo Mingsheng wakes up.
Luo Lian and Gu Ziyi were sitting in the ward, each with a chair.
Gu Ziyi looked at Luo Mingsheng on the hospital bed. He was getting older and his hair was a little gray. Luo Lian doesn't look much like Luo Mingsheng, Luo Lian looks more like his mother.
Gu Ziyi lowered her eyelashes and sighed in her heart.
Luo Lian leaned on the chair and looked at the fluctuations on the instrument, "People get sick when they get old. It must be very uncomfortable at this time. You are worried every day. If you are not careful, you will die."
"Life and death are a cycle. The beginning of life leads to the ending of death. This is destined a long time ago." Gu Ziyi looked at him.
Luo Lian's eyes fell on Luo Mingsheng's face, "I was wondering... will I be like him when I get old." Luo Lian was not willing to be like Luo Mingsheng, "covered with injuries, and working hard for half a life is still in vain. .”
Although the initiator of "all in vain" was Luo Lian.
Gu Ziyi looked at Luo Lian with very focused eyes, full of seriousness, "You are different from him, you have me."
Gu Ziyi will never abandon Luo Lian.
They will go a long, long way to live up to these years.
Luo Lian's gaze shifted to Gu Ziyi's face, "Then... it seems that my old life will be very good."
In the afternoon, Luo Mingsheng finally woke up.
He was still in a daze.
Qian Wenshi was so happy that she burst into tears of excitement.
Gu Ziyi felt that Qian Wenshi's feelings for Luo Mingsheng were very complicated. They are husband and wife, but it is not a pure love. After all, one is after money and the other is young. After so many years, they have been together for half of their lives. In addition, they have given birth to a child together, so there will be family affection.
From a moral perspective, they are worthy of disdain.
But to this day, Qian Wenshi is still willing to be by Luo Mingsheng's side, maybe because of love.
Luo Lian repeated what the doctor said exactly, and the decision rested with Luo Mingsheng himself.
The risk factor for such a major operation is very high. Luo Mingsheng will probably die on the operating table. After all, he is already at this age and his physical health is far inferior to that of a young man.
There was a long silence.
The ward was extremely quiet.
Luo Mingsheng finally spoke: "You... can you go out for a moment? I want to talk to Luo Lian alone." He didn't speak for a long time, and his voice was extremely hoarse and not pleasant.
Gu Ziyi and Qian Wenshi left the ward.
Luo Mingsheng looked at Luo Lian. His eyes were already cloudy and he couldn't see Luo Lian clearly. There is only an outline, not clear.
"You hate me, right...?" Luo Mingsheng said.
Luo Lian lowered her eyes and looked at him on the hospital bed, "We should discuss your surgery. I think there is no need to talk about other things."
"It's necessary." Luo Mingsheng knew that his time was running out.
Even if the operation was successful, he wouldn't live long.
He could feel his physical condition, it was already a red alert.
Luo Lian pulled up the chair and sat down beside the bed, "I don't hate you."
Luo Mingsheng looked at him: "Don't hate me?"
"Actually, I don't know how to describe what 'hate' is. A long time ago, I hated everything about you." Luo Lian answered seriously, "I hate everything about you, including myself."
"I feel like I'm part of my mom's misfortune."
"I hate your betrayal of the family, and your indifference to your mother. I also hate you dictating my life, always trying to make me act according to your instructions. I hate myself even more, and I will not resist. I refuse in my heart and continue to live according to your arrangements. I feel disgusting."
Luo Lian's negative emotions were accumulated over time, because he had no way to pour them out, they were suppressed in his own heart, and only he listened to them over and over again.
"Then you should hate me." Luo Mingsheng said.
Luo Lian was very calm, "I don't have that emotion anymore."
"… why?"
Luo Lian replied: "When I sold Mingsheng, I dissipated that emotion in an instant. Maybe I embodied these and fell on Mingsheng. Mingsheng blocked part of my hatred for you."
"What else can I do?"
Luo Lian chuckled. He looked at Luo Mingsheng with a calm look in his eyes, "Our relationship has never been a normal father and son relationship from the beginning. To this day, there is no possibility of being like an ordinary father and son. In my eyes, you, In my heart, I am not a father. You just occupy the identity of a father. I should be the same in your eyes and heart. You treat me as your son just because I am your child, not normal A father-son relationship in the sense of the word. Do you... understand what I mean?"
Father and son.
The father is not the father.
A son is not a son.
One of them is a father and the other is a son.
But it has never been done in the sense that what a father should do and what a son should do.
In other words, they are biologically related as father and son.
In terms of family affection, there is nothing, and it is terrifyingly empty.
Luo Mingsheng's voice was filled with extreme fatigue, "I understand..."
"I'm about to die." Tears flowed from the corners of Luo Mingsheng's eyes. "My mood has changed a lot, and my thoughts are different from before. I do owe you a lot."
(End of chapter)