Compared to the mournful Luo Lian, Gu Ziyi preferred Luo Lian who could still joke with her at this moment.
At least he's lively and not so silent.
Luo Lian usually talks very little. When he is in a bad mood, he talks less and is so silent that it feels depressing.
Gu Ziyi will not feel emotional because of this.
She is relatively patient, so the longest-lasting thing she can do is probably to accompany you.
All edges will be smoothed over time.
Gu Ziyi said: "I think we have changed a lot."
Luo Lian was slightly stunned, not quite understanding what Gu Ziyi meant.
Gu Ziyi continued: "Before the two of us got back together, what I felt was a big change from when we were in school. But after the two of us got together again, it was better than..." She shook her hand and drew a line with her index finger. "A lot has changed in that time."
Luo Lian thought for a moment: "Yes."
After they got back together, there were new changes.
Luo Lian's changes were even more significant. His entire state was no longer tense, as if he had never entered that kind of extreme negative emotion. He can also make jokes and make Gu Ziyi happy every day.
In the past, I felt like I was stuck in a certain framework and couldn't get rid of it.
Now that shackles are gone.
He felt free.
Gu Ziyi's change was not as big as Luo Lian's, but she could feel it.
Luo Lian put his right hand on the table and opened his palm.
Gu Ziyi glanced at his hand, then at Luo Lian's face, and then put her hand in his.
Luo Lian held it in his hand: "You mean a lot to me. All my changes are caused by you."
Gu Ziyi looked at the hands held by the two people, "My changes are also because of you."
A long time ago... They meant different things to each other.
Luo Lian laughed: "So are we destined to be together?"
Hearing Luo Lian say this, I felt a strange feeling. "Destined by God? Maybe." Gu Ziyi smiled.
Luo Lian remembers... He used to pray to God for me countless days and nights. Let him have some in his life.
He had Gu Ziyi.
Gu Ziyi bent her fingers and scratched his palm, "I never thought that we would be like this, like a dream."
Luo Lian nodded, "I feel like I'm dreaming too."
Both of them once felt that the final outcome would be to become strangers.
"Actually... I have never said why I suddenly went abroad to chase you." Luo Lian felt that it should be possible to say.
Gu Ziyi blinked her eyelashes, "Why?"
"Jian Fan told me about the doctor." Luo Lian said, "Zuo Yang also said that he asked you for help, but you refused. Later I found out that you asked Jian Fan for help. I just felt a sudden change in my heart. Hope has been rekindled, I think I still have a chance with you."
Gu Ziyi looked at Luo Lian's eyebrows intently. She actually regretted it a bit. Luo Lian suffered a lot of injuries unknowingly, which maybe could have been avoided.
"Actually, I guessed it." Gu Ziyi smiled, "I don't think Jian Fan will be very strict. You will know sooner or later, after all, you have such a good relationship. But at that time, I felt that I had rejected you a lot This time, I also said it very well... There should be no future."
Gu Ziyi lowered her eyelids, "When I saw you in Rome, I thought it might be my hallucination."
"I feel really guilty for you..." Luo Lian looked at her with a very sincere tone.
Gu Ziyi raised her eyes.
"I listen carefully to your reasons for rejecting me every time."
After all, she was the one he loved, and he listened carefully to every word she said. Even those words of rejection stabbed into his heart like a knife.
"We have missed each other for so many years. I cannot blame others. It is my fault. It was caused by my self-righteousness. I thought I was good to you, but in fact I was not." Often this kind of thing is really hurtful. I think I am good to others, but I am not. It also caused irreparable scars.
Gu Ziyi recalled: "You have always been curious about why I didn't ask, right? I was really young at that time, and you were my first real love partner. I didn't know how to deal with that situation at all. "She swallowed her saliva, but she still felt a little bit...uncomfortable as she spoke.
"I felt like I was completely confused at that time. My mind was actually blank, but I had already opened my mouth in advance. I only recovered after I left."
"I was very, very angry and very sad. It was you who pursued me first." Gu Ziyi pointed at Luo Lian, "Then you said you were joking with others... My whole body exploded."
"I really collapsed... for a while. I didn't know what I did wrong, and I felt very baffled. And you have always been very good to me. I really, really liked you at that time." Unknowingly, Gu Ziyi's eyes turned red.
Luo Lian held her hand tightly.
Gu Ziyi took a deep breath: "I am not always calm and rational. I will also collapse... When I think about it now, I still feel that I was wronged."
The sincerity of youth is really worth a lot of money.
Gu Ziyi blinked her eyes, forcing back the tears.
"I felt like I was schizophrenic at that time. There would be two voices in my head. One voice was scolding you for being so disgusting. The other voice couldn't help but defend you because it missed those five You have been so kind to me for so many months."
Luo Lian pursed her lips and said, "I'm sorry."
"There's no need to mention it again. I don't want to recall that time anymore." Gu Ziyi still has this obstacle in her heart and it will never disappear. That was the moment when her self-esteem was shattered and she couldn't help crying.
She and Luo Lian got back together and were back together. But Gu Ziyi will never forget the experience of the last breakup.
It's too unforgettable.
The steaks they ordered were delivered.
Luo Lian let go of Gu Ziyi's hand, "It seems that we are still the same as before, but it seems that we are not anymore."
Gu Ziyi heard these words while drinking water. She put down the cup and said, "You are still you, and I am still me." After a pause, she continued: "The biggest difference is... you are mine and I am yours."
Same, but different.
Luo Lian raised a smile: "I still remember what you said, what's yours is mine."
Gu Ziyi nodded, "Yes, what's mine is yours, and what's yours is mine. We will always be together." She had never said anything about the future with certainty before, because the future was too uncontrollable and no one knew what the future would bring. What happened. But now, her tone is particularly determined.
(End of chapter)