Will you fall in love with such a person? You have the same gender, different beliefs, and you are guilty of falling in love.
For the former Ning Zhou, this was unimaginable.
But fate played a cruel joke on him, making the absurd become real.
There is never a land of ice and snow, the polar day has not yet come, but the coldest time of the year has almost passed. Ning Zhou, who had just walked out of the spiritual barrier, knelt down on the glacier exhausted, and the hot tears froze into ice as soon as they poured out of his eyes. Neverland is near, but it seems that he will never get there.
In the face of that cold death, he finally put aside all his worries and took up his responsibilities, even if he will fall into hell after death and suffer the punishment of eternal fire.
Ning Zhou slowly stood up from the glacier and looked at the dazzling lights of the Neverland, like the heaven on earth.
He knew that this was probably the last time he saw Never Land.
Ning Zhou stepped off the glacier and entered the Holy See in awe.
Passing through the row upon row of buildings, the noise of the earthly noise resounded in his ears again, and several children ran past him laughing and playing. Because they ran too fast, they almost ran into Ning Zhou. Avoiding the children, I watched them run away laughing.
Ning Zhou could hardly remember what he looked like when he was their age. When he came to the Holy See, he was thirteen years old. Maria had just passed away. According to her last wish, he was sent here by Teacher Arnold and met the Pope for the first time.
He is a kind old man, his eyes are full of wisdom accumulated over the years. He taught him a lot of things, not only the knowledge of survival, but also a lot of life principles. It can be said that after the death of Mary, the person who shaped his personality It was this wise old man. In Ning Zhou's eyes, he is not only the spokesperson of the gods on earth, but also the elder he respects from the bottom of his heart.
But today, he wants to tell the old man who raised him that he fell in love with a person who was not allowed.
Ning Zhou passed through the city of ice and snow with no expression on his face. In order to welcome the residents of the holy city who were about to come here, this polar city was being expanded. Warm, away from all evil in the world, just like his dream home.
But after all, he wants to leave this pure land, and from now on he will wander through wind and rain all his life.
Stepping into the confines of the Holy See, bathed in the ethereal holy power, Ning Zhou's abdominal wound once again came with burning pain, and even the whole body was stinging, he frowned indiscernibly, regardless of the pain Step forward. Passing through the huge ice and snow square, countless ice sculptures silently guard this earthly heaven, soaking in the cold air with the guards who patrol back and forth.
Ning Zhou walked towards the deepest part of the Holy See without squinting. In the magnificent cathedral, the Pope, who had completed his prayer, was standing alone under the huge cross and meditating. And the silver point of faith power, fluttering up and down.
The corridor between the ice and snow benches on both sides was covered with a long golden red carpet. Ning Zhou walked to the Pope and looked up at him from the steps of the high platform.
The Pope turned around and looked at Ning Zhou kindly: "A few days ago, Seraph's will returned to the Holy See and told me that your heart of faith was shaken, child, tell me what happened?"
Ning Zhou saluted him, and then said calmly, "Your Majesty the Pope, I... fell in love with someone."
"You are hesitant about this." The Pope understood his heart.
Ning Zhou answered honestly: "Yes, the person I fell in love with was a man just like me. He came from another world and was an unbeliever."
The Pope's voice suddenly became stern and solemn: "The Lord has said, 'You must not have sex with a man, as with a woman, it is abominable; if a man has sex with a man, as with a woman, they both have done abominable things put them to death, and put their sins on them.' You know, this is a sin, and if you blindly obey your disobedient lust, you will be punished with eternal fire."
"Yes, I understand." Ning Zhou replied calmly.
"Then repent. God will forgive sinners who are willing to repent. Tell me, are you willing to repent?" the Pope asked sharply.
Ning Zhou raised his head and looked him in the eye: "No, Your Majesty, I can't repent."
The Pope was silent for a long time. The high crown on his head and the red shoulder jacket on his body seemed to crush the old man. He said tiredly: "Your mother chose to entrust you to the Holy See before she died, not for you to walk in peace. She's the same way. You keep your foreign father's surname, your mother's name for you, and... a heart just like her, lost for love."
"Ning Zhou, my child, I will give you one last chance to give up on him and repent to the Lord."
Ning Zhou closed his eyes, and a faint wind blew past him. He seemed to have returned to the garden of the Holy Sepulchre in the afternoon, quietly staring at his lover sleeping in a tree hole full of petals. Every minute and every second of his, his heart was tormented by the fire of karma. It was a pain of despair, but it made people feel the sweetness of sin.
The memory suddenly fast-forwarded and stopped abruptly in the Garden of the Holy Sepulchre before dawn, where his lover returned again, but would never open those brown eyes again... He suddenly understood that he was trying his best to persuade, deceive, The heart that hinders has already fallen into hell.
He was guilty, a sin he would not repent of.
"Sorry, Your Majesty, I can't. I've tried, but I can't. He sacrificed for me again and again, refused the temptation of demonic power for me, and died because of it. I lost his life before, and I can't. His love. I am willing to accept eternal torture in hell after death, but in the short time I am still alive, please allow me to be faithful to my heart." Ning Zhou opened his blue eyes, Word by word, firmly.
"Even if you lose everything the Holy See has given you, even if you have to leave Neverland forever?" the Pope asked.
Ning Zhou lowered his eyes, untied the buckle, put aside the short knife and the pass order given by the Holy See, and knelt on one knee in front of the cross: "I'm ready."
After his anger reached the extreme, he was deeply disappointed. The Pope held the scepter in his hand and stepped down from the high platform majestically, and the cross scepter inlaid with gems pointed to the top of Ning Zhou's head: "The glory that the Lord has bestowed on you will all be taken back. "
There was ethereal music in the icy air, the golden light falling from the sky like raindrops, and behind Ning Zhou was painted and woven into the appearance of a six-winged seraph. He watched all this sadly, spread his wings silently, and flew into the church. The ice sculpture of the angel, which was fused with it, was no longer inspired by him.
The holy power flowing in the blood was evacuated little by little. The pain of tearing the soul away together made Ning Zhou sweat like rain in the extreme cold of minus tens of degrees, and it was almost as painful as death.
The scepter left Ning Zhou's head, and the Pope sighed, "Is it worth it for a dead stranger?"
Ning Zhou stood up with difficulty, his face was pale, but his eyes were still bright: "I can't deceive my heart, if he dies, will this love dissipate? No, the Lord said that love is It will never stop. From the day he died, and every day from now on, this feeling will be precipitated by time and memories, and the longer it goes, the stronger it will become. Unforgivable blasphemy."
He seldom said such long words, but every word came from the bottom of his heart: "Your Majesty, love should only be love, I have never lost my piety because of love, I will only be stronger because of it, it should not be sinful .If it is sinful, please let me carry this sin and fall into hell after death... Your Majesty, I have no regrets."
"I still believe in my Lord, abide by all the commandments except that one, and I will continue to fight against the devil. My heart will always belong here no matter when and where."
This was the last sentence Ning Zhou said before leaving.
He threw away everything bestowed by the Holy See and left alone. The Pope watched his retreating back and sighed deeply: "'Those who fight the devil should be careful not to become the devil. When you stare into the abyss from afar, the abyss staring at you.'"
Ning Zhou didn't answer anymore. At this moment, he firmly believed that he would not fall in the drift, because his soul had already docked in his own harbor.
The road to leave the Neverland is longer than it was before, and without the protection of the power of faith, trekking in the extreme cold just by relying on the fragile human body is tantamount to seeking death. power through the vast ice sheet.
Ning Zhou walked alone in the extremely cold ice and snow, under the vast starry sky, he recalled the scene when he passed through the spiritual barrier of the Holy See not long ago - walking through this barrier, everyone will be remembered by the past. Erosion, those distracting thoughts that are contrary to beliefs will be magnified hundreds of times, and if they cannot be washed here, people will be lost in the ice field forever.
Ning Zhou thought that he would get lost here, but when he really set foot on the ice field under the starry night sky, a vision he had never imagined appeared before his eyes.
He saw that the ice field was full of white roses. From one end of the world to the other, the overwhelming whiteness under the pure starry sky seemed to declare that the love between them was pure.
It's not sin, it's not morality, it's not lunatic attraction, it's not sexual lust, it's just love.
The dark green aurora danced on the sky, illuminating this open and cold wasteland. From stepping into the spiritual barrier to finally stepping out of this white rose sea, Ning Zhou had never seen Qi Leren again, not once.
- He is no longer his distractions, he is his whole world.
END
PS: Some of the lines refer to Christian teachings, but they are not the same religion, just a reference; the person who fights the devil... This sentence is Nietzsche; in the face of cold death, he finally put aside all his hesitations and worries, and bear the burden of Take all the blame out of all sense and reason in Yeats' "The Cold Heaven": And I took all the blame out of all sense and reason.
PPS: A little crap at the end. When the nightmare game was conceived, the author wanted to find out the feeling of writing this kind of article before filling the easter egg game, and was going to write a simple fast-traveling horror game story. .
However, when the story of the new village is gradually perfected, when the predetermined characters are getting more and more abundant, when the brain hole is out of control, the author can't help but want to dig further. So the world view became bigger, the setting became more complicated, and the emotional scenes became more tortuous. Finally, with the idea of practicing how to write emotional scenes, I wrote the outline of the first part of the nightmare game. At that time, the author thought: Yes, I just wanted to write such a story.
When conceiving the end of the first part, the author carefully considered several options, and also thought about setting Leren not dead, letting Ning Zhou share his life with the forbidden technique of the Holy See, and take him to Neverland; or become a devil and follow Su He went to the devil world and fell in love with each other from then on. But in the end, I chose this ending. This is actually the best ending and the best beginning for the two of them. They were able to abandon their stubbornness, face up to themselves, and start anew. This is death and a new life, which perfectly fits the author. (shaking S) aesthetics.
Leren is not dead (of course it is not dead if it will be resurrected), Ning Zhou is determined to love to the end, the heart is connected + both alive + destined to be together = HE, so please touch your chest and tell everyone aloud, this is A happy ending full of love and hope. As for why not the two meet again after seven days, because the two can't meet again after seven days, and Ning Zhou goes to purgatory... This is the second part of the plot.
Although it is the first time to write a CP that has been so miserable in love, I will look back and see that all the candies I have sent are poisonous... But it doesn't matter, we have a second part! In the second part, elder sister Chen Baiqi has a saying that she likes it very much, so let me know in advance: "How much courage does a person need to deny his past, destroy his present and future with his own hands, and let his own life and death be They are all struggling in the pain of abandoning their beliefs, just for the right to love themselves. From now on, you are his god and his sin. You will heal him, redeem him, be his scabbard, be his armor, Become his belief. Leren, you have to protect him well."
I give full marks to this assist.
Thank you to the readers who read this. I really appreciate your support. Sometimes I am not a good author. I often write willful without considering the market, but the author thinks so, although it is impossible for me to write every book Let the readers like it, but at least I can make myself like it. If the brain waves can be fortunate enough to synchronize with the readers while satisfying my cuteness, that is the greatest fate.
Here again, I love the bewildered host, she must regret dating me to a nightmare game now, but it's too late to get on the thief ship, hehe.
The plan for the second half of the year is tentatively scheduled for Easter Egg Game 3 and a silly novelty brain hole. The outline of Nightmare Game 2 will be carried out simultaneously, and strive to open the second part as soon as possible. In addition, the personal ambition of Nightmare Game 1 is also being done, and the pre-sale time Specifically, it depends on the progress of the two artists in the painting set, GN and I, in writing the extras. You can follow my Weibo @青滅binglun, or directly pay attention to the agency responsible for the @secret newspaper.
See you in the next story, love you all, okay~