"what are you saying?"
He Yunzhou almost thought he heard something wrong.
He thought again and again, replaying the scene that happened in the restaurant before in his mind. Although the atmosphere between those two people was really bad, theoretically speaking, it wouldn't make Huo Zheng hate it enough to make such remarks.
"Wait... is this a joke?"
He Yunzhou confirmed with some puzzlement.
Huo Zheng took a deep breath.
He didn't speak - after all, repeating that request in front of He Yunzhou still made him feel a little nervous. But even if he didn't speak, his attitude said everything.
That's really not a joke, it's true.
The flamboyant sports car slowed down suddenly, and finally stopped on the side of a small road.
After the car stopped completely, Huo Zheng turned his head to look at He Yunzhou.
Obviously he was the one who made this request, but judging from his expression, he was even more nervous than He Yunzhou.
"I hate that guy so much..."
I hope you never see him.
Before he could say the latter sentence, Huo Zheng stopped talking in a daze.
He suddenly realized that he was indeed becoming more and more similar to his mother.
Monopoly.
Want to control.
I want He Yunzhou to be left with only myself, and I want to drive away all potential rivals lingering around that person.
But this is obviously wrong.
Huo Zheng covered his face, took a deep breath, and then squeezed an ugly smile on his face to face He Yunzhou again.
"I'm sorry—I must have lost my head to say such a thing. He is someone you know, and I have no right to restrict your relationships. Well, what I want to say is, I just don't like the way he looks at you, it's almost It's like, you're just his stuff from start to finish..."
The last half of the sentence has been completely weakened into a vague murmur.
Huo Zheng didn't even dare to look at He Yunzhou's expression, but in his mind, the look that the man looked at Huo Xiaoyun mixed with fear and extreme disgust became more and more clear.
Huo Zheng felt like he was about to suffocate just thinking that He Yunzhou might look at him like that.
But even so, out-of-control words kept leaking from his lips.
"I don't think he is a good person. I have met many similar people before. They are all...not good. When you are with him, you will probably get hurt. I also know it sounds funny, but , I, I will worry about you... "
In the incoherent words, Huo Zheng finally figured out where his extreme vigilance and disgust towards Ouyang came from.
It's not really about being jealous of another man or what's called "jealousy" (at least not entirely because of that).
It's because there is something about Ouyang that makes him feel very disgusted - a similar temperament, he has also seen it in Huo Xiaoyun who looks radiant.
It is an extremely camouflaged darkness and distortion that can only be noticed after long-term contact with that kind of person.
"Don't hang out with this kind of people, they always look good, but as long as you stay with them for a long time..."
The more Huo Zheng said, the inner panic and self-condemnation became stronger, but when he met He Yunzhou, sensibility would instantly overcome reason.
Whether it is emotion or language, there is no way to control it.
After listening to Huo Zheng's words in a daze, He Yunzhou was silent for a moment.
Just when Huo Zheng thought that He Yunzhou would explain softly according to common sense and then comfort himself, he heard He Yunzhou reply softly.
"Well, I listen to you."
Now it was Huo Zheng's turn to freeze for a moment.
At this moment, He Yunzhou's mood is actually very complicated.
In fact, before this, he had already faintly noticed that once he met Ouyang, he would always be led by that person involuntarily.
Sometimes He Yunzhou would feel that he was thinking too much and being too sensitive, but sometimes... just like what Huo Zheng said, Ouyang Chenglin seemed to really treat him as his own thing at the mercy of him.
But Huo Zheng's seemingly willful request made He Yunzhou suddenly sober.
He found that even after such a long time, as soon as he met Ouyang, he fell into the control of that person again, as if he had been dragged into a quagmire.
Even the fact that he subconsciously pretended to have a boyfriend in front of Ouyang was because he had been avoiding and afraid.
"Don't think too much, actually, even if you don't tell me... I don't want to meet him again."
He Yunzhou looked at Huo Zheng's beautiful and clear green eyes, and whispered softly.
"Why, why?"
Huo Zheng couldn't help but asked blankly.
"Ouyang once committed suicide because of me."
He Yunzhou lowered his eye mask, looked at the dimming night scene outside the window, and said dryly.
He never told anyone about this - even Shu Ran.
He Yunzhou didn't know why he suddenly became weird, and in such a situation, he would tell this secret that had been hidden in his heart for many years to the man beside him.
Probably because that person was the only one who told He Yunzhou not to get too close to Ouyang
Or was it because He Yunzhou suddenly realized that Huo Zheng had also been hurt by his closest person
In addition, the long-term psychological shadow and pain caused by this incident poured out from the deepest part of my heart uncontrollably.
Sitting in the car, He Yunzhou spoke softly in a restrained and calm voice.
He didn't say much, but calmly recounted the relationship between Ouyang and him that was as close as brothers.
And finally, how the two of them fell out completely.
"...he said he loved me and he couldn't live without me. He didn't seem to realize at all that I would reject him."
He Yunzhou's voice lowered little by little.
Reminiscing about the past is really not a happy thing for a person like him.
"He said it made him unbearable. No matter how I made it up, how I told him that I really couldn't like him, he still couldn't accept it. Then, one day, he told me that if I continued to insist on my own ideas, The two of us probably can't even be friends."
"Oh, if it's a real friend, you can't say such a thing."
Huo Zheng made a sharp comment.
He Yunzhou could only smile. What he didn't tell Huo Zheng was that he was so lonely and terrified back then, so once someone was willing to be his friend, he would be so terrified and cherished.
And such a humble mood, someone as glamorous as Huo Zheng, who everyone is vying to please is incomprehensible...
"... I feel very sad, but an unprecedented quarrel broke out between us. In the end, Ouyang Chenglin told me that he asked me to send back the things he put in my bedroom during the time we knew each other. I didn't I thought too much, so I said yes. But that day, the professor stopped me when the class was over and asked me to help organize some courseware. I was ten minutes late than the agreed time... and when I knocked on the door of Ouyang's room, I I found out that he didn't answer me."
Speaking of the past, He Yunzhou flinched uncontrollably.
His throat suddenly choked, and after so many years, he still felt terrified and frightened when he thought of that scene at that time.
Huo Zheng stretched out his hand suddenly, and held He Yunzhou's cold hand tightly.
The warm body temperature was slowly transmitted to He Yunzhou's body along the skin contact, which made He Yunzhou calm down a little.
"I... I actually thought he was mad at me at the time, and I almost left, you know? I almost left."
He Yunzhou repeated this sentence.
Huo Zheng held his hand more and more forcefully.
"In fact, until now, I still have nightmares occasionally. In the dream, I put things at Ouyang's door, and then I turned and left."
"But you didn't..."
"Yeah, luckily I didn't."
He Yunzhou turned his head to look at Huo Zheng, his face was pale and his eyes were dim.
"Otherwise I'd never be able to forgive myself. The moment I was about to turn around and leave, I felt, I felt something was wrong. Huh... I had someone come and unlock the lock, and when I broke in—"
Having said that, He Yunzhou's voice suddenly choked up.
Hazy vapor.
Damp, rusty smell.
Everything seems to have returned to him again, the warm water flowing down the edge of the bathtub is pink, and the temperature is exactly the same as the blood in human blood vessels.
As for Ouyang, Ouyang's body was as pale as a sculpture, lying on his side in the bathtub motionless. And on the white tiles, there are three words "I love you" he wrote stroke by stroke with blood.
That was the first sight that He Yunzhou saw when he broke into the bathroom.
Needless to say, He Yunzhou knew instinctively that it was a message left by Ouyang when he was dying.
"I rely on-"
After listening to He Yunzhou's intermittent and fragmented narration, Huo Zheng sat in the driver's seat and cursed softly.
"That guy's a psycho—"
"He had depression at the time." He Yunzhou murmured and explained, "... Later, he told me with a smile in the hospital that he had severe depression at the time, so he accidentally did something stupid. He told me not to be too Care, let me not think it's my fault."
"This has nothing to do with you."
"I don't know..." After a few seconds of silence, he continued, "In the hospital, he asked me if I could accept him."
Huo Zheng's hand suddenly grasped He Yunzhou tightly.
He Yunzhou bit his lip and found that when he said these things, his body seemed to be numb, and he couldn't even feel the pain.
"You, you didn't agree."
Huo Zheng pretended to be calm and asked in the driver's seat.
He Yunzhou didn't notice Huo Zheng's strange and weak tone, he gave a wry smile and shook his head slightly.
"Ouyang looked calm when he said these words. I thought he had calmed down, so I still refused him. Then, that night...he almost had an accident in the hospital. "
As if pus was being squeezed out of the wound, He Yunzhou couldn't help feeling fear, pain, and panic when talking about the past.
"... Ouyang also committed several times of self-harm after that. No one would have thought that he would end up making such a big fuss in the hospital. His mother, I always called her auntie, such a beautiful and temperamental person, knelt in front of me Please let me let him go... I'm probably really a hard-hearted person, Ouyang is like that, but I still didn't agree to him in the end. "
He Yunzhou's expression was dazed, and there was no look in his eyes.
Huo Zheng has been observing him carefully, although knowing that He Yunzhou never gave Ouyang a chance made him feel secretly happy, but after seeing He Yunzhou like this, that little bit of secret joy was instantly replaced by heartache.
And He Yunzhou's narration is still going on...
"Things turned out to be really outrageous in the end. Some things spread to the school... and then to my family." He Yunzhou paused for a short while, and didn't tell Huo Zheng that because of this incident, he almost severed ties with his family. "That's it. Seeing that the situation was about to get out of hand, his family didn't want others to know about Ouyang's real situation, so when he was still in a bad state, he was forcibly sent out of the country by his family. "
"I heard later that Ouyang has received psychological treatment for a long time abroad."
"They said he was crazy."
He Yunzhou whispered weakly.
"I don't know if I made him like this..."
"You're just unlucky."
Huo Zheng showed a somewhat ferocious expression where He Yunzhou couldn't see.
But when he turned his head, what he showed in front of He Yunzhou was the most gentle appearance.
He leaned over directly and hugged the trembling He Yunzhou tightly.
"Whatever happened to that guy has nothing to do with you. Whether it's past or present!"
"I've been trying to tell myself that none of this has anything to do with me, but sometimes, I still feel like I'm just trying to excuse myself."
He Yunzhou put his head on Huo Zheng's shoulder and whispered softly.
"I'm actually a very bad person... I'm always running away from..."
"I think you're good."
Huo Zheng replied decisively: "... Besides, even if you are really a bad person, it doesn't matter if you like to avoid people, I like them anyway."
"..."
He Yunzhou couldn't help but startled when he heard Huo Zheng's words.
He faintly felt that Huo Zheng's feelings in these words seemed a bit too ambiguous.
The author has something to say: In short, Ouyang is not the sunny and cheerful paoihui that everyone imagines.