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Ephemeris 278 September 15 Sunny
Today is Victory Day for the first Star Wars. Our whole family put on masks and went out, leaving our private planet for Seventeen Stars.
This isn't the first time Ah Tu has been riding in my mecha, but since I took him to the virtual arena to play, he has become more interested in mechas.
He touched the cold memory metal with his little hands, like he was touching his salted fish pillow. The next thing that I never expected happened, the part of the mecha that he touched, suddenly a small silver heart swelled out, small, not as big as Ah Bald's paw.
This is a little surprise left by the mech master for my cub. Only when my cub repeatedly touches the mecha, will the mecha, which is made of memory metal, appear a little heart.
If I don't have the cub, the little gift he left will never be found.
"Wow! No. 20 is showing my heart to me!" I told Ah Tu that this mecha was called No. 20, but when he said the name No. 20 so naturally...
I suddenly felt that memory had become a pendulum, oscillating back and forth between a gradually blurring past and an increasingly clear future.
Number 20, claustrophobic in my consciousness, lurks like a ghost in this icy mech. He died at a certain point, and no one was there to bury him, so he lingered here until Abald stroked him with his paws—
A thin, slender number 20 that drags its slender wings.
Two similar but different white tiger cubs raised their paws, their pads overlapped, the pendulum clock swayed slowly in my mind, and the phantoms intertwined with sorrow and pity kept flashing.
Maybe people live a lifetime, is to suffer for their own existence. When suffering comes to an end, there is eternal joy.
The living are on this side, the dead are on the other side, suffering is on the river, and joy is on the other side.
I squatted down, touched the cold, silver heart lightly with my fingers, and said to the excited Ah Bald, "Yes." He likes you very much.
He has never seen a cub as endearing as you, and he loves you.
I love you too, I love you.
Bo Bo stretched out his hand to touch the mecha, and a small silver star appeared in his palm. The shape of the memory metal is different every time, there are stars, moons, suns, and flowers...
He would say "Wow~" in a low voice, while Ah Tu, who was beside him, giggled.
I remember staying in that dark and cold cubicle, hearing the wailing of the cubs every day, the shrill cries, and day after day, I had no idea what was going to happen in the future , but at that time, I already knew that all of us were sentenced to death.
I don't know when death will come, I don't know how I will die. If I had been trapped in that place, imprisoned in darkness and pain, I might really have died just like other experimental subjects, unwilling and hopeless.
But I have heard the golden python describe the brilliant starry sky, the sublime, dazzling, vast endless starry sky.
The world has become a prison, the earth has become a wasteland, the sky has become a shroud, others are my hell, and myself is my starry sky.
My two cubs, their blue eyes like mine sparkled with pure joy, like sapphires shining in the sun, like stars in a vast sea of stars.
These little surprises only appear when the cubs touch, and when the adults touch, the shape of the memory metal returns to its original shape. So when I touched that heart, it fell on the water like raindrops, and in the blink of an eye it was a smooth surface.
I know he is gone.
This time it really disappeared.
I looked at the bright star sea outside the mecha, and there was a meteor sliding silently across the starry sky. At that moment, it seemed to be stretched to an infinite length, and a singing voice came from my ear:
"Flickering and shining, the sky is full of small stars, hanging in the sky and shining brightly, like thousands of small eyes~"
It was Bo Bo clapping his little hands and singing.
I closed my eyes, and the scene of He Ruge appeared in front of me.
He pushed open the iron door—
At that time, I didn't know that when the iron door was pushed open, what appeared was not the Essence Sea Stimulator, nor the pain and torture.
Floating and gentle streamer light shines on him, I see his slender fingers, I smell the clean breath on his body, it is a kind of silent beauty.
There are many things that will never be forgotten in a lifetime. Like that unforgettable memory, like the first time I saw He Ruge.
That is a belated redemption.
"The sun is slowly sinking to the west, the crows are coming home in groups, the stars are blinking and twinkling until dawn~"
The singing stopped suddenly, Bo Bo raised his head and asked me, "Baba, are we here yet?"
I opened my eyes and saw Seventeen Stars. Seventeen Stars is the planet with the most festive atmosphere. This planet has endured two Star Wars and buried countless corpses. People on the planet once left their homes, but in the end they came back.
Autumn is a harvest season, and the soil where corpses have been buried is extraordinarily fertile, so the fruit trees in this autumn are full of fruit. Ru Ge pointed to the black vines and said that the eyes of a little milk dog in the game are also the same color.
When Ah Tu heard this, he stretched his neck and looked curiously, "What game, Baba, I want to play too!"
We are lining up, taking the line on the star track.
I flicked Ah Bal's forehead, "Eat the children's game, the children go."
"Baba lied! Baba is the most powerful in the game! Baba protects me! I'm not afraid of anything!"
A bald pretended to hold a sword in his hand, poked at the air, dubbed the sword "Huo Huo Hao" while poking, his little tail was upturned, he raised his head and smiled at me.
He's wearing a Superman mask, and I can't see his face, but I can see his curved blue eyes. Ah Tu's eyes rolled around, with a quirky look: "Baba will drive away all the bad guys~"
I did drive away all the bad guys, but at that time, I was not happy. happy? Are you sad? Or some other emotion
I'm not quite sure. I remember that at that time, the wound on my body was very painful, but it was not so painful that it was unbearable. It was the first time I was free, but I wasn't very happy, and I was more at a loss.
At that time, the people of the Federation thought that I was injured too badly, that I had broken my wings, so I couldn't leave.
It's just that I have nowhere to go.
I looked at the starry sky, the starry sky that the golden python had told me. The outside world turned out to be that big.
Ruge told Ah Tu and Bo Bo the story of "Sitting in the Well and Watching the Sky". Bo Bo thought about it after listening to the story and asked, "Baba, what would the frog think if it went outside?"
That frog will not go out. He built a deep well all around him, and almost no one could go in, and he couldn't get out.
The one who jumped out was no longer a frog.
There are three important moments in my life. The first one was when I destroyed the Xinghai Orphanage and jumped out of the prison that imprisoned me. After that, I was no longer an experimental subject.
The second moment was when I saw Ruge, a thousand years. I have a person who is willing to love with my life, and I also have a lover who loves me deeply.
The last moment, the day my two cubs broke out of their shells, I became a father. In fact, at first, I felt that I could not be a qualified father.
Someone once told me to love the Commonwealth, but I don't have that kind of love. I have very little love, and the little love that remains is all given to the song.
I am afraid, I am afraid that I am an indifferent father.
I remember an experiment I saw when I was in the research institute. When monkeys were raised by robots, when they grew up and became mothers, they not only could not take care of their cubs like normal mother monkeys, but even will harm their cubs.
Sometimes I feel that there is no difference between me and beasts. Those violent and murderous desires are actually an extension of my consciousness and essence.
I hate the monster inside me, that monster controlled my body and committed too many murders, but in fact... that monster is me.
It is said that tiger poison does not eat children, but tigers are so hungry that they will eat their own children.
And me
How can I be a good father
Will I hurt them
I used to feel like I didn't have the ability to love someone, and then Ruge appeared. I later felt that I didn't have the ability to love too many people, but Ah Tu and Bo Bo appeared.
Ru Ge once said about faith, "God said, let there be light, and there is light."
If there really is a spirit in this world, is it because He said that there must be love, and then the world has He Ruge. He also said that the love was not enough, so Ah Tu and Bo Bo followed.
We sat on the star track above the seventeen stars, as the song said, this feeling is the same as doing a Ferris wheel. A bald asked Ruge, what is the Ferris wheel. Their voices have been lingering in my ears, very lively.
The Seventeen Stars are very lively everywhere, where there are people and places where there are no people. The flowers that bloom on the corpses are very bright and the fruits are full.
If I die, I can just bury it in the soil and raise a grass.
We arrived at the celebration center, a huge square just built with many statues of pigeons with olive branches.
I think this square must have been built under the supervision of doves, and all the statues of pigeons appear in the gate of the square. When I walked to the rows of nameless monuments deep in the square, I saw the sculpture of the eagle.
Those nameless monuments were buried with countless warriors. Too many people died in the two Star Wars, so many that the Federation could not tell who this phalanx belonged to and whose skull belonged. The Federation simply put these bones together.
The sculpture of the eagle symbolizes the tomb keeper.
Those tombstones were filled with flowers, cluster after cluster, cluster after cluster, flowers in clusters.
There were songs like sung in the square. People I didn't know danced in the square. One person walked up to me and asked with a smile, "Are you here for the masquerade?"
Since he said so, I put my arms around Ruge's waist and danced awkwardly. When Ah Tu saw me doing this, he also took Bo Bo's hand and learned to dance.
Our whole family can't dance, so I just put my arms around Ru Ge's waist, our foreheads touched, and our bodies swayed slightly. Ruge said to me, "Do you know the kiss of victory?"
I said what was that.
Ru Ge smiled, and he said softly, "Don't talk, kiss me."
When I bowed my head to kiss, I caught a glimpse of Ah Tu hitting Bo Bo's butt with his own little butt.
This bad bald man, punish him with ice cream.
However, at the moment when the kiss was like a song, I forgot everything. I only know that the singing is melodious and the lips are soft.
The author has something to say: The world became a dungeon by Sartre
The earth became a wasteland by Eliot
The sky became a shroud by Dylan Thomas
Others are my hell by Sartre
The ego is an outsider to the ego by Camus
The kiss of victory, also known as the kiss of victory day and the kiss of the century, refers to a kiss that occurred in Times Square in New York on August 14, 1945, local time.
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