He Yunsheng came out of the shower, wearing pajamas, and his hair was still steamed. He put a towel on his shoulders, sat opposite Xi Feng, and asked, "Is there anything else?"
Xi Feng scratched his head and said, "Are you okay?"
He Yunsheng glanced at him.
Xi Feng said: "I last night—" He swallowed half of what he said, as if nothing he said was appropriate.
He Yunsheng said in an unusually flat tone: "It's not very good. To be honest, your technique is too rough, and I feel a little uncomfortable."
Xi Feng didn't expect him to say such blunt words, and he would be judged as poor in technique. He sat awkwardly, and his ears began to turn red slowly.
At this point, He Yunsheng originally wanted to say something to ridicule Xi Feng, but suddenly he felt that it was unnecessary. He was not a mean person, and instead of fighting against others and forming a little bit of resentment, it would be better to cut it off completely. Come back again.
So He Yunsheng said to Xi Feng: "Let's forget what happened last night."
Xi Feng was taken aback when he heard the words. This was what he wanted to say to He Yunsheng, but when he heard He Yunsheng say it again and again, he felt a little uncomfortable.
He Yunsheng said: "You don't have to be too entangled. It's not that no one in this circle has ever had sex with straight men. Things like sexual orientation can't be changed. You can live your life as you want in the future."
Hearing the meaning of He Yunsheng's words, Xi Feng seemed to be still comforting him.
He Yunsheng picked up the corner of the towel and wiped the water from his cheeks, "I think you should cherish your girlfriend well."
Xi Feng's heart was in a mess, and he was in a mess like cooking porridge. He couldn't understand his emotions, and felt that every sentence He Yunsheng said was right, and he couldn't refute a single word.
In the end, all he could say was, "I'm sorry."
He Yunsheng laughed when he heard the words, "Although I'm drunk, it's still your wish, so there's nothing to be sorry about."
All that should be said has been said, and Xi Feng was unable to say what he originally wanted to say. The two sat opposite each other for a while, and Xi Feng had no choice but to stand up and say goodbye.
Back home that day, Xi Feng sat in front of the computer for a long time, searching for content about "bisexuality".
He was sure that he had always liked women, but he had such a strong reaction to He Yunsheng. After thinking about it for a long time, he felt that he could only be bisexual.
Many messy things were found on the Internet, but these did not help Xi Feng much. He still couldn't sort out his mood.
After an unexamined weekend, Xifeng went to work on Monday and found that Xu Qing ignored him.
Xu Qing called Xi Feng on Saturday night. At that time, Xi Feng didn't hear it in the bar. Later, he didn't see the missed call until he left He Yunsheng and returned home. But Xi Feng was in a bad mood and didn't call Xu Qing. dial back.
When he went to work on Monday, Xi Feng was still thinking about what he would do if he saw He Yunsheng at first. Later, when he was about to eat at noon, he called Xu Qing and he didn't answer, and then realized that Xu Qing was angry with him.
Xi Feng felt a little sorry for Xu Qing, not only because of the failure to answer the phone, but also because of the matter between him and He Yunsheng.
Whether gay or bisexual, Xi Feng finds it difficult to accept this redundant identity. The matter with He Yunsheng made him a little scared, and he always felt that he would go down a road of no return.
He thought for a long time, and felt that He Yunsheng was right. He shouldn't pay too much attention to this matter, as his concentration was unconsciously affected. If he didn't know that He Yunsheng liked men from the beginning to the end, then he would definitely not have such thoughts. At this time, he should get his life back on track, instead of getting further and further away.
For Xi Feng, Xu Qing is his right track.
That afternoon, Xi Feng was waiting for Xu Qing at the gate of the office building.
Xu Qing came out with the female colleagues in the department, but after seeing Xi Feng, she quickened her pace and wanted to leave.
Xi Feng stopped her and said sincerely: "Qingqing, I was wrong, don't be angry with me."
The female colleague bumped Xu Qing's arm with a smile, and left first.
Xi Feng and Xu Qing were left standing in place. Xu Qing didn't hide his anger at first, but Xi Feng apologized to her over and over again, and then Xu Qing softened his attitude.
That night, the two went shopping, had dinner and watched a movie together. To show his sincerity, Xi Feng bought Xu Qing a bag worth more than 3,000 yuan.
When Xi Feng sent Xu Qing home at night, Xu Qing's mood had obviously improved. The two of them stood downstairs in the community and kissed lightly. Afterwards, Xu Qing and Xi Feng waved goodbye.
Looking at Xu Qing's back, Xi Feng thought that this is the right way, this is his life.
They work in the same building, but Xi Feng still hasn't seen He Yunsheng for nearly a week, and it's already the second week's all-staff meeting when we meet again.
He Yunsheng's seat was in the front row. After Xi Feng sat down, he habitually glanced at He Yunsheng's seat, and saw that it was still empty. After a while he heard He Yunsheng walking into the conference room while talking softly with someone.
He Yunsheng walked past Xi Feng's seat without saying hello to him.
When Xi Feng looked up and saw the smooth lines wrapped under He Yunsheng's slim suit, he suddenly took a breath. He stared at the front for a while, and when he came back to his senses, he found that he had written a letter of congratulations in the notebook, and he tore off the page in fright.
Half a month later, Xu Qing's parents came to visit their daughter on a trip from other places, and proposed to have a meal with Xi Feng.
After Xu Qing told Xi Feng about this, Xi Feng immediately agreed and said that he would arrange the meal.
It's kind of like meeting your parents.
Every time Xi Feng talked with his mother on the phone, the other party would urge him to take his girlfriend home. Originally, Xi Feng had been a little hesitant, but after what happened with He Yunsheng, he suddenly wanted to speed up his development with Xu Qing.
He wished he could prove to himself that he was a genuinely normal man.
Xi Feng arranged the meal at a Chinese restaurant with an elegant environment, and ordered food and drinks in advance, hoping to give Xu Qing's parents a good impression.
Xu Qing's family background is ordinary, his parents don't expect their daughter to find any rich man, they just want to find a young man who is good to their daughter and willing to make progress.
Xi Feng is tall and handsome, his appearance must be passable, and his attitude today is also serious and sincere. After a meal, Xu Qing's parents should have been very satisfied, if it hadn't been for that accident in the middle.
In the middle of the meal, Xi Feng saw the waiter leading He Yunsheng in from outside, and took him to a booth for four people.
He Yunsheng didn't see Xi Feng, but Xi Feng noticed He Yunsheng at a glance.
This is not too much of a coincidence, because He Yunsheng invited Xi Feng to this restaurant for the first time, otherwise Xi Feng would usually go to a cheaper restaurant or a small restaurant like hot pot and skewers.
Xu Qing also didn't notice He Yunsheng, she was talking to Xi Feng, when Xi Feng suddenly lost his voice, she asked him what's the matter strangely.
"Nothing," Xi Feng answered her. But his attention fell on He Yunsheng uncontrollably.
He Yunsheng didn't come out to eat alone, he waited for a few minutes, a young and handsome man came in from outside, wearing a casual suit, sitting opposite He Yunsheng with a smile on his face.
Xi Feng couldn't judge the relationship between the two of them, but he could tell that they were not familiar with each other.
"Little seat?"
He suddenly came back to his senses, only to realize that Xu Qing's father had already called him several times.
"Huh? Uncle?"
Xu Qing was a little unhappy, "Why are you absent-minded?"
Xi Feng shook his head, he is now fully focused on He Yunsheng, always thinking in his heart, did He Yunsheng come to have a blind date with this man
Maybe the man opposite him is also gay, and they are both single. It is not impossible for each other to be introduced by friends to meet each other.
This thought made Xi Feng tangled up.
In fact, even if He Yunsheng has a new boyfriend, it has nothing to do with Xi Feng. All he wants to do now is to concentrate on being with his girlfriend and forget about things related to He Yunsheng as soon as possible. And in the past half a month, he also felt that this was a very smooth thing, he was almost successful, but it happened that he met He Yunsheng again on this occasion today.
Although He Yunsheng and the man came late, they ate very simple. The two of them talked and laughed all the time. Later, the man checked the time and wondered if he had something to leave in a hurry, so he beckoned the waiter to pay the bill.
When he got up to leave, Xi Feng saw the man help He Yunsheng pick up his coat and put it on for him, and even reached out to touch his face, and then the two walked towards the outside of the restaurant one after the other.
It suddenly occurred to Xi Feng that the two of them might go to the bar to drink after dinner, and then they would naturally have sex at night. This thought made him stiff for a moment, and he felt that no matter what, he should ask He Yunsheng for clarification.
So Xi Feng stood up.
Xu Qing was already unhappy because of his absent-mindedness all night, so he asked in a bad tone: "Why?"
Xi Feng only said: "There is something wrong!" Then he chased outside.
Chasing out of the restaurant, Xi Feng only saw He Yunsheng's car parked by the side of the road just started, he ran over in a hurry and stopped in front of the car that had just started.
He Yunsheng slammed on the brakes, looked at the people in front of the car in surprise, then pressed the window and shouted angrily: "Are you crazy?"
Xi Feng saw that He Yunsheng was the only one in the car, he was panting because he ran too fast, and asked, "Where is that person?"
He Yunsheng looked at him inexplicably, "Which person?"
Xi Feng said: "The one who had dinner with you just now is your boyfriend?"
He Yunsheng's anger had not yet dissipated, and now he rushed up again, and said, "What does it have to do with you?"
Xi Feng walked towards the driver's seat, reaching out to pull his car door, "Listen to me first."
He Yunsheng locked the car door and said, "I don't want to hear from you! Please leave now!"
Xi Feng was afraid that he would close the car window, so he quickly reached out and pressed it, "I care about you."
He Yunsheng felt that he had lived in his thirties, and this was the first time he had met such an unreasonable person. He couldn't help shouting: "Who are you to me? Who wants you to care! Get out!"
Xi Feng felt aggrieved when he heard him yelling loudly at himself, but he still insisted: "Shall we sit down and talk?"
Regardless of whether his hand was still stuck on the car window or not, He Yunsheng insisted on closing the car window upwards. He said, "No! I have nothing to say to you!"
He felt that he was about to be laughed at by Xi Feng. He was known for his good temper since he was a child, and he had never tried to yell at people in the street in such a rage.
At the last moment when the car window was about to close, Xi Feng withdrew his hand and tried to pull He Yunsheng's car door, but He Yunsheng stepped on the accelerator and drove the car out.
"He Yunsheng!" Xi Feng chased after two steps.
He Yunsheng looked at him from the rearview mirror, and was a little afraid of being overtaken by him, so he couldn't hold back and stepped on the accelerator hard. But when he turned back, he found that a large truck suddenly changed lanes, and when he stepped on the brakes again, it was too late, and slammed into it with a bang.
Seeing this scene, Xi Feng was so frightened that his voice trembled, "He Yunsheng!" He yelled and ran over.
The front half of the car and the driver's seat were deformed. Xi Feng ran over and pulled open the door of the driver's seat, and saw that the airbag popped out, and He Yunsheng was stuck between the airbag and the seat.
His breathing was stagnant, and he shouted hoarsely: "He Yunsheng?"
He Yunsheng slowly raised his head to look at him, and said, "I'm not dead, don't worry." I don't know if it was an illusion, but when he heard Xi Feng calling his name just now, he seemed so sad that he was about to cry.