Guan Suyi was sitting in the pavilion surrounded by greenery arranging flowers, with two maids standing on the left and right, handing out a flower branch or a pair of scissors from time to time. Outside the bamboo curtain swaying back and forth by the breeze, the setting sun and the fallen leaves are everywhere. Autumn is here.
"Madam, the eldest son is here, he wants to see you." The hurried footsteps of the middle-aged servant girl disrupted the tranquility of the place.
Guan Suyi was stunned for a while, her calm face showing a trance, as if recalling who the "eldest son" in the woman's mouth was. After a while, she frowned slightly, and uttered two words slowly and decisively, "No."
The servant-wife hesitated to speak, but she also knew that the lady was stubborn and very opinionated, and she might not be seen for sure. But this is only a remote house of the Zhao family. Only the slaves or female relatives who have made mistakes will be sent over. The life is extremely hard, how can it compare to the prosperity and wealth of Yanjing? The servant girl wanted to go back to the main house, but she had no way to go. She finally waited for the eldest son to come. How could she miss the opportunity to flatter him? After leaving the second door, she forgot his wife's proposition and put the eldest son in.
Guan Suyi, who had already inserted a bottle of golden chrysanthemum, was turning the vase, trying to find out the shortcomings, when she suddenly saw that one of the golden chrysanthemum leaves was too lush, lacking the artistic conception of white space and the beauty of containing and not letting go. He picked up the small scissors to trim a little.
"Mother." The guilt-filled cry made her fingertips tremble slightly. The sharp blade missed the extra leaves, but cut off a beautifully blooming golden chrysanthemum. Guan Suyi did not immediately put down the scissors, nor did she show annoyance, and even her slightly frowning eyebrows spread out at this time. She picked the leaves with the tip of the knife, and then took out the cut flower branches and threw them into the small bamboo basket at hand. Only then did she look at the boy standing outside the pavilion, whose face was full of panic and decadence.
Looking from top to bottom, he touched the crutches in his hand and his left leg, which was obviously shortened. Guan Suyi was a little surprised. He wanted to ask, but he didn't speak. Isn't the reason why she was assigned to Cangzhou because of too much control
The young man saw concern in her eyes, and the misery and guilt that had been blocked in his heart burst into an instant, and limped a few steps forward, wanting to throw himself at the woman's feet and cry. Guan Suyi didn't dodge, but the two maids had blocked the boy, and asked while supporting, "Eldest son, what's wrong with you? But you've been wronged? Your foot is injured, you mustn't bump it!" What kind of thing? The grievances can make the eldest son, who regards his wife as an enemy, travel thousands of miles to Cangzhou to complain, and it is still in the case of bad behavior
The two of them didn't ask, but the young man was still able to endure it, but this question was like a flood, and tears fell instantly, while choking up, he said intermittently, "Mother, my son is sorry for you! You have always been strict with your son, and your son is fond of playing for a while. Rebuke, you will be punished if you make a mistake, and you will be praised if you make a profit. You treat your son as if you were his own, but your son listens to other people's slander. You always feel that you have ulterior motives and hide a traitor inside, so you are deliberately alienating, but you go close to Aunt Ye. The son is really stupid, Son is wrong!"
Guan Suyi rested her forehead with one hand and placed the other flat on the stone table. She tapped the edge of the table with her fingertips. Aunt Ye? Which Aunt Ye? After staying in Cangzhou for two years, she deliberately forgot about the Zhao residence, and it took a lot of effort to find this person from her dusty memory.
Aunt Ye was the cousin of Zhao Luli's original wife, and she was admitted in the name of taking care of the children shortly after she passed the door. She is connected with Zhao Luli's direct son and daughter by blood. It can be said that she has watched them grow up since childhood, and she looks very similar to their mother, which completely satisfies the children's desire for maternal love. On the surface, she is just a concubine, but she is quite popular in the Hou Mansion. Zhao Luli is also particularly infatuated by her similar appearance to his wife. Needless to say, the two children treat her as their biological mother.
On the other hand, Guan Suyi is neither embarrassed nor embarrassed, neither up nor down, and can't be good at both ends. Without a prominent family background, and without a generous dowry, in order to gain a foothold in Cui Wei's Zhenbeihou Mansion, she has no other way than to restrain herself, return to rituals, and keep her duty. Serving her mother-in-law, taking care of her husband, educating her children, and doing what she can do, she silently accomplishes everything, but in the end, she was disgraced and was sent here.
The unbearable memory became clear again, and the corner of Guan Suyi's mouth was lightly raised, as if mocking himself at the beginning, and at the same time mocking the boy who was crying miserably and desperately under the steps.
"What's wrong with your leg?" she asked quietly.
The long-lost care came from his mother, and the boy burst into tears and felt a surge of shame, "My son's leg was broken! It was because Aunt Ye bribed the servant next to her son and let him lure her son into a fight with a ranger. Imperial doctor To say that she will never be able to walk like ordinary people in the future is a waste. In order for Zhao Guang to inherit the title of Marquis of Zhenbei, she has ruined her son's life! Mother, you have always been strict with your son, teaching your son to read, and ordering your son to be polite. Mistakes and omissions must be punished. On the other hand, Concubine Ye only indulges and indulges her son, making her son go farther and farther on the wrong path, and this is what he is today."
Guan Suyi's eyes were distant and her expression was unpredictable. The young man used to call "Aunt Ye" so affectionately one by one, but when he got to him, he only said "Mrs." which was extremely cold, but he never even called "Mother" halfway. When she left Zhao's house, she thought: I don't know how long this "close family" harmony can last, but she didn't expect that after only two years, what should come will come. Broken legs, useless people, Ye Fan is really cruel.
The young man was distraught, didn't notice his mother who was obviously distracted, and poured out to himself, "At this time, my son finally understands that what is good to you may not be really good, and what is bad to you may not be really bad."
Guan Suyi laughed silently, and her eyes became more and more mocking. What is bad for you? Food, clothing, housing, travel, reading and martial arts, and even the future of marriage, she has all planned and thought out for this unrelated son and daughter, but it turned out that in their hearts, this was bad.
Stop, stop, it's really not wrong to meet such a wolf-hearted family and end up like this today. Guan Suyi shook her head and sighed.
Hearing the sigh, the guilt grew in his heart, and after a moment of hesitation, he finally repented and said, "Mother, my son was so wrong back then, he shouldn't listen to Concubine Ye's instigation and slander you for having an affair with Master Xu. Although my son's legs are broken, Concubine Ye can't help but slander you for having an affair with Master Xu. I can't beg you either, with my father here, the title of Marquis of Zhenbei is still mine, and when I become the heir, I will definitely take you back to serve."
Speaking of this, his eyes became red, and his fists were clenched hard, making a crack-like "click" sound, as if he was holding back great humiliation and anger. Hesitating and hesitating, hesitating and hesitating, he gritted his teeth and said, "Mother, do you know? My mother is not dead!"
your mother? Guan Suyi was in a trance for a while before realizing that Zhao Wangshu's mother was Zhao Luli's first wife, Ye Zhen. She is not dead, how is it possible? Zhao Luli wished that he could not live with his wife and continue the relationship. If she didn't die, why would he not look for her, and why would he want to marry someone else
Soon, the teenager gave the answer, "My mother is Ye Jieyu Ye Zhen. She is not my mother's twin sister, she is my mother at all. She abandoned her husband and children for the sake of prosperity and wealth. I hate my father and my sister. Knowing the truth, she still helps her everywhere, even killing the fetus in your womb, and sending you to Cangzhou on the charge of losing your virginity. Since she has switched to the arms of others, why is she still holding on to her father, why should she let her Me, let me cover such an unbearable life experience... "
The boy changed from choking to crying. His beloved aunt Ye turned out to be ruthless and cold-blooded; the deceased mother he admired used to be greedy for wealth and abandoned her husband and children. If you think about it, Guan Suyi should cry too. But what she cares about is not this bizarre and absurd scandal, but the middle sentence.
"My miscarriage was not an accident, but the hands of your father and your sister?" Thinking of the only night of humiliation, Guan Suyi's dull heart suddenly stirred up a storm. It's ridiculous. After five years of marriage to the Zhao family, Zhao Luli never touched her, and only once was drunk. To this day, she still remembers the disgusting smell of alcohol on his body and the voice of "Ye Zhen" full of love and guilt that kept echoing in her ears. He regarded her as a substitute for cherishing his deceased wife, and this substitute wanted to give birth to a direct son and hinder the interests of the original spouse's children, which was naturally unacceptable.
After thinking about everything, Guan Suyi's calm face finally shattered, and she slowly asked word by word, "I'm sorry for Zhao Luli, I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for Zhao Chunxi? Why do you hurt me so much? What a noble Zhenbeihou mansion with a clean family style; a good first wife with a high moral character; a virtuous, virtuous and favored Ye Jieyu, but it turns out that male thieves and female prostitutes are like dogs!"
The young man was ashamed and ashamed, but faintly felt happy. Male thieves and female prostitutes, walking with dogs, you are right! Only the mother is most qualified to scold like this. He knelt down willingly, thinking that his mother would lose control and vent, but seeing her suddenly chuckle and shake her head, she quickly regained her composure.
Having a tire is a good thing. Guan Suyi stroked her flat abdomen, only to feel that the guilt, regret and pain buried deep in her heart disappeared without a trace at this moment. "Su Yi Zhu Ru, follow the son Yu Wo", Su Yi is white and pure and kind, this is the grandfather's expectation for her, although she fell into the quagmire of the Zhao family and could not be freed, she was not stained with the slightest filth. This child is not the hope and sustenance of the future, but a sin, even if he does not come.
The father is not the father, the mother is not the mother, and the son is not the son, how can the Zhao family not be in chaos? Guan Suyi had expected today, but she didn't think that there was such a shocking inside story hidden in it, which really opened her eyes. She didn't care about the boy's repentance, and she didn't want to be a tool for him to express his grief, anger and resentment. She was about to have someone drag him away, but someone came to the Zhao residence in Yanjing and carried the eldest son, whose leg injury was not healed, into the carriage and left quickly.
Outside the pavilion, the autumn cicadas were neighing, and the tired birds were flying. Guan Suyi was stunned for a while, and then he took out the golden chrysanthemums inserted in the bottle one by one and replaced them with twisted thorns and withered reeds. The thorns of the thorns pierced her fingertips, causing a piercing pain, but she didn't seem to notice it, and her expression remained flat and calm from beginning to end.
Using scissors to trim the reeds, Guan Suyi laughed at herself. What a grotesque and sad work, just like her life. How good would it be if we could get away from it? Knowing that the Zhao family was a stinky mess, she couldn't leave or stay, so she could only watch herself drown. Out of the corner of her eye, she caught a few books on the table, she finally showed a resentful expression, and threw them into the tea-making stove to burn.
The maid exclaimed, "Madam, don't you read these books every day? How can you burn them?"
"My half-life tragedy probably stemmed from this, how could I not burn?" Guan Suyi stared at the flames and thick smoke that suddenly rose, her eyes were sour, and her tears were gushing.
Another maid pulled the sister and told her to stop talking. If the wife was born five years earlier and met the wonderful group of Zhao family, she would have remarried and remarried to take care of Xiaoyao, where would there be today? If it weren't for the popularity of Xu's philosophy, if it weren't for the popularity of books such as "Nvjie" and "Internal Training", why would the wife be imprisoned here and not be free. If she and Li remarry, it will ruin the reputation of the sisters in the clan, causing them to have no marriage in the future and be lonely and lonely, so they can only knock down their teeth and swallow their blood. Those fake Taoists are really hurting people!
After this day, Xu Shi felt that there was no hope for life, and Guan Suyi's already unhealthy body was rapidly exhausted. When the deadline was approaching, she seemed to hear the hurried footsteps of Zhao Luli and Zhao Wangshu and the grief-stricken voices. Confession, but only left a sentence "I only hope that the sky will enter the earth, the next life and the next life, and never see each other again."