When Bai Tang woke up, the sky outside the window was completely dark, and the surroundings were silent. Jiang Yunshu was lying sideways on another hospital bed two fists away from him, with his back arched, one hand on his waist, and his forehead resting on his shoulders. His shoulders were in a dependent position, and he fell asleep with his eyes closed and his brows furrowed.
Alpha was wearing his own casual clothes. Not long after Bai Tang fell asleep, the doctor came over to check him up, saying that he was completely fine, and then "taken" the bed next door back. The clothes were brought by Lin Bairi from their house, and he fed them Bohei sugar by the way.
Bai Tang turned his head to the side, and painted Alpha's face without blinking for ten minutes. Afterwards, he raised his right hand slightly to touch Alpha's face, but felt a burst of pain, he froze for a moment, and moved his gaze upwards.
His right hand was completely covered with bandages, and it was difficult to even bend his fingers. He was a little dazed, and his right hand was also injured? A few clips suddenly flashed in my mind, it was the picture of him frantically hammering the edge of the bed with the back of his hand.
Bai Tang couldn't remember many details.
He raised his left hand again, and there was a winding scar on his left arm, extending from the elbow joint, and the wrist was also wrapped several times with bandages.
Bai Tang blinked his eyes.
So ugly.
Bai Tang stared at the dead white gauze for a while, then suddenly laughed, his eyes curved slightly, showing joy from the bottom of his heart.
But it doesn't matter, as long as Dr. Jiang is fine.
All the injuries, including the future, all the misfortunes in the second half of life, should fall on him. Jiang Yunshu didn't want to shed any blood.
He stretched out his hand again and gently smoothed Alpha's eyebrows, and touched Alpha's hands and feet again, it wasn't cold.
It's three o'clock in the morning, and he slept for several hours during the day because of the sedatives, Bai Tang didn't feel sleepy now, he turned around gently, and put his arms around the back of Alpha's head, making the latter more comfortable to lean on.
At 6:00 in the morning, Zhou Zhaoyu walked out of the omega lounge expressionlessly and went to the hospital canteen: "Auntie, a bowl of porridge, two eggs, two meat wraps and a cup of soy milk."
"Okay! Pack the same as before, right?"
Zhou Zhaoyu gave a "hmm" and changed his words again: "Let's have three more copies that are exactly the same, and pack them all up."
After eating a bowl of porridge and an egg, at 6:10, he put the plastic bag containing breakfast and a folder into Qin Zhongnan's cabinet with ease, and was about to pull the suitcase aside to leave, Turning around, he saw Alpha standing against the cabinet at some point.
Qin Zhongnan said, "You want to go alone again?"
Zhou Zhaoyu said: "Where is there, why do you hold grudges like this?"
"Then this is the second time?" Qin Zhongnan touched Zhou Zhaoyu's face, "Did you not sleep again last night?"
"Sleep." Zhou Zhaoyu didn't move, "I just didn't sleep well."
Qin Zhongnan hugged him, "You'll catch up on the plane later, you know?"
With the tip of Zhou Zhaoyu's nose pressed against his shirt, he closed his eyes and let out a "hmm".
Qin Zhongnan's voice sounded above his head: "Have you made up your mind?"
"Well," Zhou Zhaoyu said, "After handing over the work, I also took two months off. I have to admit that my state is no longer suitable for helping others, sorry."
Qin Zhongnan said: "In fact, you can take another day off and dance with you at home. Why do you have to do it so soon today?"
"It's okay." Zhou Zhaoyu patted Alpha's back with one hand, "It's not that fragile."
Qin Zhongnan sighed, earnestly and kindly: "Then what do you want to do now? You can do whatever you want."
Zhou Zhaoyu was quiet for a few seconds, then compromised: "Give me some pheromone..."
Qin Zhongnan grinned, and pushed the person towards the dead corner of the surveillance in the stairwell, "Go to the old place."
ten minutes later.
After bullying his omega, Qin Zhongnan was refreshed. He opened his cabinet, and a big breakfast bag fell out. He carried it to the inpatient department, and saw Jiang Yunshu woke up from a long distance, and was outside the door Talking on the phone.
He waited until Jiang Yunshu hung up the phone before approaching, "Don't tell me you've started work."
"No," Jiang Yunshu said, "didn't you help me apply for early annual leave? It's Jiang Jinsheng's business, because white sugar is not suitable for evidence collection now, so it will be postponed for another two days."
Qin Zhongnan didn't ask any more questions, and lifted his bag, "Eat breakfast? Go in or go to the rest area."
Jiang Yunshu gently opened the door, suddenly stopped his hand, turned around, and spoke very quickly: "Wait! Ms. Jiang is on her side"
Qin Zhongnan was taken aback, and he covered his heart, "You scared me to death, don't worry, Zhao Yu arranged someone to deliver the meal that day."
Jiang Yunshu breathed a sigh of relief, "Then come in and eat, white sugar is not safe for anyone to see."
For breakfast in the canteen of the Imperial Hospital, the best thing is meat buns, but the daily portion is always not enough, so come early to enjoy it. Therefore, Zhou Zhaoyu had been doing it habitually for two years to stuff the meat buns into Qin Zhongnan's cabinet.
The two ate the buns in silence for a while, and Jiang Yunshu suddenly said, "Actually, I have some psychological problems, I"
Qin Zhongnan breathed a sigh of relief when he heard his confession. He wanted to ask Jiang Yunshu to do the small questionnaire, "Stop, I'll recommend you a counselor. You don't have to tell me. You don't have to tell him. After that, Zhao Yu will no longer serve as Bai Tang's psychiatrist, and you and I have the same empathy."
Jiang Yunshu closed his mouth.
Qin Zhongnan took a bite: "Actually, Bai Tang came to ask me two weeks ago."
Jiang Yunshu also took a bite, and the gravy overflowed. He heard the words and looked over, "Sugar?"
"Well," Qin Zhongnan said, "Bai Tang told me that you always don't sleep well and only care about work, but because it involves your privacy, he can't tell me. Bai Tang is not a psychiatrist, so he probably didn't go there. On the other hand, I thought, but we were busy during that time and we didn't meet each other. I don't know why and I dare not jump to conclusions. In short, it was my negligence for not following up on your situation in time. It was not until the day before yesterday that I saw you and noticed your spirit The situation is not right, so I asked Bai Tang to persuade you to see a psychiatrist, but unexpectedly, something happened the next day."
Jiang Yunshu glanced at Bai Tang, who was sleeping restlessly on the hospital bed, and said, "I've done very irresponsible in this regard."
"Actually," Qin Zhongnan said, "maybe you can rely on sugar a little more. Take me and Zhou Zhaoyu as an example. Between the two of us, he has always been in a dominant position. At work, his position is higher than mine, and he helped me at the beginning A lot. Emotionally, his personality is stronger than mine, and he often gives advice when I am wandering. But in the long run, this kind of relationship is very detrimental to the relationship between couples, because I depend on him more than he depends on me. And this kind of The illusion of accumulated relationship has created Zhou Zhaoyu's pressure is increasing, he has to take care of everything by himself, he can't make mistakes, because if I make mistakes too, there will be no one to put out the fire."
Jiang Yunshu listened carefully.
Qin Zhongnan's cycle progressed gradually, and his voice led Jiang Yunshu to sink in bit by bit, "You and Baitang have the same reason. Like Zhou Zhaoyu, you will become more and more tense, and you will habitually digest everything by yourself. And Baitang will become more and more nervous just like me. It seems that I can't help anything, and I can only watch my partner getting tired. But because I am an alpha and the nature of our work is the same, Zhou Zhaoyu will listen, and he has changed a lot. If Bai Tang told you, would you listen?"
Jiang Yunshu was silent.
"Has Bai Tang ever told you that he can help with some work?"
Jiang Yunshu opened his mouth. Yes, and I have said it more than once, every night.
He listened in, fell silent, and said, "So when you're not fooling around, you're quite reliable."
Qin Zhongnan's teasing face froze for a moment, his gold-rimmed glasses chain dangled, and he said angrily, "I take back that long heart-to-heart talk. For you, I even told the fact that I am not in a dominant position."
"Needless to say," Jiang Yunshu said, "you can tell if you have eyes."
Qin Zhongnan gave a "tsk", "Really, try to let go of what Baitang can do at work. Although he is so much younger than you, he may not be able to help you at the moment, but give him a little more trust. Isn’t the information organized by Bai Tang several times? Secretary Feng also praised that the organization is very clear.”
Jiang Yunshu's first love affair has benefited a lot.
"Emotionally, you can also be a little more presumptuous. For example, when you are tired, if you want to inhale pheromones, you can pick him up and throw him on the bed to inhale. No matter what he is doing, you don't have to care about the other party. It's okay to be self-willed once in a while. The other person will feel that you need him, and you will feel a lot easier."
Let's be presumptuous, Jiang Yunshu repeated in his heart.
Qin Zhongnan: "You look like your ears can do it, but your body can't."
Jiang Yunshu said: "I will try."
"However," Qin Zhongnan said, "If you listen, I'm not worried. After all, Bai Tang has better patience than me, and he won't act violently like me."
Jiang Yunshu looked at him suspiciously: "What radical behavior?"
Qin Zhongnan glanced at him without emotion, and said coolly, "What kind of extreme behavior can occur between lovers."
Only then did Jiang Yunshu realize that some images appeared in his mind very smoothly, and he couldn't stop: He didn't listen, and Bai Tang pressed him on the bed in a fit of anger, his beautiful face enlarged rapidly, biting his crotch cowardly and fiercely. lips, acted boldly but said with a trembling voice, "Are you still listening?"
He coughed and stopped the car.
"By the way," Jiang Yunshu thought of something, "Baitang said that Jiang Yunsu was back. On the way I fainted, I held his hand and opened my eyes to stare at him."
Qin Zhongnan was a little surprised: "He said that?"
"Well," Jiang Yunshu said, "Did he have hallucinations because he was under stress at that time?"
Qin Zhongnan rubbed his chin with his fingers, thought for a while, and said, "There are two situations, one is that he did have hallucinations, and the other is that you really held his hand. However, I prefer the second Kindly, Bai Tang's situation is getting better day by day. Although you fainted in front of him is enough to make him stressful, but you won't jump directly to the point of committing suicide. After all, as I said before, you have already overwhelmed the fear that Jiang Yunsu brought to him , so there should be some strong and exciting changes in the middle, so it makes sense."
"Then how should I explain it to him?" Jiang Yunshu said, "I didn't know I held his hand."
Qin Zhongnan became serious: "Are you sure, isn't that really Jiang Yunsu?"
"I'm sure," Jiang Yunshu said, "he's dead, he won't come back."
Qin Zhongnan said: "Then I suggest that you tell Bai Tang that you were conscious at that time, and it was you who held his hand."
Bai Tang felt in a daze that something was messing with his stomach, licking and biting it for a long time. He frowned and struggled a bit, and opened his eyes.
He saw his clothes being lifted up, the surrounding quilts were piled up, and the alpha's head was buried on his stomach.
Bai Tang blinked his eyes in a daze, and then a burst of blood surged up, his neck was smothered red.
It's like this, in the winter, even though the meat buns and eggs were kept in Jiang Yun's book pocket, after a long time, it was still cold, so he planned to wake people up, eat before going to sleep.
He naturally kissed Omega's swollen cheeks, then reached into the warm blanket and rubbed Omega's soft belly, "Bai Tang, wake up."
Seemingly knowing that Alpha was beside him, Bai Tang was still soundly asleep.
Jiang Yunshu ground it with his teeth, his facial features sank on the soft and delicate belly, and he agreed with what Qin Zhongnan said in a low voice: "It really relieves pressure..."
Bai Tang wasn't fully awake yet, she put her hands on Alpha's head and subconsciously called out: "Yunshu"
Jiang Yunshu was stunned for a moment, this was the first time Baitang called that after the two established their relationship, he gently grabbed Baitang's hand, and pressed his lips on the white gauze, "Well, it's me."
Both of Bai Tang's hands were injured, and he couldn't use his strength, so he sat up with Alpha's arms around his back, "Why did you wake up so early?"
"I woke up when I couldn't sleep."
Bai Tang went to the bathroom to brush his teeth, feeling refreshed. Before he could put down the cup, Jiang Yunshu, who was standing behind him, pinched his chin up and kissed him.
Bai Tang leaned his neck back, and pressed the back of his head against his stiff shoulders. He felt the cold and hot temperature on his lips, and then the hem of his clothes was pulled away by alpha and he rubbed his side of his waist vigorously.
Bai Tang opened his mouth obediently, and the tip of his bright red tongue flashed across. Why did he feel that Alpha had become so active
As soon as the kiss was closed, Jiang Yunshu hugged the weak-legged omega, and kissed Baitang's neck, "I'll see a psychiatrist this afternoon. I'm sorry I made you worry for so long."
Bai Tang gasped for breath and could only shake his head. Alpha's previous kisses were gentle, restrained and lingering, but this time they were full of sexuality, her lips were rubbed red and her tongue was almost bitten off
Jiang Yunshu asked: "Do you hate it? What kind of kiss do you like?"
In front of him was a square mirror. Bai Tang lowered his eyes and dared not look at it. He pursed his hot lips, "I don't hate it, I like it."
Jiang Yunshu was completely relieved, tilted his head and kissed the tip of the red ear again and again, until the shoulders of the omega in his arms shrank, and he said, "Bai Tang, I will work as hard as you to cure it, and I will pay attention to it in the future." Body. But next time you can’t hurt yourself casually, you know?”
"I didn't hurt myself, I want to live a long life with you!" Bai Tang felt aggrieved, "It's Jiang Yunsu!"
Jiang Yunshu's heart warmed when he heard Bai Tang's words.
"Without him, Bai Tang, he is truly dead and will never come back," and then he lied unnaturally, "It was me who held your hand, I wanted you not to worry, but I passed out without holding on."
Bai Tang slightly widened his eyes, "Really?"
"Well, I promise," Jiang Yunshu said, "I'm really dead only when the doctor declares me dead. Only, do you know what that means? Just in case something happens to me and I bleed a lot and become unconscious Or I lost my heartbeat and breathing, but as long as the doctor doesn’t announce it, I’m not dead, you know?”
Bai Tang always felt that there was something wrong with this logic.
Jiang Yunshu smiled and said in a low voice, "I want to live a long life with you, so don't be afraid."
In the afternoon, Jiang Yunshu went to the psychology department. When he went out, he happened to meet Zheng Ruyun who came from outside.
Both of them froze for a moment, but neither chose to speak.
Bai Tang still saw something wrong, so he came over in time, "What's wrong?"
Jiang Yunshu shook his head, took Baitang's hand, and said, "Then I'll go down first."
Zheng Ruyun put the apple puree in his hand on the cabinet and said nothing.
"What's the matter?" Bai Tang asked tentatively, "What happened between you? Weren't you very friendly before?"
Zheng Ruyun said truthfully: "When he woke up for the second time, I almost punched him."
Bai Tang's eyes widened abruptly, he was surprised and held back his strength, and grabbed Zheng Ruyun's coat, "Did you hit him?!"
"Almost," Zheng Ruyun said, "I was really impulsive at the time, I'm sorry. When the fight was almost over, I thought that he is the person you like. If I continue to fight, you will be unhappy."
Bai Tang didn't speak for a long time.
Conflicts between boyfriends and friends should be mediated by yourself. He calmed down and asked, "Ruyun, can you tell me what happened?"
Zheng Ruyun said briefly, and took it hastily.
Bai Tang's face began to wrinkle, "Well, it's none of Dr. Jiang's business, it's me."
"But if he doesn't faint, nothing will happen to you." Zheng Ruyun said, "Bai Tang, there are so many people in that ward, only you who are lying on the next bed are my friends."
Bai Tang was thinking about how to explain, "But Dr. Jiang has too many things to do, and he doesn't want to faint. The main reason is that I was scared and that's my problem."
"But didn't he die like this in his last life?" Zheng Ruyun said, "Then in his whole life, doesn't he know that something will happen sooner or later?"
"Perhaps Dr. Jiang plans to see a doctor after he finishes his work," Bai Tang said suddenly, "Are you right? It can only be said to be an accidental mistake!"
After listening to what Jiang Yunshu said, a woman with a kind face asked in a gentle voice, "Mr. Jiang, I can see you coming because of an external emergency. So if this external emergency does not happen , are you subjectively willing to solve the problem?"
Jiang Yunshu was silent for a while, "No."
He knew clearly from the last world that he had long-standing psychological problems. In his previous life, he had no worries, so he didn't care, and he didn't care if he died. He even thought, maybe after he died, he would see the slightly sad expression on the couple's face.
He also clearly knows that if there is no white sugar. Probably he will never find a partner in his whole life. He will live like a robot in the last world. The only things he does every day are: go to work, eat, go to the bathroom, and sleep alone at night.
And then, inevitably, overworked again.
Maybe after the sudden death in this world, he was really freed from death, or maybe, when he reached the third world, the fourth world and the hundredth world, he would only live more like a walking dead in one world than in the other world. All died without exception.
In his whole life, he had the idea of going to the doctor on his own initiative, but he was blocked by the things at hand. He always thought that he would go here after finishing his work.
But he can never finish, because after finishing the work of "Jiang's father and son", there will be "Wang's father and son" and "Li's father and son".
Shen Ting, a psychological counselor, is a female beta. She guides Jiang Yunshu bit by bit and guides him to tell everything.
After listening to the outline, Shen Ting understood that this was another child who had been hurt by her original family and her parents.
Work can save Jiang Yunshu from having to face his inner loneliness and deprived childhood and adult life; secondly, work has also strengthened his long-held belief that no matter how hard he tries, it is never too much.
In addition to the heavy shackles put on him by his native family, Jiang Yunshu subconsciously believes that as long as he puts in enough time and energy, he will be able to prove that he is indeed a capable and valuable person. The same is true for feelings. As long as this is the case, the people he cares about will love him.
Shen Ting is a good listener. She would tell Jiang Yunshu from time to time that it is very common and natural for you to feel like this. It is your parents' fault and has nothing to do with you.
Zheng Ruyun looked at Baitang like an idiot, "If an accident tells you when it will come, is it still an accident? And what kind of accident is this? First of all, he had an accident like this in his previous life, and second, he is a doctor. If you torment your body like this , tossing into the hospital, I will be very angry."
"The main thing is that Dr. Jiang didn't want to. It has already happened. He must be very sad when he wakes up. He will pay attention to it. There is no need to talk about him," Baitang said, "And Dr. Jiang not only has to work , and helping us, helping Omega."
Zheng Ruyun disagreed, "How can there be an alpha who wholeheartedly helps Omega? Omega has to stand up by itself"
"It's true," Bai Tang said excitedly, "The Second Star Omega Relief Foundation was established by them!"
"Varied… "
Zheng Ruyun was stunned suddenly, as if he had heard something unbelievable and couldn't understand it, it took him a long time before he said with difficulty: "Is this established by them?"
"Well! To be precise, it was established by their organization. There are many powerful omega and alpha in it. Dr. Jiang, Dr. Qin, the senior and Dr. Lin are all in it, and I heard from Dr. Jiang that in the end it was because of the person in charge. It was approved by adding Dr. Lin’s father’s name.”
"Lin Bairi is also inside?"
Zheng Ruyun's face was dull, and he rolled these words on the tip of his tongue many times, and he murmured: "I don't know, I don't know they did this."
As an omega who has been working hard in society since he was 12 years old, he has met many alphas, those who oppress omega, those who don't care about omega's life, those who are indifferent, those who talk about respect, and those who use the banner to help omega but profit from omega , countless.
But I have never met anyone who treats an omega sincerely.
Even Alpha, who lived next door to the small dilapidated residential building at that time, from Zheng Ruyun's age of 3 to 10 years old, in his opinion, who loved his wife very, very much, cheated on others later on. Although he wasn't cruel enough to send his wife to a concentrated birthing center, she didn't go back to that home either.
An alpha who has been standing in line all night just to buy a CD that his wife loves can cheat. Are there really good alphas in the world
Is there really such an alpha? Zheng Ruyun was a little lost, "I really don't know."
Two hours later, both of them were a little tired, but Shen Ting could clearly feel that the patient in front of her hadn't let go of all her psychological defenses against her, and from this information, she could extract that Jiang Yunshu had one thing that could make him feel Peace of mind lover.
After the end, Shen Ting asked chattingly: "Mr. Jiang, will you let your lover participate in your follow-up treatment process?"
Jiang Yunshu said, "Yes."
Shen Ting: "So, next time we meet, how about coming with him? The effect will be unexpectedly good."
Jiang Yunshu was stunned for a moment, and said, "Okay, let me ask him."
Shen Ting smiled: "He will accompany you."
Holding a stack of materials in his hand, Jiang Yunshu closed the door of the psychological consultation room. His temples were sweating a little. At this moment, he just wanted to run back to the ward to inhale omega.
Today, he didn't do anything. The organization cut his work by half, and he didn't have to go to work for half a month. So what will he do in the next 15 days
When Jiang Yunshu returned to the ward, he found that Zheng Ruyun hadn't left and was sitting on the sofa in a daze. Seeing him from the corner of his eye, he suddenly stood up and bowed neatly, "I'm sorry, I was wrong before, I didn't know you They are really helping Omega."
Jiang Yunshu was quiet for a few seconds, and said, "No need, you also drew a lot of blood to save Baitang."
Bai Tang twisted his little head back and forth, his eyes widened: "Ruyun, did you draw blood? Why didn't anyone tell me! You"
Zheng Ruyun said indifferently: "I will be regenerated soon."
Jiang Yunshu's expression was flat: "It will take at least two months for the amount of hemoglobin to return to the amount before the blood donation."
Zheng Ruyun opened his mouth, swallowed the words he wanted to refute, and said, "Anyway, I'm really sorry, I shouldn't have treated you that way, and also... Thank you for helping omega, really."
It made him change his views on the alpha species a little. It turns out that there really are good alphas in the world, and it turns out that this society has not been completely swallowed by darkness.
After Zheng Ruyun left, Jiang Yunshu showed his tired face in front of Baitang, and he hugged Baitang full of his arms.
Bai Tang slowly released some pheromones, and kissed his own alpha, "Is there anything I can do to help?"
The sweetness of condensed milk seemed to have tentacles, gently helping him straighten his tense nerves, Jiang Yunshu said: "Can you?"
After a pause, he changed his words: "I want you to accompany me to see a counselor."
"Okay," Bai Tang agreed quickly, and he followed Alpha's back, "When will I go? What should I prepare?"
Jiang Yunshu said: "Tomorrow, we will go home after watching." Bai Tang will be discharged from the hospital tomorrow.
The two hugged for a while, and then began to kiss stickily again.
"Doctor Jiang," Bai Tang said hesitantly, "Can I help Ruyun? Don't you hate him? In fact, he had a dark childhood, and his life is very difficult now. He will definitely not go out to buy meat after blood is drawn. Can you replenish your body?"
"I don't hate him, you decide for yourself," Jiang Yunshu could guess that something must have happened to Zheng Ruyun's past, and no resentment is unreasonable, he said, "If you can, who doesn't want to live a wanton and beautiful life."
The next day, Bai Tang changed into his own clothes. He was wearing a khaki woolen coat, and he sat nervously beside Jiang Yunshu, looking at the counselor in front of him who looked like a good friend.
Shen Ting said with a smile, "Don't be nervous" and got into today's topic. With just a few paragraphs, she planted a consciousness in Jiang Yunshu's mind: Bai Tang is by your side, he will comfort you, so don't be afraid.
Counselors generally guide victims through three stages—resentment, grief, and release. It takes as little as a month to complete the entire process, and it can take as long as decades.
Most traumatized adults experience periods of sadness, loneliness, and discomfort. Sadness is a familiar emotion. Resentment is not. They often try to skip their resentment and get to the grief as quickly as possible.
But it would be wrong to do so. Resentment must precede sorrow.
But of course, it is impossible to separate strong emotions completely, and there is sadness in resentment, and there are traces of resentment in sadness. But they represent different stages of treatment as far as this therapeutic work is concerned.
Under Shen Ting's guidance, Jiang Yunshu gradually vented his dissatisfaction with his parents, and his low voice contained puzzled anger, "Obviously their parents didn't teach them this way, why did they treat me like this? Work will always be more important than mine. First, if this is the case, why did you give birth to me?"
Bai Tang held Alpha's hand tightly.
Jiang Yunshu paused.
His anger and sadness lasted for a long time, and his mood became more and more unstable. "There will be a table at home, on which I will slap the palm of my hand a few times. There are more than a hundred, insignificant things. 10 times, 20 times for small things, and 50-200 times for other things according to the severity."
"In a cold, impersonal room, the ruler hits the palm of the hand, and the palm hurts the most, then the brain, then the heart, and finally the ruler." Jiang Yunshu's tears fell unexpectedly and hit the fabric , "Even a ruler hurts, but they don't."
Shen Ting's heart was a little bit blocked when she heard that, and when she saw Alpha crying, she thought that it was almost the end. The first time most people come for consultation is to release by crying, and most of them have relatively stable conversations in the later period.
Suddenly, a trembling voice sounded in the quiet consultation room: "I will hurt too."
Shen Ting looked over.
Jiang Yunshu had been struggling to suppress the soreness in his nasal cavity. He suddenly raised his head and saw that Bai Tang's eyes were red, and said in a trembling voice, "It's okay, we don't need them to hurt you, just let me hurt you."
Bai Tang's words broke Jiang Yunshu's emotions completely. He didn't want outsiders to see him crying, so he hugged Bai Tang vigorously and buried his face on the omega's thin shoulder.
From intermittent crying to breaking down crying, the grievances that had been buried deep in my heart for thirty years vented out at this moment.
Bai Tang caressed Alpha's back again and again, repeating: "It's their fault, our Yunshu is better, they are not worthy"
In his blurred vision, Bai Tang saw Shen Ting giving him an encouraging smile.
The couple in front of them had a very good relationship. Shen Ting thought, omega seems to be very dependent on alpha, but many details show that it is this omega that affects alpha's emotions.
Fifteen minutes later, Alpha kept his face buried, unwilling to raise his head. Shen Ting pondered over his state, and slowly enlightened him with words.
Half an hour had passed since Jiang Yunshu calmed down, and Shen Ting said: "First of all, we know that everything comes from your parents, so our first step is to overcome the fear of facing your parents, but because Jiang Yunshu Sir, you said that the parents are not alive, we can try another method - write a letter."
"It mainly covers four points: 1. This is what you did to me, 2. This is how I felt at the time, 3. This is how it affected my life, 4. This is what I want from you now. "
"Then, I'll go out first, both of you calm down," Shen Ting looked at the two people who were buried in each other, feeling funny and comforted, even the bad mood she had just empathized with was better, "We will see you in two days .”
Bai Tang sniffed his nose and raised his face. He saw that Jiang Yunshu's coat was wet a lot, and there was some shiny snot, which he wiped frantically with a paper towel guiltily.
Jiang Yunshu said in a hoarse voice, "Should you turn your face away first?"
"Why?" Sugar asked.
Jiang Yunshu still refused to raise his head: "It doesn't look good after you cry ashamed."
Bai Tang couldn't help laughing "puchi", "Are you talking about me?"
Jiang Yunshu sighed, and raised his face resignedly, "You look good, but I don't."
Bai Tang looked at Alpha, except for some red eyes and some indentations on his handsome face, nothing changed at all, "You are so handsome, and why aren't your eyes swollen?"
After Jiang Yunshu tidied himself up, he grabbed Baitang's hand to fix it, and began to wipe the shoulders of Baitang's coat with a tissue.
Bai Tang was stunned for a moment, then suddenly started laughing, so much that his back was bent, and the top of his head rested on Alpha's chest. Thinking of the scene of the two of them shrinking like quails just now, the smile got wider and couldn't be suppressed.
He thought that the counselor must feel very speechless.
Jiang Yunshu's face was expressionless at first, but in the end he couldn't bear the infection of Bai Tang's emotions, so the corners of his mouth curled up.
In the afternoon, the fierce sunlight penetrated into the car bit by bit, Bai Tang rested his hands weakly on his knees, looking at the gradually familiar scenery outside the car, his heart jumped for joy.
Because of his recovery and because he must firmly accompany Jiang Yunshu, Bai Tang also took 15 days off.
After a long absence, the two moved back to that small villa, together with Jiang Ruanjia.
The grass in the garden had grown as high as Sugar's calf.
As soon as Brown Sugar entered the door, it was like a mad cow out of prison, rolling and splashing on the grass, knocking down many things.
What Jiang Yunshu didn't expect was that there were a lot of couriers piled up outside the iron gate, all of which were very large packages.
Jiang Yunshu and the courier looked at each other: "?"
Bai Tang was a little embarrassed: "Actually, I bought it and I did a lot of homework."
He jumped out of the car, ran into the garden, turned around and opened his arms, his face was dyed with golden light, he bent his eyes, and smiled at his alpha: "Didn't you say before that we can Do you want to renovate the garden together? Do you want to come!"
On the other side, Lin Baizhou was suddenly asked out by Zheng Ruyun.
The two haven't spoken since the last quarrel.
The two sat face to face without saying a word.
After a while, Zheng Ruyun said, "I'm sorry."
Lin Baizhou was startled, but still didn't feel like talking.
"I didn't know you were helping Omega before, so I held a prejudice against you, but" Zheng Ruyun's face flashed blank, "but how could there be an alpha helping Omega?"
Lin Baizhou put down his arms, sighed, and said, "Very rarely, but there will be."
Zheng Ruyun's eyes fixed on Lin Baizhou's arm covered by clothes, looked at it for a long time, and said again: "I'm sorry."
"I went to join the job yesterday, I..." he wanted to say something else, but he finally closed his mouth, and just took out a bunch of things from the bag and pushed them in front of Lin Baizhou, "Although there are only 40,000 yuan here, it will cost me ten years. Really saved as much as possible.”
Lin Bairi became angry again, and said loudly, "Who the hell wants your money?"
"But," Zheng Ruyun said, "this is the only thing I can give."
Lin Baizhou didn't know what mood he was in, he said bluntly, "Fuck, no need, it's really easy for Alpha."
If these words were put in normal times, Zheng Ruyun would have exploded a long time ago, but he was silent for a while, and only a flash of himself who was half soaked in blood and ran to the hospital when he was a child, he asked: "Have you always been so enthusiastic?" ? Why? Because I am miserable?"
Lin Baizhou said: "Who will believe you if you are not miserable? To be honest, I really sympathize with you. At that time, I just wanted to help if I could, and it was within my ability."
Zheng Ruyun stopped talking again, Lin Baizhou was still rambling about what's wrong? Can't Alpha be warm-hearted? He's also a doctor after all. Why can't he help if he can help...
"Lin Baizhou," Zheng Ruyun interrupted, and suddenly said, "You are fine."
Lin Baizhou was shocked again.
Just when I was about to start complaining about the other party, I heard Zheng Ruyun say: "When I was young, I hated everything that tasted like peach. Until I was 8 years old, thanks to someone, I started to like peach soda. If Zheng Hongqian's incident hadn't happened later If I see that person again, I might have the courage to step up to the dazzling light and ask if you have ever been "
"But forget it."
After a long while, Zheng Ruyun repeated it again, as if convincing himself, and said softly, "Forget it."
Lin Baizhou smiled slightly when he saw the person in front of him, as if laughing at himself for having such a fantasy. There are two deep lines between Zheng Ruyun's eyebrows due to frowning all the year round, and his skin is not as smooth as other omega's. When he smiled, Lin Baizhou found a sense of reality on his face that "so he is really an omega".
"Like Baitang, or other omega, they deserve to be saved, but I alone—" Zheng Ruyun accepted the result from the bottom of her heart, "I'm not worth it."
"Because I only have hatred left in my heart."