These two really match up.
One is the chief physician of the ophthalmology department, and the other is a genius in cardiac surgery. They are both excellent people. Either way, it's a good match.
Tao Xiaodong and Tang Suoyan met through Tian Yi, who was a student who Tian Yi had always admired and admired. Soon after Tang Suoyan returned from abroad, Tian Yi personally sent Tao Huainan into his office, saying that the student was my younger brother.
One of the directions of Tang Suoyan's research abroad is retinitis pigmentosa, a world problem that both at home and abroad are trying to overcome. There is no effective way to cure the defects in the genes so far.
Tao Huainan was eleven or twelve years old when he was brought to Tang Suoyan by Tian Yi. The unpleasant smell that entered his nose was the unique smell of the hospital, and the clear mint smell on the person in front of him.
Tao Xiaodong and Chi Cheng were not around, Tao Huainan was a little uneasy in the unfamiliar environment, so he leaned on Tian Yi.
Doctor Tang in front of him raised his hand and touched his head. The palm of his hand was very warm. He stayed on top of his head for a while, and he didn't even take his hand off when he asked Tian Yi.
Like his brother's unconscious movements when he is chatting with people.
Tao Huainan has been blind since childhood, when he was four years old. There were only fragmentary images left in his mind, the world he had seen. The more time passes, the more I can't remember, and later I can't even dream clearly. There is always only a faint and vague sense of light in front of you, and it makes no difference whether it is there or not.
Blind is blind, Tao Huainan has long accepted it calmly. He has experienced the reaction and psychological process that the disabled person should have a long time ago, and because he was still young at that time, it was not difficult to accept it. I am even fortunate that I was blind when I was very young, and I don't have a deep memory of color.
Tao Huainan never cared about his eyes. In short, it was already like this. It didn't matter to him whether it would continue to develop. There was no difference in the results.
That day, Dr. Tang leaned down and said to him, "Don't give up your eyes, you have to protect them. No one will give up on you. There are many, many excellent doctors and scientific research teams in the world, all trying to find a way. Your eye condition is very bad. Well, it's healthy, and it's holding on to itself."
Tao Huainan pursed his lips and nodded.
Tang Suoyan smiled and flicked lightly on his forehead, making a very light sound. "You don't know how beautiful your eyes are," he said. "Take care of them. Trust those good doctors, trust me. I hope one day when I have a way to cure it, your eyes will still be as beautiful as they are now."
The mint smell on Tang Suoyan's body seemed to be absent, sometimes it was a little faint, and sometimes it wasn't. Tao Huainan took a breath and remembered the mint scent on him.
It was an afternoon that Tao Huainan remembered very clearly. His brother went out and Chi Cheng went to buy something for him. He was taken to the hospital by Brother Tian Yi, and then said to take him to see a particularly powerful doctor.
Before that, he had seen countless doctors, and his brother took him through many eye hospitals.
After that, Tao Huainan only had this doctor, and he liked Tang Suoyan too much.
Tao Xiaodong, who Tao Huainan likes, naturally likes it too.
Tang Suoyan is a very good doctor, but Tao Xiaodong is afraid of dating such a person. They only had one meal together at the beginning, and it was just to chat about Tao Huainan's eyes. After that, we only saw each other every time I took Tao Huainan for a follow-up consultation, and we greeted each other when we met, and there was no more contact.
It seems that those social methods are inappropriate and disrespectful to Tang Suoyan. In Tao Xiaodong's opinion, such a distance is quite good and not abrupt.
Because of this relationship, when Tao Xiaodong looked at Tangning again, there was always a little more love for the house. After that, every time I saw Tangning and Tao Xiaodong, she was more caring and friendly.
There was a game with a lot of people, most of whom were alumni of their medical school. Tao Xiaodong was familiar with many of them, and he blocked a few glasses of wine for Tangning. Someone made fun of them, Tao Xiaodong quickly waved his hand: "Don't talk nonsense."
Xia Yuan also asked in private, "Xiaodong, don't you think... Do you like Tangning?"
Tao Xiaodong immediately shook his head: "Nothing."
"Then why do I think you treat him well?" Xia Yuan glanced at Tao Xiaodong with a pair of eyes, and looked at his expression, "Am I wrong?"
"Don't think about it blindly, think about anything." Tao Xiaodong frowned, he didn't want to talk about it because there was nothing left.
Xia Yuan kindly persuaded him: "People have a family, don't you know that person? What kind of pot goes with what kind of lid, don't make mistakes and go astray."
Tao Xiaodong picked up the book and smashed it on Xia Yuan's body. He stood up and didn't listen to him: "Shut up, you have nothing to say, don't talk about it, aren't you shabby?"
Tao Xiaodong really has no idea, not even the slightest. Not to mention whether Tangning had a home or not, Tao Xiaodong didn't mean anything at all, not to mention that his care for Tangning came from Tang Suoyan. After he and Tangning added WeChat, they didn't send a single message, and they didn't get in touch.
Even listening to others say Tao Xiaodong in this regard feels shabby and can't listen anymore.
Tangning is a very decent person. Every time she sees her, she wears a white shirt and trousers. When Xia Yuan was young, it was this energy in him that Xia Yuan saw when he was young. He didn't seem to be close to anyone, but he wasn't too arrogant.
Someone who was familiar with him said that Tangning didn't have any very close friends, and he kept a distance from everyone. It's the same in the hospital at ordinary times. He is gentle and polite, doesn't talk much, and doesn't like to get angry.
Such a person is so perfect, like a dummy.
Perhaps he is the most real him only in front of Tang Suoyan.
Tang Suoyan's car waited in the parking lot of the Second Hospital for about an hour before Tangning came out after get off work. Tang Suoyan stopped very close to Tangning's car. Tang Suoyan honked when Tangning came over.
Tangning saw it and raised her eyebrows subconsciously.
Tang Suoyan pressed the button again, and Tangning walked over and got into the car.
They hadn't seen each other for a long time, Tangning avoided him for a while. It's been more than three months from a year ago to now, and I just met for the first time. Tang Suoyan said, "let's talk."
It's really not a problem if it goes on like this, everyone knows that. Tangning also nodded calmly, "Okay."
Tang Suoyan didn't say a word after that, and the two drove home, Tang Suoyan's house. A lot of Tangning's things have been removed, but there are still many traces of his life here. This is where he has lived for a few years and everything is familiar.
His slippers were still on the shoe cabinet at the door. The two changed their shoes in silence, and then went to the bathroom to wash their hands. The habit of living together for many years was etched in their bones.
After that, they also cooked together in a tacit understanding, and the division of labor for preparing and cooking vegetables was clear. They didn't even need to say a word, and they could complete this without communication.
After the meal, they both sat down on the sofa. Tang Suoyan had just finished washing his hands, and his hands were still damp, he took out a piece of paper and wiped it, then said to Tangning, "What do you think? Tell me. "
What was Tangning thinking
Tang Suoyan threw a question like this, but Tangning couldn't answer it for a while. He stretched his chin and was silent for a while, and then asked Tang Suoyan: "What are we doing this time, do you remember?"
Tang Suoyan nodded.
He really remembered why they were awkward this time. This time it wasn't Tangning who was angry, this time it was Tang Suoyan who turned cold first.
The reason is a bit hard to articulate, especially for decent people like them.
Tangning has always disliked intimacy, he hated sexual intercourse.
When they were both in their twenties, Tangning wasn't too enthusiastic about this, but at that time he didn't show any disgust and was able to cooperate. And Tang Suoyan can make him happy, Tang Suoyan can make him beg for mercy and make him cry. Tangning at that time looked normal, and when Tang Suoyan wanted to do it, he usually accepted it.
But in recent years, he doesn't like to do that more and more, most of the time he just perfunctory, because he is too tired. It's all about your own wishes, and if one party doesn't want to, it's no fun.
Although Tangning was undoubtedly comfortable when they actually did it, Tang Suoyan was an absolute controller and knew enough about Tangning's body. There was no possibility of them being in harmony, but Tangning was unwilling and even resentful.
This time, it was because Tang Suoyan wanted to do it, Tangning half-heartedly refused to say that he didn't want to, and even his physical reaction was already clearly saying that he wanted to.
But in the end, he pushed Tang Suoyan away suddenly.
"...I don't want to." Tangning frowned and took a deep breath. He didn't even look at Tang Suoyan.
Tang Suoyan was silent at first, then asked Tangning, "What's wrong with you?"
The two of them were already naked at the time. Tangning pulled her pajamas and put them on, and said in a low voice, "I'm fine, I just don't want to do it, can I make it for you?"
It had been like this many times before. Tangning did not hesitate to lower herself or kneel down, or use other methods, but she did not want to let everything happen and continue naturally.
Sexual disharmony between lovers is a really hard thing to talk about, especially between two people who are both physically and mentally healthy.
Every time Tangning pushed him away, he was too resolute. His face was full of disgust and disgust. The disgust on his face was a bit hurtful.
Tang Suoyan's face was not good-looking. He rarely lost his temper or lowered his face towards Tangning. Tangning didn't like to see his face lowered.
Tangning said, "I just don't like it. I don't want it more and more. If you think you can't live without doing it, forget it. I really don't like it."
When he said this, he still had a bit of a temper, an anger for unknown reasons.
Tang Suoyan never forced Tangning to do anything. He directly said that Tang Suoyan never continued when he didn't want to, but in a lover's world, it would be too outrageous. Tang Suoyan buttoned his pajamas in silence, then looked at Tangning and said solemnly, "Solve the problem. Don't just throw me the word 'Forget it' every time, these two words can't solve anything."
Tangning couldn't stand Tang Suoyan talking to him in anger, "How to solve it? I just don't like it, so I must accept it and do it with you to solve it?"
In the end, they didn't talk about anything, Tang Suoyan was in a bad mood, Tangning's words were thorny, and they became cold from then on. A few days later, Tangning moved out, and Tang Suoyan was also busy.
But it's ridiculous to put it on hold like this. After all, this matter has to be resolved, and what needs to be talked about has to be talked through.
They have been calm enough for each other, and more than three months are enough for both of them to withdraw from the fire, think about the problem calmly and solve it, so that they can be at peace with each other.
Tangning sat on the sofa in silence for a long time. After a long time, all the dog walkers in the community had left. The lights in the opposite building were already on before he spoke.
If you say something after being silent for so long, it means that it is not easy to say.
He looked at Tang Suoyan, his eyes were a little red, and he said hoarsely, "I'm not angry this time, nor am I angry. Brother Yan, I really want to... forget it."