Because there were people at the door last time, Tao Xiaodong couldn't rest assured that Tang Suoyan would open the door alone when there was a knock on the door, for fear that a stranger would come with him when the door opened.
However, when the door opened this time, outside was Tangning in a suit after attending the wedding.
Tao Xiaodong was wearing Tang Suoyan's pajamas. The two had just done it all afternoon. A glance at them showed that the two were tacit and intimate. The expression, the posture, at first glance, it is a lover.
Tangning must have been drinking, her face and eyes were a little red. His eyes changed back and forth between Tang Suoyan and Tao Xiaodong behind him. He leaned against the wall beside the door with the back of his head against the wall, looking at them both.
This was where he had lived for a few years, and everything was familiar. Looking at the past in this way, it is a bit like looking at the past life in a trance. The good and the bad, the uncomfortable and the comfortable, are all his life.
Tao Xiaodong took a look and went in, leaving the place at the door.
Tangning's eyes showed that he was uncomfortable. This was the first time Tao Xiaodong could see Tangning's undisguised discomfort on Tangning's face. This made Tao Xiaodong a little uncomfortable, and he must have regrets.
But things are different, and the past is the past.
"You today..." Tangning's voice was not smooth. He cleared his throat before continuing to ask, "Why didn't you go today?"
Tang Suoyan glanced at Tao Xiaodong who was sitting at the dining table, turned around and said politely, "There is something wrong with the hospital, so I can't leave."
Tangning leaned over there and smiled, her eyes drooping down a little. After laughing, she said, "Professor Xu... is here."
Before Tang Suoyan could speak, Tangning added, "You just don't want to meet me."
Tang Suoyan didn't deny it, just said to him, "Go back."
Tangning didn't move, didn't say she wanted to come in, and didn't intend to leave. He closed his eyes for a few seconds, and the drinker spoke with a heavy nasal voice: "You... have sex just now."
Tao Xiaodong was taken aback by his sudden sentence, which was too direct.
Tang Suoyan looked at Tangning, frowned, and said coldly, "Tangning."
"You did." Tangning still smiled, her eyes half closed, "What I don't want to do, someone will always do it with you."
He leaned there and looked over with a smile, his eyes were all red, and he looked moving and pitiful: "Why do people have to do this? Why do..."
Tangning sniffed, and her nasal voice became heavier, "Are you really happy? Like an animal... like a dog."
He really drank too much to discuss this at the door of his ex-boyfriend.
"You should know that it's inappropriate to talk like this." Tang Suoyan looked at him with a cold expression.
"It hurts me too much..." Tangning closed her eyes again and touched the position of her heart, "It's too painful."
"I hate it, I'm afraid of it, and I'm afraid of you. I feel sick even seeing you when I do it..."
Tao Xiaodong frowned when he heard it inside.
"I feel sick when I do it. When I don't do it, I worry about the next time. I'm at the top of my head. I'm not feeling well." Tangning blinked, and when she closed her eyes again, tears rolled down her eyes, "It would be great if it hadn't happened. what… "
Tang Suoyan lowered his head and clicked on the phone. Instead of raising his head, Tangning could look at him more relaxedly. Looking at this guy who has been together since his early twenties, they have been through so much together. No one knew better than him how good this person was, so Tangning hated herself.
"Every time you touch me...you kiss me...I feel disgusted." Tangning wiped her face with the back of her hand, and muttered in a low voice, "It would be great if it was just a hug..."
"—Doctor Tang."
Tao Xiaodong's voice suddenly came over, preventing him from continuing to speak. Tao Xiaodong came over and walked around Tang Suoyan with a blank face, blocking him.
Tangning opened her eyes to look at him. She was quiet. Although her eyes were red, they were calm.
"You're not sober after drinking too much. It stands to reason that I shouldn't tell you hard words at this time. Maybe you feel inappropriate when you're sober."
Tao Xiaodong brought him a bottle of water, unscrewed it, and handed it over.
"But what you said is too much, I can't listen anymore." Tao Xiaodong watched him take a sip of water and continued, "I never ask about the things between you, I respect your past, and I respect you. You If I didn't say it in front of me, I couldn't hear it, but you don't respect me when you say that and he made me hear it."
Tangning drank the water slowly, and kept looking at Tao Xiaodong.
"Don't hurt people when you talk, you won't panic when you talk like that?" Tao Xiaodong stretched back Tang Suoyan's hand, then let go and continued, "You sound 'disgusting', I can't stand it. , don't talk like that. I like it, I wish it, just because you don't like it doesn't mean it's dirty."
Tangning remained quiet and smiled again. After a few seconds, she slowly raised her hand and pointed at Tang Suoyan behind him, and said slowly, "The one you are protecting was mine before."
Tao Xiaodong also smiled and glanced back. Tang Suoyan was also looking at him. The two of them looked at each other. Tao Xiaodong turned around and said, "No matter who it was before, it's mine now."
Tangning took another sip of water, and a drop ran down the corner of her mouth. Tangning raised her hand and wiped it.
"You are ahead, I am behind, I can't compare to you everywhere, I'm not on the same level as you." Tao Xiaodong said frankly, "I can't even chase after you. Appropriate, because you are too strong, you are in front of you, I can't compare."
Tangning laughed at herself this time. She swayed the back of her head against the wall and let out a soft "scoff".
"I don't know if you're saying this now, whether you regret it or just want to stab him, but neither will do. As long as I don't let go, you won't be able to take it away for the rest of your life. Don't even think about it. Stab him again from my hand."
Tao Xiaodong finally said to him: "Brother Yan, it's not easy to talk harshly with you. You are all decent people with qualities, but I don't have one. I am notorious for protecting my shortcomings. If you talk like that in front of me, I will The words are going to be harsh, and I'm afraid you won't be able to bear it."
After Tangning finished listening, he listened carefully to every sentence. After listening to it, he was silent for a while, and said, "I didn't want to rob, I can't take it."
He looked at Tao Xiaodong, gave him a thumbs up, and sluggishly moved after drinking: "You are not inferior to me, you are much better than me. I can't even make up my mind to regret, I dare not ask in person, I'm afraid Shame... I'm afraid he will come back. Look at how much I screw up, you may have never screwed like this in your life."
Tao Xiaodong nodded and said, "I really haven't, and I don't have this condition. I have to earn everything myself, and I have to work hard to get it. There are not so many good things waiting for me."
Tangning raised her hand and wiped her face with a smile, and said, "I didn't come here on purpose, I was confused by the drink, so I gave an address. …Look at him, and look at you. You’re so good, I can’t compare.”
With the help of alcohol, let go of that noble self-esteem and see a new pair of lovers.
Tao Xiaodong said: "I will send you."
Tangning took the last sip of water from the bottle and said, "Xiaodong, I'll give you a present."
Tao Xiaodong looked at him, waiting for him to speak.
Tangning looked past him and looked at Tang Suoyan behind him. He had been watching Tao Xiaodong just now.
Tangning smiled and called him "Hey".
Tang Suoyan looked at him, Tangning said directly, "You are not my first lover."
They are each other's first love, first love for thirteen years. Everyone thinks so.
Tangning tightened the empty bottle and held it in her hand. She raised her voice and said to Tang Suoyan, "I've never... never... never liked you. Maybe I did, but I'm just a twister. I find myself guilty. I was with you to escape, and even the first time I had sex... it wasn't you. I was so afraid of doing it, because every time I did it, I knew you were you and he was he."
Tang Suoyan's phone rang, and the chauffeur he just called arrived. Tang Suoyan didn't look at her phone, but listened to Tangning's words.
"I had sex for the first time in the winter when I was eighteen. It shouldn't happen in the storage room. I do have a shadow on sex, because it shouldn't and can't happen." Tangning chuckled lightly, "This is not the case. Because of you, you say that your thirteen years... how worthless."
Tao Xiaodong turned to look at Tang Suoyan, Tang Suoyan's eyes fell on Tangning, the phone had been ringing off, Tang Suoyan never looked at it.
After Tangning finished speaking, she stood up straight. The corners of his eyes were even redder than before with the back of his hand. He adjusted his coat and stroked the cuffs.
The elevator door opened, and someone came out, looked at the three, and asked, "Is this a chauffeur?"
Before leaving, Tao Xiaodong told the driver to let him go upstairs and watch Tangning enter the door. After closing the door, take a picture and send it, plus 100.
Tang Suoyan had already entered, but Tangning didn't look back, she raised her arm and shook it towards Tao Xiaodong.
When the oven time was up, Tang Suoyan took out the roast chicken and turned it over, brushed with a layer of sauce and honey, and put it back to reset the time. Tang Suoyan took out the steak pot again, ready to fry. He didn't show anything, and was always calm.
Tao Xiaodong sat quietly beside the dining table, watching Tang Suoyan do this silently.
This gift from Tangning was incredible.
No matter whether Tang Suoyan has a new love now, or whether he has entered the next stage, the first thirteen years were the years when he was really young and good in love. Tangning was the younger brother he fell in love with at first sight. After so many years, Tang Suoyan was worthy of that first love at first sight.
Tao Xiaodong respects it because its existence is beautiful. The youngest time and the best lover.
Tangning was completely ruined today. He ruined Tang Suoyan's years worthless.
He stomped on the ground the feelings and present dignity of a proud person, and crushed them into slag.
Tao Xiaodong walked over and hugged Tang Suoyan while he was leaning on the counter while waiting for the steak to cook. He put his arms around his shoulders and patted him on the back. The first time he came here, Tangning also came, and he hugged him like that.
Tang Suoyan also raised his arms and hugged him, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"
"Nothing, I just want to hug you." Tao Xiaodong said.
Tang Suoyan held him with his right hand, and his left hand was distracted to flip the steak.
Tao Xiaodong picked it up and didn't let go, and the other side was fried and he didn't let go. Tang Suoyan said, "It's fried."
Tao Xiaodong came up in a playful manner, but did not move, Tang Suoyan smiled helplessly, raised his hand and turned off the fire.
The two of them hugged like that. Later, Tang Suoyan put down the clip, hugged the person with both hands, and buried his face on Tao Xiaodong's shoulder. Tao Xiaodong put his face against his head and kissed his hair.
Hold until the roast chicken is cooked, the soup is cooked, and the steak is cold.
When he let go, Tang Suoyan called out "Xiaodong".
"Hey." Tao Xiaodong responded.
Tang Suoyan said, "I'm sorry to let you hear this."
Tao Xiaodong went to the drawer to get a bowl of soup, looked up at him: "I'm dying of heartache, you can talk well."
Tang Suoyan smiled lightly, touched his ear and said, "Don't feel bad."
The steak was reheated again, and it was a little old. Tang Suoyan cut it and placed it in front of Tao Xiaodong.
The chauffeur sent the photo and made a phone call, saying that the gentleman had already gone home. It was Tao Xiaodong who took Tang Suoyan to pick it up, and then added him to WeChat and retweeted 100.
Tang Suoyan has been slowly tearing the roast chicken with gloves on. He ripped Tao Xiaodong and picked it up directly from what he had ripped up and said with a smile, "It's too fragrant."
"I like to make it for you often." Tang Suoyan said.
Tao Xiaodong nodded and said yes, and called him "Brother Yan" after a while.
Tang Suoyan looked at him and asked him what was wrong.
Tao Xiaodong said, "Give me a bunch of flowers tomorrow. I liked the one last time."