Tangning said in a hoarse voice that he thought about it. There was pain and confusion in his eyes, but he didn't say anything to express regret.
Tang Suoyan looked at him, but he was quite calm, and only asked: "Why? Just because you can't accept it?"
Tangning shook her head and gently scratched her trousers with her fingers, "Brother Yan, I've had enough of this life. I think our life together is like an empty shell."
"Where is it?" Tang Suoyan asked him directly.
Tangning didn't dare to look into his eyes, so she just stared at the spot just below his eyes and said, "Everywhere is empty."
"for example."
"Don't you think?" Tangning asked him, "It's like we were separated for so many days this time, but you don't even remember what we were arguing about. I don't think it's normal for two people to get along with each other. It's been too numb."
Tang Suoyan leaned on the sofa and pinched his eyebrows. He didn't defend himself.
"I almost forgot how we got along in the past. I don't know if it's the same as now." Tangning took a breath and let it out slowly, "I don't even want to see you, I feel pressured. I'm afraid you want to talk to me. I do those things, and I can't refuse, but I'm really... I'm really disgusted. These make me feel very tired, and I hide every day, afraid of seeing you."
Tang Suoyan laughed suddenly, leaned on the back of the sofa, and laughed sarcastically: "I hear you say that I think I'm a person with a lot of sperm."
They can't remember how long they haven't done it, maybe they can count on one hand the number of times they've actually done it last year. Tangning is two years younger than Tang Suoyan. In recent years, Tang Suoyan has given way to him, and he is used to everything. Tang Suoyan was so busy with work, the time they could spend together was really limited, and Tangning didn't like it. Compared to normal couples, they had done too little, too little.
"I know this isn't your problem. It's something normal people should have. It's my problem." Tangning scratched her trousers with her fingers and said it with difficulty, "But I can't control it."
Tang Suoyan didn't say a word of euphemism today, and every sentence was very direct: "You have a reaction too."
Tangning was a little embarrassed by this. He bit his lip and nodded, "Yes, my body is reacting, but I can't accept it mentally."
"Can't accept anything? Which step?" Tang Suoyan kept staring at him, expressionless.
Tangning said, "Everything."
It's hilarious for two people to sit together and discuss such a thing. Very funny, especially lovers who have been together for more than ten years.
Tang Suoyan asked Tangning if she needed a psychiatrist. Tangning firmly said no, it was not a psychological problem.
He found sex ugly and embarrassing, the lowest human desire. He hates two people having sex naked like animals.
Tang Suoyan asked him again if he had made up his mind.
Tangning was silent for a few minutes and then nodded.
Tang Suoyan nodded to show that she knew, Tangning thought he would get angry, but he didn't. He just said, "Tangning, we are almost forty years old. But I don't think you will grow up at the age of twenty. I don't know if I made you like this or you were born like this."
Tang Suoyan sat up straight and looked into Tangning's eyes. Tangning's eyes were always red as he listened to Tang Suoyan in silence.
"Your first thought when you have a problem is always to break up, say goodbye, and then throw everything at me and I'll figure it out. I don't know what you think of gay relationships, it seems to me that There is no difference between the opposite sex and marriage.”
Tang Suoyan's voice is very nice. When he speaks in a low voice, he is very magnetic and catches people's ears. But what he said today was not a sweet love story.
"It's always too easy for you to separate. When you were young, you played with your temper. I treated you as a child, and I coaxed you to accompany you. But you can't stay like this until you are seventy or eighty years old. I'm not willing to come back again. You say that you will be numb if you struggle too much. I don't know if you're numb or not. I only know that I'm not used to your game until now, and I'm still uncomfortable. "
Tangning listened to him all the time without interrupting. Tangning looked up at him when Tang Suoyan said he was uncomfortable. The two looked at each other. The heavy emotion in Tang Suoyan's eyes made Tangning's breathing stagnate for a while, and then immediately turned her eyes away.
"This time I'll give you a chance to take back your words, Tangning."
Tang Suoyan usually called him "Xiao Ning", but never called him by his first name. Today, she was called "Tangning" again and again.
"Tangning." He repeated it again, staring straight at the other person's face, "You can say what you want to say after thinking about it. I promise this time, you will never have a chance to regret it again. I don't know that. Years of life, and my position in your heart, I only know that I don't care about you, I and this relationship, if you say throw it away, throw it away."
Tangning seemed to want to speak, he opened his mouth, but Tang Suoyan didn't give him a chance.
"You have changed a lot after returning to China. You don't want to come back, I know. In fact, I can always be accustomed to you, and I can coax you when you are angry. But the premise is that you like it and you need it. Since you don't like it so much, then it's fine. Well. Forget it, it's the word you said, it's really useful."
After Tang Suoyan said this, he went back to the room. He went to the guest room. The master bedroom was left to Tangning. Tangning had everything in her pajamas, but he didn't change it.
He left in the middle of the night, and Tang Suoyan knew when he left.
Tang Suoyan never fell asleep. He knew that Tangning was always sitting on the sofa. Tang Suoyan didn't open her eyes when the door rang.
He covered his forehead with his arm and remained in this still state for a long time.
Tao Xiaodong has a total of three stores, and basically he spends more time in the new store. It's the biggest and the most crowded there. There are dozens of employees in the store, not including the tattoo artist.
There are two bosses in the store, one is Tao Xiaodong and the other is Huang Yida.
Huang Yida is a fat man who loves to drink tea. In his forties, he has worked with Tao Xiaodong for more than ten years. Tao Xiaodong originally only had craftsmanship and no money. Huang Yida took the money for him, opened a store for him, and made a brand for him.
The two iron porcelain brothers have not broken up for so many years, and they have not even blushed because of money. Now Tao Xiaodong has everything, fame, and money. The money that Huang Yida invested in him now seems to be nothing. But Tao Xiaodong didn't mention anything else, and several times Huang Yida offered to withdraw, and Tao Xiaodong scolded him back.
The family doesn't speak two languages, Tao Xiaodong always says that.
The young man in the store called Huang Yida "Uncle Yida", and the older ones called him "Rhubarb".
Tao Xiaodong is leaving again next month, and he won't be back for a month or two after he leaves. He's always on the road, and he says the tattoos have to be found, they've got to be seen. There is always something that has not been seen, the world is full of better people, and artistic creation has no end.
As soon as he left, he would throw everything to Huang Yida. Tao Xiaodong actually relied on him a lot. Rhubarb gave him a lot of freedom over the years. He is an ambitious person and wants a lot. Huang Yida has never said anything else. You can talk about what you want to do. Let's go and show it.
Xindian, a small building of more than 1,000 square meters, is a business district with an inch of land and an inch of gold. The place that Da Huang bought directly was not rented. Tao Xiaodong actually didn't have much money in his hands, and Rhubarb almost threw all the money that could be moved into it at that time. The plan was made suddenly, and there was no preparation time in advance. Tao Xiaodong was also a little hesitant at the time. Da Huang had almost finished everything, and came over and said to him, "It's all work."
Rhubarb is such a practical pie, refreshing and not tangled. Tao Xiaodong didn't even say thank you, there's no need to say that.
"Brother, should we go to that exhibition in Guangzhou? It was held along the line. I saw that their Weibo circled us yesterday? Did you tell them that you are going?" As soon as Tao Xiaodong came to the store, Huan Ge came to him and asked.
Tao Xiaodong raised his eyebrows: "I didn't mention it to me. I don't have time next month to go out."
"Ah, I think they mean that we have settled down. I'll ask Uncle Yida again."
Huan Ge's job is to manage the work accounts on various platforms. He majored in new media operations in college. He has been in the store before graduation, and it has been almost three years now.
"What do you want to ask me?" Huang Yida just came, and when he walked in, he heard Huan Ge talking and asked behind him.
Huan Ge didn't look back, Tao Xiaodong pointed behind him, and he looked back, "Ah", and asked again.
Huang Yida was also quite surprised: "Nothing, he didn't come to ask me. Wasn't he unhappy with us last time? He never called me again."
Huan Ge was a little confused and asked, "Shall we go? Can I still transfer their Weibo?"
Tao Xiaodong thought about it and asked Huang Yida, "I definitely don't have time to go, how about you? Do you want to go?"
Huang Yida was also very upset: "If you don't go to their side, you have to think about Xiao Jiujiu, thinking that you don't want to give them face on purpose, and they can do it for you if you don't go here. Go ahead, I'll take you there. It's not okay if you don't go. Ah, the news has been sent over there."
Tao Xiaodong laughed: "I haven't made progress along the route for so many years, so be careful."
Tao Xiaodong's popularity is good, it's a good thing. But this also has a drawback, that is, everyone thinks that they have a good relationship with him, and everyone wants to make Tao Xiaodong a favor. This is very distressing, because Tao Xiaodong really doesn't have that much time to hold each of them one by one. Along the line is another city's tattoo artist, who is also very good. He used his own name when he made a company. Tao Xiaodong has known him for many years, this person is easy to get angry and picks things up.
After Huan Ge finished asking, he went back to his desk to study, preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination. The staff here are not heavy, and they have relatively free time to complete their tasks. They can be busy with their own affairs, and they can learn tattoos from any tattoo artist in the store.
Most of the dozens of resident tattoo artists in the store have been with Tao Xiaodong for many years, and a few young ones have joined in the last two years. They are all excellent tattoo artists, each with their own style, no matter which one is very strong. There are also two European uncles and a Japanese tattoo artist in the store. Except for Tao Xiaodong, they have the most pictures.
Tao Xiaodong had to finish all the recent pictures before going out, so he was in a hurry to rush the pictures during this time.
Today's work is full of work. Tao Xiaodong has very few small pictures, almost all large pictures. The customer was a young man who couldn't bear the pain and kept hissing in front of him.
Tao Xiaodong asked him what he wanted to eat and asked him to order it downstairs.
The boy said, "I can't eat anything, don't worry about me, just send me a glass of iced Coke, it will relieve the pain."
"Eat, you have to wait until night, you can't stand it." Tao Xiaodong told him.
The young man sighed in a long voice: "Then just give me anything."
"Let's have a boxed lunch, they are so delicious here," said a customer next to him.
There is a kitchen downstairs, the food is very good, all customers are brought, and all they want to eat are delivered to their hands. The lunch box was brought up by a little girl in the store. She brought a large plate with several lunch boxes stacked on it to deliver meals upstairs.
"Is there any ice, little beauty? Can you bring me a glass of ice?" said Tao Xiaodong, the little girl who was lying there and rushed to her lunch box.
The little girl didn't even give him a look, she turned around and left after giving him the lunch box.
"Little beauty?" The boy shouted at her again, "Ice!"
People still ignored him and didn't even glance at him.
He looked back at Tao Xiaodong, surprised by the coldness of their employees.
Tao Xiaodong saw his eyes and said, "Someone went to get it for you."
"Ah, thank you." The boy turned back.
After a while, the little boy who delivered the ice came, put the cup on the shelf next to him, and smiled at him. The guy politely said thank you again.
The little boy ignored him and left.
The customer finally couldn't hold back, and still asked a question: "No, brother, do you all have such a personality here?"
Tao Xiaodong smiled through the mask. His eyes always seemed to be smiling. He turned his chin to the little boy just now and said, "Don't be picky, he can't speak."
The young man blinked and pointed to his throat: "Can't speak? Or... can't speak?"
"cannot."
The young man was so surprised, he asked again, "The little beauty just now...?"
Tao Xiaodong raised his hand to change the needle and pointed to his ear: "She can't hear."