Tao Xiaodong is now a low-pressure person, the surrounding air pressure is low, people can't wait to walk around him, no one talks to him in the store.
On the one hand, this low pressure is caused by himself. He is so silent every day, his mouth hurts and he does not speak. When he arrives at the store, he works hard or fills in the library. On the other hand, he was also left out. Da Huang ignored him. Seeing that the two of them were in trouble, the boss didn't dare to talk nonsense or provoke them.
In the past, these two were tied together like brothers, laughing and laughing in the store every day. Rhubarb kept "Xiaodong Xiaodong" all day long. Tao Xiaodong didn't care about anything, and anyone looking for him would "ask Rhubarb". Now Rhubarb is no longer "Xiaodong", and he hardly talks to him, as if he can't see it.
Tang Suoyan ordered him not to use his eyes like that, no more than five hours a day, and it had to be intermittent. Tao Xiaodong can no longer keep his head down to chase pictures, and he doesn't know what to do when he is not working.
I can't do pictures, and I don't want to say words.
In the end, he could only lean on the sofa and close his eyes, not falling asleep, but motionless.
Da Huang held his big cup, walked upstairs and downstairs, turned around slowly, sat on the sofa opposite him, and took a sip of tea. Boil the water and boil the tea, and take a long breath after taking a sip.
"Have you settled in?"
Tao Xiaodong opened his eyes, saw him, and sat up straight.
"Does your mouth still hurt?" Da Huang raised his eyelids and glanced at him.
"It's alright." Tao Xiaodong raised his hand to touch it, remembering that Tang Suoyan would not let him touch it, and put his hand down again.
Rhubarb didn't talk to him either, didn't look at him. After a while, he said, "Your sister-in-law said that you haven't eaten at home for a while, so let you go."
Tao Xiaodong made an "ah", and just as he was about to speak, Da Huang continued, "I said no, people are thinking about having a banquet with me, and 80% of them will not come again in the future."
After he finished speaking, he took a sip of tea.
Tao Xiaodong blinked, but finally laughed, and scolded "Fuck" in a low voice.
"You're still fucking?" Da Huang raised his thick eyebrows, "Why are you fucking?"
Rhubarb is really angry this time, and has been cold to him for many days. Tao Xiaodong has nothing to say now, and he is not wronged to be angry with him.
Everyone in the store was buzzing with work, and there was no one in the rest area.
Tao Xiaodong called out "Brother".
Huang Yida looked at him, Tao Xiaodong's eyes gradually became helpless, and he raised his finger to his eyes.
At first, Huang Yida didn't understand, but after a few seconds, he understood, and his eyes slowly widened.
Tao Xiaodong nodded at him, looked at him, and said in a low voice, "So it's true that I asked you to prepare early. You have to plan early."
It took a long time for Huang Yida to frown and scolded.
"I only tell you about this," Tao Xiaodong put his elbows on his legs and rubbed his face with both hands, "I'm not enough to be your brother, I don't care enough about this mess, I will never do this. Tired, this is what I love to do, I love it for half my life."
Tao Xiaodong took his hand away, his eyes were deeper and heavier than before, and his voice was lower: "... But I can't help it, brother."
Da Huang's eyes turned red when he brushed it, he quickly turned his eyes away, scolded again, and then said, "What's the matter with your mother."
Tao Xiaodong didn't want to tell anyone, his original intention was to finish everything before his eyes could completely lose sight, and then withdrew. He would eventually become blind, something he didn't want anyone to know. A tattoo artist lost his eyesight and sounded like a joke. Whether others are sorry or pitiful, these are not needed, Tao Xiaodong will not give others the opportunity to sigh.
He is always the proudest in this line of work.
I started doing tattoos because I thought I could make money.
After doing it for so many years, I really like it. This is a career he loves, and it is difficult to let go. It took a lot of hard work and time to devote myself to this line of work, if not really love can not do it today.
But a blind man can't do this, no matter how awesome he is, he can't draw with his eyes closed.
All he can do is leave as many pictures as he can, whether he's done it or hasn't had a chance to do it. On that day, he will disperse the gallery, whoever wants it will take it away, and he will completely withdraw from this circle from now on.
But he can't hide Da Huang, and he will not cut off contact with him if he withdraws in the future. He will know sooner or later.
Rhubarb digested it for a long time that day, then he let out a long sigh, leaned closer, and said to Tao Xiaodong, "If you can't do anything, just leave it to your fate. Dongda Domain can't fall in my hands, you can't do it. It can't fall. It's too sad to swallow back the lingering words in the future."
Tao Xiaodong pulled the corner of his mouth, and didn't say anything else that was unpleasant. No one is in a bad mood, there is no need to say too much now.
Tao Xiaodong used to have a friend who was a little older than him and was also a god-level figure. At that time, Tao Xiaodong often cooperated with him and was an old acquaintance. The high-spirited person suddenly became paralyzed one day a few years ago, and he can't speak well. Now I can barely walk, making pictures is impossible.
Because this matter has been in the circle for a long time, when those old friends of them gather together, there must be a long ten minutes at the wine table to regret, and everyone has to say "it's a pity", and say "fate makes people" .
Those sighs and eyes, Tao Xiaodong will never let them rest on him one day, he can't leave the stage in this way.
He and Tang Suoyan also temporarily returned to their original mode of getting along.
Work together in the morning and work together in the evening. Tang Suoyan spoke with a half-smile, and was able to joke with him, as usual. Every day when Tao Xiaodong is by his side is a little more peaceful than the previous day.
But Dr. Tang is too principled. You know he is good, and he talks to you with a smile, but you also clearly know that he is still angry. He could hug Tao Xiaodong and pat him softly to comfort him, but he wouldn't kiss him or come back to sleep.
The two are very close, but not close enough.
Saturday morning.
Tao Xiaodong stood in front of the mirror and looked at the scab on the corner of his mouth. Tang Suoyan came in to get something and asked him, "Does it hurt?"
"Fortunately, I'll take a look." Tao Xiaodong looked at the mirror and said.
"Don't think about him all the time, don't think about it." Tang Suoyan said.
Tao Xiaodong said "um" and went out with him.
"Go and eat the medicine." Tang Suoyan moved the chair and went to change a small downlight at the entrance, the light bulb dimmed a little over time. I bought twenty light bulbs yesterday, and I have to replace them all at home.
Tao Xiaodong also moved the chair and started to do it from the other end of the living room in silence.
Tang Suoyan didn't stop him from doing it, but raised his head and tore the black tape that was originally wrapped around the wires, while asking him, "Have you taken the medicine?"
Tao Xiaodong replied that he had eaten.
Tang Suoyan said "um", and the two of them changed their bulbs.
How can there be any medicine for this disease, supplement vitamin A, supplement DHA, supplement lutein, and supplement to supplement it is also a comfort. Tao Huainan also took medicine, but after taking it for so many years, it didn't seem to help.
But Tang Suoyan asked him to eat Tao Xiaodong without a second word, and let him massage, he also learned to massage well, and found an acquaintance to make an appointment for him to start acupuncture next month, and Tao Xiaodong would also go on time.
Whatever Tang Suoyan asked him to do, he nodded happily.
Tao Xiaodong hopes these are useful more than anyone else. He is like a tree on the edge of a cliff, hoping that he can lighten and lighten. A person can only lighten the tree in order to reduce the pressure. Tao Xiaodong is afraid that one day Tang Suoyan will make him too tired to breathe.
The balcony is open, and Tao Xiaodong's back is facing the open window on the balcony. After Tang Suoyan finished changing one, he went to close the window.
When he passed by, Tao Xiaodong lowered his head and asked, "What's wrong?"
Tang Suoyan laughed: "Why are you so nervous, I'll close the window."
"Ah." Tao Xiaodong looked at him, then continued to change the lights, and said, "You can just tell me to turn it off."
Tang Suoyan came back after closing the window, and when he walked past him again, he patted his leg lightly and said, "Relax."
Tao Xiaodong felt that he was very relaxed, compared to the previous days.
He is like a careful child.
After lunch, Tang Suoyan watched him take the fruit and washed it, got a plate of fruit by himself, brought it over and sat next to him and started to eat. Usually, he is not active in eating fruit. It is only after Tang Suoyan has washed and cut it that he remembers to eat it, otherwise he will not remember it.
Now that I know that my eyes are going to break, I remember to eat a vegetable salad at every meal, and I also think about eating fruit after a meal.
Tang Suoyan watched him swallow an apple, suddenly turned his head away and stopped looking at him, before turning around again after a long delay.
Before speaking, he took a breath, cleared his throat, and smiled: "So good."
If Tao Xiaodong had to laugh and say "Damn" in the past, he would have been embarrassed to be told that he was good. Now he just smiled and said nothing.
Tang Suoyan reached out and touched his face.
Tao Xiaodong went to wash the dishes after eating the fruit, and came back and sat on the other side of the sofa, not talking or thinking about something.
He's been in this state a lot lately.
Tang Suoyan said to him, "I have to go to a meeting in the afternoon, will you sleep for a while?"
Tao Xiaodong said yes.
Before Tang Suoyan left, he had fallen asleep, lying on the sofa with his pillow on his side. Tang Suoyan didn't pull the light-blocking curtain, went to get him a blanket to cover it, and kissed him lightly on the forehead before leaving.
Tao Xiaodong hasn't slept well during this period of time. He often keeps his eyes open until dawn, and his whole body has been haggard and lack of energy.
Rarely slept soundly today.
It may be that the whole morning with Tang Suoyan was too peaceful, and Tang Suoyan made people feel at ease.
He doesn't seem to have worried about Tao Xiaodong's eyes. If he is sick, we will treat him. Don't worry, don't think too much. He never conveyed to Tao Xiaodong how serious this was, and he always downplayed it. With his attitude, Tao Xiaodong himself was much more relaxed.
When Tang Suoyan came back, he took off his coat and first came over to look at Tao Xiaodong. Seeing that he was still asleep, he went to wash his hands. Sitting on the sofa after washing his hands, Tao Xiaodong woke up almost as soon as he sat down.
I saw Tang Suoyan at a glance.
The feeling in my heart at that moment is indescribable, it seems that my floating heart is being held up, the wandering soul has a place to return, and my whole heart falls to the ground, and my whole body is relaxed.
This moment is so comfortable.
Tang Suoyan was loosening his tie, and when he saw Tao Xiaodong looking at him with his eyes open, he smiled: "Awake?"
Tao Xiaodong looked at him for a while, then sat up and moved quietly to Tang Suoyan's side.
Tang Suoyan hugged him and slept warmly. Tang Suoyan liked it very much: "Have you slept yet?"
Tao Xiaodong first said "um", then called "Brother Yan".
Tang Suoyan stroked his back, as if it was just an unconscious little gesture like before, but also like a comforting gesture.
"I..." Tao Xiaodong put his head on his shoulder, Tang Suoyan's shirt hadn't been taken off yet, the whiteness in his eyes was not dazzling, but instead carried the warmth of Tang Suoyan's body.
He said hoarsely: "I just don't know what to do, I don't want to part with you..."
Tang Suoyan paused for a moment, then continued to touch his back.
"I'm so, so... so cherished, my heart will break." Tao Xiaodong pressed his eyes against Tang Suoyan's shoulder, speaking with a nasal voice and hoarseness, "...What should I do?"
Tang Suoyan turned his head sideways and pressed his chin to the top of his head.
Tao Xiaodong pressed against him tightly, without raising his head, his nasal voice became heavier and more hoarse: "You say sad, I'm going to die, I'm so hurt."
Tang Suoyan raised his hand to touch his face, trying to make him look up.
Tao Xiaodong hides and doesn't look up, he doesn't let Tang Suoyan look at his face. Tang Suoyan kissed the top of his head and called him "Xiaodong".
"What should I do?" Tao Xiaodong took a deep breath, and his voice was not continuous, "...what are you going to do?"
His shoulders were shaking, he hugged Tang Suoyan tightly, grabbed Tang Suoyan's shirt, and wanted to draw more strength from this person. Tang Suoyan turned his head away, his Adam's apple trembled slightly.
Tao Xiaodong called him there, screaming hard and relying on him, using a lot of strength but suppressing his hoarse prayer, his voice said softly—
"Brother Yan, save me."