The four words of empathy are always easier said than done.
Ke Jingshan didn't think about anything else all afternoon, only thinking about what he would do if he liked a man.
In all fairness, Ke Jingshan thinks that if it was him, most people would not be able to control what he wants to do. If you like a man, you like a man. Who can do anything to him
Thinking about it this way, he did demand too much from Zhu Letian.
Ke Jingshan thought about it again, and found that what he couldn't accept the most was the scene of Zhu Letian being crushed under another man.
Ke Jingshan tried to imagine Zhu Letian pressing another man in his mind.
Or not…
Ke Jingshan felt goosebumps all over his body when he thought of that scene.
No matter how she thought about it, it was hard for Ke Jingshan to accept it.
Ke Jingshan put on the bluetooth headset again, Zhu Letian was in English class, the English teacher's pronunciation was a bit tongue-rolling, very pleasant, Zhu Letian was very quiet.
Soon, the bell rang for the end of get out of class.
The English teacher dragged on for a while before dismissing get out of class.
After class officially ended, the voice in the classroom immediately became noisy.
Ke Jingshan listened intently to Zhu Letian's voice.
Zhu Letian still didn't speak.
"You don't look very good, do you want some candy?"
When Ke Jingshan heard the boy's voice, it was probably Qiandu. Zhu Letian had said about his chubby deskmate. When talking about friends, Zhu Letian beamed with joy, with a little pride on his face, "Qian is my fan , bring me food every day.”
Ke Jingshan heard that Qian said that Zhu Letian's complexion was not very good, and his heart sank a little, and he listened to Zhu Letian's answer with bated breath.
but none.
Zhu Letian didn't answer.
In Ke Jingshan's mind, the image of a young boy biting his lip and shaking his head immediately appeared in Ke Jingshan's mind.
The truth is, Le Tian opened his mouth directly, peeling off the candy wrappers and feeding him a one-stop service, Le Tian gave him a thumbs up.
Ke Jingshan is fidgeting in the office. This Bluetooth headset restrains Zhu Letian, and it also makes Ke Jingshan's thoughts linger on Zhu Letian all the time.
Zhu Letian said very little.
Has he always been like this at school, or is it just now
In the past six years, Ke Jingshan has never been too worried about raising Zhu Letian. Zhu Letian is obedient and clingy, Ke Jingshan has always been very lucky.
Looking at the bustling crowd outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, Ke Jingshan fell into deep thought again.
When school was over, Le Tian sat in his car and found out that it was Ke Jingshan who was driving.
"Brother Jingshan?" Letian was a little surprised.
Ke Jingshan has seen him since he left the school gate.
The little boy who looked like a wandering ghost had a gray face, walked with his head down, his shoulders were always arched together, and his palms were tightly clutching the straps of his schoolbag, for fear of bumping into others.
Ke Jingshan said softly: "Take you to eat, what do you want to eat?"
Le Tian's face returned to a calm and cowardly look, and he whispered: "It's okay."
Ke Jingshan started the car silently.
Along the way, Ke Jingshan observed Zhu Letian from the rearview mirror from time to time. Zhu Letian kept his head down, like a small stone statue.
When getting out of the car, Zhu Letian followed behind him, keeping about half an arm's distance away.
Ke Jingshan frowned, turned around and stretched out his arms to hug him, Zhu Letian subconsciously took half a step back, looked up at Ke Jingshan in panic, and then looked away as if avoiding it.
Ke Jingshan said with a gloomy face, "Why, why don't you go with Brother Jingshan?"
Zhu Letian shook his head quickly, and whispered: "No." He moved forward a little with difficulty.
Ke Jingshan felt very uncomfortable.
The restaurant is a private restaurant, and it only accepts one table a day. The interior decoration is extremely exquisite, and the screens in the boxes cut off the small bridge and flowing water.
Ke Jingshan looked at Zhu Letian who kept bowing his head.
Zhu Letian talks less and less to him now, and rarely even looks directly at him.
He is also very cautious when eating, holding only the dish in front of him with his hands.
Ke Jingshan felt angry again when he saw it, and patiently served him some food.
Letian said thank you in a low voice, but he just refused to eat the bite of Ke Jingshan's food, and even drew a boundary between Chu and Han in the bowl artificially, so he didn't eat the part that Ke Jingshan's food touched.
The more Ke Jingshan looked at it, the more annoyed she became, and she remembered Professor Chen's advice, so she had to endure it first.
For one meal, Ke Jingshan didn't eat two mouthfuls of vegetables, but she was full of anger.
The two returned home in silence, Ke Jingshan couldn't bear it anymore, and directly grabbed Zhu Letian, "Let's talk."
The two sat down in the living room downstairs.
Letian shrank like a little quail, looking terrified.
Ke Jingshan pondered for a moment, before admitting his mistake, "Letian, brother was too impulsive a few days ago and forced you too hard. I did something wrong, please forgive me."
Le Tian trembled slightly, but did not speak.
The two of them shared a sofa, with a distance of one meter between them. Seeing Zhu Letian's alienation, Ke Jingshan felt uncomfortable, and said in a low voice, "It's not my intention to hurt you, but brother loves you so much that I'm afraid of you." Being cheated by bad guys, Le Tian, don't hate Brother Jing Shan, okay?"
"About whether you like men or not, I... really shouldn't interfere with you..." Ke Jingshan said with difficulty, "But you see, if you say you don't want a sister-in-law, I will follow you. You should also listen to your affairs." My opinion? After all, you are still young, only sixteen years old, it is hard to say what will happen in the future."
Seeing that Zhu Letian was still hanging his head and saying nothing, Ke Jingshan said harshly, "You and brother have been living together for so many years, but now you are really alienating me. I didn't want you, so you don't want me first?"
Le Tian finally couldn't help raising his head, with tears in his eyes refusing to fall, he suppressed his sobs and said, "Brother Jingshan, you said you would not want me!"
Ke Jingshan's heart ached again, and he got up and reached out to hug him, but he avoided him.
Le Tian complained with trembling lips: "You don't allow me to cry, you don't allow me... Anyway, you have many, many things that you don't allow me to do, otherwise you don't want me!"
The young man's stubborn refusal to cry deeply hurt Ke Jingshan's heart, and Ke Jingshan realized that Zhu Letian's most sad thing was that he threatened him several times.
Didn't Ke Jingshan say that because Zhu Letian couldn't leave him, so he acted on love
Ke Jingshan regretted so much at this time, how could he really not want Zhu Letian, but he was too angry at the time, and subconsciously used the things Zhu Letian cared about most to scare him.
How could he do that
Ke Jingshan stepped forward and hugged Zhu Letian firmly, and said softly: "I was wrong, little pig, I was all wrong, you can cry, my little pig can cry when he wants to cry, I won't say anything about you again, okay?" good?"
Zhu Letian grabbed the clothes on Ke Jingshan's chest and finally cried bitterly in his arms.
Ke Jingshan gently stroked his back, said sorry to him in a low voice, and even lowered his head and kissed his forehead lovingly. Zhu Letian's temper was so childlike that Ke Jingshan always felt that he hadn't grown up yet, and was still the one in the village. A thin black boy sitting on his arm.
After being comforted by Ke Jingshan, Zhu Letian's crying finally gradually subsided.
Ke Jingshan sat down with his arms around him. The two have not been so close for a long time. There is a saying that you only know the preciousness when you lose it. Now Ke Jingshan understands that the boy's dependence on him has always been his dependence on the boy. He, he was so uncomfortable that he couldn't sleep well, and he couldn't eat well.
Ke Jingshan patted him on the back, "Brother is really wrong, can you forgive me once?"
Letian sniffed, and said "um" in a strong nasal voice.
"My little pig is so generous." Ke Jingshan happily kissed Zhu Letian's forehead again.
Zhu Letian trembled slightly, and whispered: "Brother Jingshan, I think what you said is right, I don't want to like men anymore."
Ke Jingshan said in a low voice: "You are still young, we will discuss this matter with brother when you grow up, okay?"
Letian nodded, and put his arms around Ke Jingshan's neck again, "I just need my brother to accompany me."
Ke Jingshan patted him on the back, "Good little pig, I will never attack you again."
"Then why are you attacking me again?" Le Tian raised his head, his tear-soaked eyes were black and shiny. How long has it been since Ke Jingshan saw these eyes glowing brightly? Immediately said: "I swear with my life, absolutely not."
Two more tears fell from Letian's eyes, and he pressed his cheek against Ke Jingshan's neck.
Ke Jingshan let out a long sigh, and his heart was no longer fierce, it must be fierce.
The two untied their knots. Originally, Ke Jingshan wanted to take back the watch from Zhu Letian's hand, but Zhu Letian said no, "When you're bored, brother, talk to me."
Ke Jingshan said: "There are so many classmates in school, how can you be bored?"
Letian wrinkled his nose, hugged Ke Jingshan's arm coquettishly, "I'm just bored, I want my brother to talk with me."
Ke Jingshan now has everything to answer, and immediately agreed.
Going to work the next day, because the stone in my heart fell to the ground for a while, Ke Jingshan's motivation doubled, and he was full of energy all morning. He didn't finish his work until the secretary reminded him that it was time for lunch.
Ke Jingshan nodded, stopped the work at hand, just about to get up, saw the Bluetooth headset lying quietly on the desk, and picked up the headset with a thought.
The watch can communicate in two ways. Ke Jingshan pressed the voice button, and the other end was connected soon. Zhu Letian's surprised voice came, "Brother! Is it you?"
Ke Jingshan smiled, "Silly pig, who else is there besides brother?"
"Then... I didn't hear my brother's voice after waiting all morning. I thought my brother wouldn't look for me anymore." Zhu Letian's voice hinted at remorse.
Ke Jingshan smiled deeper, and said softly: "You have been waiting for me?"
"Um."
"Did you pay attention to class?"
"Listen, I raised my hand to answer the question, brother, did you hear me answer the question?"
"Brother is too busy this morning."
"Ah?" Zhu Letian's tone was full of disappointment, "Didn't you hear that?"
Ke Jingshan said with a light smile: "You tell me now, brother, listen."
The secretary knocked on the door again and came in. Seeing his boss wearing a bluetooth headset talking, his face was full of tenderness, and he retreated consciously.
After chatting for more than thirty minutes, Zhu Letian said that his lunch break was over, and Ke Jingshan hung up the call with a lot of satisfaction, got up and left the office.
The secretary waiting outside said: "President Ke, your lunch will be delivered in five minutes."
Ke Jingshan said with a smile on his face, "Thank you for your hard work."
The secretary followed suit with a smile. She had seen the boss sullen and absent-minded for several days, but today the clouds finally cleared up, and she smiled and said, "It's not hard work. If the boss is happy, we will be happy too."
Ke Jingshan was slightly taken aback, thinking that he and Zhu Letian seemed to be the same way, and he was happy when Zhu Letian was happy, and shook his head with a smile, thinking helplessly that Zhu Letian was comparable to his immediate boss.
Soon, Zhu Letian ushered in his graduation exam smoothly, and Tong Yu also specially came back from the university to cheer him up.
Zhu Letian completed the college entrance examination under the double buff of "brother" and "daughter-in-law".
After the end, Zhu Letian rejected the class reunion, and the family of three celebrated at home.
Tong Yu cut her hair short, clean and neat, with a generous and calm demeanor.
Ke Jingshan looked at the two children and smiled, Tong Yu looked up to the sky and smiled hahaha, Zhu Letian pursed his lips and smiled, wondering if the two were born with the wrong gender.
Tong Yu proudly raised the Coke cup, "Congratulations to my little husband for getting out of the sea of suffering!"
Zhu Letian blushed and said, "Sister Yu..."
Tong Yu took a sip, put down the cup and said, "I have something to discuss with you."
Letian immediately said nervously: "Sister Yu, tell me what's the matter."
Don't tell me you're going to fall in love, then I'll get Ke Jingshan drunk tonight and just finish that shot.
Tong Yu looked at Zhu Letian solemnly, "Letian, I want to do a PhD."
Letian breathed a sigh of relief and said happily, "Good thing."
Tong Yu showed shame, "I originally wanted to pick you up when I found a job after graduating from graduate school."
Ke Jingshan paused the hand holding the vegetables, turned his face, and said with a serious expression: "What do you mean pick him up?"
Tong Yu said: "Brother Jingshan, we will never be able to repay the great kindness you have shown us both, and Le Tian has grown up, so I can't just stay by your side all the time, so I think..."
Ke Jingshan directly interrupted her, and said in a low voice: "What are you talking about, who else can I follow if Le Tian doesn't follow me!"
Zhu Letian also hugged Ke Jingshan's arm in a panic, nodding his head like a chicken pecking at rice, "I, I will always follow Brother Jingshan."
Ke Jingshan patted his hand lightly and gave him a reassuring look.
Tong Yu: ...What's the matter with suddenly feeling like a villain who beats mandarin ducks with a club