She was pushed into the corner by him step by step, and her pride and self-esteem could no longer be maintained.
Tears were like broken beads, and they couldn't stop. It wasn't until last month that she was sure that she and Jiang Chengyi had fallen into a huge trap eight years ago. At this moment, in the face of his questioning, she clearly knew that what he wanted was a clear sentence, not any ambiguous answer.
He stared at her closely, without speaking, still waiting for her answer.
Through the mist of tears, she saw two small clusters of flames burning in his eyes, bright and intense, burning straight to the bottom of her heart,
She couldn't think of any reason for hesitation at all, so she choked up, put one hand on his cheek, and tried her best to keep her words as clear as possible: "Jiang Chengyi, I can't forget you—"
Before she could finish her words, his kiss had already fallen heavily, as if he had waited for a long time, full of power like a storm, and he couldn't wait to swallow all her words into his stomach.
She whimpered, and her tears became more and more turbulent, and she responded to him with all her strength.
Memories flashed by in front of her eyes, and even after a few years, they still made her feel extremely bitter.
She was hospitalized, and he got the news and rushed from the suburbs to the hospital overnight to see her.
It was seven in the morning, less than four hours before she was taken to the hospital.
Mother and Tang Jie stayed by the bedside. The medicine had been used, but the heat had not subsided.
Her eyelids were so swollen that she wanted to open her eyes, but she could only barely open a slit.
The doctors were rounding the room by the bedside, and she heard them discussing which tests should be perfected for her next. From their conversation, she knew that her kidney function had a serious problem, and she was even given a serious illness notice.
She knew from this that external blows could not only destroy a person's willpower, but also swiftly defeat the healthy body of an eighteen-year-old.
After the tears dried, they stretched on her face, with a cold numbness. In just one day, she seemed to be frying from the inside to the outside in a frying pan. Now, there is only a body lying on the bed, and her thoughts were once close to numbness.
Deng Man is dead, and the life that was alive a few days ago has now turned into a cold and hateful corpse. The fear and regret in her heart made her 10,000 times more sad than the physical torment. The most painful thing is that this There was nowhere to say about this torture, and after learning that she was very ill, she actually felt a faint sense of relief.
The doctors were still talking, she tried hard to curl her body into a ball, trying to indulge her consciousness in the darkness, without seeing light, hearing any sound, and not touching anything in the outside world, as if she could keep herself from the cold. And hard reality is farther away.
Then she heard him coming, his voice was agitated but polite, talking to his mother.
At first, the mother seemed a little surprised. After a few words of conversation, the alienation and scrutiny in the mother's tone changed subtly.
She had imagined it a thousand times ten thousand times before, but never thought that her love affair with Jiang Chengyi would unfold in front of her mother in such an unexpected way. She could hear that her mother was not disgusted with Jiang Chengyi, how proud and happy she would have been in the past, but at this time, she only felt more tormented.
After that, he came every day and stayed with her from morning to night, but she always closed her eyes and didn't want or dare to face him.
Because of nephritis, she looked ugly. In order to make her happy, Tang Jie once said that her face was swollen into a fat little bun when she wiped her face.
Even so, as long as there is no one else in the ward, he will always gently lift her forehead hair, and bow his head to kiss her without disdain. At this time, her nose was sore, and she had to hold the sheets tightly with her fingers to keep her tears from rolling down.
It was fine when she was awake. As soon as she fell asleep, she could see Deng Man standing beside the bed soaking wet, and even sometimes, standing rigidly behind Jiang Chengyi, her eyes were as strange as the candlelight floating in the dark night, letting her Souls are scattered.
She was woken up countless times, sweating profusely looking for her mother's arms, tears streaming and dry, dry and streaming, the pain was extreme, she could only cry in the desolate heart: She is willing to pay any price, as long as Deng Man can be intact Come back unscathed, as long as everything goes back to the way it was before.
After staying in the hospital for half a month, she finally got out of the dangerous period. On the day she returned home, she was still as numb and indifferent as a puppet.
Everyone thought that she did this because of the double blow of her friend's accident and the fear of corpse recognition. Only she knew in her heart what happened between them two days before Deng Man's accident.
When I got home, I was afraid that my mother would not be able to take care of her alone, so my father paid for a nurse. She lay in bed all day, deliberately cutting off all contact with the outside world.
Slowly she became able to move. Sometimes when no one was in the room, she would sit by the bed and stare outside for a long time.
The days in summer are always long, the cicadas are roaring and the heat waves are rolling, but when she looks out the green window, she only feels cold, cold to the core.
The summer vacation is coming to an end, including her, everyone will enter the next stage of life, only Deng Man, like a new and fresh branch that was artificially broken, withered. In the days to come, they will continue to move forward, but Deng Man will always sink in the bottom of the dark river, and there will be no light and future.
As she thought about it, her tears would silently fall to her cheeks.
She didn't dare to hear all the details about Deng Man's funeral, didn't dare to face Deng Man's parents who were dying, and even didn't dare to touch the corners of her alma mater, including Jiang Chengyi of course. In her eyes, everyone can cry magnanimously and pity heartily, but she is not qualified.
In the next few days, Jiang Chengyi came to her, but she disappeared. Jiang Chengyi called her, but she didn't answer.
Her heart was already in a mess, and she didn't know how to face him at all. She only knew that since Deng Man died, a huge and cold shadow had shrouded her head all the time. When she heard his name, The sweetness and anticipation of her have long since disappeared, leaving only the helplessness and panic.
One evening, her mother went to the hospital to get her medicine and she still didn't come back. Knowing that Jiang Chengyi was waiting for her below, she felt that she could no longer treat him so passively and passively, so she put on a coat and was helped down the stairs by a nurse.
He was waiting for her in the shade, and lost a lot of weight. Seeing that she was finally willing to come out to see him, a strange brilliance bloomed in his eyes.
Her heart softened for some reason, especially when she saw his long-lost smile, her long-standing determination collapsed into pieces in an instant, she choked her throat and tried to walk towards him, but it was far from what she thought. It's so simple, just taking two steps, her feet seem to be bound by shackles, and she can't move any more. What's even more ridiculous is that she doesn't even dare to look behind him, lest a glimpse in the shadowy corner will make her heart beat. Shattering Phantom.
In desperation, she heard herself say to him in a panic and despair: I don't like you anymore, let's break up.
His smile froze instantly, staring at her and saying, "What did you say."
Her voice was very slow, her words were clear, and every time she uttered a word, the flesh in her heart felt as if it had been gouged out by a knife, and there was a piercing pain in her heart: "I said, I am very unhappy with you, let's break up. ."
His kiss was sparkling, igniting everything, and she clings to his shoulder in a daze, all the way to his bedroom door.
His breathing became heavier and heavier, one hand clasped her waist tightly, and the other hand vacated the door behind him. After entering the room, the two of them rolled onto the bed.
A fiery fire had already burned in her heart, and it was far from enough to kiss the right person. She wanted him and wanted to touch him, so she raised her hand and tried to unbutton his shirt, but she had one His hand was tied with him in handcuffs. Although the other hand remained free, it was blocked from time to time by him, unable to explore where he wanted to go.
She wanted to release the handcuffs, but he obviously didn't have this awareness. She felt it was unfair. When he let go of her lips and started to explore down her neck, she panted and protested: "Jiang Chengyi , you undo the handcuffs, I think—"
"What are you thinking?" His voice was hoarse, and he pressed her onto the bed. With the handcuffed hand, he pressed both her arms to the top of her head, and the other hand began to untangle her clothes impatiently.
Before she could struggle out like a writhing fish, he had already buried his head and grabbed the place he wanted to hold for a long time.