"Fu'er Wu's wife. I have always written letters, and when I write, I must see the words like a meeting, but I hope this letter will not be shown to you. It's not that I don't read you, and I don't want to meet, but if you read this letter, you will be My incompetence is a breach of the covenant I made with you and the promise I made to you.
Remembering the midsummer parting, you were unhappy, I couldn't bear it, so I whispered to you, and I will pick you up soon. At that time, I still had a bit of luck, and I only hope that it will be fulfilled. To this night, it is autumn, I am alone in the southwest corner, in the shabby house, with candles left, listening to the sound of the night leaking, the sound urging the dawn, knowing that I can no longer deceive myself, so I pick up the pen and write.
Whenever I write, a thousand words are often written in one stroke, but at this moment of the night, I am contemplating, and there are thousands of words in my heart, but I don’t know how to put them into writing.
I still remember two years ago in Changjiang Mansion, that night I am staying alone in a post house, unable to sleep in the middle of the night. His clothes were disheveled, his bare feet were fluffy, and he looked like a frightened rabbit. At that time, I was inexplicably shocked and thought it was grotesque, but now that I think about it, that night was the beginning of my joy in this life.
Ever since I was a child, I have read hundreds of schools of thought, familiar with the teachings of the sages, without disrespect, and without evil. Of course, even if I am instructed by words, invited by me with courtesy, and those who mess with me, it starts with Qingqing alone.
Recalling Wu Ding for several months, living in the same house and tile, you are cunning in every possible way, I don’t like it, I often reprimand you, An dare to say, I was not enjoying it at that time without knowing it? When the marriage is completed, the cloud screen is fragrant and warm, the Jin tent whispers, and if you look closely, everything is good.
According to the Han book, every time Liang Hong returned, his wife provided food for him, and he did not dare to look up in front of Hong. However, I don't envy Liang Hong, I only love your unrestrained, charming and naive, even if I was not happy at the time, now I want to come, I can't get it. It is expected that it will be difficult to see your delicate state in this life, let alone hear you call me with your big cousin, only then will you know your regret and go deep into your heart.
My father once taught me several brothers when I was young, saying that being a gentleman is not easy, walking the right way, and following propriety and righteousness, I took it seriously, but today, I know that the most difficult thing in the world is not how to behave as a gentleman, but how to behave as a gentleman. It is you and the righteous way, propriety and righteousness, how should I choose.
In the end, I broke my promise, I did not keep the promise I made that day, I went back to the south to meet you, and I owe you to look forward to it. Tomorrow I have to go on the road and do what I need to do, which may lead to death, and I am in danger to move forward, not to seek fame, nor to love you and others, but to stand in the sky, and I must do it. Things.
Today's matter is what I must do, there is no turning back, but I will fail you in the end.
Qingqing, when you ran to me, you were looking for my blessing. Today, there is no one-size-fits-all method. If I bear you like this, if one day you learn about my murder, you must not hurt yourself, let alone run in vain. The sin of the king is unforgivable.
In this life, although I live in a high place in a temple, I am really nothing but a wrecked body. I have a humble background. My mother was ominous. When I was young, I was notorious. I was an ominous person. Enough to chew and enjoy, death is also destiny. The only regret is that I can't protect your well-being in the future. Fortunately, I have made arrangements. Although I can't personally protect you for the rest of your life, I think you should be able to live in peace, and you don't have to tremble and be afraid of fish. This is the last thing I will do for you.
The attached page is for the wife's book. Since I leave you today, from now on, you will no longer have to worry about me. Ruhui's quality is touching, if you meet a good person, you can renew your marriage. I learned that, I must also smile and be pleased, and wish Jia Hao from afar. This is the end of the ink, Qingqing, take care.
You'an wrote the book of four drummers on the twenty-seventh night of the eighth month. "
This letter from Pei You'an has two parts, one is the content, and the other is the wife's letter, which was shredded and discarded by Jiafu that day.
She didn't need to read these pages anymore, every word was engraved into her mind.
It was only after receiving this letter that Jiafu realized that it turned out that when he left that night, he had already prepared to say goodbye to him. It's just that at that time, I indulged in the sadness of leaving him, and then I was so comforted by him, fascinated, and completely unaware of his strangeness. Later, she learned from her brother about his orders and arrangements before leaving, and later, Yuzhu also came.
However, all the apprehension and suspicion, when I didn't see the letter, were just a hunch, and I could still be lucky.
Until the moment the letter arrived, the depth of Jiafu's worry and anxiety was the same as the anger and sadness that followed.
She wants to keep this thing well, and when she sees others, she slaps the things he wrote back on his face, and asks him to eat everything back!
With such anxiety, worry, and anger and sadness that she couldn't vent out and had nowhere to vent, Jiafu finally arrived at the capital and Pei's house on this day.
The Pei family is still the original Pei family, but in just over half a year, when she came back this time, the Pei family seemed to have changed. In the front hall of the concierge, the servants were scattered all the way in, gossiping and gossip, and suddenly saw Jiafu and his party entering, so they hurriedly greeted them, but there was a vague difference in their expressions, which was different from before. It was quite different. Jiafu went straight into the courtyard where she lived, and sent someone to inform Mrs. Xin, saying that she had changed her clothes and went to worship, and then she asked Mammy Liu to inquire about the news. After a while, Madam Liu came back with a panicked expression on her face. She said that for some reason, after the uncle left from Quanzhou, he didn't seem to go to the southwest. He seemed to be in the capital, but he didn't show his face. He was removed from his post and seized his position. Some people saw that early one morning, he was escorted out of the city gate by two old guards and sent to the north.
Jiafu's heart was beating wildly.
Although Pei You'an didn't mention in that letter what he did that "would cause death", she had a feeling that it must have something to do with Xiao Yu.
And only if you are involved in such a thing, "in the king," can you be "unforgivable."
Her legs were weak for a while, but she quickly calmed down.
His letters, between the lines, can be seen everywhere, Pei You'an did it with the worst intentions. And now, the emperor did not kill him.
Perhaps this was not what he expected, but Catherine knew exactly why.
Dismissal, dismissal, she doesn't care. When it was sent to the north, she was not afraid to accompany her. The only worry is his body.
In his last life, he went outside the Great Wall, and later his old illness relapsed, and he was most likely to be assassinated by Xiao Yintang, and finally died in Suye City. In this life, even if Xiao Yintang can't hurt him any more, but he is alone in the bitter cold outside the Great Wall, how can she relax
She finally came back, but others have been sent to the north!
Jia Fu suppressed the strong urge to immediately set off to catch up.
He has been gone for more than half a month. The north side is so big, she doesn't know where he was sent, what way he went, and what happened.
She wrote a letter of worship and asked someone to send it to Liu Jiushao's mansion quickly and voted for Mrs. Liu. Although she was reluctant, she could only cheer herself up, changed her clothes, and asked someone to take her. The companions brought from Quanzhou went to Mrs. Xin's side.
Zhou Jiao'e gave birth last month and gave birth to a daughter, just a few days after her confinement, Mrs. Xin is very cold to her now. But Pei Xiuzhi had regained the title of Duke of the Kingdom with that iron coupon, and he didn't look at her much on weekdays.
When Jiafu went in, she saw Brother Quan standing in the courtyard, smashing a handful of stones in the direction of Zhou Jiao's house window, accompanied by a crackling sound like fried beans, a few stones were thrown in, There was a sound of baby crying, mixed with Zhou Jiao'e's screaming and scolding, a woman opened the window and looked out, and the whole brother turned around and ran, but he was not careful, and bumped into the head of the Liu mama who was coming. On the body, Madam Liu sighed and almost fell on her back. Fortunately, Sandalwood's eyes were quick and she helped her. The whole brother, who was small in stature, was bounced out, and sat on the ground, suddenly wow. Crying, the nurse came out in a hurry, saw Jiafu, she was stunned, and called out that the grandmother came back, and went to coax Brother Quan. Mrs. Xin heard the cry and came out soon, scolding: "I wish you a good life. Looking at my brother, I made him cry again!"
The nurse girl glanced at Jiafu and opened her mouth, but did not dare to respond, but Brother Quan pointed at Madam Liu and shouted, "It's this stinky bitch who hit me on purpose!"
Mrs. Xin raised her head and saw Jia Fu, paused for a while, half-smiling.
Jiafu held back her disgust for the child and said, "Mother-in-law, I just arrived home and came to see you. Mammy walked with me before I came in. I saw Brother Quan throwing stones into the window of the room, and when they were finished, they were thrown away. I ran and stabbed my head on my mother's body. My mother was old and almost fell without being hit. Fortunately, I was helped, and I didn't want the whole brother to fall. It's a sin!"
Mrs. Xin did not speak. Behind her came a seventeen or eighteen-year-old with a pretty face. She didn't look like a servant, staring at Jiafu and her party.
"It was this stinking woman who hit me! She hit me on purpose! Grandma, you have to vent your anger for me!" Brother Quan fell to the ground and rolled around.
"stand up!"
There was a roar from behind, and Jiafu turned back to see Pei Xiuzhi hurriedly approaching, and scolded Brother Quan on the ground sharply.
"It's clear that you bumped into people first, but you're still playing tricks! Get up for me, go to the ancestral hall, and think about it!"
Brother Quan immediately stopped crying and slid behind Mrs. Xin.
Mrs. Xin frowned and said, "That's it, I'll teach him well when I enter the room." She told someone to bring the whole brother back to the room first, when she saw Zhou Jiao'e holding the crying child and running out of the room, crying. Said: "Forgive me that there is no one in my family, everyone bullied me, and threw a stone into my house! I'm in a hurry, I can do anything! Oh, my hard-working daughter..."
"...The old lady's filial piety hasn't passed yet!" Zhou Jiao'e continued to shout towards this side, "Excuse me, I don't know, and now I'm going to let people in the house—"
A few months ago, Mrs. Xin gave Pei Xiuzhi a new concubine named Yunniang on the grounds that Zhou Jiao'e was pregnant and could not serve her son. Naturally, the old lady's one-year filial piety period has not yet expired, and this concubine has not yet passed. .
Hearing Zhou Jiao'e's shouting, Mrs. Xin's face darkened and she shouted sharply, "What are you still looking at? Why don't you invite the second grandmother back to the house!"
As soon as she finished speaking, everyone rushed over, the girl behind her persuaded, pulled, and pushed Zhou Jiao'e in, making a mess.
Jiafu suppressed the disgust in her heart, and greeted Mrs. Xin, told her to put down the gift, and then said goodbye. Mrs. Xin was indifferent and only nodded. After that, Jiafu was discharged from the hospital, and she heard the voice of the old lady behind her. : "... a phoenix with feathers is not as good as a chicken, look at her, think of herself as something... "
Madam Liu also heard it, showing anger, she stopped, turned around and was about to go over to reason, but was stopped by Jiafu, she continued to walk forward, and quickly walked to the front of her courtyard, there was a sound of hurried footsteps behind her, Pei Xiuzhi After catching up: "sister-in-law, don't be sad about the eldest brother. From now on, you can just live at home with peace of mind, and let me know if you have anything."
Jiafu smiled lightly: "Trouble." After speaking, she turned around and went inside, and then sent someone to deliver the things to the second room, but she didn't go there, just waiting for Mrs. Liu's reply. In the evening, Mrs. Liu actually came over in the carriage herself, Jiafu welcomed her in, and the servants served refreshments, Jiafu said with tears in her eyes: "I only heard those things as soon as I returned to Beijing today, it's sunny. Thunderbolt, there is nothing else he can do. Because Lord Liu and her husband have always been on good terms, I thought of my wife. I just wanted to ask her for some news, and I wanted to know if the person who went north was indeed my husband. I'm here, please accept me."
Mrs. Liu hurriedly supported her and said, "Why does my sister have to meet me? If it wasn't for Lord Pei, where would my Liu family be today. Let me tell you the truth, that person is indeed Lord Pei. Just why was he convicted on Long Live? Even my husband didn't know about it. A few days ago, he and Anyuan Hou went to see Wansui, and this was what he asked. Not only did he not ask, but he was asked by Wansui Shen."
Mrs. Liu sighed: "My husband really doesn't understand. After I inquired about it later, he said that he had made a special message, saying that no one is allowed to go with Lord Pei, and even the servants are not allowed to accompany him, otherwise he will be punished by another class. "Sister, what are you going to do now?"
Jiafu wiped away her tears and said, "There is always a reason for everything, even if your husband has committed a serious crime against the sky, he deserves it and should be made public so that people can understand. Son, how can I feel at ease? I want to see Wanzai, can I trouble Master Liu to make a petition to Wanzai on my behalf tomorrow?”
Mrs. Liu agreed and comforted Jiafu. After sitting for a while, she hurried away. Jiafu stayed up all night. In the afternoon of the next day, Mrs. Liu came to the door again, saying that Liu Jiushao had already passed the word, but the emperor did not say anything at the time, and he also Don't dare to ask, tell her to wait.
This wait was seven or eight days, and there was no news. Jiafu was anxious, so she went to find Mrs. Liu again, and asked Mrs. Liu to help transfer the message to Li Yuangui, and wanted to see Li Yuangui instead. In the blink of an eye, several days passed, and there was still no movement.
Just when Jiafu was burning with anxiety, Cui Yinshui next to Li Yuangui came and said, "Godfather told me to tell Madam that Long Live is still angry, and it's not easy to see it for a while, ask Madam to wait patiently. Wait, after a while, when Long Live slowly calms down, the godfather will intercede on his behalf."
It is now the end of October, and it has been half a month since she returned to Beijing. After the delay of half a month, no one in Pei Youan knows where she is. The weather here has turned cold, not to mention the north, where there is heavy snow in November. Flying is also common. Thinking of him alone, I don't know if he is wearing cold clothes, and he is not usually a person who can take care of himself.
Seeing her tears, Cui Yinshui hurriedly bowed: "Madam, don't cry..."
Jiafu turned her face and wiped away her tears silently. Cui Yinshui looked at it in a daze, and felt distressed again, gritted his teeth, turned his head and saw that there was no one nearby, leaned over and whispered: "Madam, don't worry too much. Godfather is also afraid that Master Pei can't stand the weather in the north. If you have passed the old man, take care of the adults more. It is the adults who are too angry with Wan Sui this time, otherwise Wan Sui will not be like this. Madam, please wait."
Only then did Jiafu rest a little. Just waiting for the emperor to calm down like this, who knows it will have to wait until the year of the monkey and the month of the horse.
She was in a trance, suddenly, something came to her mind, she got up in a hurry, called Cui Yinshui and so on, went over by herself, handed over the jade pendant that Pei Youan had used as a token of the marriage contract, and said, "Excuse me, Eunuch Cui, go back and replace it. I would like to express my gratitude to Eunuch Li, and then transfer this thing to Eunuch Li, and ask Eunuch Li to transfer it on my behalf."
Cui Yinshui glanced into the mouth of the sachet and saw that it was a jade pendant.
Jiafu said: "Eunuch Cui, don't worry, nothing will happen. Please help Eunuch Cui." Saying that, and bowing to him, Cui Yinshui snorted, hurriedly dodged to the side, put away the things, and said, "Forget it, I Let’s transfer it to your godfather first. As for whether the godfather will be transferred, I don’t know. Just wait for the news.”
Jiafu sent him out, and another night passed in anxiety. In the evening of the next day, a palace car stopped in front of Pei's house. Cui Yinshui came over again, saying that the emperor was alive, and summoned Jiafu to the palace for an audience.