It was my first time to come to Ningshan Cemetery, and I couldn’t tell the difference between east, west, and north. After leaving the side door of Hall No. 2, I searched for a long time and asked several people before I found out where the restroom was.
I went to the bathroom and squatted for a long time, but my stomach only hurt. When I came out, I went back the way I came, but on the way I suddenly heard someone calling my name: "Zijin."
I turned around and heard the sound, and the person in a long black windbreaker not far behind me turned out to be Zhang Danqing, whom I hadn't seen in a while.
I was a little stunned for a moment. Before I could call someone, Zhang Danqing was already walking towards me. After realizing it, I called out: "Brother Danqing."
Zhang Danqing stood in front of me, his eyes were slightly red, and he asked aloud: "Zijin, why are you here?"
I said: "Today is the funeral day of my university department chair..."
Having said that, I thought of the rows of luxury cars in the parking space when I first entered Ningshan Cemetery, and I couldn't help but ask, "Brother Danqing is here to attend the funeral too, right?"
In fact, what I said is in vain. Besides attending the funeral, what else can I do in the cemetery
I didn't expect that Zhang Danqing would look away when I said it so casually. I saw his eyes were obviously red, and I thought something happened at home, so I quickly asked with worried eyes: "Brother Danqing, what happened?" Something happened?”
Zhang Danqing's Adam's apple moved slightly, as if he was trying to endure it. Five seconds passed before he looked at me again and said, "Zijin, you don't know yet, do you?"
When I heard him say this, I subconsciously felt something in my heart. What, does this matter still have something to do with me
I looked at Zhang Danqing with fear, unable to say a word because of my nervousness.
Zhang Danqing looked like he was about to speak but was stuck in his throat. It took him a long time to squeeze out these words from the gap between his lips: "Guan Xin... he..."
Guan Xin... Ji Guan Xin? !
My eyes suddenly widened, and when I looked at Zhang Danqing in front of me, he looked away and his eyes turned red, and my legs went weak.
I stared blankly at Zhang Danqing, unable to speak a word.
Until Zhang Danqing looked up at me again and saw my expression, he whispered: "Zijin, don't be too sad..."
If I was shocked the first second I heard the news, so shocked that my heart stopped beating; then now, when I came to my senses, the overwhelming sadness swallowed me up almost instantly.
Tears fell directly from my widened eyes, and I asked with extremely choked sobs: "Why, how could this happen..."
Why did Ji Guanxin die
Obviously I had been hanging out with him a while ago, and his face that always had a smile still clearly appeared in my mind.
He told me that I would hang out with him from now on and that I would have food, drink and fun.
He always likes to pester me and uses various methods, but he has never really cheated me; he said that if I call him brother, I will be his sister from now on. Anyone who dares to bully me will be against Ji Guanxin.
He asked me why I only believed what Luo Xiangdong said but not what he said
The past events are still vivid in my mind, and even his seemingly nonsense words, I found that I remember them clearly.
The more I thought about it, the more my heart ached, and the more I thought about it, the weaker my legs felt. I soon burst into tears and burst into tears. I cried and asked Zhang Danqing in front of me: "How could this happen? Why did Ji Guanxin die?"
Zhang Danqing replied with red eyes: "Guan Xin said that he regarded you as his sister and wanted to treat you well, but I didn't expect that you only believed Luo Xiangdong's words, but never believed him. When he said these words to me that day, how much I drank some wine and then drove out by myself... "
Before Zhang Danqing finished speaking, I couldn't help but burst into tears.
My whole body was weak, I just felt my legs were weak, so I squatted down and cried loudly. Maybe Zhang Danqing was frightened by my appearance, so he stepped forward to help me.
I couldn't stand up at all, I just cried desperately, feeling a lot of guilt in my heart. I'm sorry for Ji Guanxin, he is still so young. If God gives us another chance, I will definitely believe his words. So what if he is really not a good person? So what if Luo Xiangdong doesn't let me go with him
Anyway, if he treats me well, I will be his friend and be his sister.
"Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, I, I'm that, I couldn't hear what Zhang Danqing was trying to say to me.
After crying for a long time, I suddenly thought of the reason for Zhang Danqing's presence here. I stood up and asked with a choked sob: "Brother Danqing, are you here to attend Brother Guan Xin's funeral today?" I cried so much. He twitched and twitched, and his words followed each other.
For some reason, Zhang Danqing nodded vaguely.
I said: "Take me, go, I want to see him..." When I thought of seeing Ji Guanxin again, it was already an eternity, and as soon as my tears came up, I started crying again.
Zhang Danqing said: "Zijin, please stop crying."
I cried so hard that I thought how could I not cry? But even if I cry to death now, Ji Guanxin will not come back.
I followed Zhang Danqing and walked forward. He took me to the direction of Hall 1. At this time, there were many people standing outside Hall 1, all wearing dark formal suits. Most of them were men, and they were all young.
I thought to myself that Ji Guan loved liveliness before he was a freshman and had friends all over the world. Now that something like this happened to him suddenly, so many people came to see him off and told him to leave in a lively way.
Let's go... Tears welled up in my eyes, my vision was blurred, and I couldn't see the road ahead at all. I stumbled, and I almost fell. Fortunately, Zhang Danqing, who was beside me, quickly helped me with his quick eyes, and I was able to stand firm.
Zhang Danqing frowned slightly and whispered: "Zijin, are you okay?"
I said, "I want to see him."
Many people looked at me along the way, especially Zhang Danqing who held my arm for fear that I would fall again. I walked with him into the hall. This hall is the largest hall in Ningshan Cemetery. It is said that it can hold at least 500 people. I could only see the dark crowd in front of me. The closer I got, the louder the crying inside.
This cry was more tear-jerking than joy and sorrow, and I almost burst into tears.
Pushing aside the crowd, I vaguely saw the corner of a photo hanging on the wall in front of me. Just because of the angle, I couldn't see the people in the photo.
I squeezed forward anxiously. I just wanted to see Ji Guanxin one last time, even if it meant whispering a few words to his body, telling him that I really didn't bother him and that I quite liked playing with him. If there was an afterlife, No matter whether we are friends, sisters or anything else, as long as he is happy, I will be with him.
Finally I squeezed into the middle of the crowd. I first saw a group of direct family members wearing sackcloth and mourning surrounding the crystal coffin in the middle. A middle-aged woman in her fifties was holding the head of the coffin and crying and almost collapsed. A woman next to her was younger. She was supporting her and crying: "Mom, don't be like this. Even if I see Ansheng in heaven, I won't leave..."
The middle-aged woman almost cried and knelt in front of the coffin, shouting in a heart-breaking voice: "My son, Cheng Xu, you are so cruel, how can your mother survive..."
When I heard it, Cheng Xu
Subconsciously, he looked up at the wall. In the big photo on the wall, there was no doubt that he was a young man, but his eyebrows, his eyes, his appearance... he was clearly not Ji Guanxin!
I was stunned, what's going on
Just as I was thinking about it, someone suddenly grabbed my hand from behind. The next second, I was pulled by this force and turned around and walked out of the crowd. Faintly, I saw a familiar figure from behind.
He kept pulling me outside Hall No. 1. He still wanted to move forward, but I had come to my senses, vigorously broke away, and then took a step back.
The man who pulled me turned around, it was Ji Guanxin!
He was wearing a short black cotton jacket with a bit of motorcycle style, and a thin white T-shirt underneath, making his face even more ruthless and handsome.
Undried tears were still on my face. I looked at him without blinking and said nothing.
Ji Guanxin turned to look at me, and his first reaction was to raise the corners of his lips and raise his hand, trying to wipe away my tears.
I acted before I realized it, and slapped his hand away with a 'snap'.
Ji Guanxin was probably hurt by my beating, and his smile was replaced by a frown. He looked at me and said, "Why are you so fierce?"
I was extremely angry, and my mood at the moment could no longer be described as angry.
After looking at Ji Guanxin for a few seconds, I didn't want to say anything and turned around to leave.
When Ji Guanxin saw this, he stepped in front of me. I tried to get around him, but when I went left, he went left, and when I went right, he went right. After several back and forths, I felt like a cannon barrel being lit, and finally exploded. Blossom blossomed, regardless of the occasion and location, he shouted loudly: "Get out of here!"
This roar of mine is really eye-catching. Everyone outside Hall 1 looked at me and Ji Guanxin.
I didn't care, I just stared at Ji Guanxin with wide eyes.
Ji Guanxin rolled his eyes from side to side, and then whispered: "Keep your voice down, are you deliberately trying to prevent me from getting off the stage?"
I gritted my teeth, stared and asked, "Ji Guanxin, are you interesting?"
Ji Guanxin grinned and said, "Interesting."
I kept an expressionless face and continued: "People lied to me that you were dead, made me feel like I was the sinner who indirectly caused your death, made me cry in public like an idiot, and I almost ran away Your body tells you loudly, I was wrong, I will never hide from you anymore, I will be your friend and your sister from now on, no matter what anyone says, it will not work, as long as you are still willing to play with me ! Ji Guanxin... do you think this is interesting?"
I said the previous sentence louder than the other one, but the last sentence I asked was particularly soft.
The people next to me were dumbfounded, wondering who I was and who dared to talk to Ji Guanxin in such a tone and tone.
Of course, Ji Guanxin was also stupid.
He watched me without blinking as tears kept falling, but his expression was cold.
I'm not so angry as I am scared. Although I kept saying that I didn’t want to play with Ji Guanxin, he was someone I knew after all, and I had some friendship with him. How could I remain indifferent to the news of his death
It was really too much for him to joke with me about something like this.