The whole night, I barely slept for less than two hours. Because all he could think about was Luo Xiangdong and Du Ting.
Du Ting asked Luo Xiangdong to go to the hotel and said she wanted to give him a surprise. I couldn't think of any surprises that could only be given in a hotel besides going to bed.
I felt like needles pricking my heart. I couldn't sleep at three o'clock in the morning, so I called Xu Lu.
Xu Lu picked up the answer in a daze and said 'Hey'.
I didn't say anything and just cried.
Xu Lu was silent for a few seconds, and then a sober voice came: "Zijin, what's wrong? What happened?"
I was afraid that Xu Lu would be frightened, so I choked back and replied: "Luzi, I feel uncomfortable in my heart..."
Now Xu Lu has been transferred to the branch in the city center to work. The company is only half an hour away from me by taxi. There is an apartment for two people there. Xu Lu said that the environment is not bad, so she will live there first. With.
Afraid of waking up the other person in the dormitory, Xu Lu asked me to wait. After she went out, she asked me in detail what happened.
As soon as I told the story, Xu Lu immediately cursed in a deep voice: "Did Du Ting do it on purpose?"
I've been holding it in all day, and now I'm holding my phone, and my tears can't stop flowing down my face.
Xu Lu advised me not to cry and said, "When you went to see Du Ting today, did you feel that she said that on purpose?"
I choked up and replied, "It doesn't look like it."
Xu Lu said: "If she did this, either she didn't notice it at all, or she was deliberately trying to tease you after she noticed it."
I didn't say anything, but Xu Lu said again: "You do it too, no matter whether Du Ting did it on purpose or not, why don't you just agree to this and it's over? Why bother yourself?"
I put my hand on my forehead and cried and replied: "Du Ting just asked me to pass on a message. What reason can I have to refuse?"
Xu Lu said: "When did you become so cowardly? Now she is asking you to help. If you want to help, you can help. If you don't want to help, there will be reasons why you can't help. Why do you have to match her with Luo Xiangdong against your will and make yourself feel uncomfortable? ?”
I burst into tears because I felt so uncomfortable.
Xu Lu persuaded me for a long time, but I didn't dare to delay her too much. After all, she is working very hard now.
After complaining to her for more than half an hour, I sobbed and said, "Luzi, I just want to finish venting. You go to bed quickly. You have to go to work tomorrow morning."
Xu Lu said in a deep voice: "How can you reassure me like this? How about I go to your place now?"
I shook my head and replied, "No, just go to sleep. I'm fine. I'm sleepy too. I'll go to sleep when I die."
Xu Lu said: "Then I'll call you tomorrow."
I hummed, and the moment I hung up the phone, tears appeared in my eyes again. I lay on my side on the pillow, and the pillow was covered with tears.
When I woke up the next morning, I went to the bathroom and saw that both eyes were swollen into walnuts. The double eyelids that were originally obvious were now a pair of stiff single eyelids.
I felt like I was going to the grave, and I was too lazy to put on makeup. After cleaning up, I put on my sunglasses and went out.
When I came to Luo's, what I was most afraid of was meeting Luo Xiangdong. I didn't know how to explain to him the reason why my eyes were swollen from crying after meeting him.
But it turns out that I thought too much. Because Luo Xiangdong didn't come to the company at all.
Why didn't he come to the company? Did you play too crazy with Du Ting in the hotel last night and couldn't get out of bed? Or was Du Ting trying to keep him from coming? Or maybe the two of them are rekindling their old relationship, and they are rubbing each other's hair together, and Luo Xiangdong says, "The days are short, and the king will never come to court early from now on"
My mind is filled with all kinds of pictures, and the more I think about them, the more heartbroken and irritated I become. The hands on the keyboard were already clenched into fists. I finally couldn't hold back and swept the folders on the table to the floor.
With a 'wow' sound, the A4 paper in the folder flew to the floor. Instead of calming down, I became more and more serious.
I closed my eyes and stopped myself from crying, because now I feel like a psycho.
I like Luo Xiangdong. Apart from myself and Xu Lu, I'm afraid no third person will know. Everyone thought that Luo Xiangdong and I had a good personal relationship, and I called him brother. Sometimes he would call me Thirteenth Sister when he was in a good mood.
At first I was satisfied with this enviable 'brother-sister relationship', but I don't know when it started, and I gradually became greedy.
I want to have more, I want to be like Du Ting, who can hold Luo Xiangdong's arm blatantly and unscrupulously, be able to act coquettishly towards him, say I like him, and when I want to hug him, I don't have to worry about anything else, just hug him can.
I know that I am wrong to think this way. I should not push myself too far and hope for what I cannot have. But I just can't control my heart.
Xu Lu called me and asked me about the situation here. I told her truthfully that Luo Xiangdong did not come.
Xu Lu was silent for a few seconds, and then started to find various reasons to comfort me. In fact, we all know it, but it's just a cover-up.
Luo Xiangdong's only reason for not coming to work could only be Du Ting. They spent the night together in the hotel last night, and it was me who deceived Luo Xiangdong in my own name.
Ha, what an irony.
Full of bad gas and sour water, I excused myself from lunch as I was busy reading documents. I don't know if I am angering Luo Xiangdong by doing this, or if I am punishing myself. Maybe my stomachache will be relieved to some extent.
I sat in the office all afternoon without waiting for a call from Luo Xiangdong until after get off work. I carried my bag and walked out of the office. I overheard Guan Yue saying to Han Xuetong: "Mr. Luo didn't come to the company today. I'll go back and send the timetable." Tune to…”
Luo Xiangdong didn't come all day.
I walked out of the company tiredly. Xu Lu had called before and said that she was going to meet a client and would not come to my apartment until after nine o'clock in the evening. I came home after get off work and lay on the sofa by myself from dawn to dusk.
I fell asleep during this period, only to wake up again from the cold. I got up and went upstairs. I lay on my bed in a daze and wrapped myself tightly in the quilt.
I had been maintaining a light sleep, so when the doorbell rang downstairs, I immediately opened my eyes.
When I went downstairs to open the door, Xu Lu appeared at the door, smelling of alcohol.
I helped her get her slippers, and she walked in while holding on to the wall and said, "How are you? Are you feeling better?"
I didn't answer but asked: "How are you? You drank so much again."
Xu Lu replied nonchalantly: "I just met a big customer and signed a one million order. I can get a commission of ten thousand."
I helped her walk to the living room, muttering: "Awesome."
Xu Lu said: "Can you boast a little more carefully?"
I said: "Sister, can you take into account my current mood? I can still praise you out loud, it is all to give you face."
Xu Lu then turned to look at me. Seeing that my face was pale and my eyes were red, she frowned and said, "You cried again this afternoon?"
I turned around and went to the dining room to make tea for Xu Lu. After hearing this, I casually replied: "My tears are shallow. I cry to detoxify."
Xu Lu asked: "Did Luo Xiangdong call you?"
I got angry when I heard this and couldn't help but reply loudly: "What did he call me?"
Xu Lu said: "Then he didn't show up for a day, what did he do?"
I also want to know where he went.
I made a cup of scented tea and handed it to Xu Lu. I sat down next to her, folded my arms around my legs, and was lost in thought.
Xu Lu drank too much. When she lowered her head to drink tea, her mouth was burned and she cursed. I didn't know why she brought up things at home. She cried and told me how stressful it was, how hard it was to be transferred to the city center, and now their pervert minister Zhou Mingkang would call her from time to time to chat with her. one time.
As a result, it was not her comforting me that night, but me taking care of her. I put her to bed and looked at the time. It was almost midnight at night.
She smelled of drunkenness and she hadn't taken a shower, so I took the quilt and went downstairs by myself and lay down on the sofa.
I have been crying all day, but now there are no more tears. I try to analyze the current situation clearly. First of all, there is no doubt that I do like Luo Xiangdong, but my bottom line is not to be a third party who damages other people's feelings; secondly, Luo Xiangdong and Du Ting are in a relationship, which means that so far, it is impossible for me to get involved in their relationship; finally, if Luo Xiangdong and Du Ting Du Ting's breakup, does it mean that I can be with Luo Xiangdong
Of course not. I found that the reason that made me cry all day was that Luo Xiangdong didn't like me, not that he was with Du Ting.
As long as he doesn't like me, whoever he is with has nothing to do with me.
It turns out that the most hurtful thing is not that the person you like falls in love with someone else, but that that person doesn't love you at all.
Once I figured this out, I couldn't tell whether it was more painful or more transparent.
There seemed to be a feeling of enlightenment.
If Luo Xiangdong doesn't love me, then everything I do now is unrequited love. I am voluntarily looking for trouble and it has nothing to do with others. But what if he loves me? If he didn't love me, why would he rather save me than Du Ting
I thought I figured it out, but in an instant I was back to square one.
To put it bluntly, it's not that I'm hesitating, but that I can't understand Luo Xiangdong's attitude towards me. Does he love me or not
I have been dating Chen Wenhang for seven years, with the intention of getting married, but in the end he hurt me so much. I thought that I would never be able to recover from this in three to five years, and that I would never fall in love with anyone again. But I didn’t expect that in just a few months, I would plunge into another relationship.
And this relationship is destined to be beyond my control.
Lying on the sofa, I opened and closed my eyes for a while, thinking about it for a while, and then started to get into trouble again. When I finally thought about it, I finally thought that I was exhausted and had no energy to think about it any more, so I allowed myself to fall asleep due to exhaustion.
I felt like I had just fallen asleep, but the alarm on my phone rang, reminding me that it was time to go to work.
I didn't sleep all night the night before yesterday. I was able to get up yesterday, but I didn't sleep for most of the night last night. I am obviously in a bad mood today. Even my physical strength is starting to lose. I always feel that my limbs are sore and weak, as if I am sick.
I went upstairs to wake Xu Lu up. After I finished cleaning up, I took a few more cold medicines before leaving.
Xu Lu reminded me: "Go downstairs and buy something to eat. Don't take medicine on an empty stomach."
I hummed, not even having the energy to reply.