In fact, many people around me are already listening to "Just Once", saying it is a classic episode in the movie. I haven't seen the movie before, so it sounds okay and not very tearful.
But sitting in the cinema, listening to this song while immersing myself in the plot, I couldn't hold back my tears.
Just once, I will take you to see the world forever. Laughing on a sunny day, noisy in the free air, you know, this is my only want. The world is still small, I will accompany you to the ends of the earth, stop searching in the corners without worries, and grow old slowly in the carefree time. Do you know that all my heartbeats will beat with you.
I don’t remember how many times this song was sung in the movie. I just remember that it was the female lead who sang it to him when the male protagonist was sick and lying in the hospital bed.
She said: "You didn't write this song for me, but I want to sing it to you."
I suddenly felt very grateful and heartbroken. There are always so many misplaced loves in this world. I love you, you love her, and she loves him.
I put all the grievances and depression I felt about liking Luo Xiangdong but having to hide them into the plot of the movie, so when I listened to the interludes, I burst into tears and burst into tears.
Kuang Yiyang, who was beside me during the process, reached out and handed me a tissue and whispered: "Senior, stop crying, it's all fake."
When he said this, I felt even more uncomfortable. I thought it was not a lie, I really like Luo Xiangdong, I really really like him.
In the last five minutes before the movie ended, my heart never stopped hurting and my tears couldn't stop flowing. Seeing me crying so sadly, Kuang Yiyang was a little at a loss and couldn't help but raise his hand to wipe my tears with a tissue.
The movie was over, and many people who came to watch the movie got up and left. But I hung my head, covered my eyes with my hands, and kept sobbing.
Kuang Yiyang was not a fool. He noticed something strange about me. He was silent for a while and asked softly: "Senior, what's wrong with you?"
I cried so much that I couldn't speak. I didn't know why, but my mood collapsed all of a sudden.
Seeing this, Kuang Yiyang's voice became a little louder and he asked, "Did someone bully you?"
I do not speak. Kuang Yiyang suddenly said: "It must be the person named Ji Guanxin."
I knew he had misunderstood, so I choked back and replied, "No."
It was very dark inside the cinema, and my vision was blurred by tears, so I couldn't clearly see the expression on Kuang Yiyang's face. Just a few seconds later, I heard him say in a voice that could not distinguish between emotion and anger: "Senior sister, do you like him?"
My heart skipped a beat, and for a moment I felt so guilty that I couldn't tell whether the 'he' in Kuang Yiyang's words was Ji Guanxin or Luo Xiangdong.
So I remain silent.
Seeing this, Kuang Yiyang said softly: "Sister, I suddenly realized that I am very selfish. I always thought that I only wanted you to live a good life and live a happy life, but I am very unhappy tonight."
I have known Kuang Yiyang for several years, and he always smiles in front of me. This is the first time I have heard him say something to me, and I am very unhappy.
Of course I knew he would be unhappy, after all, Ji Guanxin is such a troublemaker. I was about to explain a few words aloud, but Kuang Yiyang said softly: "I'm afraid that you finally broke up, and the person who can stand by your side is not me, but someone else."
This time, I was really confused. The reason for confusion was not that I just knew Kuang Yiyang liked me, but that I was surprised that he would say such a thing.
I sat stiffly in the chair, motionless.
I caught a glimpse of Kuang Yiyang next to me from the corner of my eye. His figure merged with the dim light. I couldn't see the expression on his face at all. In fact, I didn't dare to take a closer look.
Kuang Yiyang seemed to lower his gaze slightly, looking at the position in front of him.
In the quiet movie hall, I heard his soft voice say: "Sister, I really hope you can be happy, but I don't want you to be with others. I feel uncomfortable... Tell me, what do I do?"
At the end, if I hadn't been in a trance, I seemed to have heard the trembling and choking of Kuang Yiyang's final voice.
Did he... cry
After coming out of the hot pot restaurant, he refused to talk to me. He was not only angry with Ji Guanxin, but also angry with me, and even more angry with himself.
How entangled and uncomfortable he must be in his heart to dare to ask such a question under the influence of alcohol.
My heart was so sour, it was a heart-wrenching feeling.
I felt very sorry for Kuang Yiyang, so I choked back and replied: "I'm sorry, Yiyang..."
I wanted to explain to him that there was nothing between Ji Guanxin and me, but Kuang Yiyang suddenly interrupted me and said urgently: "Senior sister, please stop talking, I don't want to hear it now."
After that, he simply stood up and said: "I'm a little drunk, I'm probably talking nonsense. I'll take you home first."
He was really panicked, fearing that my apology would be an admission that I was with Ji Guanxin.
At this moment, I burst into tears at his reaction. I stood up almost subconsciously and hugged him.
Kuang Yiyang was stunned, his whole body was frozen.
I hugged Kuang Yiyang, put my side face on his shoulder, and cried, "Yiyang, don't be afraid, I don't like Ji Guanxin, and I'm not with him."
After a few seconds, Kuang Yiyang slowly raised his arms, first gently hugged me, and then slowly used force to hug me tightly.
His chin rested on my head, and in a low voice, with a trembling that he tried to control, he said: "Senior sister, don't be with him..."
He cried, feeling wronged like a child.
My heart ached uncontrollably, and I immediately promised: "Don't worry, I don't like anyone, and I won't fall in love with anyone else."
I don't know what the commitment is at this moment.
I promised Kuang Yiyang that I would not fall in love with anyone else or be with anyone else. Is this comfort or a disguised form of self-hypnosis
Kuang Yiyang was really drunk and believed my words. He nodded and said softly: "Senior sister, you should answer my question..."
I was feeling dizzy and couldn't remember how I sent Kuang Yiyang to the hotel. I only vaguely remembered that before I left, he still closed his eyes and muttered in a low voice: "Senior sister, I'm very selfish. Don't be angry with me..."
Kuang Yiyang is a simple and heartless person. In today's world, people like him are almost extinct. I was afraid of being hurt by his words again, so I quickly left the hotel room.
Directly opposite the hotel is the apartment where I live now. Crossing a street, I walked back.
If Ji Guanxin hadn't made Kuang Yiyang drunk tonight by accident, I would never have heard these words from Kuang Yiyang in my life.
He said that he was selfish, that while he wanted me to be happy, he didn't want me to be with other men.
I know that he is not selfish, it is just human nature. I was sad, not because Kuang Yiyang suddenly said such words to me, but because I actually hurt someone who was so simple and devoted to me.
After I broke up with Chen Wenhang, I kept using the excuse that I no longer believed in love and would never fall in love with anyone again to deal with Kuang Yiyang, but as soon as I turned around, I fell in love with Luo Xiangdong.
To be fair, Luo Xiangdong was kind to me, but what he did to me was not as good as Kuang Yiyang. At the very least, Luo Xiangdong didn't understand what single-mindedness meant.
Xu Lu is right, I am a person with love mysophobia, so in terms of love, only the dedicated Kuang Yiyang is more suitable for me. It's just that I don't understand why I have a clear goal, but in the end I fall in love with Luo Xiangdong.
I have sighed countless times in my heart. I cannot understand myself more and more, and even hate myself. Kuang Yiyang is so good, why don't I love him
The elevator opened, I walked towards the door, opened the door and entered the apartment.
Now I have become accustomed to living alone. I am no longer afraid of the darkness after opening the door, nor am I as lonely as I used to be because I live alone. At least, it is not so frequent.
Standing at the entrance, I didn't even turn on the door light. I changed into slippers in the dark, and then walked upstairs with my cell phone.
Sitting on the bed, I was so tired that I didn't even have the urge to take a shower.
I don't know how long I was in a daze, but suddenly the cell phone at my hand rang. I was startled and turned my head to look. It was Ji Guanxin calling.
My brows were furrowed, and I felt unhappy.
After answering the phone, I asked in a low tone: "What are you doing?"
The other end of the phone was very quiet, almost silent. I thought the call was not connected, so I couldn't help but take a look at it. The screen showed that the call time was ten seconds.
I frowned and said, "Ji Guanxin, what are you doing? If you don't speak, I'll die."
Two seconds later, Ji Guanxin's voice came: "What are you doing?"
His voice was very low, mixed with a hint of hoarseness that was different from usual, perhaps because the call voice was somewhat distorted.
Hearing this, I replied impatiently: "What do you want to do again?"
Ji Guanxin replied in a low voice: "I just want to know what you are doing."
I said, "Do you want to take care of it?"
He asked: "Where is the handful of young grass beside you?"
I immediately thought of Kuang Yiyang, and when I thought of Kuang Yiyang, I became angry with Ji Guanxin again, and I couldn't help but said in a deep voice: "You have the nerve to ask, he can't drink, why do you want to make him drink? You are such an old man, Can you please be wise and just stop fooling around with me, and don’t let the people around me stop?”
Ji Guanxin and I have always talked like this. We never have any scruples about how much money his family has or what his identity is.
Ji Guan's news didn't feel abrupt at all, he just replied in a lazy voice: "I'm just ignorant. It's obviously him who dragged me to drink, why didn't you tell him to calm down?"
I raised my voice and said, "Stop messing around here. If you do this again, don't come to play with me again in the future!"
There was sudden silence on the other end of the phone. I held the phone, still frowning, and didn't feel that I had gone too far.
After waiting for about five seconds, Ji Guanxin still didn't make a sound. I was a little impatient and asked, "Do you have anything else to do? I'll hang up if it's okay."
I said I was worried, but I wasn't really worried.
So after a few seconds, I heard Ji Guanxin's voice. He said to me: "Liang Zijin, I like you. Are you really unable to tell or are you just pretending to be confused?"