This series of things happened so suddenly that even if I had a golden bell, an iron shirt, it would be difficult for me to face the criticism. To be honest, I don't even know how to get out of this door now, how to face the people outside.
Sometimes the phrase "having a clear conscience" is really fucking self-deception.
After all, no one can live in his own world, and no one can care less about the eyes of the outside world. Now I am suspected by Du Ting and feared by Zhou Mengyi. I am simply a 'double mistress'.
I don’t know when I started to fall into this weird circle.
After hearing what I said, Luo Xiangdong was silent for a long time, and then he said: "You don't need to worry about me, Du Ting is not a problem at all."
After saying that, he glanced sideways at me and said, "You and Ji Guanxin..."
He didn't finish his sentence, but I was too tired to deal with it, so I replied truthfully: "He came directly from the hospital the night before yesterday. I was in a hurry to go out and forgot to bring my key and room card, so we went to the hotel to stay." One night. Suite, own bed.”
Luo Xiangdong said: "I can trust you, but I can't trust Ji Guanxin."
I said, "But I can trust him."
When Luo Xiangdong heard this, he couldn't help but turn his head and stare at me.
In the past, I would not have dared to talk to Luo Xiangdong like this. After all, I was worried about Ji Guanxin in my heart. But after what happened that night, I can finally give a definite answer.
I said: "The grudge between you two has nothing to do with me. I only know that he is willing to go out of his way to help me and is very loyal. I regard him as a friend and I will never stop following him just because of what you say." He plays together. And..."
I paused for a moment, not sure whether I should say this or not, but after a few seconds of hesitation, I calmed down and said expressionlessly: "Let this matter be over, it doesn't matter to me, and I don't want to." Hold anyone accountable, so you really don’t have to quarrel and lose your temper with Du Ting after you go back. This will only make me feel bad. "
"You two are having a good talk. It's true that there shouldn't be me in the middle. There should be a clear distinction between friends and lovers. It's not that Du Ting takes herself too seriously, but that I sometimes take myself too seriously. Take it seriously. I always think that if we have a good relationship, I can call you over to help anytime, but I forgot that we are not teenagers, and we have not been the ones who can be trusted. age."
"So I have been reviewing myself these past two days to see if I have gone too far to make Du Ting feel uncomfortable."
Slightly lowering my gaze, I told Luo Xiangdong what was in my heart.
Luo Xiangdong almost immediately replied after hearing this: "You did nothing wrong, like what happened the night before yesterday, you must call me first. You have no relatives or friends in Night City. If I don't take care of you, who will take care of you?" "
After that, a flash of disgust flashed in his eyes, and he continued: "Du Ting is ignorant. You don't need to take her words to heart, let alone feel awkward. Whatever you do in the future will be the same."
I thought to myself, I can never go back to the past.
Maybe it's because I'm awkward, but anyway, ever since I received a call from Du Ting that night and learned that she and Luo Xiangdong were sleeping together, I've been feeling vaguely sick for the past two days.
Now that I can't even deceive myself, how can I pretend to be okay and talk and laugh with him like before
I sighed secretly and said nothing. I just said softly after a moment of silence, "I want to take a day off today."
After something like this happened, I was too embarrassed to stay in the company anymore, and I couldn't wait to go back and relax.
When Luo Xiangdong heard this, he did not answer but asked: "Do you want to talk to Ji Guanxin about today's matter? Or I can help you settle it."
I shook my head slightly and replied: "No, I will handle it myself."
I carefully remembered what Luo Xiangdong said before. She said that not only was I embarrassed, but she also embarrassed him. So I won't let him get involved in this anymore.
Luo Xiangdong also saw that I was calm on the surface, but actually I was still angry inside. He said aloud: "I didn't figure out what happened today. It was a bit too much to lose my temper with you. Don't take it personally."
Without changing my expression, I replied: "It's okay."
Luo Xiangdong looked at me and asked, "How about I apologize to you? How can you not be angry?"
Seeing him eager to coax me, I couldn't tell whether I was happy or sad. Fortunately, he still cares about me. The reason why he never came that night was because Du Ting never told him that I called him; but it is also the same reason that makes him sad. The person lying next to him is not me, and now I am causing trouble. A couple has a falling out, so what position do I have to accept Luo Xiangdong's kindness to me
If I accept it, is it no different than a third party intervening
Thinking of this, I tried hard to control my emotions that were on the verge of collapse, and replied calmly: "I'm really not angry, you don't need to apologize to me."
Having known Luo Xiangdong for such a long time, my emotions and anger have always been reflected on my face. Maybe Luo Xiangdong had never seen me like this before, and he didn't know what to do for a while. After two seconds of silence, he said: "Let's go, then I will take you back."
I stood up, walked to the clothes rack nearby, put on my coat, and said, "No, I'll go back by myself."
I was very entangled and conflicted in my heart, and I no longer knew who to blame.
After putting on my coat, I reached out to open the door and walked out. Luo Xiangdong followed me, and we both came out of my office together. Not far away, Guan Yue, Han Xuetong and several intern assistants were standing aside, as if they had something to discuss. When they heard the sound of the door opening, several people came over.
Everyone can act, but it depends on whether the acting is good or not. When they saw Luo Xiangdong and I coming out of the same room, they couldn't control the surprise in their eyes and the suspicion on their faces for a moment or two.
Although they quickly nodded and shouted: "Mr. Luo."
Luo Xiangdong was naturally in a bad mood, so he followed me out without even answering.
I no longer care what they think of me, I feel like a broken jar.
Luo Xiangdong followed me out of the outer door and walked in the corridor. I said to him, "Go back."
Luo Xiangdong said: "Seeing how depressed you are, I feel really bad."
After a series of twists and turns, the best thing for me is that I will no longer be moved by Luo Xiangdong's words. Perhaps, that heart has long been broken and on the verge of death.
Hearing this, I replied calmly: "As I said, I'm not angry, at least I'm not angry with you. If you were scolded by a lunatic in the company, would you be able to laugh?"
I turned my attention to fighting Zhou Mengyi.
Sure enough, Luo Xiangdong quickly replied: "Is that woman Ji Guan's new girlfriend?"
I said, "I don't know, probably not."
Luo Xiangdong frowned and said aloud: "You don't know if he has a girlfriend?"
I subconsciously replied: "Is there any difference? The genuine ones also scolded me, and the non-genuine ones also scolded me. I really don't know who I offended whom!"
After all, I still can't get over the hurdle between Luo Xiangdong and Du Ting.
When Luo Xiangdong heard this, he immediately stopped answering.
I felt embarrassed. I just said I didn't care, and then I got angry again. I really hate that I have a bad mouth, why do I have to say this.
The two of us walked to the elevator entrance. The president's special elevator always goes straight up and down. I stood in the elevator but didn't let Luo Xiangdong come in.
Blocking the door, I looked at him and said, "If you really treat me as a friend, don't quarrel with Du Ting tonight. If you have anything to say, talk to me. I hope you two get along well."
After that, I pressed the button and the elevator door slowly closed. I looked at Luo Xiangdong standing outside the elevator door. There was no expression of joy or anger on his handsome face, but his tightly pursed lips revealed the emotion in his heart.
I know that when he is upset, his lips will purse into a line.
The elevator door finally closed completely. I took a step back and saw my face reflected on the silver elevator wall. My features knitted together and sour tears flowed down my face.
It turned out that it was so uncomfortable to tell lies with my eyes open. I clearly didn't want him to be with Du Ting, but I said the opposite against my will.
In fact, I not only said this to Luo Xiangdong, I also said it to myself. I have to always warn myself that Luo Xiangdong and Du Ting are a couple. If I separate them, then I will become the person I hate the most.
And the most important thing is that breaking up Luo Xiangdong and Du Ting is just paving the way for the next woman.
Luo Xiangdong doesn't like me, so no matter who the woman next to him is, it won't be me. And I have had enough of expectations and disappointments again and again.
How long can one person's passion and expectation for another person last
Before, I had always been afraid that if I continued to secretly like Luo Xiangdong, sooner or later I would get into trouble. And Du Ting's reaction on the phone that night also proved my conclusion.
People really can't be too greedy, especially when it comes to love.
I have gained a lot, but I secretly love him in an attempt to 'sell a sheep's head to a dog's flesh'. Those words that deceive myself and others can’t even deceive myself now, so how can they deceive Du Ting
I'm afraid that if Luo Xiangdong quarrels with Du Ting, Du Ting will tell me everything about my liking for him. So will Luo Xiangdong and I become embarrassed by then? Or does he still firmly believe that I am just a friend and brother to him
Watching the red numbers gradually get smaller, we are about to reach the first floor.
I quickly reached out to wipe the tears from my face. When the elevator door opened with a ding, I could already walk out with a calm expression.
It's December now, and even if the sun is shining brightly at noon, the temperature is so low that it can chill your bones at any time.
I gathered up the sweater jacket on my body and felt that my crying face seemed to be freezing by the minute.
The phone in my pocket vibrated. I took it out and saw the caller: Yi Yang.
After I answered the phone, I said "hello". Inexplicably, my heart felt sour and tears came to my eyes.