No matter how high a person's IQ is, once he falls into the emotional whirlpool, there will only be negative numbers left. I don’t consider myself a very smart person, otherwise I wouldn’t have been deceived by Chen Wenhang and Zhang Xinwei for two years.
Now, I still have my original thoughts about Luo Xiangdong, and I can't understand what he is thinking in his heart.
After asking, my heart was racing, worried and looking forward to his answer.
He was silent for a few seconds, and I heard his lukewarm voice: "I think your junior is quite nice. If you decide to be with him, then keep some distance from Ji Guanxin and don't let him look into your heart." Feeling uncomfortable."
After his words fell, the expression on my face darkened without a trace.
The only half-expectation left in my heart suddenly fell to the bottom together with worry, and fell to pieces.
The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment.
I was obviously mentally prepared and determined not to have anything to do with Luo Xiangdong, but when he said such words, my heart... still clenched into a ball of uncontrollable pain.
My breath could only come in and out. I pursed my lips tightly and remained silent.
Luo Xiangdong glanced at me sideways, and seeing me lowering my gaze slightly, he asked aloud: "Who do you really like in your heart?"
My brows furrowed because my heart shrank.
Who do I really like in my heart
Ha, I have an inexplicable urge to laugh because of the pain. Is it because I hide it too well, or because Luo Xiangdong has never cared about me? Could it be that he really can't see who I like in my heart
Many clips began to flash through my mind, like an old movie being played.
In the picture, I was desperately trying to stop Luo Xiangdong from drinking. Even though I was drinking until my heart was beating wildly, I was still chatting and laughing with the chairman of the other party with the same expression on my face;
At night when I couldn't sleep because of what he was thinking about, images of him being with other women turned over and over in my mind. How many pillowcases had my tears wetted
That night when someone broke down my door, Luo Xiangdong was the first person I thought of asking for help before the police.
Unknowingly, my liking for him has turned into love, and even follows him as closely as my breathing. But Luo Xiangdong treated me...
Feeling extremely distressed, I opened my mouth and replied in a neither loud nor quiet voice, but very clearly: "I don't like anyone."
I said this to Luo Xiangdong, but also to myself.
When Luo Xiangdong heard this, he said nothing else. The elevator dinged and opened on the first floor. I stepped out first, and then strode towards the door.
Luo Xiangdong was just one step behind me. I reached out and pushed open the security door outside. A gust of cold wind rushed over my head, almost knocking my breath away.
When I walked out of the gate, I saw that the ground was all white and snowflakes were falling in the sky.
This is the first snow this winter. The snow is neither heavy nor light, but it should fall soon, because when Luo Xiangdong came, there was no snow on him.
I stood at the door and looked up at the sky. Tears kept rolling in my eyes because I was so sad.
I was afraid that Luo Xiangdong would see it, so I clenched my fists and gritted my teeth to hold back.
Luo Xiangdong stood next to me and asked aloud: "What's so good about snow?"
I pretended to be relaxed and replied: "I suddenly feel homesick."
Only this answer was worthy of the tears that suddenly gathered in my eyes.
Luo Xiangdong glanced at me, and perhaps saw the tears in my eyes. A flash of surprise flashed across his face, and then he said: "If you feel homesick, go back and have a look. I'll give you leave, and you can go back as long as you want." "
I'm holding my breath now, trying hard to control the urge to cry, but I don't know why, no matter what Luo Xiangdong says, I feel so sad.
Before the tears fell, I stretched out my hand to wipe my eyes, and then said out loud: "Let's go to the fruit shop."
After leaving the apartment building and walking a short distance to the left, there was a boutique fruit shop. After Luo Xiangdong and I entered, the clerk smiled and said hello.
I went straight to the shelf with mangoes, picked a few, and then looked around the room to see if there were any lychees.
The clerk walked up to me and said with a smile: "The new strawberries we have here are all shipped from abroad. They are very fresh and sweet. Would you like to buy some?"
I said, "No, I just bought it at home."
Kuang Yiyang knows that I like eating strawberries, so among the fruits I just bought, strawberries are the most numerous.
The clerk then said, "What about the cherries? They just arrived today."
I wasn't very interested in these things, so I shook my head and asked directly: "Are there any lychees?"
The clerk said: "Lychees were sold out in the afternoon, but we have longan, which is also very sweet."
I turned to look at Luo Xiangdong who was standing at the door, and asked aloud: "Can longan be used?"
Luo Xiangdong stood there wearing a long linen trench coat, with his hands in his pockets, and replied expressionlessly: "Whatever."
I was a little angry inside. It was obvious that he wanted to eat mangoes and lychees, so I came down with him to buy them. What kind of attitude did he have
But then I thought about it, Luo Xiangdong didn't ask me to go downstairs to buy fruit in the first place. His purpose was to get me to stay away from Ji Guanxin, and by the way... to bring me and Kuang Yiyang together.
My mood suddenly plummeted, and when I went to visit the grave during the Qingming Festival, it rained heavily - making matters worse.
I picked a few fruits at random, and the clerk took them and weighed them and calculated the money. I came down with my wallet, so I opened it and prepared to settle the account.
Luo Xiangdong also took out his wallet. The wallet was black, simple and without any patterns, except for a silver 'h' letter in the middle.
I gave him the wallet and he put it on the next day. At first I thought he was giving me face and kept it fresh for three or two days, but I didn’t expect that he kept using it.
While I was dazed, Luo Xiangdong had already taken out two 100-dollar bills and handed them to the clerk. The clerk said, "I'll charge you 147 yuan."
After realizing it, I quickly took out one hundred and fifty yuan from my wallet and said to the clerk, "I have zero."
The clerk looked at me first, and then looked at Luo Xiangdong.
Luo Xiangdong frowned slightly and said unhappily: "Whose money is not the same?"
I said, "I've been taking advantage of you, so I'll give you this little money."
As I said that, I put one hundred and fifty yuan on the cashier. Seeing this, the clerk picked up my money and returned Luo Xiangdong's two hundred yuan.
Luo Xiangdong didn't pick it up, so I picked it up, handed it to him and said, "Here, you came here to be a money-lender?"
Luo Xiangdong finally took it, inserted it into his wallet, and then put the wallet back into his pocket.
Several kinds of fruits were packaged and placed in a bag. Luo Xiangdong carried the bag and we went out together.
When walking to the apartment, Luo Xiangdong asked me: "Is your junior staying here tonight?"
I looked down at the road under my feet and kicked up a thin layer of snow with my shoes. Hearing this, I replied deliberately and relaxedly: "I think it's okay, but I'm not worried about him coming back so late."
Luo Xiangdong was silent for a few seconds and then said aloud: "Before you two establish a relationship, it's best not to live together. Isn't there a hotel across the street? Let him live there and it will be close."
I said: "Wherever you live is not where you live."
I really didn't mean to say it casually, but Luo Xiangdong suddenly turned to look at me and said in a deep voice: "You are addicted to living with others, right?"
There was anger hidden in his cold voice. I was startled and turned my head to look at him, only to see his sullen face.
After a pause, I realized that he was talking about me living with Ji Guanxin.
My brows furrowed, and I retorted unhappily: "I told you that there is nothing between me and Ji Guanxin, yet you still hold on to my braid?"
Luo Xiangdong simply stood still, looked at me without blinking, and said loudly: "Do you think nothing happened to you two when we lived together last time, and nothing will happen to you in the future?"
I stared at him with an unreasonable expression and replied, "Tell you that I will live with Ji Guanxin in the future?"
Isn't he changing the concept secretly
Luo Xiangdong looked at me without changing his expression and said, "Nothing happened to you last time. That's because you were lucky. When you live with a man, your heart is open. Don't you know what they are thinking?"
"Ha..." I laughed angrily, and I subconsciously replied: "What you think in your heart is your business. Don't think that everyone thinks the same as you!"
It also suddenly occurred to me that Ji Guanxin commented on Luo Xiangdong, saying that he could not stop women from his side and was just a walking genital. Coupled with the fact that he and Du Ting did sleep together, I couldn't get over this hurdle in my heart, so I said everything I shouldn't have said.
As I finished speaking, I saw Luo Xiangdong suddenly change his face. Before, he just showed me a look on his face, but now, his whole face has turned gloomy.
There was still snow falling in the sky. I felt cold before because my body was cold. Now that I see Luo Xiangdong's face, I feel a shiver in my heart.
It's over, I seem to have said the wrong thing.
Swallowing secretly, I was thinking quickly, wondering whether I should explain a few words out loud, but Luo Xiangdong didn't give me this chance. He looked at me coldly, opened his thin lips, and said aloud: "Okay, I'm meddling in other people's business." Son, I’m so full that I can’t care who you live with or who you don’t live with.”
I stood less than two steps in front of him, my back straight, and my face was pale even without looking.
"You're right, friends have to have a certain tolerance. I think I've taken care of you too much. If anything happens in the future, you can handle it yourself."
After saying that, Luo Xiangdong turned around and left without giving me any chance to speak or explain.
I watched him move his long legs, and he was on the roadside in the blink of an eye. He threw the fruit bag he was carrying directly into the trash can on the roadside. Without looking back, he opened the car door and got in. The car quickly drove away from my sight.
Later, I realized that I could not clearly see the scene in front of me. When I stretched out my hand to wipe it, I found that my face was covered with tears.
This was the first time Luo Xiangdong talked to me like this, and it was also the first time he left me alone and walked away like this.
I felt extremely uncomfortable inside, as if I was extremely depressed and wanted to cry loudly, but I didn't know how to use force.
I stood alone downstairs. I don’t know how long it took. It was so cold that I couldn’t feel anything. Then I wiped away the frozen tears on my face, gathered my coat, and walked back.