When I took the elevator upstairs, I leaned close to the elevator wall and looked carefully at the people inside to see if their eyes were red, which could tell at a glance that they had cried.
But it's okay, because I stood outside for a long time and my face was red from the cold, so I couldn't tell that my eyes were crying.
When I returned to the apartment, I pressed the doorbell. Kuang Yiyang came over to open the door for me. Seeing that I came back alone, he asked in surprise: "Senior, where is your boss?"
I said oh, lowered my head and pretended to change into slippers, and replied casually: "He left a little early."
Kuang Yiyang said: "His dog is still here with you in such a hurry."
Yes, kingb and queenb are still here with me. Luo Xiangdong walked so coolly that he didn’t even want a dog.
I tried my best to raise the corners of my lips, and replied with a smile: "It's okay, I know where he sent his pet, and I will help him send it later."
Kuang Yiyang asked: "Did something happen if you left in such a hurry?"
I said, "No, other friends probably called him."
I don’t know if Kuang Yiyang is suspicious, but this is the best excuse I can think of. After returning to the apartment, I took off my coat. The temperature difference between the inside and outside of the house was at least 40 degrees, and I shivered with cold.
Kuang Yiyang said: "Come in quickly, senior, drink some hot tea to warm yourself up."
I walked to the living room wearing slippers and found that the dishes and chopsticks on the living room table had been put away. Kuang Yiyang went to the kitchen to make hot tea for me again, and I asked aloud: "Did you wash the dishes?"
Kuang Yiyang smiled and replied: "Yes, it's my first time to wash dishes, but I washed them very cleanly. I'll accept your inspection."
I smiled slightly and said subconsciously: "Whoever lives with you in the future will definitely have an easy time."
Kuang Yiyang smiled but said nothing, but I suddenly couldn't laugh anymore.
I never thought about living with Kuang Yiyang, and I knew exactly what kind of life Kuang Yiyang wanted to live.
Hey, every time I think about this, I feel an invisible pressure hanging over me. While enjoying the warmth Kuang Yiyang brought me, I accepted his kindness to me, but I could never give him what he wanted. I can only persuade myself silently in my heart that he is good to me and I am good to him, and I try to be fair. You can't be a lover, you can't even be a friend.
I have always hated rabbits that eat grass from the nest, because it is easy for everyone to change from friends to lovers, but from lovers to friends, not many people can do it, at least I can't. This is why I have been reluctant to take this step. No matter Luo Xiangdong and I, or Kuang Yiyang and I, it was always a mistake, step by step. Reality does not allow me to have the slightest impulse.
Sometimes I often think how great it would be if Luo Xiangdong was Kuang Yiyang. It would be great if I liked him and he liked me. There won’t be so much misplaced love, and there won’t be so much sadness and insomnia.
Kuang Yiyang made new scented tea, returned to the living room and poured me a cup. I sat cross-legged on the sofa, holding the cup in both hands, drinking while keeping warm.
The Green Snake played on the movie channel has entered the final stage, and without exception, I burst into tears watching it again. Kuang Yiyang sat two people away to my right, holding a pillow, with kingb and queenb lying beside his legs.
Both of us were quiet and silent. After watching the movie, I picked up the remote control to change the channel, hoping to find something more cheerful to change the atmosphere.
But Kuang Yiyang stood up and said to me: "Senior, I'm leaving first."
I put down the cup, looked at him and asked, "Leaving so early."
Kuang Yiyang said: "It's not early, it's already past nine o'clock. You should go to bed early after I leave."
I asked: "Then where are you going to live?"
Kuang Yiyang said: "I want to take a taxi directly back to school. I have classes tomorrow morning."
Indeed, today is not the weekend, and Kuang Yiyang came to my place because he had no classes.
I was a little worried and said out loud: "It's so late and it's snowing outside. Is it safe to take a taxi back? Why don't you stay here for one night and I'll see you off tomorrow morning."
Kuang Yiyang smiled and replied: "No, it only takes me two hours to take a taxi back. I will send you a text message when I arrive."
I sent Kuang Yiyang to the entrance. When he saw me picking up my coat, he couldn't help but said aloud: "Senior sister, you don't have to go down to see me off. It's too cold outside."
"It's okay, I'll go down and take a taxi with you."
Picking up the keys and room card, I insisted on sending Kuang Yiyang downstairs.
It has been snowing outside, and now it seems to have become thicker. We stood at the intersection and stopped two cars in a row, but the driver said he couldn't go that far.
I said to Kuang Yiyang: "Why don't you go to the hotel opposite and stay for one night?"
Kuang Yiyang said: "I have an early class tomorrow morning. Economics professors hate it when students are absent from class for no reason. They will fail the final exam."
I smiled because I thought about when I was in school. At that time, I thought about skipping class every day. As long as we were not allowed to go to class, we could do anything. But after graduation, what I miss most is when I was in school. The happiness and unhappiness at that time were very simple. Unlike now, life is like a torture. No matter whether you are happy or not, you can meet your colleagues, senior management, and customers. , if people ask you to laugh, you have to laugh. It’s not enough to smile badly but not to be happy.
Kuang Yiyang and Kuang Yiyang stood at the intersection and waited for ten minutes. There were few cars on a snowy day, and he had to go back to school, so the drivers of several cars turned him down.
He was afraid that I would be cold and insisted on letting me go back first. I saw a car coming across the road and quickly reached out to stop it.
The driver lowered the window and asked me where I was going. I said out loud: "Master, my brother is going back to Night City University and has to attend morning classes tomorrow. I'll give you some extra money. Please help me take him back."
The driver hesitated: "Ye City University"
I said: "Master, please help me, or you can tell me a price."
The driver was a middle-aged man. After hesitating for a moment, he asked tentatively: "Originally, traveling overnight is expensive, but it's snowing again and the road is difficult. Can you give me 400 yuan?"
I immediately took out my wallet and took out four hundred yuan from it without hesitation. Kuang Yiyang stopped me and said, "You don't need to give it to me. I have it myself."
I was so strong that I pushed him away and handed the money to the driver through the window. Then I helped Kuang Yiyang open the back door and said, "Call me when you get back."
Kuang Yiyang nodded, responded, and then said: "Senior sister, please go back quickly, don't freeze."
I watched Kuang Yiyang get into the car, smiled at him and waved my hand, watched the taxi drive away, then put away my smile and turned around to go home.
When I opened the apartment door, I was caught off guard and saw two big dogs standing in the small entrance hall looking up at me. I was a little surprised at first because I had just forgotten that they were still here. After being stunned for a moment, I stepped in, touched their heads, and then whispered to myself: "Your father doesn't want you anymore, so he left you here to see what your status is in his heart." "
Of course the two big dogs didn't understand what I was saying, they just looked at me with their tails wagging.
I squeezed between the two of them and walked towards the living room, and they followed me. I was sitting on the sofa, and they came close to my legs, especially queenb, who was very lively and put her front paws on my legs.
I held its paw in a friendly gesture. Looking at it, he said: "Hey, do you think there is something wrong with your dad? He was the one who was apologizing to me during the day, but just now he was so embarrassed that he left me alone. It was so late at night, and he wasn't afraid that something would happen to me. Son."
Maybe it was because it was a little hot in the room. Queenb looked at me with his tongue hanging out. I didn’t care whether he could understand or not, so he said directly: "He also asked me who I really like in my heart. Do you think he is?" Are you stupid or asking knowingly? Talk to him later. Otherwise, don’t be nice to me. Otherwise, make it clear. Don’t let me think about him like a lunatic all day long. Do you hear me?”
queenb looked away shamelessly, looking completely unconcerned.
I lowered my face and deliberately refused to shake hands with it. Instead, I touched the king's head and looked at it and said, "Queen only knows how to eat. You can tell your dad later."
Kingb had a pair of big black eyes, staring straight at me. I looked at it and smiled, then slowly put away my smile.
Lying on the sofa, I felt more and more like a lunatic.
If falling out of love can turn a normal person into a madman instantly, then unrequited love can turn a normal person into a fool slowly as he gradually falls.
It only took me a few months to go from crazy to stupid. Before I could be thankful that I was finally no longer sad about the liars Chen Wenhang and Zhang Xinwei, I was already worried all the time that my love for Luo Xiangdong would be exposed.
It turns out that I overestimated myself. I had always said with certainty that I would have nothing to do with Luo Xiangdong. Now the fact is a loud slap in the face.
If I had the chance to predict the future, I would never have chosen to be so close to Luo Xiangdong, and I would not have ended up in such a difficult situation now.
It's a pity that there is no regret medicine for sale in this world, otherwise I would grit my teeth and stamp my feet and spend all my savings to buy it. :\\
Lying on the sofa, I thought about it for a long time. Because of the heating in the room, the air was filled with sleepy factors. My eyelids gradually felt heavy and I fell asleep quickly.
I woke up halfway, opened my eyes and took a look. I was lying sideways on the sofa, curled up into a ball. Not far away, kingb and queenb were lying on their backs, both sleeping.
I raised my hand and touched the mobile phone beside the coffee table, picked it up and took a look. It is now past midnight, and forty-five minutes ago, Kuang Yiyang sent a text message saying that he had arrived at school.
I felt relieved when he arrived.
It was still a bit cold to sleep on the sofa, so I got up and got off the ground, then put on my slippers and walked to the second floor.
The two big dogs opened their eyes and looked at me. I said in a low voice: "You two must not urinate anywhere in my house. You must endure it until tomorrow morning and I will take you home."
When I got to the second floor, I fell down on my bed. I felt a little dizzy for some reason and almost fell asleep.