Except for Luo Xiangdong, who was sitting opposite, no one would see my quiet and embarrassed look at this moment. Sitting there motionless, it looks normal from the back, but if you see my front face, you will find that I have tears streaming down my face.
I didn't want to cry, so I kept my hands clenched into fists under the table. His nails dug deeply into his palms, but he felt no pain at all. My heart, throat, and eyes are completely beyond my control. They should hurt as much as they should and shed tears when they should, but what I could do was to straighten my back and use my remaining self-esteem and pride to support all my ignorance and weakness.
I was so naive that I thought Luo Xiangdong called me here to express his love to me; I was so stupid that even after he sat across from me for ten minutes and spoke several words, I didn’t know what he was going to say next. !
What could be more hurtful than this
I sat stiffly on the chair, holding my breath because of my heartache, until I couldn't breathe anymore. I raised my hand to wipe the tears from my eyes, stood up and prepared to leave.
Luo Xiangdong called my name and said: "Zijin..."
I stood there, and he looked up at me, with confusion and helplessness in his eyes, and said softly: "I don't force you to forgive me for lying to you, but I hope you can understand Yi Yang's painstaking care of you. He has not been since he was a child. Father, my sister remarried more than ten years ago, so he has always been with my father and grown up with me. "
"You should know how kind-hearted Yi Yang is. He never has the intention of harming others. Even if he never explained his relationship with me to you, he was afraid that you would not want to come to work at Luo's after knowing about it. "
I could clearly feel that a complete heart was torn apart inch by inch with my bare hands, and the bloody flesh fell into my blood full of poison and resentment. I really endured it for a long time, and I didn't want to speak at first, but Luo Xiangdong's expression of earnest hope for my forgiveness finally hurt me.
I turned my head to look at him faintly, opened my lips, suppressed the hoarseness and trembling in my voice, and said word by word: "So... is this the reason why you two lied to me for half a year?"
Because Kuang Yiyang wished me well and wanted to give me a good job to make up for the emotional trauma I had suffered; and Luo Xiangdong readily accepted it in order to love his nephew.
I really want to ask him loudly, who am I in his heart? !
Unfortunately, there are many words that I simply cannot say.
My throat was sore and choked to the point of pain. My hands hanging by my sides were clenched into fists. I couldn't tell whether it was anger or despair.
Luo Xiangdong looked at me. There was no emotion or anger on his handsome face, but there was pain and love hidden in his black pupils. Unfortunately, that love was not for me, but for Kuang Yiyang.
He said: "Zijin, Yi Yang has called me his uncle for more than 20 years, but because of you, he pretends not to know me every time we meet. For your sake, he would rather treat me like a stranger." Man. Could it be that his good intentions are not worth a white lie?"
Luo Xiangdong didn't understand, he still didn't understand.
I was angry with Kuang Yiyang, angry that he had lied to me for so long, letting me unpreparedly allow Luo Xiangdong to enter my life, and made me fall in love with him unknowingly; and I hated Luo Xiangdong, and I hated him for letting Luo Xiangdong know that there was no ending. I was playing like a clown.
Now I finally know why I was so 'lucky' to be selected, and why I am so favored by Luo Xiangdong. It turns out that it’s never about how good I am. Everything Luo Xiangdong did to me was all because of Kuang Yiyang!
Thinking of the things that had happened between us, and the 'ironproof' evidence that I thought he loved me, I really felt like I was a fool.
Now that he asked me to forgive Kuang Yiyang, how can I forgive him? Forgiving him means forgiving the hurt his unintentional mistakes have caused me. Isn't my love just love? Do my feelings deserve to be hurt
I don't know whether it was anger or hatred, but I was trembling slightly all over.
Luo Xiangdong stood up, walked up to me, took out a handkerchief from his trouser pocket and handed it to me. Under my pursed lips were clenched teeth. I didn't say a word and didn't reach out to pick it up.
Luo Xiangdong's arm holding the handkerchief remained straight. He looked at me and said, "Don't cry. Yi Yang will come over soon. He will feel sad when he sees you like this."
My eyes filled with tears slowly raised and looked at Luo Xiangdong without blinking.
How could he be so cruel? Why be so cruel? ! Couldn't he see that I felt distressed too and that I would be sad too
Luo Xiangdong saw my tears falling down my lower eyelashes in large drops. He raised his hand and gently wiped it for me. I vaguely saw his thin lips parting and he said softly: "Zijin, I know you are a sensible person. If you want, you can call me uncle from now on."
Fuck uncle! I suddenly raised my hand and opened Luo Xiangdong's hand. He was also not expecting it, and the handkerchief suddenly fell to the ground.
I looked at him with angry, red eyes, and asked through gritted teeth: "Luo Xiangdong, do you really want me to be with Kuang Yiyang?"
I swear, I've never hated so much in my life. Even when I found out that Chen Wenhang and Zhang Xinwei were getting together, I was just more angry than sad.
But now, I really hate Luo Xiangdong.
I stared at him without blinking. Fortunately, Luo Xiangdong could still maintain an indifferent expression.
Looking back at me, after a few seconds, he spoke and said softly: "Yi Yang is a good boy."
I spoke again, and asked word for word like last time: "Do you really want me to be with Kuang Yiyang?"
I didn't dare to blink for fear of accidentally missing any subtle expression on his face. But the consequence of my being so stubborn is just to hurt myself again.
Because Luo Xiangdong didn't even raise his eyebrows, I heard him reply: "I hope."
I hope.
From now on, there are three more words in my dictionary that I can never mention again.
It's like it's stuck in my throat, and I can't say even a single word.
Luo Xiangdong is so cruel. In other words, it's not how cruel he is, but how much I love him.
As far as Luo Xiangdong is concerned, everything he did to me was just based on Kuang Yiyang's request; but I mistakenly thought that he loved me.
Ha, what a huge misunderstanding, the irony makes me want to laugh.
In fact, I slowly raised the corners of my trembling lips inch by inch.
Looking at Luo Xiangdong in front of me with a smile and tears, I tried my best to open my tight lips and said, "Okay."
I only said one word, but Luo Xiangdong's expression changed, and he even looked away subconsciously.
I don't know if this is my illusion, or if Luo Xiangdong cares about me even a little bit in his heart.
I have said that I cannot judge people accurately, but this is the most accurate time I have ever judged myself.
Luo Xiangdong hopes that Kuang Yiyang and I will be together, okay, then I will help him.
In front of him, I took a deep breath, then turned around and returned to the end of the long table, sitting down in the seat where I had been sitting before.
There was a tablecloth on the table, and I picked it up to wipe my tears.
Luo Xiangdong stood two or three meters diagonally across from me, silent for a long time, then looked at me and said, "Thank you."
Mastering the stick, but aiming for the yard. I will always lose to him, and his casual words can leave me bruised all over.
Putting down the tablecloth, I put aside all the face and self-esteem I had in my life, raised my chin slightly, and replied arrogantly: "You're welcome, I'm using people's money to help others deal with troubles. You've been so kind to me, and I should always give you something in return." "
After Luo Xiangdong heard this, his face finally darkened.
He looked at me and said in a deep voice: "Liang Zijin, Kuang Yiyang is my nephew. I don't allow anyone to hurt him in the slightest."
Tears came to my eyes uncontrollably. I raised the corners of my lips and replied with a smile: "Don't worry, even if he has loved me for four years, I will never hurt him in the slightest."
Luo Xiangdong and I looked at each other a few meters apart. I was laughing and he was angry. We are all like hedgehogs covered with thorns. Since we can't hug each other, we might as well hurt each other.
I thought that Luo Xiangdong's temper would not subside so easily, but I watched his chest slowly rise and fall, and then his expression turned from angry to calm.
He walked towards me, and I sat at the end of the long table, as stiff as a wax figure.
He stood two steps away from me. I saw him take out a card from his pocket and put it in front of me.
He said: "It's your birthday, there are five million in it, happy birthday."
It was my birthday, he gave me money, and then said to me, happy birthday.
I'm really happy!
Looking up at Luo Xiangdong in front of me, I smiled and replied: "Thank you, boss, or should I call you... uncle?"
Luo Xiangdong's expression was calm and did not change because of my provocation.
He just opened his thin lips and replied in a calm voice: "Zijin, I think you are more suitable for the job of translator. After returning from the United States, you can go to work below."
The smile was almost like a mask on his face. I thought that now that things have happened, Luo Xiangdong will never say anything that makes me miserable, but he seems to have this ability. Whenever he speaks casually, there is an extra hole in my heart.
He really took great pains to pave the way for Kuang Yiyang.
I thought I was going to stand up and throw the card in his face and tell him to go fuck himself, but instead I held the card in my hand and smiled at him and said, "Thanks for the severance, maybe that's it." This is the last money I can get from you, I will save some money in the future. "
Luo Xiangdong looked at me condescendingly and said, "You and Yi Yang are good, and I will be the same with you in the future. If you have any trouble, you can come to me."
A big tear rolled out of my right eye. I was smiling, but I couldn't say a word.
Luo Xiangdong said: "Just wait here, Yi Yang will be here soon."
After that, he turned and left, and I looked at his back, disappearing from my sight little by little. The smile on my face first trembled, then gradually fell apart into a cry of collapse and despair.