In fact, when the taxi stopped on the street, I looked at the apartment where I had lived for more than half a year, and I already knew in my heart that I was in the wrong place. I don’t know why, maybe I was still thinking about it, and I wasn’t afraid of being seen by others in the middle of the night, so I still gave the money and got out of the car.
When I got off the car, the temperature difference made me shiver. I gathered my coat and walked to the apartment door. I used to forget everything when I went out. I either forgot my room card or my key, so I couldn't get in the door.
Now looking at the familiar security door, I feel sour in my heart. This time it’s not that I forgot to bring it, but that I don’t have it anymore.
I stood alone at the door of the apartment for more than ten minutes on a cold day, and suddenly I heard a "click" sound. Someone came out of it so late. The man never expected that I would stand upright at the door, and he was shocked.
He must have thought I forgot to bring my room key, so he held the door open for me. I was so excited that I nodded my thanks and walked in.
If he had come out half a minute later, I would have left.
Taking the elevator to the top floor, I kept comforting myself in my heart. I just wanted to come back and take a look, just for one last look.
The elevator opened on the top floor, I stepped out, then turned to the left in a familiar way, and came to the door of the apartment.
The security door here is the only one in the entire apartment that is different from all other residents' homes. Ji Guanxin personally called someone to install it for me.
I touched the dark door and stood in a daze at first, but soon I felt sad in my heart and tears couldn't stop flowing out.
No one will understand this feeling of not being able to return home and being forced to leave home.
I think I got all the benefits from following Luo Xiangdong, but now that I am being made things difficult for me as soon as I return to the translation department, I will inevitably feel unbalanced. But I hate Luo Xiangdong even more. If he hadn't dragged me to heaven from the very beginning, now I wouldn't feel like I'm living in hell anytime and anywhere.
When I think of Luo Xiangdong... my heart churns uncomfortably, and the pain doesn't seem to be mine.
I just stood at the door of the apartment, sobbing softly. I never thought that this door would suddenly open, let alone that I would see Luo Xiangdong... from inside this door.
But in fact, Luo Xiangdong and I are really in the same door and outside the same door. When he saw me, he couldn't help but look surprised.
My face was filled with tears, and I was in a trance for more than ten seconds. I couldn't tell where I was, I didn't know who I was, and I wasn't even sure whether this was a dream or reality.
Until Luo Xiangdong came to his senses first, he looked at me, opened his thin lips, and whispered: "Why are you here?"
I wanted to ask him more about this, but my first reaction after I came to my senses was to turn around and leave. I didn't want to see him more than ask him something.
Everyone was confused. I just turned around instinctively, but I didn't know where I should go. Like a headless fly, I forgot that I could take the elevator downstairs and ran directly to the safety ladder.
I went down more than a dozen steps in a row, and my legs were weak. Finally, Luo Xiangdong caught up with me. He grabbed my arm and said, "Zijin..."
I gritted my teeth and said nothing, but tried hard to shake off his arm.
There was no light on the safety ladder. In the dim light, I couldn't see the expression on Luo Xiangdong's face. I could only hear his angry voice asking: "Have you been drinking?"
In fact, the tone of these words was definitely more questioning.
I stood with him halfway up the stairs and pulled. Naturally, I was no match for him. Luo Xiangdong quickly clasped both my wrists, and then said in a deep voice: "Stop making trouble!"
Tears were streaming down my face, and I was filled with anger and grievance, but I didn't say a word to him.
Luo Xiangdong tried to pull me upstairs, but I rebelled against him and struggled desperately to move downstairs. He originally held my wrists with both hands, but suddenly let go at some point. I leaned back instinctively and almost fell. Luo Xiangdong put his arm around my back and bent down directly. I felt a lightness all over my body and my feet had already left the ground.
Luo Xiangdong suffered a thousand blows! He dared to carry me on his shoulders.
I have a serious fear of heights, not to mention that there are stairs right under my nose. I screamed instinctively, fluttering my legs and hands, and shouted loudly: "Put me down!"
Luo Xiangdong stood on a staircase, shaking slightly because of my violent shaking. The next second, he replied: "If you are not afraid of falling to death, just shake it as hard as you can."
I am really greedy for life and afraid of death, so my instinct is not as arrogant as before.
Luo Xiangdong took advantage of this moment to carry me upstairs. He carried me into the apartment and then let me down. As soon as I stood on the ground, my feet were still a little unsteady. I took two steps back, and then immediately glared at Luo Xiangdong in front of me with a fierce expression, as if he wanted to eat human.
Luo Xiangdong stood at the door and I stood at the entrance. We looked at each other for an unknown amount of time. Finally, Luo Xiangdong spoke first. He looked at me and said, "Why are your eyes so wide? Can you eat me?"
It has been five days since I came back from the United States. I knew he had come back a long time ago, but he never saw me. Even though he knew what my life was like in the translation department, he still forced me not to change my contract.
Thinking of this series of sorrows and sorrows, tears of disappointment came to my eyes. Almost instantly, the tears fell like broken beads, crackling down.
Tears blurred my vision, and I gradually could not clearly see the expression on Luo Xiangdong's face. I could only hear him say: "What are you wronged about? Tell me and I will help you."
It's okay if he didn't say this, but if he did, it would be like stabbing a knife into my heart.
How could he be so cruel
I vaguely looked at his face through my tears, and replied with an extremely choked voice: "I want to resign."
Luo Xiangdong's expression was cold. After about five seconds, he said aloud: "No."
I suddenly got a lump in my throat. After the soreness passed, I asked loudly: "Why not? I sold it to you? Do you know what the people down there say about me and think of me? They say I am your toy." The remaining rags say I'm shameless and deserve it! I just want to know, what did I do wrong? Why do you want to cheat me like this? Do you feel like I'm living a life down there that's worse than death? Will it make me more happy or comforted if I meet you?”
I really didn't understand what Luo Xiangdong was thinking in his heart, until he spoke back to me and said, "What will happen to Yi Yang if you leave?"
The heart was stabbed unexpectedly.
I seemed to be able to clearly hear the sound of a dull knife sinking into flesh and blood.
Luo Xiangdong gave me the answer, but this answer...
I can guess the expression on my face without looking. Because at this moment my heart has stopped beating.
I had a lot of things I wanted to ask him, but he rejected them all with just one sentence.
I laughed in anger, crying and laughing at the same time: "In your heart, Kuang Yiyang is the only human being? Am I not a human being?"
Luo Xiangdong looked at me, but I couldn't see the expression on his face clearly. He replied to me aloud: "Yi Yang has liked you for four years, so what if he cheated on you once? Isn't the kindness he and I treat you enough to make up for this good-faith deception?"
Luo Xiangdong always said that this was a well-intentioned deception.
But my heart is bleeding, can he really not see it
How much the heart hurts, how big the smile is on the face. I finally know what the saying 'the most hurtful words come from the gentlest lips' really means.
That's it for now, I have nothing to say. Looking away, I walked towards the door. Luo Xiangdong stood in front of me. Seeing that I was about to go out, he took my arm and said, "Where are you going?"
I said, "Go to hell."
Luo Xiangdong frowned. I had already touched his weak spot.
Sure enough, a few seconds later, he looked at me and said: "Liang Zijin, how long are you going to make trouble? If you want, everything can be the same as before, why do you... "
Luo Xiangdong's every word struck a chord with me. I suddenly threw his hand away angrily, turned my head and glared at him, and asked loudly: "Luo Xiangdong, I like you! I don't know when I started to lose my temper." I love you so much! Tell me, if you want me to be with Kuang Yiyang and your nephew, should I make a fuss or accept it? "
I can't hold back some words, maybe I'm not a tolerant person in the first place.
Seeing Luo Xiangdong's enlarged and frightened face through my tears, I simply opened the skylight and spoke frankly: "Luo Xiangdong, please listen to me clearly. I, like, like you! This is the first time I have said this to you. Say, if you think I am more suitable for Kuang Yiyang, then I won’t say anything else, and this is the last time I will say it to you.”
I like you. These four words are almost rotten and smelly in my heart. In the past, there were many women around Luo Xiangdong, so I never had the chance to say it. When I mustered up the courage to say it, Luo Xiangdong revealed his trump card before me. I wanted to keep these four words in my stomach, but I am not that kind of person.
I want Luo Xiangdong to give me a clear answer. Even if I want to die, I will die clearly.
Luo Xiangdong looked at me for a long time, really for a long time.
This was the only little secret I had in my heart, and I felt relaxed after telling it. I waited for his answer.
After a full minute, Luo Xiangdong looked at me coldly and said, "Are you drinking too much?"
There it is again. I looked back at him calmly and said calmly: "I drank, but I won't drink so much that I can't even remember who the person standing in front of me is."
"Luo Xiangdong, do you want me to tell you again? I like..."
"But I don't like you."
“…”
Luo Xiangdong looked at me and said without blinking: "I have never liked you. All my kindness and indulgence to you are just for Yi Yang's sake. I have always regarded you as my niece. ”
This time, the tears flowed out slowly and then fell along the lower eyelashes.
I looked at Luo Xiangdong intently, and for some reason, I felt surprisingly calm in my heart.
After he finished speaking, I quickly added: "Okay, I just want an answer from you. I can't hide things in my heart, and I can't hold back my words. I feel comfortable speaking out. Since you don't like me, Then I don’t need to worry about it. From now on, everyone will go to the opposite side.”