After Luo Xiangdong left, I knelt alone in the bathtub filled with cold water until my legs were numb and my whole body was cold. I didn't cry because I felt that my whole heart had been poached by Luo Xiangdong.
I reached out and pressed the button in front of the bathtub, wanting to call special care to come in, but no matter how many times I pressed it, no one came outside.
I guess the special guards thought that Luo Xiangdong was still there and they didn't dare to offend him.
There are always people around me who say that the world is declining and people's hearts are not as old as before, but I have always believed that there are still many good people in this world. But when I was forced by Luo Xiangdong in the bathroom, there was someone clearly separated from me. I didn't ask that person to come in and save me directly. But after she left, for at least an hour until now, I have been kneeling alone. In the bathtub, no one came over, even to ask.
I don't remember how I climbed out of the bathtub, or how I walked out of the bathroom. My whole mind went blank, and I was looking for my phone in the ward wearing a big bath towel.
My fingers were literally shaking when I held the phone in my hand. It's not fear, it's not anger, it's an indescribable feeling.
Growing up, no matter what unhappy things happened, I would never tell my family because I was afraid that they would be worried. Now I want to leave the hospital, after all, there is not even a set of clothes for me here. I opened the phone book and saw hundreds of names from top to bottom. There were colleagues, classmates, and friends I had grown up with. But I ran my fingers through their names one by one, and none of them could help me. people.
Xu Lu, I suddenly saw Xu Lu’s name. She hasn't called me in the past few days since I came back from the United States. I was so busy that I didn't bother.
At this time, except Xu Lu, I can't think of anyone else who can help me.
I called Xu Lu's mobile phone, and there was a continuous beeping sound of connecting. It rang a dozen or twenty times in total. Xu Lu didn't answer the call until the phone was transferred to manual service.
I spared no effort to continue beating, but I sat on the bedside and beat for five minutes, but she didn't answer.
I looked at the time, it was now half past one in the morning.
Xu Lu always sleeps hard and can't hear normal sounds. I was afraid that she would mute her phone, so I sent her a text message and asked her to come to the hospital to pick me up quickly.
Unexpectedly, just a few minutes after my text message passed, Xu Lu called me. I quickly answered the call: "Hello, Luzi..."
Xu Lu asked: "Are you in the hospital?" Because I felt so wronged and sad at the time, I didn't notice that there was no sleepiness in Xu Lu's voice.
I held back my tears and said aloud: "Luzi, please bring a set of clothes to pick me up at the hospital. I want to go home."
Xu Lu asked me what happened on the phone, but I didn't want to tell her. I just told her the address and urged her to come quickly.
While waiting for Xu Lu, I covered myself with a blanket because I was cold and adjusted the indoor temperature to 30 degrees.
Xu Lu arrived forty-two minutes later. When she opened the ward door and met my eyes, I saw an obvious look of astonishment on her face.
When I was alone, I didn't want to cry, but the moment I saw Xu Lu, my vision blurred.
Xu Lu walked towards me carrying a bag and stood beside the hospital bed. She looked at me and asked after a few seconds: "Why are you in the hospital when you are fine?"
I didn't say anything, I just opened my eyes and pursed my lips, then closed my eyes and choked up.
Xu Lu must have been shocked. She put the bag at the end of the bed and sat on the edge of the bed to comfort me. My heart felt so uncomfortable that it felt like it was not my own. I clutched the quilt tightly and gritted my teeth in pain.
I cried wildly. After the tears dried up, I got out of the quilt, took the bag Xu Lu brought, took out the clothes inside and put on them.
During this period, Xu Lu asked me no less than three times what happened.
And I just replied to her after getting dressed: "Luzi, I won't stay in Night City anymore."
Xu Lu's eyes widened with obvious surprise. After a few seconds, she said: "You want to go home?"
I whispered back: "If you don't want to go home, I'll go stay with my friend for a while."
Xu Lu was silent for a long time, then asked again: "You are leaving, does Yi Yang know?"
When I mentioned Kuang Yiyang, a corner of my broken heart felt a little throbbing. Luo Xiangdong said, if Yi Yang was not here between us, I think I would love you.
He loves me so much. But now I hate Kuang Yiyang because of Luo Xiangdong and Wu Jiwu.
After all, I'm not a saintly person, and I can't discuss matters as they are. If he had told me from the very beginning that Luo Xiangdong was his biological uncle, then I would never have fallen in love with Luo Xiangdong, let alone everything that happened after that.
I'm angry with Yi Yang, but I don't hate him. I can tell the truth clearly, and I know that the current result is not Kuang Yiyang's fault alone.
So all I can say is that as of now, no one owes anyone anything.
Under Xu Lu's gaze, it took me a few seconds before I replied to her: "Only you know that I am leaving. Don't tell anyone else."
Xu Lu was not stupid, she heard it right away.
I had no luggage, so after changing my clothes, I followed Xu Lu outside the ward. In the hospital corridor, I saw two special nurses wearing light pink nurse uniforms not far away. They were whispering to each other in a low voice, but as soon as they saw me appearing, they immediately straightened their backs and put their hands in front of them, with nervous expressions on their faces. He seemed to be hesitating to speak.
I walked past them without looking sideways, and wanted to forget it, but after only five steps, I suddenly turned around and faced them.
The two special guards looked at me tensely again, and one of them had an obvious look in his eyes.
I looked at her intently and said expressionlessly: "It is said that good people are rewarded. If I help people in need, one day when I am in need, others will help me. Our family has always This is what I was taught. I will still do this from now on, but don’t cry when no one helps you, because you didn’t help anyone.”
After hearing what I said, the special nurse's face turned ugly. She lowered her head directly. I didn't see whether she was crying or not, because I had already turned my head and continued walking out.
I have always tried to think the best of others. Even when others do something wrong, I always make excuses for them in my heart. For example, the special nurse didn't help me because she also wanted this job to support her family; Kuang Yiyang lied to me because he was worried that I would refuse to enter Luo's family; but Luo Xiangdong treated me like this... He said that he valued family ties more than love.
Okay, you’re right, I understand! But I will never forgive.
At one or two in the morning, Xu Lu and I left the hospital. My body is still very weak, Xu Lu can also see it. She asked me: "Where are you going now? Why don't you go to my place first?"
I said, "I'm going back to the hotel to pick up my luggage, book a ticket, and leave right away."
Xu Lu didn't ask me where I was going, she just stopped a taxi and got in with me. On the way, we were both speechless. Everything after that was completely unresolved. When the incident happened, I suddenly realized how could Xu Lu, who had always had a strong relationship with me, not ask a word just because I was in a bad mood
She didn't have to ask me what happened, but why didn't she doubt me at all even if I didn't let her tell Kuang Yiyang
When I returned to the hotel where the incident occurred, the front desk and security guards looked surprised when they saw me.
I walked to the front desk and asked with a calm expression: "You haven't asked anyone to enter the room I rented before, right?"
The front desk looked back at me intently. After two seconds, he quickly shook his head and replied: "No one has gone in. You paid a three-day deposit before. You were not here, and not even the housekeeping staff came in."
I said, "Give me another room card. I don't remember where I put the previous one."
The front desk obediently brought me a room card from below, and Xu Lu and I went upstairs to drag down the suitcase. When she went to the front desk to return the room card, she looked at my face carefully, and then asked tentatively: "Is your head okay? Our store manager also came to ask today if you need anything, our hotel We will try our best to cooperate.”
I replied calmly: "It's okay."
The front desk said again: "The accident you had that day really scared us. Later, the gentleman carried you and left. We also called the police and called 120. Two of them were beaten unconscious and rescued."
I couldn't help but picture Luo Xiangdong beating someone in my mind. It was so cruel that I mistakenly thought that I occupied an extremely important position in his heart.
But now when I hear this, I just feel like a joke.
Without saying anything else, I returned the room card and Xu Lu and I dragged a suitcase out of the hotel. Take a taxi directly to Yecheng Station.
Night City is the largest municipality in the country. The station here operates 24 hours a day and night. There are always cars coming and leaving.
When I came to Night City, I didn't want to develop my career here, I just wanted to follow Chen Wenhang's footsteps.
But now I have to leave, but I am forced to leave. Like a lost dog, I leave just as I came. It seems that not only have I taken nothing away in the past five years, but I have lost a lot of things.
There were twenty or thirty people in line at the automatic ticket machine. Xu Lu and I stood at the end of the queue. During this period, Xu Lu couldn't help but said to me: "Zijin, if you leave this time, when will you come back?"
I lowered my gaze slightly and replied in a daze: "I don't know, maybe I will never come back."
Xu Lu turned her face away, and from the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of her reaching out to wipe her tears. When I was about to leave, I felt very sour. Holding back my tears, I said to Xu Lu, "Don't feel bad. I'm not from here in the first place. It's only a matter of time before I go home."
Xu Lu didn't say anything, she just silently accompanied me to pick up the ticket.
I took the high-speed train to Lanzhou at 3:40, and I had already called my friends there before.
Xu Lu stayed with me until I took the ticket and entered the security checkpoint.
She waved to me while shedding tears, and we made an appointment to call each other later.
Goodbye, Xu Lu. Goodbye, Night City.