The three of us were together, one under the bed and the other standing at the door. After a stalemate for ten seconds, the person at the door suddenly turned around and walked away. Luo Xiangdong called out "Yi Yang" and quickly chased after him.
I only heard the voice of someone so angry that he said, "Don't touch me! I find you disgusting!"
Luo Xiangdong said: "Yi Yang, listen to me..."
"Listen to what you said? Why don't you just tell me to die?!"
"Yi Yang..."
"How could you do this to me... I asked you to help me take care of her, but you took care of her to your own a**! I will never forgive you!"
"Yi Yang..."
"Xiangdong..."
My whole body seemed to be on fire, and I felt so light all over. Even when I rolled down my vagina, I didn’t feel any pain at all. A few seconds later, Luo Xiangdong flashed in from the door. Seeing me lying on the ground, he pulled the blanket and wrapped it around me, then hugged me and walked out quickly.
When I went down the stairs, I squinted my eyes and looked at Luo Xiangdong's familiar face so close at hand. I groaned unbearably: "Xiangdong... Xiangdong..."
Why doesn't he kiss me? Why…
Luo Xiangdong had a handsome face and he carried me directly from the sixth floor to the first floor. During this period, I was twisting and turning inside the blanket like a snake, but I couldn't move my hands or feet, so I could only moan.
Luo Xiangdong took a taxi and carried me into the back seat of the taxi. The driver looked at us, especially me, in the rearview mirror. Not to mention how weird his eyes are.
Luo Xiangdong said coldly: "Drive your car and go to the nearest hospital!"
When the driver heard this, he quickly looked away and no longer dared to secretly look at me in the rearview mirror.
During this period, I could not tell whether it was pain or itching all over my body. The torture made me cry and call Luo Xiangdong's name.
Luo Xiangdong stretched out his hand to wipe the sweat from my face, but remained silent.
I swear I hate him for watching me feel so uncomfortable, but he doesn't help me.
Fortunately, there was a hospital near where I lived. After the taxi stopped, Luo Xiangdong hugged me and ran to the hospital.
I was already unconscious from discomfort, and I saw several nurses running towards me pushing a bed cart.
When I was in junior high school, I was poisoned by beans. I vomited while holding a hanging bottle in my hands. It was called vomiting. For so many years, I always thought that this was the worst time for vomiting.
But I didn't expect that gastric lavage would be so uncomfortable.
I was sat in the hospital bed by several nurses, my head tilted slightly, and a doctor inserted some kind of tube down my throat. Just by doing this, my eyes turned red and I started to retching instantly. But what the doctor wanted to do was not only induce vomiting, he also injected some kind of drug into my stomach through the tube. It made me feel like I was about to vomit out all my internal organs... It was really worse than death.
Several times, I really thought I was going to die. I wanted to struggle, but I had no strength at all. His vision was blurred and his eyes were full of tears. I called many people's names in my heart, my mother, my father, my grandma, Luo Xiangdong, Ji Guanxin, Kuang Yiyang, Xu Lu... I begged them to save me, I was really uncomfortable.
I don’t know when I passed out. I only know that when I woke up in a daze, there was a person standing straight next to the bed.
I squinted my eyes slightly, and it took me a while to see the man's face clearly.
I frowned slightly and murmured uncertainly: "Yi Yang..."
Yes, the person standing on my right is really Kuang Yiyang. He was wearing light-colored casual clothes and jeans, and he looked as sunny as when I first met him four years ago.
It's just that... his handsome face was now only pale, and his eyes were blood red, as if they were about to bleed at any time.
I was lying on the bed with a needle stuck in one hand and water hanging above my head.
After the medicine in my body passed, I found that I clearly remembered everything that had happened before.
Luo Xiangdong and I were entangled like crazy in the guest bedroom... and Kuang Yiyang pushed open the door and entered.
Yiyan…
I looked at him intently and didn't say a word, but tears rolled out in big drops and soon wetted the white pillowcase.
Kuang Yiyang looked at me and said nothing. Tears fell from his eyes, and he looked at me with a sad and almost despairing expression.
My heart was in a knot. At this moment, shame, guilt, and distress all came to my throat. I didn’t know whether to say I was sorry or something else. Because all this time, all I can say to him, besides thank you, is only sorry.
After a long time, long enough for us to look at each other and recall all the scenes from the past, Kuang Yiyang spoke.
I saw his lips opening, and in a voice so low that it was almost hoarse, he asked softly: "There are so many men in the world, why do you choose to love my brother-in-law?"
I thought my tears had dried up, but as soon as Kuang Yiyang said these words, my vision was instantly blurred by tears. I cried until I choked up, and I couldn't answer anything.
I couldn't see the expression clearly on Kuang Yiyang's face. In the blur, someone stretched out his hand to wipe away the tears from my eyes. It was Kuang Yiyang.
He sat beside my bed, reached out and gently touched my face, and while wiping the tears on my face, he said: "It has been four years. I have liked you for four years. People around me said that as long as I If I treat you wholeheartedly, you will fall in love with me one day. But why...you don't love me, but you still go back and hurt me?"
Kuang Yiyang's voice was very soft and low, but it was like a heavy hammer, hitting my heart hard.
I couldn't say a word, I don't know if it was guilt or sadness. I could only shake my head slightly and say that I never wanted to hurt him and I was sorry.
My tears kept flowing down, and Kuang Yiyang wiped them away slowly.
He said to me: "Senior sister, don't cry. I don't blame you. It was me who lied to you in the first place. It was me who was stupid and entrusted the woman I loved to another man..."
Kuang Yiyang's tone was so sarcastic. I'm not a fool, so of course I won't believe that he really doesn't blame me.
My throat was so sore that I was almost suffocating. I tried my best to squeeze the sound out of my throat.
I said, "Iyan, I never meant to hurt you."
Kuang Yiyang looked at me, the corners of his lips raised slightly, and he nodded and replied, "I know."
I looked at him and met his eyes. After a few seconds, he added with a slight smile: "You just don't love me."
There is really nothing wrong with not loving someone, but my mistake was falling in love with Luo Xiangdong and Kuang Yiyang's uncle. So no matter whether the starting point of this matter is good or bad, whether what Kuang Yiyang did is right or wrong, I owe him...
"I'm sorry." Apart from these three words, I don't know what else I can give him.
Kuang Yiyang blinked slightly and asked me: "What do you love about my uncle?"
My heart was suddenly stabbed by a knife. It hurt so much that I couldn't breathe. I could only open my lips slightly and tremble, but I couldn't utter a single word.
Kuang Yiyang waited for a long time, but all he waited for was my tears.
He said softly: "I heard him call you Zijin. In fact, I also wanted to call you by your name, but I didn't dare. I was afraid that you would think I was rude, afraid that you would think I was too casual, and even more afraid that I would put pressure on you. , I even lost my identity as a younger brother... For four years, I have been loving you cautiously, and I wish I could give you my whole heart. Why don't you even give me a chance? "
Tears fell heavily from Kuang Yiyang's eyes. He looked at me with his innocent eyes and asked me why I refused to give him a chance.
I felt so uncomfortable that I wanted to die immediately. Closing my eyes, I still have the same three words: "I'm sorry..."
Kuang Yiyang said: "Senior sister, this is the last time I call you that. I don't know why, even if I see you and my uncle having sex, I still can't hate you. I only hate myself, I didn't take good care of you and let my brother-in-law take the lead; I hate him too. There are so many women in the world, but he still wants to take you away from me even though he knows I like you. "
"I told you that you don't have to be with me, but I will also selfishly hope that you will not be snatched away by others. Now I no longer have any illusions about you. After today's goodbye, I will no longer will appear in front of you, but I still have one last thing to tell you... "
As he spoke, Kuang Yiyang leaned down, his lips almost touching my ears. Warm breaths came down, and I heard his soft voice, saying word by word: "Zijin, I don't have to hate you, but as long as I still love you, there is no relationship between you and my brother-in-law. Yes. I'm very selfish, so I won't allow you two to be together..."
He reached out and wiped the tears from my face, stood up, turned around and walked out.
I was completely numb, lying stiffly on the hospital bed, watching Kuang Yiyang's back disappear from my sight.
My heart hurts so much that I dare not breathe, and the pain in my whole body can be felt at a single moment. I finally understand why there are so many people who commit suicide for love in this world.
It's not that they are not afraid of death, it's just that they are more afraid of heartache than physical pain.
I closed my eyes and tried my best to endure the crying, but I could endure it until my whole body was shaking, and I ended up crying loudly.
This is retribution... I suddenly thought of something Du Ting once said to me.
She said she was waiting to see what would happen between me and Luo Xiangdong.
At that time, I clearly fell in love with Luo Xiangdong, but I insisted on lying to Du Ting and said I didn't. Du Ting asked me to swear that I didn't swear either. Now that I think about it, I was just deceiving myself.
I, Luo Xiangdong, Kuang Yiyang. No one can say that any one of us is wrong, but neither of us is right. Maybe God is bored one day and pulls the red line casually, just to see what will happen to the three of us when the paper breaks through the mismatched relationship between the three of us.
I don't believe that Luo Xiangdong and Kuang Yiyang will suffer less than me. I even think from their perspective. If I were any of them, I might not be able to bear it.
In a ward alone, I cried until my throat became dry and hoarse, but no one came in. There are not even doctors or nurses.
I suddenly missed home, my dad, and my mom. They told me a long time ago that Night City is too big and it will be very tiring for me to live alone.
I was full of confidence before and never believed it. Now I know I'm tired and I just want to go home.