I know clearly that he is lying to me, but I would rather open my heart and ask him again under the guise of giving him a chance, but what will I get
It was just another stab in the heart.
It's just true. Anyway, this heart is already riddled with holes, and I don't care about one or two more cuts.
Holding the phone in hand, I looked out the window in ecstasy and whispered: "Ji Guanxin, is the scenery over there beautiful now?"
Ji Guanxin said: "I don't have time to go out and see. I stay in the hospital and hotel every day. What? Do you want to come over?"
I thought that a conversation that I knew the outcome would not prick my tear ducts. But when Ji Guanxin lied as if nothing had happened, I still felt like my heart was twisting.
"I'm not going, I'm just asking casually. I thought the cherry blossoms over there are in full bloom, which should be quite pleasing to the eye." Open your eyes wide, because only in this way will the tears not be enough to blur your vision.
Ji Guanxin asked subconsciously. I didn't answer, and neither did he.
Silence... is the best explanation. How I wish Ji Guanxin would give me some explanation right away, just like he is always eloquent, able to turn black into white and dead into alive.
Holding the phone, not knowing how much time had passed, Ji Guanxin just asked tentatively: "What did you see?"
I stretched out my hand to wipe the tears in front of my eyes. I choked out my grievance and said, "Ji Guanxin, are you interested? Are you going to Canada to see your second sister-in-law give birth or going to Japan to watch the cherry blossoms with Zhou Mengyi? Don't you have any idea?"
I was so angry that I wanted to yell at him loudly, but I found that my voice was full of suppressed grievances.
The driver sitting in the front seat looked at my face in the rearview mirror. I didn't care whether I was embarrassed or not. All I could think about was the facts in the photo.
Ji Guanxin has been away for more than half a month. He said he would be back in three to five days, but it ended up being three days and three days. I believed in him so much, but he hurt my heart so much.
I said: "If you really can't let her go and want to find her, you can tell me, I'm not that kind of narrow-minded person. What do you think you are like now? Are you going to have a private meeting abroad behind my back? She's not Is she too sick to get out of bed? Why does she become so lively when you are together? "
Ji Guanxin quickly said: "Zijin, it's not what you think. Don't cry yet. Let me explain to you."
I held my cell phone, holding back tears, and said angrily: "I'll give you a chance to explain, just say it."
Ji Guanxin said: "I am really in Canada. I just went to Japan on the way. Zhou Mengyi also came to Canada to visit my second sister-in-law, so..."
"So you two formed a group to go to Japan to see cherry blossoms and visit the library? Didn't you say that you couldn't even walk away from your second sister-in-law in the hospital? Which of your words is true and which is false? Why can't I do that now? Do you believe me?"
Ji Guanxin paused for a moment, then whispered: "You don't believe me?"
I said, "How do you expect me to believe you?"
I am the one who sees the photo now. If Ji Guanxin turns around and uses his trust to kidnap me, I am afraid I will be even more disappointed.
What I wanted was a reason to convince me, so I gave him one last chance: "Why are you going to Japan?"
Ji Guanxin was obviously silent, although five seconds later he spoke out: "I'm going to see a friend, a friend I must meet."
When you can't even come up with a decent excuse...
In fact, there are thousands of ways to make someone sad, but it takes years and months to make someone lose trust in another person, and it cannot be done overnight.
If Ji Guanxin had never lied to me, then I would not be as sure as I am now that he was lying.
Even if I don’t use a woman’s sixth sense, just from the content of Ji Guanxin’s answer to me and his obvious pause, as long as I’m not a fool, I can guess it.
The ending was predictable, but it still left me heartbroken.
I suppressed the urge to burst into tears for a moment, secretly adjusted my breathing, and then said to Ji Guanxin, "Okay."
Ji Guanxin asked: "What does good mean?"
I held the mobile phone in one hand and clenched my fist tightly in the other hand. I gritted my teeth and replied: "Since you are so busy abroad, you don't have to take time to call me every day. I live a good life alone. You don't need to." Others care."
Having said that, I hung up the phone immediately without waiting for Ji Guanxin to reply.
I didn't know where to turn my eyes, and I held my mouth shut. The facial features on my face were twitching together, and only grievance could be interpreted.
The driver took out a tissue and handed it to me. I took it but couldn't even say the word 'thank you'.
Ji Guanxin called me soon. I didn't answer, so he kept calling and sent me text messages. I was annoyed and simply turned off the phone.
What does it mean when the house leaks and it rains all night? What does misfortune never come singly mean? I thought that after going through everything, all the hardships would be over, but after going through all the hardships, what the hell are you telling me that I'm on the wrong track? Want me to choose again
I really wish Ji Guanxin had never appeared in Liangcheng and rescued me who was in dire straits at that time. I firmly believe that as long as it’s not about dead people, everything else is trivial.
Maybe he solved something that I couldn't do with just one finger, so I feel I owe him a huge favor. But if he hadn't appeared at that time, I feel that even if I was bleeding all the way, I would still get through it.
He promised me too many beautiful things, made me have too many dreams, and made me wishful thinking that he loved me so much, but in the end... it really fulfilled that sentence: thinking too much.
I sat in the back seat of the taxi, several tissues wet with tears. The driver didn't know how to persuade me, so he simply said nothing.
In my current state, I really can't go to a travel agency. I want to find a place to hide, but I am shocked to find that in the huge night city, I don't even have a place to hide or anyone to talk to.
At first I had Chen Wenhang and Zhang Xinwei, then I had Kuang Yiyang and Xu Lu, and then I had Luo Xiangdong. When I lost everyone, it was Ji Guanxin who brought me back, and now that he is no longer in Night City, who should I go to
After a long time, I became crazy about buying a house. No matter where I went in the world, as long as I liked a house, I would buy it. Maybe it was a problem that started at this time. I was tired from crying and wanted to find a place to hide, and I was welcome to go there at any time.
Seeing that I could reach the travel agency just around the corner at the crossroads ahead, I said to the driver in a low voice: "I'm not going to Xuri. Please take me to a reliable real estate agency."
Without exception, the driver looked at me in the rearview mirror. The car slowed down and he asked aloud: "Which house do you want to rent?"
I said, "Just near the city."
He said: "Then I will send you to Hanzheng. The housing agencies there only deal with transactions within the city center and the first ring road. Others may not have such good houses."
I responded and the driver turned around and left.
I originally wanted to take some time to look for a house, but now it is considered a top priority and is imminent. When I arrived at the door of Hanzheng Housing Agency, I took out my sunglasses from my bag and put them on, then paid and got out of the car.
You can see the quality of this agency from the outside facade, with three floors, the best location and the best decoration. As soon as I stepped in, someone in a suit and tie came over to greet me.
I went to a separate reception room with him and explained my request. It was very simple. I live alone and 40 square meters is enough, as long as the location is convenient.
The agent introduced me to four nearby places, and I asked about the prices. The most cost-effective one was to deposit one and pay three, which was 30,000 a month. I only had enough money in my card to rent this place, so I made a reservation that day.
Because I didn't dare to go back to Xuri's apartment alone, I asked the agent to go back with me. Taking the elevator upstairs, I kept feeling anxious, fearing that the dead rat would still be there.
With a 'ding' sound, the elevator door opened, and what came into view was the white wall, spotless, with the smell of fresh paint floating in the air. This place has been repainted. I carefully looked into the corridor and saw that the door was very clean and the dead mice had been removed.
When I came back to Night City this time, I didn’t bring much luggage. I only had two suitcases in total and put other things in two big bags. The agent helped me get half of it, and I moved into my new apartment the same day.
I changed two places in a row for more than a month. I lay in a strange bed and stared at the unfamiliar ceiling. I felt like I had been abandoned by the whole world.
I didn't go to work today for no reason. I was going to call Xu Yifan just in time to tell him that I had found a new place to live.
As soon as I turned on my phone, many missed calls and unread messages immediately popped up on the screen. That's the good thing about me. As long as I don't want to see something, I won't watch it at all.
So I ignored the red numbers on the green app and made a call to Xu Yifan.
When he heard that I had moved, Xu Yifan asked in surprise: "When did it happen?"
I said: "Today."
Xu Yifan said: "I called you yesterday and you turned off your phone. I really almost called the police, okay? Are you okay?"
I said, "To say it's okay is to tell lies with your eyes open... I'm heartbroken."
When I said this, I couldn't help but hold my mouth shut, and tears came to my eyes.
As Xu Yifan expected, he advised me: "Don't feel bad, sister, it doesn't matter if it lasts forever, as long as you have it once."
I cried and said: "But you are not the one who is sad..."
Xu Yifan said: "I know it's useless what I say now, because no matter how much I talk, I still stand and talk without pain in my back. But think about it, the things that made you so sad before, will you still cry when you think about it now? Still. Will I be tossing and turning in pain to the point of death?”
I couldn't help but think of Zhang Xinwei and Chen Wenhang. I shed tears for them in the past. But now that I think about it, talking to a pair of unfamiliar white-eyed wolves seems to have lowered my grade, so why did I bother to forget them in the first place.
Thinking of this, I feel a little more balanced.
Xu Yifan is particularly good at persuading people. He told me some great truths, and these great truths are not empty truths.
As he said: "At our age, we have long understood that no one's life is necessarily the same. We take everyone who comes to me seriously. I hope that he can accompany me throughout my life, but what if he leaves midway? , we also want to thank him for the empty joy he gave us.”
Empty joy... This word is really the best word to explain sorrow and joy.