Don't make decisions impulsively, and don't quarrel with the people you care about when you're angry. The former will regret it, and the latter will be sad.
The fact that things have developed to this point is not so much a coincidence as it is a fate that will be faced sooner or later.
Between me, Luo Xiangdong and Kuang Yiyang, and between Ji Guanxin and Luo Xiangdong, the relationship between all of us must go through a big cleanup, otherwise this knot will be a knot in our hearts.
Many things will not go away without touching them.
I was very tired, so I simply said to Ji Guanxin: "I want to go home."
Ji Guanxin hugged me, and after a while, he whispered back to me: "I'll take you back."
I didn't refuse because I didn't want to argue anymore.
Ji Guanxin drove me back to the gate of the newly rented apartment complex, and we both unbuckled our seat belts and got out of the car. He came around to my side, looked at me and said, "I'll take you up."
There was no expression of anger or sadness on my face, just tiredness at best. I opened my lips and said softly: "No, you go back early and have a good rest."
He is as good as Luo Xiangdong in a fight, but I am still worried about his health. It's just that I don't say some things, and I don't know what Ji Guanxin thinks.
Seeing me slightly lowering my gaze and looking wilted, Ji Guanxin said, "I didn't ask clearly about what happened today. Those nasty words I just said in the hospital were not directed at you. If you are angry, hit me twice." Come on, don’t keep it to yourself... I feel uncomfortable.”
Ji Guanxin is very good at losing his temper, and he is also very good at apologizing. Although this seemed to me more like giving me a sweet date after a slap, I sighed secretly and said, "Guan Xin, is it because I can't give you a sense of security that you are like this? "
I believe Ji Guanxin likes me, but there is a thorn in his heart. That thorn is Luo Xiangdong, and all the people and things related to Luo Xiangdong. He cannot touch it, and neither can I.
Sometimes I am too selfish and think about everything from my own point of view. Anyway, I just have a clear conscience. But feelings belong to two people. Maybe it was my too calmness that made Ji Guanxin feel that I still cared about Luo Xiangdong.
I tried to have a good talk with Ji Guanxin, but Ji Guanxin quickly denied it. He said: "It's not your problem, it's just that I was a little anxious today. I just can't stand the natural behavior of the two uncles and nephews. Why should they I lied to you, but now I want you to bear the consequences? Isn’t this bullying you?”
Ji Guanxin lost his temper and refused to recognize any of his relatives. He often stabbed me in the back and made me covered in holes. But he said, "Isn't this bullying you?" 'But let me know that he is always thinking about me.
I couldn't tell what I felt in my heart. I frowned slightly, tried hard to suppress the sourness and pain, and whispered: "Too many things have happened recently, especially the days when you were not in Night City. Guan Xin, let's stop fighting. "No, I won't go to the hospital to see Yi Yang. Let's take a moment and calm down."
I have always been an impulsive person, but now I want to calm down and think carefully about whether Ji Guanxin and I can continue on.
For the first time, Ji Guanxin didn't have any unnecessary words. He just said softly: "Okay."
In the end, he didn't send me upstairs. We turned around at the entrance of the community, he got in the car, and I went home.
There were several times on the road that I burst into tears. It was dark and no one could see me, so I could cry whenever I wanted. I waited until I got home, changed my shoes and walked to the coffee table in the living room, took out a tissue to wipe my tears and blow my nose.
Sitting on the sofa, looking at the strange furnishings around me and the empty room where I was the only one, I just felt like there would be no one to comfort me even if I cried.
No one comforted me, I had to comfort myself. It's okay, the worst case scenario is that I'll fall out of love again. Anyway, it's not the first time I've been hurt. I've gotten used to it after being hurt.
Maybe it was because I was too tired. After taking a shower that night, I lay on my bed and fell asleep quickly without moving too much.
I slept like this until the alarm clock on my phone rang the next day. After it rang for a long time, I slowly opened my eyes. I felt dizzy and my eyelids were heavy.
I finally stretched out my arm and picked up the phone. I usually wake up at seven o'clock, but today I don't know what happened, and my whole body aches.
As soon as I closed my eyes, I wanted to squint for a few more minutes before getting up, but when I opened them again, it was already afternoon.
There were missed calls on the phone, including calls from my mother and Xu Yifan, as well as a series of familiar numbers whose names were not saved. It was Luo Xiangdong.
Among all the missed calls, Ji Guanxin was not the only one. This surprised me but also seemed to be expected. Ji Guanxin had a very bad temper and told me not to be angry, but in fact he himself did not forgive me.
I first called Xu Yifan back. After Xu Yifan answered the call, I said: "Brother Yifan..."
As soon as this voice came out, I immediately coughed because it was very hoarse and deep.
Xu Yifan said: "I was scared to death. I thought it was a man."
"..." After clearing my throat a few times, I thought my voice would return to normal. Unexpectedly, it was still hoarse than before. I whispered, "I overslept. Didn't the president say anything?"
Xu Yifan said: "I called you before and you didn't answer, so I guessed that you had something to do and couldn't come. The president, I asked for leave for you and said you were sick."
The burden in my heart suddenly lightened by half. I originally thought about not going to work.
Xu Yifan listened to me coughing and clearing my throat, and he asked me: "Do you have a cold?"
I was dizzy, talking to him on the phone with my eyes closed, and said, "Maybe."
Xu Yifan said: "Ask your boyfriend to take you to the hospital. There are so many colds this season. You must have been worried about him cheating on you before, so you got angry. Just go to the hospital and get a shot."
I can no longer tell Xu Yifan what happened yesterday. If life is a show, then what happened to me yesterday was definitely the "gao chao" ending of the whole show. I, who was performing with my life, finally collapsed under the weight.
Xu Yifan doesn't think highly of me and Ji Guanxin, so I don't want to bring trouble to talk to him about relationship matters. Just like a person drinking water, he knows whether it is warm or cold.
After chatting with him for a while, I hung up the phone and called my mom again.
My mother didn't have anything serious, she just asked me how I was doing in Night City, how I was doing with Ji Guanxin, etc.
Who was the person who was injured just last night? My mother asked as usual, but I couldn't answer calmly.
Before the voice could change, I pretended there was a call coming in and hurriedly answered it.
There were still several unanswered calls, and I looked at them for a long time without making up my mind whether to call him back because it was Luo Xiangdong.
On the one hand, I was afraid that Ji Guanxin would miss me and Luo Xiangdong, and on the other hand, I was worried that something was going on at the hospital. After struggling for five minutes, I finally sent him a reply.
The phone rang four times and Luo Xiangdong answered: "Hello."
I said: "Hi."
After we finished speaking, we were silent for three to five seconds as if we had made an appointment. In the end, I was the first to ask: "How is Yiyang?"
Luo Xiangdong said: "The doctor performed an operation on him. Because the location of the last injury coincided with this injury, there was congestion in the skull and he had to undergo an operation."
My brows were furrowed. Kuang Yiyang bled so much yesterday, and I was worried that something serious would happen to him.
"Was the operation successful? Will there be any sequelae?"
Luo Xiangdong whispered: "The operation went well. The doctor said that there may be some headaches and nausea after the operation."
I didn't know what to say for a while. After all, it was Ji Guanxin's people who injured Kuang Yiyang.
When I was silent, Luo Xiangdong asked: "Are you okay?"
Listening to his familiar voice, I felt sour in my heart, and I almost had to grit my teeth and clenched my fists to hold it back.
A few seconds later, after I suppressed the soreness, I spoke, trying to keep my voice calm, and said, "I'm fine."
Luo Xiangdong said: "If Ji Guanxin dares to embarrass you, tell me."
Tears rushed directly to my eyes, my vision was blurred, and I replied to him in a suppressed voice: "He didn't make things difficult for me... Luo Xiangdong, Yi Yang was not injured by Ji Guanxin, so don't trouble him."
I myself felt that my voice was not well disguised, so Luo Xiangdong quickly said: "Don't cry, tell me if you have any grievances in your heart."
I would rather Luo Xiangdong be as indifferent to me as he was before. At least this way I won't have any thoughts about him anymore.
Now the better he treats me, the more uncomfortable and guilty I feel. No wonder Ji Guanxin is always suspicious and aggressive, because he knows that I still have Luo Xiangdong in my heart.
Thinking of Ji Guanxin, I choked up and said to Luo Xiangdong: "I can't go to the hospital to see Yiyang recently. You take good care of him. If anything happens at the hospital, you call me again."
The implication is that I don't want Luo Xiangdong to call me for no reason again.
He was a smart man. He was silent for a moment and then said back to me: "Don't worry, Yi Yang will be fine."
I had clenched my fists and bit the raised phalanges on my fists with my teeth, as if this was the only way I could hold back my emotions that were on the verge of collapse.
Finally, Luo Xiangdong also hung up the phone.
I was lying on the bed, because I was alone, so whether it was crying or convulsing and choking, I was unscrupulous. No one would see me in such a miserable state, and even I didn’t know why it was like this.
For three days in a row, except for getting out of bed to drink water and go to the toilet, I spent the rest of my time in bed. Cry when you are awake, go to sleep when you are tired of crying, and cry again when you wake up.
The three days of darkness were long but actually very fast. I knew I was sick, but I didn't know if it was a cold, fever, or internal heat. Anyway, when I came back to Night City this time, my mother specially prepared a medicine bag for me, which contained all kinds of medicine.
I usually take two cold medicines when I wake up in the morning, and then take a few fever-reducing medicines when I get out of bed at noon. If my stomach hurts after taking them, I will take stomach medicines again.
How many people are so sensible as to let go when they are emotionally hurt? How many people can be so strong that they can even lie to themselves? Sometimes I feel like I'm such a loser. No matter whether it's my first love, a secret love or an open love, it's always a mess.