Only people who are insecure will make excuses for the slightest disturbance from the other party, and only people who have been hurt will clearly feel aggrieved but dare not speak out boldly.
The former is like a mental illness, the latter is like a resentful woman.
Women are destined to have love first in their lives, but how many women have given up on love. It really goes with that saying: the more you care about it, the more frustrated you will be.
Women are most afraid of living without themselves. I am used to seeing the elders and friends around me who have been tortured by marriage and love. In the past, I vowed that I would never become like them, but now, I am retribution.
Sitting alone on the sofa in the living room in a daze, I no longer knew whether I felt more sad or sad. I feel quite pathetic. If I had known this, I would rather be alone. At least I can feed myself and the whole family will not be hungry.
When kingb and queenb saw me sitting motionless on the sofa, with no intention of starting a meal, they also gave up trying to please me and just lay on the ground with their eyes closed to meditate.
I had slept enough and was not sleepy at all. In addition to the phone call I had just made with Luo Xiangdong, my mind was filled with confusing images. In a place like that, as long as he has money, women won't pounce on him one after another
While he said he loved me, he still went to that place... I was so angry and sad that I clenched my teeth.
It was 11:25 p.m., less than half an hour after I spoke to Luo Xiangdong. This was a silent room, but suddenly there was the sound of a key opening the door.
The sound startled me. At first I thought it was from the next door, until out of the corner of my eye I saw someone opening the door to my left. When I took a closer look, the person at the door turned out to be Luo Xiangdong!
Luo Xiangdong took back the key and stepped in.
I sat on the sofa, exactly in line with him. Looking sideways at him, he was more surprised than surprised.
Luo Xiangdong changed his shoes and walked in. He looked at me and said, "I was hosting a friend's dinner tonight, and everyone went there. I didn't want to stay too long, but when you called me, I said you missed me, so I escaped."
After saying that, he sat next to me and reached out to put his hand on my shoulder. I immediately hid behind me, looked at him warily and said, "Are you looking for a woman?"
I couldn't hide my words in my heart.
Luo Xiangdong immediately raised his eyes slightly and quickly replied: "I'm not looking for you. I don't believe you are asking me. When I just called you, I came out to pick you up. Someone happened to come out of the private room next to me. The woman was not from our room. of."
What he said was so convincing that I was half-convinced. Staring at his face, at a certain moment, I suddenly leaned forward, lowered my head and smelled him.
There was a faint smell of perfume on his coat, but it was not a woman's. It also smelled of cigarettes and alcohol.
I sniffed carefully, fearing that I might miss any clues. Luo Xiangdong's faint laughter hit my head, and he said, "If I had known you cared so much, I would have taken you with me. I saw you sleeping so soundly before, and I didn't want to wake you up."
He reached out and touched my head. This time I didn't refuse.
Straightening up again, I looked at him and said, "Who is there today?"
Luo Xiangdong first mentioned some names that I knew, and then said: "There are some names that you are not familiar with, and even if you tell me, you don't recognize them."
I said, "Then they didn't bring their girlfriends?"
Luo Xiangdong said: "The ones I brought here didn't want to talk seriously."
I immediately caught what he was talking about and said immediately: "Then you want to take me there, but you don't want to have a serious talk with me?"
Luo Xiangdong said with a serious expression: "If you are willing, I will take you there now. Just find a time for everyone to recognize you. Can you be the same as them?"
I stared into Luo Xiangdong's eyes and said with a serious face: "Luo Xiangdong, you know I hate people lying to me the most. If you really want to be nice to me, don't lie to me in this life."
As I spoke, my eyes were covered with mist. When Luo Xiangdong saw this, his expression became determined. He took my hand and said word by word: "I promise not to lie to you, except for surprises."
Hearing this, I frowned slightly. Luo Xiangdong said: "I can't completely lie to you. If I want to prepare some surprises for you, there must be some foreshadowing. You can't classify these as lies, right?"
I held my tongue and said, "Anyway, it's up to you. If I find you cheating on me once, you'll never think about it again in your life."
Luo Xiangdong stared at my face, the corners of his lips raised slightly, and he asked me tentatively: "Then you agree now?"
"What did I promise?" I rolled my eyes slightly and spoke tightly.
Luo Xiangdong said: "Thirteenth sister is an open-minded person. If I have something to say, I will say it directly. I like you. I like you very much. I want to have a relationship with you without breaking up. Do you agree?"
Today Luo Xiangdong opened the skylight and spoke frankly. He held my hand and stared at my face. I felt embarrassed by him and felt like he was forcing me into a corner, so I lowered my eyes slightly and whispered: "Luo Xiangdong... I really like you. If I'm not with you, I might have to miss you." You will live forever, but if we break up soon after we get together... I hope you will never come to me again."
If Luo Xiangdong didn't come to see me when I returned to Liangcheng, maybe I wouldn't be shaken.
I ask myself that even though I am a common person, I can't get through love. Whether you call me worthless or cheap, in short, I just like Luo Xiangdong. I feel like I have to fall into his hands for the rest of my life.
When Luo Xiangdong heard this, he whispered: "What are you talking about? You're thinking of breaking up before we're even together?"
I'm not as optimistic as he is. I just leave a way out for myself.
"Luo Xiangdong, this is the first opportunity I give you, and it is also the last opportunity I give you both. I won't say anything about cheating. Anyway... if we are not suitable, don't come to me again in the future. That’s it.”
Surprisingly, I didn't cry when I said this, because I knew very well that if this love failed again, I might not really believe in love anymore.
Luo Xiangdong was silent for five seconds. He held my hand tightly and said affirmatively: "Okay, let's have a good time. If we feel that we can't get along anymore, we can let go calmly."
The more I have experienced, the more rational I have become. I never thought that one day I would face someone who is crazy about love, and I would think of a way out after breaking up without waiting to talk about it. But this way I feel very at ease, and I always have the illusion that I am not afraid of anything.
Luo Xiangdong reached out and touched my face. I lowered my gaze and heard him say, "I feel so sorry for you."
When I didn't speak, he reached out and touched my head again, and said softly: "Don't be afraid, I promise to be good to you."
I said: "Luo Xiangdong."
"Um?"
"Can I stop being with you first?"
“…”
Looking up at him, Luo Xiangdong's black pupils were a little confused and guarded, as if he was afraid that I would say something.
I was expressionless and said bluntly: "I just broke up with Ji Guanxin, please give me some time."
I'm a little afraid that Luo Xiangdong will ask me if I still miss Ji Guanxin, because I can't tell whether the scar in my heart is yearning, nostalgia or the mark of being deceived.
But Luo Xiangdong didn't ask in the end. He just stayed silent for a while, then opened his thin lips and said softly: "Okay, I won't force you. Do whatever makes you happy."
I lowered my head again, and then whispered: "Are you going to get impatient and stop liking me?"
I couldn't see his face, but I only heard him say: "I have always liked you, but I like you more and more. I like you so much that I have thought about sending Yi Yang away, and I like you so much that I want to kill Ji Guanxin... I'm afraid that someone will One day you can’t help but break your heart.”
I raised my head and looked at Luo Xiangdong with red eyes, but I saw deep love and distress in his eyes.
When our eyes met and our true feelings were revealed, it was the ringtone of the cell phone in Luo Xiangdong's coat pocket that interrupted us.
We both looked away at the same time, and he answered the phone: "Hey, what are you doing?"
A familiar male voice came from the phone. After listening carefully, I found that it was Zheng Zeyu. He raised his voice and said, "You just slipped away while I was going to the toilet?"
Luo Xiangdong said: "Are you drunk? I've been gone for more than half an hour."
Zheng Zeyu said: "Where have you gone? Come back quickly, everyone is waiting for you."
Luo Xiangdong said expressionlessly: "I won't go, you guys are just having fun."
"Hey, come here quickly, or we'll go look for you."
Luo Xiangdong said: "I'm here with Zijin. You can go and do whatever you need to do."
Zheng Zeyu was messing around and yelling at me to answer the phone. When Luo Xiangdong wanted to hang up, he threatened to bring someone over immediately.
In the end, Luo Xiangdong had to hand me his phone and said, "Send him away because he's drunk."
I held my phone and said, "Hey, Brother Zeyu."
Zheng Zeyu immediately changed his face and said with a smile: "Oh, Zijin."
I smiled and said, "Brother Zeyu, have you drunk too much? If you drink too much, go home and rest quickly. Stop hanging around outside."
Zheng Zeyu said: "Zijin, is she my sister?"
I glanced at Luo Xiangdong, but saw Luo Xiangdong looked disgusted and looked away.
I said: "Yes."
Zheng Zeyu said: "She is my good girl, please bring Dongzi to us. Today is a great day for Xiaobai's engagement. All of us are here, but he said he just answered the phone and ran away. Do you think he is a human being?"
Zheng Zeyu really drank too much, otherwise he wouldn't talk so openly.
When I heard this, I felt embarrassed, so I said to him, "Okay, Brother Zeyu, I'll let him pass right now."
Zheng Zeyu said reluctantly: "If I don't let him come by himself, you have to come too."
I looked embarrassed and said, "Brother Zeyu, I won't go. I have to go to work tomorrow."
Zheng Zeyu said: "No, what class do you work in? Dongzi can't afford to support you? You two have to be here today. If you don't come, you won't give me face. I'll wait for you until I see you."
After that, he hung up the phone directly.
I handed the phone to Luo Xiangdong and said ambiguously: "Brother Zeyu asked me to come too. Should I go?"