The incident of Luo Xiangdong carrying me up the Great Wall made a big fuss. Whoever caught him asked. I naively thought that Kuang Yiyang would not be seen in the hospital, right? But after all, this matter cannot be contained in paper.
There was no emotion or anger in Kuang Yiyang's voice, and the expression on his face was also light. But my heart suddenly rose to my throat. Now that Luo Xiangdong is away, I am facing Kuang Yiyang alone. It would be a lie to say that I am not nervous or afraid.
When he finished speaking, I paused. About ten seconds passed. Then I tried to calm down and said to him: "Yi Yang, I'm sorry. I really like Luo Xiangdong..."
After hesitating for a moment, I added: "I love him."
Like is different from love, I want to tell Kuang Yiyang in this way. I really can't live without Luo Xiangdong.
Kuang Yiyang was still looking at the tablet in his hand intently. He was playing a game that I used to love playing. Bubble Bobble. After hitting a bunch of bubbles of the same color, they disappear on the screen with a 'bang' sound. After a while, Kuang Yi opened her lips and said aloud: "I know."
He lowered his gaze slightly. I have a lot to say in my heart. For example, I'm sorry, such as thank you, for example, I know I am very selfish, but... the more I want to say, the more silent I become.
I'm not a person who likes to keep my worries in my stomach, but because Luo Xiangdong and I are together, no matter what I say, it will hurt Kuang Yiyang, so anything I say at this moment seems a bit pale and false.
I would rather Kuang Yiyan scolded me.
"I know you love my brother-in-law, and I also know that he loves you. If you two hadn't taken my feelings into consideration, you wouldn't have waited until now to be together."
In the quiet room, Kuang Yiyang's voice sounded so clear. He spoke in a very calm tone, but there were huge waves in my heart.
Holding my fingers tightly, I tried to say something, but Kuang Yiyang rushed out before me and said: "I always couldn't figure it out before. You said you wanted to find someone who wouldn't cheat, so I loved you wholeheartedly; and my brother-in-law There were so many women, but you fell in love with him in the end. "
"Even if he is my brother-in-law, I am not willing to give you up to him, because I don't believe he has you in his heart."
I was so nervous that my fingers suddenly became weak. The throat is also very tight, as if it is stuck.
Kuang Yiyang didn't look at me either. He seemed to be talking to himself and said eloquently: "It wasn't until you returned to Liangcheng that I found that my brother-in-law had followed you, and I didn't know that he also had you in his heart. ”
"I once thought that you loved my brother-in-law but not me because I was too boring and didn't know how to play. So I smoked, drank, fought, and took drugs. I did all kinds of bad things. I didn't expect you to come back to me. Just doing this... makes me feel a little better."
"But whenever my brother-in-law finds me and looks like he wants to kill me, I always think of you. If it weren't for me, you might have been together long ago."
"There were several times when I pushed him hard and he scolded me. If it wasn't for me, he wouldn't have driven you away so cruelly. I asked him who is more important between you and me, but he didn't answer me. Then. That’s when I knew that not only did he have you in his heart, he also fell in love with you.”
"I heard that you and Ji Guanxin were together. I ran to ask him and asked him what he was thinking. He didn't say anything. He just stopped showing up for a long time after that fight. Even if I caused trouble again, he would just Ask someone to come and pick me up. Ever since he was a child, he has never been really angry with me, but because I made him miss you, he no longer cares about me."
"At first, I didn't learn well because I was in a bad mood. Later, I just didn't know how to face you. Obviously you and my brother-in-law love each other, but because of me, you can't be together. I feel like the most unnecessary one. One, it would be nice if you could suddenly fight someone to death or take drugs to death, so you don't have to worry about it anymore. "
Kuang Yiyang said this while playing games, using a very ordinary tone, but I could tell that this was because he suppressed his feelings to the extreme and tried to be indifferent and indifferent.
My throat was extremely choked. I tried hard to hold back my tears and said in a low voice: "Yi Yang, I'm sorry."
Kuang Yiyang said: "I always felt that it was you and my uncle who were sorry for me. But from the moment you returned to Night City and helped me detoxify, I figured it out. No one in this world has ever owed anything to anyone. I I used to be willing to be kind to you, but I always felt that I was infatuated, but you have already told me that you don't like me, and it is just wishful thinking on my part. Maybe you are still full of burdens. "
"Even if this mistake hadn't happened, if you hadn't met my brother-in-law, you still wouldn't have fallen in love with me."
Kuang Yiyang is right, but at this time I don't know what else to say except sorry.
Tears blurred my vision, and I didn't see when Kuang Yiyang put away the tablet. He sat back on the sofa, looked sideways at me, and said softly: "Actually, you don't have to feel sorry, because I have used you too."
After his words fell, I couldn't help but raise my eyes to look at him.
Kuang Yiyang's face is still youthful and energetic, but it is slightly pale because he has been hospitalized for too long recently.
He looked at me quietly, with a confused look in my eyes. After a while, I heard him say: "Didn't you often say in the past that when family members fight, they have to close the door? Once a foreign enemy invades, they will fight." Do you want to take up arms and speak out unanimously?”
I said this, but I don't understand what Kuang Yiyang meant when he said it at this time.
He looked at me without changing his expression and said: "You and Ji Guanxin are together, let me know that even if you are not with my brother-in-law, you will not choose me. And I regret even more why you love my brother-in-law so much. I love you so much, but I still have to watch you two suffer."
"I have seen the relationship between you and Ji Guanxin. My brother-in-law is worried that he will lie to you, and I don't like him very much. So I have always asked you to help me with a premeditated plan, and I have also premeditated to break up you and Ji Guanxin. "
I looked straight at Kuang Yiyang. Because I had never thought about it, it was difficult to accept it for a while.
Kuang Yiyang didn't bat an eyelid and said truthfully: "That time I was beaten by Ji Guanxin's friend in the car. I knew that if I said that, Ji Guanxin would go crazy, and you would definitely quarrel with him because of me. I even hope that I will die, so that I can kill two birds with one stone, you will hate Shang Ji Guanxin, and then there will be no more obstacles between you and my brother-in-law."
I was so frightened that I couldn't describe it as distressed. I couldn't help it, so I frowned and interrupted: "Stop talking..."
I always thought Kuang Yiyang was the best and simplest person I have ever met. In my opinion, his kindness can only exist in that kind of illusory story. But now he told me that many of the things that happened before were planned step by step by him.
I can't believe it and I can't do it.
Kuang Yiyang said to me: "People are selfish. When I was good to you, I said I didn't mean anything, but in my heart I still wanted to be with you. Being good to you without limits means there is no limit. I want you to feel guilty, so that you can't even bear to say the words of rejection. Since you still don't want me to be together, then I would rather be "unanimous" and "don't let anyone else", so that you and my brother-in-law can be together, and I won't just watch. You are in the hands of outsiders."
Kuang Yiyang's words made me feel like I was a piece of cargo from beginning to end. He likes it so he wants it, but he can't have it himself. He would rather take advantage of his own people than let me fall into the hands of outsiders.
I looked at Kuang Yiyang and didn't say anything. I just couldn't control my tears and kept falling down.
When Kuang Yiyang saw this, he looked at me and said, "I don't know whether it's better to call you sister or aunt. Zijin, I just want to tell you, don't think too well of others. You will feel guilty. In fact, I am not that kind at all, and I am not as fragile as you think. I have already lost you, and I just don’t want to lose my loved ones again. "
My mind was completely blank. I kept reaching out to wipe my tears, but the tears always blurred my vision.
Finally, Kuang Yiyang handed the tissue box to me. He said softly: "Let's make it clear today. From now on, no one will really owe anyone anything."
I took out a tissue and wiped my tears, blew my nose again, and then said in a low voice, "Do you think you can make me feel better by saying this?"
Kuang Yiyang said: "I'm just telling the truth. Otherwise, if you have too strong a sense of morality, I'm afraid you will always have concerns. It's my uncle who suffers like this. I'm also selfish and don't want to make my uncle feel sad."
Kuang Yiyang said it so lightly that I kept telling myself in my heart that he meant it to me. But this story is too true, and it conforms to all the selfishness and self-interest of human nature. I have no reason not to believe it.
Kuang Yiyang put the tissue box next to my legs, then reached for the peach I cut in the fruit bowl. After eating a piece, he looked like he was fine and said casually: "By the way, let me tell you something. I want to study in Hong Kong.”
Hearing this, I looked at him again and said in a low voice: "Why do you suddenly want to go to Hong Kong?"
Kuang Yiyang said: "At least I have liked you for a few years. Even if I let you go now, I still want to go out and relax."
I didn't know how to answer for a while, until Kuang Yiyang said again: "I mentioned it to my uncle, he is still hesitant, you can persuade him after you go back. Although people are selfish, they can't be too selfish. Now you two are together Now that we are together, you can’t let me just watch you in Night City, right? I want to go to Hong Kong. I have friends there, so I can relax on the way.”
If Kuang Yiyang simply said to go to school, I might still hesitate, but when he said to go out and relax, I believed him.
After a moment of silence, I spoke up: "What about Night City University?"
Kuang Yiyang said: "I completed all the credits for the entire year in the first month of my senior year, and I can get my graduation certificate and degree certificate at any time. All I need is a nod from my brother-in-law to help me transfer to another school."
I thought to myself, I don’t understand the world of top academics. Before, I had always been worried that he would fail the exam and graduate.