After hanging up the phone, Zhang Danqing asked me: "Auntie, is there something urgent that comes to you?"
I replied smoothly: "Yes, Brother Danqing. I have to go home first. Let's make an appointment another day."
This time, the future is really unknown.
Zhang Danqing got up with me and we walked to the cashier outside. I took out my wallet. Zhang Danqing immediately stopped me and said, "What are you doing? Are you using your money to come with me?"
I thought about when I was a kid, we did go out to play with him, and he never asked us to spend money.
Now that I am no longer a child, I don’t know how much more money I earn from my job than he does. But that's why I didn't dare to fight with him, for fear that he would think too much.
After Zhang Danqing paid the bill. We both left the store. He wanted to take me home, but I refused.
I'm also afraid that my mother will know that we are together. Another complaint was inevitable.
I took a taxi back home, and as soon as I opened the door, I felt something was wrong in the atmosphere in the room. Because I saw my dad’s shoes also placed on the carpet in the entrance hall, when my dad is usually at home. The TV at home must be on, but it was quiet today.
I called my parents, but the only response was my father’s voice: “You’re back?”
I was so scared in my heart. I changed into slippers and walked into the living room and saw my parents sitting on the sofa in the living room. My mother folded her arms and, without exception, had a droopy face. I'm most afraid of her expression, because it means she's already angry.
My dad looked up at me, and the expression on his face was not natural. He didn't get angry, but he didn't laugh either. He just patted the place next to him and said to me: "Come and sit here."
I put down my bag, took off my coat, walked over and sat down.
As soon as my butt touched the sofa, my mother frowned and looked at me. She said in a deep voice, "Did you see today's news?"
At such a critical moment, many answers flashed through my mind. see? did not see it
If she saw it, she would definitely ask me what I thought. If you say you didn’t see it…
Two or three seconds have passed in the blink of an eye. My mental capacity is poor, so I’d better not make so many mistakes and tell the truth.
"Saw."
My mother suddenly became angry and raised her eyes and said: "You saw that Luo Xiangdong had something to do with his fiancée, and you still wanted to go out to play?"
My scalp stood up because of her rebuke, but at this moment my heart became calm. What is coming will eventually come, I replied aloud: "It has been promised a long time ago..."
My mother gritted her teeth in anger, as if she was going to kill me in minutes. Those who didn’t know better thought it was me who had a fiancée.
She stared at me and said, "How big of a heart are you? If you didn't tell me that Luo Xiangdong went to Canada to negotiate the contract, what happened to your fiancée?"
I replied calmly: "I don't know either."
I didn't mean to anger my mother, and I didn't mean to act like I was fine. In fact, I just don't know how to face it. I can't cry and cry in front of them, saying that I can't bear it anymore, I can't contact Luo Xiangdong, and I don't know what's going on with him.
My mother was so angry when she saw me reacting passively that she lost her temper. She said with a confused look: "You don't know either? Then what do you know? You have been with him for such a long time, and you don't know what's going on in his house?"
I was extremely sad, but I tried to look calm on my face. Said: "I've never heard that he has a fiancée. Didn't you see that the marriages mentioned on the Internet are all in quotation marks? If it is true, why are you using quotation marks?"
My mother frowned and said, "What if Luo Xiangdong lies to you, or he really has a fiancée? What will you do?"
I:"… "
Finally I couldn't help but look away. I could keep my face expressionless, but I couldn't keep my eyes open.
After a few seconds of silence, I replied: "He is not that kind of person."
Yes, I want to believe Luo Xiangdong. He must have something to hide. I don't believe he would lie to me.
When my mother saw this, she said anxiously: "What's the use of guessing here? Have you contacted Luo Xiangdong? What did he say?"
"The overseas phone signal is not good and I haven't been able to get through."
If Luo Xiangdong could see my current grievances, would he still have the heart to turn off his phone and leave me in such a helpless situation
I bet that if I said that Luo Xiangdong turned off his phone and I couldn’t get through, my mother would be so angry that she would flip the table. Then it will not be a question of whether the matter is true or false, but whether my mother can agree with Luo Xiangdong.
But my mother is not a fool, even if I say so, she still said with a stern face: "I could get through before, why can't I get through today? Did he deliberately not answer your call or something? You have to give me a sentence if you are a good person. Come on, what is this?"
I have nothing to say, so I just stay silent.
My dad had not spoken before. After waiting for a long time, he said aloud: "Zijin, if people are really dissatisfied with us, then forget it. Ever since we found out that you and Luo Xiangdong were together, your mother and I have been worried. Dad doesn't You need to live a rich and wealthy life in this life. Not to mention that you can support yourself now. Even if you don't have a job, your mother and I can ensure that you have enough food and clothing in your life. There is no need for us to sharpen our heads and join a wealthy family. ”
"Our family's conditions are considered good in Liangcheng, and we can barely find a well-matched match in Dongcheng. But you and Luo Xiangdong, dad said, he is good at everything, but the two families are not a good match. Even if you marry Luo Xiangdong, When you go home, you will inevitably have to look at others with a high face in the future. With a character like yours, you can't bear it for a day or a month. Besides, dad can't bear to see you being wronged... "
As he spoke, my dad choked up.
Originally, neither my mother nor I cried, but now my father shed tears first, and the sourness in my heart surged up. From the corner of my eye, I saw that my mother's eyes were also red.
After a while, my mother said aggrievedly: "I said that I would come to pick you up, and at the same time I was negotiating a contract to meet my fiancée in Canada. Is there anyone who is such a bully? If you think our family is not worthy of his family, then don't mention getting married early in the morning." It’s okay. Apart from the conditions, what’s the difference between Zijin and Luo Xiangdong? Why can’t we find him?”
My mother said that my tears were falling down. Maybe it’s because I’ve felt that my family’s conditions were pretty good since I was a child. Although I don’t show any sense of superiority, I still feel that I’m no worse than anyone else. But today I read in the news that the Rong family and the Luo family are the right match. Rong Xin is the eldest granddaughter of the Rong family. She is deeply loved by Rong Ming and Rong Shizhang, and she truly lives the life of a princess from the time she is born.
If there is no doubt that Luo Xiangdong is a prince, then I am not sure whether the one who is worthy of him is a princess or Cinderella.
At three or four o'clock in the afternoon in October in the north, there is not enough sunshine. Even though there are windows on three sides of the living room, I still feel that the room is groggy. My father's eyes were red, my mother was crying, and I no longer knew whether to pretend or let the tears flow.
I always hate it when things between two people make things difficult for both families, but now Luo Xiangdong's incident has made my whole family feel gloomy, and the anger and resentment in my heart are gradually rising.
What people are most afraid of is extreme thoughts. Although I was afraid before, I was still stubborn and willing to believe that Luo Xiangdong would not lie to me. But how many losses have I suffered from self-righteousness over the years? I always want to believe everyone, but not everyone can do it without lying to me or hurting me.
Sitting on the sofa in the living room, my parents talked to me a lot. Just like before I went to Ye City to study at university, they were so worried and wanted to tell me all their life experiences and insights.
At that time... I guess it went in the left ear and out the right ear. I always feel that I am quite smart and will not be deceived, but reality has taught me a bloody lesson, which makes me understand that a person who reveals his heart and lungs without any reservation will probably get heartbroken in return.
I really miss the careless days I lived when I was a kid.
We talked from less than four o'clock in the afternoon until seven o'clock in the evening, crying and saying that I was exhausted. During this period, my mobile phone did not receive any calls or text messages about Luo Xiangdong.
Later, my dad said, "Don't feel bad. The problem is not our fault. No matter what we think or do here, we can't change other people's decisions. Get up, pack up, and go out to eat."
My mother got up and got off the sofa and walked to the master bedroom while whispering: "I don't want to eat, you go ahead."
Looking at her back running away in a hurry, I burst into tears in an instant. I really want to call and scold Luo Xiangdong. Why does he torture my family like this
If my mother is like this, I naturally can't go to eat. In the end, everyone went back to their respective houses. I called Luo Xiangdong with my mobile phone and heard someone say: "I'm sorry, the number you dialed has been turned off."
I was so angry that I almost smashed my phone.
I wanted to turn off the phone directly, but after thinking about it, I felt that I couldn't take this breath. With trembling fingers, I sent Luo Xiangdong a text message, telling him not to answer my phone calls in this life and not to come to me again.
After I finished posting, I turned off my phone, then lay on my bed and took a deep breath. I don't want to cry, otherwise I always feel like my tears are wasted. My dad is right, we are not the ones who did the wrong thing, and we are not the ones who can decide the final outcome.
This feeling of powerlessness makes people feel passive and tired, and most importantly, the feeling that their happiness is in the hands of others is very unpleasant.
When the phone is turned off, there is no need to answer other people's calls, and there is no need to mistake other people's calls for Luo Xiangdong's call, and then reflexively read it as quickly as possible, only to end up disappointed and self-deprecating.
I lay there until ten o'clock in the evening, when my mother knocked on the door and came in and turned on the light. I lay with my back to the door, not asleep.
My mother sat beside the bed and whispered: "Zijin, get up and eat something. Have you had lunch? Are you hungry?"
I turned around and saw my mother's red and swollen eyes. I felt extremely sad. I held back my tears and whispered, "It's okay. I'm not hungry."
My mother looked at me, the distress in her eyes was so obvious that it hurt my eyes and heart.