I said good night to my parents and went back to my room. When the lights in the master bedroom were turned off, I hid under the quilt and turned on my mobile phone.
After booting. Several missed calls and unread text messages popped up on the screen.
I clicked on it and saw that there were calls from friends, but more missed calls were all named Luo Xiangdong. My heart suddenly felt sour. After checking the unread text messages again, Luo Xiangdong sent many messages in succession. At first, he explained to me why the phone was not turned on and about Rong Xin’s fiancée. Later, he probably got angry when he saw me and said that he would never answer my calls again if he dared. His reply was: It’s my fault that you died unjustly, it’s really none of my business. If you see it, turn on your phone immediately. I will book a flight back to my country right now.
He said similar things a lot. Basically every few minutes. He said he had asked Wei Zheng and Zheng Zeyu to come to Liangcheng. The last message was: I'm on the plane and I'll call you when I get to Yecheng. Zijin, please don’t turn off your phone again. I can't contact you and I'm scared.
The fear in my heart caused my vision to blur for a moment. I can't even see the phone screen clearly.
God knows how scared I felt when I couldn't contact him. It turns out that he was also scared when he couldn't find me.
I really wanted to hear his voice right now, so I called him, but without exception he still turned off the phone because he was on the plane.
Before, I was afraid that Luo Xiangdong really had a fiancée and that he would not want me, but now I am just afraid that he will be afraid.
I stretched out my hand to wipe my eyes, and with tears in my eyes, I sent him a text message, saying: Don't be afraid, I won't be angry with you anymore, come back quickly. By the way, my mother is going to ask you about your fiancée. If it is really your father who doesn't like me, then my mother will definitely not let us be together. You should think about it quickly.
If my mother saw me hiding under the quilt and informing Luo Xiangdong, she would definitely scold me for being stupid and not knowing who was near and who was far away. But I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I always want to give all my heart to Luo Xiangdong, and I don’t even want him to suffer any grievance or embarrassment, even if the person who embarrasses him is the person closest to me.
Even though I knew that Luo Xiangdong had turned off his phone and could no longer receive my text messages, I still sent him many messages intermittently. My emotions are a little out of control now, and my language skills are not very complete. I just say whatever comes to my mind.
I stayed up until two o'clock in the night with my phone in hand. Looking at the dozens of text messages I sent, I felt a little regretful. Having said so much, will Luo Xiangdong be relieved or annoyed? Did I put pressure on him? Will he feel tired
I was born to get into trouble easily, and without anyone to guide me, I was like a donkey grinding with my eyes closed, going round and round, unable to get out.
I was so entangled and my eyes were so sore that I couldn't open them. I took my hot phone and sent Luo Xiangdong the last text message. I said: Don't be afraid, I won't let you go until you don't want me.
I don’t know if this is a vow or what. I’m not a person who likes to make promises, and I don’t want to listen to other people’s promises because I will always take them seriously. But at this moment, I don’t know what else to say except that such words can make me feel at ease.
After sending the last message, I put my phone next to my pillow and forced myself to sleep. No matter what, tomorrow will always come.
There was something on my mind, so I slept very restlessly, and I would wake up basically every hour or two. Every time I get up, I nervously look at my phone. When I see nothing on it, I can’t tell whether I’m expecting it or I put it down in disappointment.
I woke up again around five or six in the morning. I got up to go to the bathroom and overheard my parents talking quietly from the master bedroom.
I was curious, so I quietly walked to the door to listen.
My mother said, "It's wrong to not be a good family member. I know that there will be no good results. I really don't want Zijin to be wasted like this anymore."
My dad said, "Don't you want it to be useful? I didn't realize that Zijin was all about Luo Xiangdong. Is it because she can listen to what we say?"
My mother said: "You can't let her jump into a fire pit knowing that it's a fire pit. If she hangs out with Luo Xiangdong for a few more years, when she gets older and they leave, will she still get married?"
My dad didn’t speak for a long time, and so did my mom.
I stood at the door, and I just felt that the house was not heated yet? Why is it so cold
He quietly returned to his room and pulled the quilt over him. Because the curtains were blocked, the room was very dark. It was a good time to go to sleep, and I was indeed sleepy, but my nerves were twitching and struggling to prevent me from sleeping.
Since I couldn't sleep, I allowed myself to think wildly, thinking that growing up, eating and drinking well, everything was smooth sailing, but my relationship was full of ups and downs. I comforted myself in my heart that God is fair. Whatever he gives you, he will always take something away. Maybe it’s because my family and career are pretty good, so I can only seek compensation emotionally.
The mental torture is really too painful. I really want to cut the knot with a quick knife, or just stab me twice and give me a good time.
After thinking about it, I fell asleep. It was a long sleep, and it was already past eleven o'clock when I woke up, almost twelve o'clock.
My mother opened the door of my room and whispered to me to get up and eat.
My eyes are a little swollen from crying yesterday. My mother's eyes were red, and she looked like she had cried today.
I can't bear it in my heart. My parents were living a good life, but they got worried and angry because of my affairs. Whenever I think about this, I feel that I am unfilial.
After I got up, my mother asked me: "Those two people who came last night, please call them out to have a meal together."
I said, "It might be a little awkward for them to eat with you and my dad."
My mother thought about it and said, "Then you go out to eat with them. They come all the way and you have to be the host."
I responded, turned around and went back to the bedroom to call Wei Zheng.
Wei Zheng had just gotten up, and I said I wanted to have dinner with him and Zheng Zeyu, so he made an appointment with me to meet at Fulai Hotel in half an hour.
I washed my face, brushed my teeth, put on no makeup, just changed my clothes and went out. My mother looked at me and said, "You put some makeup on, otherwise your face won't look good."
I wasn't in the mood right now, so I casually said, "I won't change."
My mother said: "You always look like this in front of Xiangdong's friends. I guess you are no less slovenly in front of him. Zijin, everything my mother said to you is good, but you may not listen to it. Then Luo Xiangdong usually What kind of woman do you want to see but you can’t? If you don’t take care of yourself, are you just waiting to be annoying?”
Loyalty is hard to hear. My mother has always been a rough-spoken person. Every word she says can always leave me speechless.
Originally, I was ready to put on shoes and go out, but after hearing this, I had to turn around and go back to put on makeup.
At the entrance, my mother helped me adjust the collar of my windbreaker. She said, "Be alert and show off your posture. Don't let others think that something is wrong."
I said 'hmm', and she said again: "Whether you are with Luo Xiangdong or with an ordinary man, the most important thing for a woman is to live a vigorous life. If you don't say anything, let him look down on you." , at least you can’t let him take you seriously. You have to dress up and let him know that you are not indispensable to him, and you can’t do it without him.”
This sentence is the most inspiring thing my mother has said in the past few days. For a moment, I felt full of strength. It felt like I had found a sense of direction. I knew where to push.
Yes, I live my life, not for anyone else. Luo Xiangdong would choose me, not because I forced him, but because he liked me. If I live without myself, then what does Luo Xiangdong like about me
Looking at my mother, I said: "To summarize, try hard but don't force it, and you have to have a bottom line if you like it. Is that what you mean?"
My mother finally smiled and helped me pull up the collar of my windbreaker. She said loudly: "Yes, he has a bit of personality. You just think that you can't live without him. How big a deal is that?"
I clenched my fists and made a cheering gesture, put on my boots and went out.
I took a taxi to Fulai Hotel. As soon as I got off the car, I happened to see Zheng Zeyu and Wei Zheng coming out of the hotel lobby. I greeted them, and Zheng Zeyu looked at me and said, "Hey, you seem to be in a good mood. I thought you would have a droopy face."
I smiled and said, "Why are you drooping your face? Even if I want to show off my face, I would be rushing to the east, not you two."
Zheng Zeyu immediately said: "Don't mention it, don't sneer at him. If you don't answer his call, he will be anxious to death."
Wei Zheng also said: "This time Xiangdong is really wronged. He doesn't even know what happened. It's all the media's fault."
I listen to my mother and will not be serious with Wei Zheng and Zheng Zeyu. I will wait until Luo Xiangdong comes back to talk about anything.
At noon, I took the two of them to Laoyuweng for dinner and ordered the Northeast’s most distinctive iron pot stew. During the dinner, Zheng Zeyu said: "Zijin, we don't treat you as an outsider, so I have to warn you in advance about some things."
I looked at him and Zheng Zeyu said: "Rong Ming, the old man of the Rong family, the relationship between him and Xiangdong's father is that the eight worshipers in ancient times had a blood alliance. I heard that when the Luo family encountered difficulties, it was Rong Ming who It took a lot of support to get through the difficulties. If you think about the friendship between the two families, if nothing else, Xiangdong’s father must treat Rong’s family better.”
I understand this. To put it bluntly, Luo Zhenye is more interested in Rong Xin.
I said, "Brother Zeyu, tell me the truth. Has the Luo family already decided that Rong Xin will be Xiang Dong's wife?"
Zheng Zeyu said hurriedly: "Hey, this is not the same thing. I have never heard of an engagement or marriage between the two families, otherwise Xiangdong would have been able to play for so many years..."
This is the truth, even if it doesn't sound very good.
Wei Zheng took over the words and said: "Zijin, Xiangdong loves to play, but when he is serious, you and I have seen it. There are no outsiders here, and we all know how much he loves Yi Yang, but He would rather not be a good uncle for you, do you think he is joking with you? "
Zheng Zeyu added: "If this is all a joke, then the joke is too big."