I hate that I often get so emotional that I can't say a word and can only cry instead. But that's me. Liang Zijin can no longer be hopeless.
The only thing I can do now is to wipe my tears with my hands and try not to cry.
In the blur, I saw the familiar handsome face of Ji Guanxin, sitting on the bed. He looked at me and said, "You came all the way to me to cry? I'm not dead yet."
The word death is too heavy. I immediately became furious and said with a choked voice: "What are you talking about?"
Because I barely spoke along the way, my voice was not open, so I was crying at this time. The words came out hoarsely.
Ji Guanxin reached back and took a box of tissues and threw it at me. I reached out to catch it, then pulled out a tissue and wiped my eyes.
He said: "Don't cry when you see me. Are you depressed? Find a place to sit. We haven't seen you for so long. Do you miss me?"
He opened his mouth with a familiar cynicism. But I can't tell whether I feel relieved or more sour in my heart.
Walking to Ji Guanxin holding the tissue box. Wipe your tears. I tried to stare at him.
Ji Guanxin wears a white casual shirt on the upper body and light brown casual pants on the lower body. He does not wear a hospital gown in the hospital. Dressed up as if going shopping.
The most egregious thing is. It was the first time I saw a patient wearing a watch in hospital. I was about to say something about him, but then I took a closer look. Why does this watch look so familiar
When Ji Guanxin saw me staring at his left wrist, he rolled down his sleeve without leaving a trace, then pretended to play with the playing cards on the table and said to me casually: "Why are you here?"
As soon as I heard what he said, I guessed that Ji Guanning's phone call must not have been made by Ji Guanxin.
After sniffing, I replied to him: "I just learned that you were hospitalized here."
Ji Guanxin said: "Really? Then you are really not informed."
From the moment I walked in, the conversation between Ji Guanxin and me was like that between ordinary friends, but it was more inexplicable than ordinary friends.
I also felt uncomfortable in my heart, but it was better than him lying in bed wilted due to illness, which I really couldn't stand.
The tears had stopped, and I asked Ji Guanxin: "How is your health?"
Ji Guanxin didn't look at me. He sat on the edge of the bed, lowered his head and played with the cards in his hand, and said casually: "It's not bad, I won't die for a while."
I frowned and said aloud: "Can you stop being stubborn all the time? Are you annoyed?"
Ji Guanxin raised his head and glanced at me, raised the corners of his lips, and said in a half-joking, half-challenging tone: "Aren't you happy?"
I didn't say anything, but Ji Guanxin raised his eyebrows and said, "You came all the way here just to get angry with me, right?"
Faced with Ji Guanxin's indifference, I couldn't get angry at all.
Sighing secretly, I said helplessly: "I heard you had surgery today, why are you still playing cards with them?"
Ji Guanxin said: "Otherwise? Find someone to come over and chant sutras and Buddhas for me to ensure my surgery goes well?"
I:"… "
I didn't respond. Ji Guanxin lowered his gaze at first. After waiting for a while, he raised his eyes and looked at me. Seeing my pursed lips and red eyes, he said, "Don't cry. I can't see others crying in front of me lately. It always feels like I won't live long."
While he told me not to cry, he stabbed my heart with a knife. I really clenched my fists and gritted my teeth to hold back the tears.
Taking a deep breath, I opened my mouth and took a deep breath without worrying about anything in front of Ji Guanxin.
After a few times, I was forced to cry back. Ji Guanxin smiled, and then said: "We haven't seen you for such a long time, but you haven't changed at all, funny."
While I was trying to suppress the sourness surging in my heart, and at the same time trying to act like a normal person, I looked at Ji Guanxin and replied, "You are so funny. You dressed like this in the hospital just to hook me when we first met. How wonderful would that be?" .
I would rather Ji Guanxin remained idle, and I would rather he remained cynical.
While I was distracted, Ji Guanxin looked at me again and said, "By the way, it's your birthday today, right?"
His tone was very normal, so I had no choice but to nod.
Ji Guanxin raised his chin and said, "Go to the first drawer of the drawer over there. There is a black box inside. Take it out."
I followed Ji Guanxin's words, walked around the hospital bed and took out a black jewelry box from the drawer of the bedside table. The logo on the box was Patek Philippe.
Returning to Ji Guanxin, I handed him the box, but Ji Guanxin didn't take it. Instead, he said to me, "It's for you."
I was stunned for a moment and looked straight at him.
Ji Guanxin looked at me calmly and said, "What are you doing? As a friend, isn't it natural for me to give you a birthday gift?"
I'm sure Ji Guanxin didn't know I would come today. But this gift... He kept it in the drawer.
Maybe the look in my eyes revealed what was in my heart, and Ji Guanxin looked away hastily. Taking the box in my hand, he opened the cover and took out a pure black women's watch.
Without saying hello to me, he stretched out his hand and pulled my left wrist. He wanted to put the watch on me, but his eyes suddenly fell on the diamond ring on the ring finger of my left hand.
My arm stiffened inexplicably, and before I had time to think about it, I had already pulled my wrist away from Ji Guan's novice.
Ji Guanxin raised the corners of his lips and said with a smile: "I've already put the ring on, so soon? When will the wedding be held?"
I swallowed hard and didn't answer immediately.
Ji Guanxin took my left wrist again and put the watch on my wrist. When buttoning the button, he lowered his head and said, "Zijin, I feel relieved to see that you are doing well now."
It took a lot of effort for me to calm down, and it took a lot of effort to hold back the tears. Finally, because of Ji Guanxin's words, the high wall he built collapsed.
Tears blurred my vision in an instant, and I couldn't even see the figure of Ji Guanxin in front of me.
In a daze, Ji Guanxin's voice came: "I don't want you to know, but you are really here, and I feel happy again. At least I can give you a gift with my own hands before entering the operating room."
Tears slid down my cheeks, and it was extremely itchy. I stretched out my hand to wipe the tears from my face, and then said with extremely choked sobs: "Guan Xin, you will be fine..."
I vaguely saw Ji Guanxin's lips curling up. He smiled lightly and said, "Everyone told me that nothing would happen, but you are the only one who dares to cry in front of me."
I said with a trembling voice: "It will be okay. If I say it won't be okay, it won't be."
Ji Guanxin said: "Who do you think you are?"
I said: "I would trade ten years of my life for the success of your operation..."
I swear to God, I am a person who is afraid of death, but at this moment I say these words willingly. If a loved one of mine was facing a life or death decision, I would take the same oath.
But when I finished speaking, Ji Guanxin was furious. He excitedly swept away the cards on the table and said angrily: "Shut up!"
I cried and said: "Ji Guanxin, don't worry..."
The next second, Ji Guanxin had stood up from the bed, and he hugged me tightly in his arms. I could feel the strength of his arms, clamping my bones to the point of falling apart.
I reached out and grabbed the clothes on his body and said while crying: "Ji Guanxin, please promise me that you will come out of it well. I will wait for you to come out."
Ji Guanxin hugged me, and his fingers hooked into my hair, which made my scalp hurt. I heard him say with a trembling voice: "Zijin, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for what I said to you in Yecheng..."
I shook my head vigorously.
Ji Guanxin added: "I envy Luo Xiangdong so much. I envy that the person you fall in love with is him and not me."
I said: "I'm sorry..."
"I'm also so afraid that I will never come out after entering the operating room. In this way, I won't even be able to give you the last birthday gift."
I was so sad that I couldn't even cry.
"Zijin, thank you for coming to see me. When I see you crying for me, I know the value of my love."
I closed my eyes, my nose was stuffy, and I breathed through my mouth, but my lips kept trembling.
I knew that what Ji Guanxin once said to me would not be false.
It turns out that it was not that he gave me an empty joy, but that I gave him an empty joy.
"I'm sorry..." Apart from these three words, I don't know what else to give Ji Guanxin.
Ji Guanxin's arm holding me gradually loosened. He handed me a tissue, then lowered his gaze and said to me: "Zijin, don't say sorry to me. We fell in love freely and broke up peacefully. No one owed anything to anyone. I know Emotional matters are reluctant to come up, so I have already looked away. I wish you happiness if you and Luo Xiangdong can be together. I also told myself that if I can survive this, the moment I come out of the operating room. , I will never love you again, because you said that I am a narrow-minded person. If you don’t love me, why should I love you?”
"Zijin, you and Luo Xiangdong must be happy, otherwise you will regret missing me in the future, and I will never love you again."