After standing in front of the ICU door for a while, Luo Xiangdong's phone rang and he said hello to me. He walked away to pick it up.
Zhou Mengyi and I were the only two people left in the corridor. Zhou Mengyi looked down at the empty space in front of her and said in a daze: "I never thought you would come."
I stared at the closed door of the ICU room in ecstasy, and after a while I replied: "If I had known earlier, I wouldn't have come now."
Zhou Mengyi said: "He only recently decided to have this operation."
I said: "I know." Yesterday at the gate of the hospital. Ji Guanxin's eldest brother mentioned it.
The words fell. From the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of Zhou Mengyi next to me. The corner of her lips raised a smile that was either mocking or self-deprecating. She asked: "Then do you know why he suddenly decided to have surgery?"
My heart skipped a beat inexplicably. Ji Guanxin only said that he would never love me again if he survived. I think what he wanted was to start over, so...
"Seeing that you and Luo Xiangdong finally achieved success. He didn't cry or laugh. He didn't even mention your names. He just suddenly insisted on having an operation. Even though the doctor said the operation was very risky, no one in their family dared to sign it. Surgery risk consent form. We all said behind his back that he wanted to risk his life... "
Maybe everyone's tears had dried up, so when Zhou Mengyi said this. It's just that the voice is so low that it's hoarse. And I was extremely heartbroken. On the contrary, there was no excessive pain expression on his face.
I didn't answer. After waiting for a while, Zhou Mengyi asked me: "You have already agreed to Luo Xiangdong's proposal, why are you still here? Isn't he angry?"
He stared straight at the ICU door. I whispered back to her: "Even if Ji Guanxin and I don't become lovers, he will always be my friend and one of the most important people to me."
Zhou Mengyi said: "But he never lacks friends. Don't you know what he wants?"
Clear, how could I not be clear? only…
Emotional matters cannot be weighed by reason. Why don't I know that Ji Guanxin is good to me? But I really agree with that sentence, the person who makes me laugh is ultimately defeated by the person who makes me cry.
I didn’t reply to Zhou Mengyi’s question. A few seconds later, Zhou Mengyi asked and answered with a faint sarcasm on her face: “I don’t remember how old I was when I met Ji Guanxin, and I don’t remember when I started to like him, and then I fell in love with him, and in the end, I even lost myself. I thought that as long as I kept being nice to him and kept driving away all the women around him, sooner or later he would only have eyes for me.”
Speaking of this, Zhou Mengyi paused. I didn't look at her, but I knew she shed tears.
Taking a deep breath, she smiled and said: "He has been fooling around for so many years. Even though there are many women around me, I have never been really afraid of anyone... except you. Liang Zijin, whether you believe me or not, I used to be really scared. I don’t think Ji Guanxin will fall in love with anyone in this life. We all know that he has a heart disease, but only he knows that he may never be like a normal person, so he will not put his heart into any woman.”
"Last year ago, when he went to Liangcheng, he ran out of the hospital regardless of his health. Just because he heard that you resigned and left the Luo family, he wanted to get his wings and fly over to see you. At that time, I really I’m scared because I’ve never seen him do this to a woman.”
"He spent the New Year with you and didn't even come back home. I also wanted to go to Liangcheng for his birthday, but after he heard about it, he immediately called me and refused to allow me to show up, otherwise he would never see me again in this life. Ha... Liang Zijin, I I have known him for more than 20 years, and the friendship I have had for more than 20 years is not as good as the one I have known for one year."
Zhou Mengyi said while shedding tears, it is said that poor people must be hateful, but now this woman who once made me hate her is just a poor person who wants love but cannot get it.
We are all women, it’s not that I can’t understand it.
Zhou Mengyi opened her mouth and took a few deep breaths. After her emotions stabilized, she said with emotion: "Forget it, I thought about it. You can't force love. I used to hate you because Ji Guanxin liked you, but After I lost you, I didn’t see him liking me, but he even ignored me.”
I said: "The most important thing is persistence, but the prerequisite is that you insist on the right thing. You have waited for him for more than 20 years, which is long enough."
I didn’t say the rest, I think Zhou Mengyi also understood.
Sure enough, Zhou Mengyi said: "Before he entered the operating room this time, I secretly made a vow that as long as he can get through this safely and healthily, I will not love him or pester him anymore, and I will give him a happy life." ”
It was obviously a very sad thing, but because of Zhou Mengyi's tone of "I will let you live," I suddenly wanted to laugh. In fact, I did raise the corners of my lips.
Zhou Mengyi wiped the tears on her face with a tissue, looked at me sideways and said, "Liang Zijin, let me ask you one last question."
I didn't look at her and didn't answer.
Zhou Mengyi asked directly: "If you knew that Ji Guanxin's illness was so serious, would you still be willing to leave him?"
I:"… "
Zhou Mengyi's question is the reason why Luo Xiangdong has been hiding it from me, and it is also an assumption that I regret but dare not think about.
I asked myself, I know clearly that love is different from like. A person can like several people at the same time, but love is one-on-one.
But if I had known early on that Ji Guanxin's illness was so serious, I would have weighed the pros and cons. What would happen to him if I left him
When you are with someone, no matter whether you start or end, you must always be responsible. The more I think about it, the more I feel that Luo Xiangdong really knows me too well, so he keeps everything secret.
I was silent for a long time, and finally Zhou Mengyi said with a smile: "I finally know why he refuses to tell you about his illness. A person like him wants to save face and suffer, and is most afraid of others looking at him with pitiful eyes. , so he has been trying to live like a normal person, even crazier than a normal person. "
It felt like a huge boulder had been pressed against my heart, so heavy that I couldn't breathe.
Is this a man-made "premeditated" mistake, or is it Luo Xiangdong, not Ji Guanxin, who is destined to follow me to the end
I always love to get into trouble, and now I feel like my head is going to explode.
There was a sound of footsteps not far away. I turned my head and saw that it was Luo Xiangdong who was back. Looking at his familiar figure, the confusion in my eyes gradually dissipated, replaced by growing clarity.
Opening my lips, I whispered to Zhou Mengyi: "Don't think about assumptions anymore. After all, we can't live in the past and assumptions."
Zhou Mengyi said: "Now I just hope that he can survive well. I don't love him, and he doesn't love you."
I said: "He is so proud, how could he let himself end up alone?"
When Zhou Mengyi heard this, she slowly raised the corners of her lips and said softly: "Yes, he will not allow anyone to pity him."
Luo Xiangdong came to me. I stood up and said, "Let's go."
Luo Xiangdong looked at the expression on my face and asked, "Won't you stay for a while longer?"
I shook my head: "Let's go."
We waited until we left the hospital and we were walking on the street. I held Luo Xiangdong's hand and without any warning, said, "Xiangdong, thank you for everything you have done for me."
Luo Xiangdong turned his head and looked at me. I raised my eyes and looked back at him with a smile.
Luo Xiangdong asked: "What happened to you suddenly?"
I smiled silently, but I couldn't tell whether I was scared or grateful.
Thank you Luo Xiangdong for everything you have done for me and for all the efforts we can make together. He has done too many things behind my back that I don't know about. Different people have different opinions on good and bad, but everyone has selfish motives, and if he doesn't do it for himself, he will be punished by heaven and earth.
Now we can walk hand in hand on the road. This is fate, and it is also the result of our efforts to not give up.
In this relationship, if one of us shrinks back and gives up first, then too many things in the middle may crush us every minute.
So I am grateful to Luo Xiangdong, and to myself for my perseverance, to fate for allowing us to meet, and to fate for allowing us to depend on each other.
Originally, I wanted to wait until Ji Guanxin woke up before giving another bracelet to Luo Xiangdong, but now I was so excited that I dragged him directly to the jewelry store I went to yesterday.
I am a road addict, and I almost confused Luo Xiangdong with all the twists and turns. In the end, it was the jewelry store called 'Yuan' that he took me to.
I opened the door and walked in. I looked up and saw the young girl standing at the counter. She was not the boss from yesterday, but another beautiful and tall beauty. She looked young, probably under twenty years old.
She said "Welcome" to us in Japanese. I smiled and nodded, and then asked her in Japanese: "Is the boss here?"
She said, "No, she has classes at school today. Is there anything I can do to help you?"
I took out the stones from the bag and said aloud: "I want to make a bracelet. It's the stone bracelet I bought here yesterday. It was said to be made of stones picked up from Todaiji Temple. I want another one. May I ask? Can I find someone to help me do it now?”
The girl looked at me with a bit of surprise in her eyes, and then asked aloud: "Yesterday, my friend called me and said that someone wanted to buy that bracelet. Is it you?"
Hearing this, I couldn't help but stare slightly and said, "Are you the one who makes the bracelets?"
The girl smiled, nodded and replied, "It's me. I happened to go to Todaiji Temple yesterday, so I wasn't here."
I said, "I went to Todaiji Temple yesterday, but I didn't see you."
She said: "We are really destined."
I heard that her Japanese pronunciation was not very proficient, so I asked tentatively: "Are you Chinese?"
She immediately replied in Chinese: "I am Chinese."
As a result, we started talking in Chinese. She said her name was Luyao, an exchange student recommended by her country to study in Japan. She had only been here for a year and was working and studying at the same time.
She asked me: "Is your sick friend in Japan feeling better?"
I sighed softly: "Still in the ICU."
Luyao smiled and said: "Don't worry, we all sincerely wish him a speedy recovery. He will definitely be able to overcome the difficulties."
I said, "Thank you for your kind words."